Ok, I swear this is my last time for today, but I just wanted to get this down so I can remember it later when I'm scouring through my blogs. Friends are weird. They are the weirdest things in the world. You can never figure them out, ya know? I think every human is the same deep within. They just care about themselves. Seriously, I'm sure there are really nice people out there that are caring only for others, but in the end, it's you who you want to protect. The past year I learned a lot about me, my friends, and my life. I can't take things for granted anymore. People change. I have to accept that. People act the way they want to, when they want to. I have to accept that too. The only thing that I can do is the cope with it, maybe manage to try and influence them a bit, but that's about it. In the end, everyone is going to have to adapt and change along with everyone to get along. I have changed a lot in the past couple years and I can tell that. No one has to tell me that. I know how I've changed. A lot of my views have also changed. I think about stuff differently now. What I used to think and know doesn't comply anymore. Like I said in the earlier blogs some 3-4 months ago. Nothing is a constant in this world. Wake up next morning the you might now see the sun come up, or the sun go down. Fuck, you might not even wake up the next morning. You just can't tell the future. You can only create it. But yeah, I just wanted to let that rant out before I lost it. I'm getting ready to leave now. Have yourself a great night.

I'm sitting here munching on chocolate chips despite the fact that I hate chocolate. For some reason it's good and there's nothing else to eat in the house. Anyway, update for this weekend: Ashley is coming down to Ft. Collins since she has the weekend off, so I'm going to hand out with her. Maybe I'll get her that b-day present while she's here. I guess the package that Rod and I sent with a lot of stuff from the $1 store got there today and Laura was a bitch about it and Ashley got nothing. *shakes head* I'm going to have to have to a talk with her about this. Tomorrow being a stupid ass holiday, I can't go to work. I hate holidays, especially this one. Why the fuck would you want to shoot fireworks into the air for a few short-lived seconds and celebrate what happend hundreds of years ago...people dwell on the past too much, I swear. Anyway, I am going to work on Friday, after careful consideration. I was going to take it off, but I thought, heck, I don't do anything anyway. Might as well get paid for it. So, I'm still looking for that second job and I just finished watering the backyard. Woohoo. Well, that's it for now. I'm going to the hot tub later and hanging out with Rod, who I'm sure is just going to smoke...fricken pothead. Lates.

I'm furious. I got a letter from the financial aid office and I went over there promptly to give them what they requested. Next? Here this. They want this one form that I gave to them about 3-4 weeks ago and yes they did go check to see if they had it, but of course not. Fucking assholes. I hate the people who can't fucking do their job. I sent in the forms, so put them away in a secure place so it can be found later. I called my Mom and asked her to fax the form again to the financial aid office and if they lose it this fucking time, I'm going to take some action. I'm tired of people who can't do their jobs. The lady that helped me wasn't doing shit when I got up to the counter and it took at least a minute for her to respond and say "Hi, can I help you?" Yes you can fucking help me. No, wait sorry, I was just coming here to lean up again the fucking counter you piece of shit. I'm sorry to bother you and waste you "work" time about my problems, but the due date for tuition is about a month away, so I'd appreciate it if you can take about 2 minutes of your time and help me out. Go have a break afterwards or later in the night, but not when I get to the counter. You hear me? I almost chose to forget about this financial aid thing and pay for the tuition my god damn self. Hell, it'd be easier and less irritating for me AND it won't bother them with more work. Fucking shitheads. If they give me anymore trouble, they're going to get a letter so nasty that once it gets through to the big boss having fun and relaxing somewhere in the Bahamas, they'll be giving me scholarships left and right.