Today was a hot day. It felt hotter sinceI was helping TJ move, but it wasn't that bad. Just walking up and down. Everything fit pretty much into one truckload. Both of us got a load of big gulps (that sounds nasty doesn't it?) at the gas station. I almost died because the Mug rootbeer went down the wrong tube and TJ explained because it was because of the bad root beer brand.

I found a cool job that might be, well, cool if I got it. It's a recreation maintenance worker for the Parks and Rec division in Laramie. I would be cool with that job...combine what I liked about working at the golf course with my recreation degree. And the cool part is that it pays $25K-$35K a year...FUCK THAT'S A LOT!!! Haha. I would be content, though, really. I wouldn't know what to do with $35K a year. That's like almost $3K a month...I survive on wayyyy less than that right now. Shit, I'd be rich. Back when I had the steady job and going to school, I was getting, oh $750 a month. Imagine, 4 times as much money coming in.

Which brings me to the issue that people I know are "broke" when they're getting paid upwards of 6 figures. I know I can't put myself in that situation and all the expenses, but come on, say with $100,000 flat per year, that's plenty to do absolutely anything. I guess it's not though for some. I don't know get...they must be bad with money or something.

I'm about to sleep soon. I'm tired and another week of work is starting. Though I don't see much of it, I'm going to see a deposit in my checking account on Friday. w00t! By the way, if you're bored, head to http://www.woot.com for some interesting things. Yeah, small paycheck, but a paycheck nonetheless. Something I haven't seen in 2 months I guess.

I'm gonna do a few more internet stuff and I'm off to bed. Later gator.

P.S. Laura gets up here on Wednesday and staying until she moves up on Sunday. I guess we are helping, but yeah, I can't believe the Summer is coming to a close. It wasn't a bad Summer I guess. I've had worse. This P.S. is becoming like another mini blog! Yeah, Friday we are hoping to get a camp site where my boss goes every now and then. Apparently it's right by the lake and it's a great place, so. If we can get a reservation at a good or fairly good spot, we'll go camping. I might get some wood from TJ's place, though. I was sitting there thinking about it for the longest time today. Now I want it. But I'm sure when I'm there, I probably won't. Oh well. Ok, now I'm really done.

So I finally called the dentist to see what was up with my tooth. They were gone for the day...apparently they leave earlier on Fridays. Hopefully they call me back with a good answer.

I was looking in the pantry for something to snack on (yes, I look there even though I KNOW there's nothing there) and I found this little white bag...what was it? It was the coffee flavored chocolates that Laura brought up last Thursday. At that moment, among many moments of course, I got that feeling that I am lucky to have Laura with me in my life and how she does these little things that I notice. This is a precursor to what I may discuss soon, but the simple fact that it REALLY is the "little things that matter" in life. It's the small talk between friends, the silly things between friends (yup, both smart and dumb!), and just knowing the fact that some friends will really always be there when you need them, or even if you don't need them. Big things in life for me? H.S. graduation. Big deal. College graduation? Couldn't have done it myself obviously. I don't know...I just don't seem to remember the big things.

At the same time, everyday things, though they are a little, don't mean a lot either. It's gotta be a small thing, but out of the ordinar enough that I remember them. I won't write examples, but that's what life is.

At this point, I like to use the rocks in the jar analogy.

The jar is life. You fill the jar with big rocks, signifying big events in life...life isn't full yet. You then add smaller rocks, smaller, yet still significant events in life. Shake up the jar and you get a little fuller life. However, with these you can never fill the jar. Finally, you take sand, tiny pebbles in the big scheme of things, but in the end, these are what fill yours jar and your life. Without them, you can't live life to its fullest.

I'm a dork, but that's just a great analogy!

So strangely, my teeth is starting to get sort of sore again...I'm not sure if I should be worried about it or not...I'll wait a couple of days and if it doesn't go away, I might say something the next time I'm at the dentist doing my final crown procedure.

I'm so broke right now...I have $45 on the credit card LEFT. That's right. LEFT. I get paid in 2 weeks, but that's gonna go toward some stuff first. Hopefully I can pay down my credit card a bit before then.

