What am I supposed to do with my life? I don't know. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know where to do what I don't know what to do. I have no answers, but I like to live in the present. I worry only the important things when it comes to the future, like paying bills, rent, etc. Not education, work, what I'll be doing in 5 months. I just don't let it get to me. Now, that could be a downfall in my personality, but hey, that's how I live. Spontaneity is bliss...unless you travel to Japan and have nowhere to stay (it's a long story...it's really for 3-4 people actually). I think I may stay at Front Range and get an Associate of Arts degree...or, wait, maybe I'll go back to CSU...but wait, maybe I'll take online college courses and graduate that way. I have no idea. Let me tell you exactly all that's in my head right now, at this moment: Why can't I get a bike, it's hot in here, I miss Laura, I wonder if she's coming down this weekend, I wonder how much I'll have after I pay my ridiculous credit card bill, should I cut up my credit card bill, yes I think I should cut up my credit card bill, what should I do tomorrow, and I can't wait until I get paid Friday. So, the farthest day away that I'm thinking about is pretty much the end of the week. I was looking at some of the alumni list at my old H.S. and I came across this one kid I knew, pretty damn smart kid, going to Stanford and all. I remember when we used to hang out. We both came very different paths. I'm sure he'll be successful (probably) in the future. But is he a better person than me? Of course, it's very opiniated...I don't know. Whatever. I'll have something in the future and so will he. Let's just hope for my sake that I'm happy and doing something I like. I've been wanting to travel lately too. Mostly to England. I want to be in another continent. Just somewhere out of this state, but yeah, England would be nice. I want to take Laura too. Wouldn't that be even nicer. I've decided on a lot of things earlier today. I am determined to go through with it all this time though. The first thing's first. Pay off the credit card bill. After I put this rent check in the bank tomorrow and I get paid on Friday, I'm going to sit down, balance everything out, pay off all current bills, credit card, etc. and I'm going to save up. Save up like a madman. I don't know what for, but I'm sure maybe in the vicinity of Christmas time, I'll have enough money to do SOMETHING. I'll decide then what I'll do with the money, but yeah, I'm going to save up and up and up.

Seems like the fucking world is against me and getting bikes. Damn, I didn't get one and you know what? I realized something. Too personal to say even on this blog, but yeah, I have a new outlook on life now. Maybe I'll trickle out the details as the weeks and months pass by, but stay tuned. Today was a very stressful day at work. Don't even want to talk about it. Anyway, later.