TJ's gonna be leaving for the islands in a couple of weeks. Time flies! I sort of remember when he first came down to the Sumac house with the camp gang. That was what, 3 years ago? That's crazy. A lot has certainly happened during that time.

Um, not really much to say...I had another full 8-hour day at work today with no lunch break. I was working on this programming thing and JUST COULDN'T FIGURE IT OUT. I got pissed. I'm working with one of my co-workers on this and she's great help, but man, I can't stand it. I hope they don't find this blog of mine!

I'm gonna eat something and then head to bed...the routine is sort of back. 7:30 to 3:30...be tired, go to sleep at 10 or 11...wake up at 6:30, start the coffee maker (to make hot water), get in the shower, get out, get ready, make some hot chocolate, head to work right at 7:12 from my house and I get there around 7:30, plus or minus a couple of minutes.

Laters.

Haven't written in a while, so I thought I do. Laura is in the living room watching Star Wars right now. I had a long day of work today...got there at 7:30, lunch with Laura from 1:30 to 2:30 and then until 5 or so. I was actually into what I was doing too, maybe that's why time went by fast.

This past weekend, TJ, Laura and I went camping at RMNP at Morraine Park. It was fun. Kids camping next to us were loud in the morning, but other than that, it was fun. We then went to see Bear Lake to see how it was, since it was my first time seeing it. It wasn't so bad, but yeah, the bad part was that we got locked out of my car in the parking lot...with the car running. I didn't hear my turbo timer and yeah, so, we called AAA and Laura had a free tow on their family account, so thanks to that, it was open and all that within 40 minutes or so and free. Thanks Laura and company.

I am calculating my budget right now...not looking good, but it ain't all that bad I guess...I won't have any spending money, and say good bye to my new computer, but oh well. Life moves on in ways you don't want sometimes.

Anyway, I've got some stuff let to do...then I'm gonna hang out with Laura tonight.

See ya laters.

#327.

I'm writing this from my laptop at my old house in Niwot, listening to some anime music...okay, that sounds dorky, but this one's awesome, right up there with climactic (climatic?) scores found in LOTR and Star Wars and stuff.

Nothing of big news to note. Laura gets back tomorrow, so I can't wait for that. I'm still not sure if she'll be up Thursday or Friday. I've actually worked 8-hours shifts at work the last 3 days (or the first 3 days if you want to look at it). Tomorrow is another story. I'll be working from probably 12 or 1 to 4 or 5. We'll see which comes first. Friday is my first end of the week timesheet time. I should get it signed and stuff Friday. It's going to be, what, 35-36 hours? That's so much! lol. My next paycheck is going to be AWESOME. I haven't had that much money in a while.

So, I am assuming that Aramark isn't going to pay me the 3 training days that I was there. The thing is, I'm probably not going to call since it's like sticking it up their ass asking to get paid when I quit, but who cares? I sure as hell don't. I SHOULD have gotten paid $120 or something after room and board and taxes are taken away, but I probably won't see that.

Gosh, it's 9:38pm and I'm not tired, but it's too early to sleep! I might head upstairs and see what I can scrounge up to eat, but anyway, I might have some great news tomorrow night.

Stay tuned.

New facelift for my website: http://www.csuconnection.com

I sort of have a loyal following back...in the tens, lol. Hopefully I can get it back to what I had it at a few months ago.

Went to Jim's Wings today. TJ called to see if I wanted to go, but I opted out first since I really have no money (i.e. $80 for the next 3 weeks for everything I need)...but then he offered to pay. I felt bad, but I went and got 5 wings. Thanks goes to him.

I still don't know when Laura's coming back, but tomorrow I'm not heading to RMNP. This weekend will be fun. I had an argument with Laura about the price of a U-Haul truck, one-way, renting from here in Fort Collins and dropping it off in Laramie...she said she called and the guy said almost $200...I call BS, but Laura doesn't believe me and says what the guys says is true. I say it can't be that much. So I hop online and run a quote...one-way from FoCO. How much? $96 and that includes 91 free miles. Bam, I win!

Anyway, gonna get Pizza Hut with TJ tomorrow. I will also see my old supervisor as well. Hope he's well. I'm gonna head to bed soon. I was TIRED today. I went to sleep around 12, got up around 6:20 or so. I'm almost getting in the hang of it.

Well my first day of work went ok...pretty much what it was before I left, but that's ok. It seems though that my boss is going to really try and make this "internship" worth while, so that's good. On Wednesday I'm going up to RMNP to do some volunteer work planting plants/trees and pulling weeds and the sort. Should be fun. I actually get paid so it's not volunteering, but yeah.

I also want to get a part-time job, another one (I think I already wrote that), either that or volunteer at the parks and recreation for the city. It would be fun to coach little kids or do stuff with them.

It's weird because it's days like these that I feel good about life and stuff, like I wrote before, even though things are sort of rough in terms of money right now. Days will go by, I guess. My credit card is at like $1720 of $1800...$80 left and I don't get paid until probably the 3rd Friday from now....THAT SUCKS! We'll see what happens. I'll chronicle my "living with no money" here in the blog.

Laura went to a Cardinals game and she text messaged me saying she met Ozzie Smith. lol. She'll be here Friday! Also, I was going to head to Bandimere on Wednesday, but I won't be because I am going to be in RMNP. Oh well.

I'm listening to a new, good single from Lifehouse right now (actually, it's weird how I say new since it's on there latest CD). I'll copy and paste the lyrics for you, Laura. :)

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"You And Me"

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
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Well, that took up a lot of space without spending much time. Today's going to be a song ripping day. I'll write again soon!

Okay, the long post.

Anyway, do you ever sometimes get the feeling that all is going to be all right, even if they aren't going to be? Well, yeah, I sort of felt that today. Like my teeth. It's gonna get fixed, yeah, but it costs a buttload...but I don't give a damn! That thought was really hard to write out...so don't even bother trying to decipher what I was trying to write.

My laptop is for the most part done tweaking. Just need to add a few more programs, Word, Dreamweaver, and Photoshop and it's done. Writing and using this laptop reminds me of when Laura and I were at the Sumac house. Yup.

What else. Nothing really, even though I said I would write a big blog.

Here is my proposed routine for the internship time period (if I get the schedule I want)

1. Wake up at 5:30am
2. Take a shower. Get the coffee going before the shower.
3. Out of shower at 5:50am.
4. Read up on news, e-mail, etc.
5. Leave for work around 6:00am.
6. Arrive at 6:15am.
7. Leave at 2:15pm.

I want to maybe get a second job, like afternoon/late afternoon. Heck, even right after my job would be ok. I would love to do newspaper routes, since it's like $400 or so a month, but I can't seem to readily find them like I did back in like 2001/2002.

Well, I just lost the urge to keep writing. See ya laters.

This is my first post from my SCREAMING new (old) computer that I traded with my Mom today. Screaming as in not fast, but that because the fan is always on now since it's not an Intel Centrino processor. Oh well. She seemed to like the new laptop, so that's good.

What's been going on? Nothing much. Tomorrow I start work, almost exactly 2 months to the day that I quit. Seems like just yesterday. I'm not going to make this a long one, but I'm going to write a longer one tonight, but I just wanted to test everything out on this laptop, since it's going to be Laura's in a couple of months.

Laters.

So, what to do tonight? I don't feel like going cruisin', but that could change. I make decisions on the fly and if anybody knows best, Laura knows that I can change minds AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE, literally. Like one time, we said, let's go to Olive Garden. We were driving, as we were pulling into the parking lot, I saw that it was sort of crowded. Bam, I lost my interest to go there...and we didn't end up going there...I forget what we did...come home? Anyway, I just want to thank Laura for putting up with some of the stupid things I do sometimes.

Went to McDonald's with TJ today. We were talking a bit about the movie last night but nothing too important. We were trying to figure out what kind of restaurant was next to McDonald's. Turns out it was Mediterranean (or however you spell it). Looked good though. I love Greek good but I don't even know if Greek should be capitalized in this sentence. But yeah, like Renzios in the mall? It's awesome. The gyros are great and the fries are the best I've had in this city.

But yeah, after seeing that movie last night, I sort of want to go visit California again. I don't know if I ever want to live there again, due to a lot of different reasons, I would definitely like to visit. And I should because if I ask my brother, he'll get me a ticket with his miles for sure since he's been wanting me to come out for months and months. Since he lives sooo close to Beverly Hills, it's interesting when we head out to town to eat or go watch a movie and then get burgers at this small little burger joint that sits in like a median sort of thing. It's like, they pack so much stuff, people, restaurants, and yeah, porn stores in that city. There are more adult dance clubs per street than anywhere else I swear...well, that I've been to.

I would like to visit Little Tokyo again and see some ollllld friends...come to think of it, I wonder if they're even alive? Like the dessert restaurant that we are good friends with. The owners were pretty old when I was a kid. Makes you wonder if they left the estalishment to their kids or something.

I sometimes wonder what my past is doing, if that makes any sense. Like, I wrote before, I sent like 7 letters to my old middle school friends. No answer. One came back returned. But the rest? Either they didn't care to write back (which would make them a bitch, really) or some crazy freak received it, opened the envelope, and is now hunting me down.

One last thing before I go do nothing. The last couple of days I've been trying to keep my cell phone off...it's sort of a weird, calm, relaxing feeling. Everyone should try it sometime if you have a cell phone. I mean, it's amazing how much the cell phone is tangled into our lives. Just to not hear a ringing sometimes can make you very relaxed. I'm sure there are studies or something done where people are conditioned to get in a bad mood at the sound of a ringing phone, or something.

Well, that's it. And yeah, I just read TJ's blog and yes, the people next to him were fucking loud. I was about to kill them and their relatives...really.

Well that didn't last long!

I would write a movie review on Crash, that I just watched, but I want Laura to go see it too, so. I'll hold off on it.

Great movie though.

Unfortunately, this blog is probably going to be my last one until Sunday at least (well, probably not, but hey) since I am pretty much done with reformatting this laptop with a fresh new install of Windows and pretty much factory fresh as it will be traded with my Mom's old (my old) laptop. I'll miss this one for sure, since it's probably a bit faster than my old one and the fact that my old one isn't widescreen and the CPU runs hotter than this, meaning the fan is always on. But yeah, it'll work out.

The good news??!!?!?!! I start my old job on Monday. Hell yeah. Finally. There are some things, though, like they were only able to secure me 370 hours of the 400 hours as pay, but hell, that's ok with me. That's 370 hours that I wouldn't have had. They are paying me my old hourly wage at $11.00/hour, so about $9.50 real money.

I just realized, I wonder if this is going to go into the PERA account? I don't think so, since I'm a student at CSU. I thought I could make millions, haha.

Tomorrow TJ and I are getting Pizza Hut, I think. I don't have MSN installed on this machine, but I'm gonna just use the web messenger. Pretty handy for those that don't want to install it completely. I'm getting this laptop ready for my Mom's use, so there's no high-tech stuff on it. Just a good ol' internet surfin' laptop, although this setup is way too overkill for just that. She'll watch movies and stuff though and the fact that I can hook a TV up to this will be good, although I've yet to test that out. I'm doing that tonight.

What else. Today was and is still damn hot, but it seems like it's going to rain like a mother fucker. It's Thursday isn't it? TJ has his soccer thing tonight. I wonder if they'll play in the rain? It looks like it'll rain in a couple of hours. A chance of cancellation isn't out of the question.

My tooth is bothering me more these days. Like, not bothering like hurting, but just annoying and I can feel that something's wrong in that area, if you know what I mean.

I need to budget out my paychecks REALLY well if I want to avoid this no job thing again. I'm gonna start looking for a job way before the end of this thing. I hope that I can get a good grade on this 5-credit course...A 5-credit A would help me a lot, but since I had one stupid B last semester, my GPA will be like 2.99 or something ridiculous...I should apply for more credits, but oh well. I think I did good enough to raise it that much from a 1.3!!

I'm gonna go watch another movie now. I just watched parts of Cast Away.

Laters.

I'm gonna head to bed, but man, this blogger thing is getting to the point where it's like an addiction when you have nothing to do. Damn! I think I'm on record pace to write more than I've written in 3 years in 1 year.

Anyway, I just wanted to say music is awesome. I thank all those who write and sing songs and make music because they love what they do...not those sell outs who do it just for the money...you know who you are. There are so many great bands on free download sites such as music.download.com that I can't believe it. I know Laura knows what I'm talking about because I made a CD with mostly these guys. They're just as good and most of the time they're better than the mainstream. Damn media gets a hold of them and it just becomes a money making opportunity for the studios.

Oh well, that's how the world runs I guess.

I'll talk to ya later.

If you're ever bored, check out www.engrish.com...it's the funniest place.

Like this image that is attached...so funny.

I just had a personal thought. I think I rely too much on opinions and reviews and ratings and stuff. Like for things like laptops, desktops, movies, restaurants, pretty much anything that it's new I'm trying.

I think it's important to consider that the product or service that you're getting doesn't have to be perfect, but if it's perfect for you (lol, sort of a line from Good Will Hunting). Like, for example, my web hosting is Powweb.com. SOOO many people say they suck and what not. I've been with them for over 2 years now and it's been great. It's just weird that a lot of people take others' opinions and stuff, like, not like it 's bad, since it's a way to get a taste of what's coming, but you know what I mean. I think I'm going to start taking more leaps in terms of buying and experiencing things even though I heard bad reviews or something.

I guess it really does goes to show that whatever the topic, it's different for everyone.

I'm just killing some time until my car video download is finishing up. About 10 minutes, which is just enough time for a good blog.

Went to A&W and to Starbucks tonight with TJ and talked for a couple of hours. It was good. Just stuff about what's going on, what's been going on, and what's going to happen. The usual. Haha.

Laura is leaving tomorrow to go to St. Louis for a bit over a week. And then she comes up here for a couple of days. I can't wait for that. I miss her a lot! I think we were planning something like going to Estes Park or something and getting a place to stay or even camp since we're broke, but yeah, that should be fun. I haven't been with her alone for a while. This Summer has slowly crept along, although it doesn't feel like it to me. I mean, what, 2 months ago already I was in Alaska. Now it's mid July. Crazy.

No word from my boss YET. I need it quick man...if this happens to fall through for whatever reason, I have to dip into my tuition money to pay for a month or so of rent. At least to get me by. I mean, man. I don't even want to think about it!

And then I was thinking about the rest of my life and how Laura and I want to travel. I don't think we even need a house, well, okay, maybe a small house to come back to every once and a while, but we want to travel a lot. Some of the places that we want to visit are Tibet, the Great Wall of China, Easter Island, Oak Island, Madagascar, Moorea, Stonehenge, Alaska/Denali, and Egypt. There are other places I'm sure, but those are the top ones for sure. That would be so fun. I love going to places that have meaning, mysterious or otherwise...like, take the US...it really doesn't have a place with big meaning, you know? I mean, yeah, it does, but you know what I mean. Pyramids, the Moai, there isn't a "mysterious" place in the US, aside from Area 51 and stuff. The US is such a young country that it doesn't have the great history that we like, like Rome and Paris. Their history is sooo much cooler than ours. Japan too.

90% done with the download. It was a huge file too. But anyway, I wish Laura a safe and fun trip and I can't wait to see ya when you get back and hopefully I'll be working by then so I can buy something for you. Haha.

Laters.

I'm bored again. My boss is contacting CSU about what they can do for me in terms of hiring me back...I guess that's a start.

I'm trying out Picasa from Google. http://picasa.google.com/

This thing is amazing if you like to deal with photos and stuff and organizing them on your computer. Right now it's searching my entire computer for pictures and organizing them for me. It's pretty sweet if you have a lot of pictures and sometimes it'll find pictures that you never thought you had!

Google is awesome once again.

1. My old junior high school

2. Recreation/pool center - used to swim there and took field trips there

3. Elementary school where I and a few others used to volunteer

4. Best friend's house

5. My house

6. My elementary school

7. My brother's best friend's house, went to school with his little brother

The circled building in the middle image was where my sister worked for a bit and our family were great friends with the owners. We got a lot of desserts there and even a few years ago when we visited, they remembered us, naturally, but yeah...well, IRONICALLY, 2 stores down to the right in that same building was where my Dad worked, a golf/tennis shop. I hung out there a few times too and that's where I got my first clubs. Weird how everything is occuring in a small radius.

The last picture is my japanese school (the big building with the parking lot, duh). Had the festivals in the parking lot and had garage sales in that little front grass area.

I was just watching the trailer for The Talented Mr. Ripley since I've always wanted to see it. I always remember that line where he says:

"I've always thought it would be better if I was a fake somebody than a real nobody."

How true do you think that is? Interesting little quote huh?

I just thought I'd post a picture that I took when Laura and Ellen and I went to Horsetooth reservoir. :)

Recently, like the last 2 days, I've been messaging Amanda, Chris' old gf on www.hi5.com since she is on there. You should check to see if you have any friends that are on there. I found out that I have a few that I didn't even know about! Just like www.classmates.com I guess.

Anyway, she lives really close to Laura's sister's place and I guess she used to deliver pizza around the area too. She's even thinking about moving near there! It's crazy.

Do you ever wonder if your friends are interconnected indefinitely? Like no matter what happens, in the end they are pulled toward each other? Maybe, I don't think it's true, I just thought it would be a cool theory to write here. Haha.

So the last couple of days I had some trouble with FireFox and I finally managed to delete everything and install it again and voila, it's healed. The good news it that now the Blogger shows the correct number of blogs that I've written. This will be my 311th blog. That's cool to know since it was pegged at 254 for the longest time.

I thought I would have word from my boss by today, but not yet, unfortuntately. Dammit!

I made cake last night and I am eating it like a meal since I'm too broke for real food. Haha, it's like going to McDonald's or another fast food restaurant is like "splurging" now. Makes me wonder what people and families with real problems feel like everyday day.

I was looking at some of the new movies coming out for 2006 and there's an impressive line-up, at least for me personally. Here are some of the ones that caught my eye which are guaranteed 2006 releases:

Mission: Impossible 3 - I may like this, I don't know, 2 was worse than 1, so yeah
X-Men 3 - I can't wait for this one!
Cars - Not really into animated movies
Pirates Of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest - A sure watch
The Da Vinci Code - Have you read my Da Vinci-reading blog???
Superman Returns - Nope
Ice Age 2 - Perhaps it will be good, dunno what else they can do
The Italian Job 2 - I will watch this

So that's my next year's picks. This year, I'm probably only waiting for Chronicles of Narnia and Night Watch (an awesome looking trilogy).

What am I gonna do today? I don't know. It's so boring. I want to work, but now I don't think I can push my employment. Argh. Bad situation.

Anyway, hopefully I'll report back soon with some good news...luck hasn't been with me lately.

Check out all the Price is Right games...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Price_is_Right_pricing_games

Man, I'm so bored. And it's hot out. I think I'm gonna help TJ consolidate some of his computer parts into one, but I'm not sure yet.

I'm starting to finalize what parts I'm going to buy for my next new computer. It should be pretty good and it will last for a couple of years at least. As long as it plays World of Warcraft, I'm happy!

EDIT: Ha, I just cut my own hair, lol

I'll just keep adding to this one.

A website that I frequent (and a very good website in my opinion) posted a couple of articles. Here is the original:

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/7/3/491/18474

Some girl is missing. This guy writes about how much coverage this girl is getting and all that and that he doesn't give a fuck.

Here is all the hate mail that the site/he got:

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/7/8/141115/2706

So, back to the article. Personally, I don't think I've really read or heard about this girl. Maybe a glimpse on Snopes or something. Anything, is it bad that I sort of agree with that guy that wrote the article? I mean really, why is she getting so much attention, and not other pressing issues? Sure, a life is a life, but how is hers more important than other missing children? Is it the money involved in the background? There is a website that says there's a $150,000 reward for information. WTF??? They must be pretty damn rich. Is she because she's white? Because she's slightly attractive? Why send a fucking Navy dive team to look for her? I also read somewhere that Holland is sending fighter jets to search for her!??! WTF!??! I doubt the media would give a fuck if it was another race. Frankly, I haven't seen the media cover an ugly, Mexican girl or boy before (no offense), at least not at this kind of level. I mean come on, just like Jon Benet...she was just another girl like any other, like my niece, for instance. Who fucking cares if she was a "talented", pretty girl. Why so much coverage? I think the values of the US and the US media are just not in the right place these days.

Here is another article that state a similar thought:

http://newsobserver.com/news/story/2578582p-9013209c.html

Anyway, I think I'm done with this rant. From the pictures I saw of her mother and father, they look like snobs who only care about one thing right now. :/

Let's do a quick (well maybe not depending on how fast I can type) blog. Went cruising tonight. It was more fun than normal. Lot more people and there were some people there that I haven't seen in a long time. One of the people that were there was Kellie. Yup, the first person I met from when I started the forums. Haha, we're good friends and all. It was nice to catch up. Met some other people...and then this fucking cocky, idiot guy came and I instantly didn't like him. We went for a lap and the best thing happened. He got pulled over. Fuck yeah, but it wasn't a ticket, just a warning. Ticket would have been better but oh well. That's about all tonight. Saw another good friend of mine. His girl is 4 months pregnant and he's all getting excited about the baby boy. It was just fun to chat about that kind of stuff (is that weird???). I guess it's kicking really hard already and we're like, yeah, he's just getting ready to work on cars! (He works on cars too) I dunno. At that point it felt like "grown up talk", if that makes any sense. We don't talk about school or anything. He talked about his new job, asked how my car was, I asked how his car was, but we're all busy paying bills, taking care of ourselves and the people we hang out with and care for. Yeah, it was just mature talk, lol.

So yeah, my old boss said she talked to the big boss and he said it was fine to hire me back for the internship. Good thing I had good relations with both! I e-mailed back yesterday, but I think it was too late since she might have left the office. She has Fridays off, so hopefully Monday I'll get an e-mail back and I can start next week.

Ahhhhh, money...wait, I'm assuming, but I hope I get paid the same amount!??! Either way, I don't care. I'm pretty much pushing the limits of my budget already. A few more days and I REALLY can't pay ANYTHING. My credit card is $1700/$1800 and although I have a grand in the checking account, that's for tuition. This is probably the closest call I've had to being homeless! lol

Well, other than that, pretty uneventful day, besides eating lunch at Pizza Casbah, where TJ and I saw a lucky kid being nanny-ed by a hot girl or could have been his mom, who knows.

Next week I'm going to swing by my Mom's place and give her my laptop and get my old one back. This one's a lot better, like I said, so I'm just switching so she has the better one. The least I can do.

My tooth was overly annoying today, like I felt it more...I gotta get it fixed soon. Really soon. The thing that sucks is that I'm already budgeting out my paychecks from when I start working. Basically it's already gone, if you know what I mean.

Say I get paid my old wage of $11/hr, in reality really $9.50/hr. 400 hours times $9.50 is $3800 total. That is until mi September or so. So, how am I going to allocate this? I don't know. I have a few main bills to pay. Car insurance starting August @ $125 or so for 4 months, $75 for phone bill for each month (yes, if you're wondering why I'm paying so damn much, I pay for my Mom's too), credit card is at $1700 and rent at $330/month with $80 or so in utilities every month. I get say $700 a paycheck, rounded down. It seems it's do-able and it is, but man, I just can't buy what I want, you know. I want a new computer, but that'll probably wait a month or two. I want to primarily get this credit card down to at least half and my fucking teeth fixed, which my Mom might help out, which would be good. After that, I need to find yet another job, like a real one to start my career in! That's scary if you think about it.

I think on that note, I'm going to take off and head to sleep. I'm tired.

Laters all.

Wow, so I just had a rush of old time memories. I was playing with Google Earth (of course) and I was looking up where I went to Japanese school on Saturdays from 9-12:30. Man, I can see the McDonald's that my Mom and I would go to before going to school and her dropping me off. She would go to L.A. to Little Tokyo for the time that I was in school. Come to think of it, I can't believe she did that every Saturday. I don't think I can keep myself busy for 3.5 hours. Really. I think a couple of times she went home, which was incredible because it took about 30-40 minutes to get there. I now realize how much work it was to take me there and pick me up, all while I just sat in class, had recess and didn't really challenge me, since I started at elementary up through junior high-level japanese. I can't thank her enough. I wish I could with the lottery so I can give some money back to her. The least I can do while I will always be in debt. We would sometimes even go to Little Tokyo AFTER my school, so I have no idea what she did during the time I was at school. Sometimes I wish I would have known a few more things than I did while I was a kid, like what went on and stuff. Things like how it was so that I had so much fun. What it took my parents to give me the life I had.

Back to the schooling thing, it was cake. Hell, I already spoke it pretty good. I just had to learn some writing and reading. Cake I tell ya. Anyway, more memories. The center would have annual festivals and stuff. That was FUN. I would volunteer to run some of the booths and stuff. Man, I just can't express this in writing. It was fun. Each year it switched off from a festival to a sports/game event thingy. The festival was the best, though. Lots of people came, mostly japanese and play games, watch shows, go through vendors and booths and such. It was from like early afternoon until sundown. Man, I can just put myself in that time.

These are the times when I wish a time machine existed. Not to go back, get rich, mess up the current timeline or anything, but to just "invisibly" relive my childhood and see my old friends again. Perhaps in the future.

And then again, the thing is, I sent about 7-8 letters to my old friends that I found their addresses online. One came back saying there was no person of that name and the others haven't written back. I wrote them letters, yeah, but come on, it was like a month ago. At least write back, e-mail or call or something. These were good friends too (or so I thought, if you want to reference one of my older blogs). One of them was my best friend through elementary and junior high. The last I saw him was like, 3 years ago I think when I was in California.

I don't know, I always thought that some, at least a couple, of my friends would keep in touch you know. I wonder how many actually think what I'm thinking now? Do they even remember me? Mysteries of our lives huh?

I'll just end with a few more "I wonder..." questions. I wonder what my dad is doing right now? I wonder what my middle school best friend is doing? I wonder what all my other friends are doing? I wonder...if my life is the best that I've been able to lead? I think so. Despite the what ifs of my life, if I could do it over again, I would and even if I had prior knowledge, I wouldn't change a thing. Who knows what a small change during my elementary school years would do to my current life.

Which brings me to believe some things about life. Is it predetermined? I think some parts are. Some parts are chosen and decided by you. Of course, I think the fact that we don't know what parts constitute what part is the best thing in life. The spontaneity, the mysteriousness, the discovery of it all. What happens after I die? Now that's a hard 5-word question. I think we just re-do our lives again, like a CD on repeat, or something. I truly have no clue what the afterlife, if there is one, brings someone. Is there heaven? Hell? Purgatory? Do we come back as the other gender? An animal? An inanimate object? (That would suck to be a rock, hoping to get thrown and skipped...and then settle on the bottom of the ocean) I don't know, coming back as a different person would be cool.

Anyway, this is a topic that I can talk and write about forever, so I'll stop for now. See ya.

EDIT: Holy shit this is funny! http://www.ebaumsworld.com/flash/bubblegirl.html

Here I am at it with Google Earth again. The picture is my old house, from which I lived through 1st to 8th grade...or was it 3rd to 8th. Whichever, I spent a lot of my time there.

I guess Blogger images isn't working right now. I'll add it later.

Another day of doing nothing much. Had lunch with TJ. I haven't talked to Laura, but it looks like they're not coming done tonight. Maybe they might, who knows.

The guy at the Lakewood office for the city's parks and recreation called today to ask for my resume and I sent that just now. It seems he's interested, but he's going to look at that resume and get back to me in a couple of days. The thing is, it's another period of weirdness since I already asked my old boss to see if I can get hired for the summer, and now this. I would rather take my old job back, make that an internship, finish up this school thing and then move down to Lakewood to get myself into the field of parks and recreation through this job, so not really an internship, well, I guess it is an internship, but not school-wise. I don't know what's going to happen. We'll see what happens at the end of the week!

We were also seeing if we could rent out a boat for the day sometime late this month before T.J. goes out of the country...well, I don't know if it's out of the country, I guess not, but anyway. Boats were like $200 or so for the day for a 4-5 person, or however many they fit. That would be fun. The thing is that you can't rent it overnight, which would be awesome, but I guess that privelege is reserved for the rich who can buy their own boats and keep them there.

UPDATE: I just got a call from Laura and she said that they are leaving now for Fort Collins, so around 6:45 they should be here. Well, I guess I might go clean up the house a bit, even though it's pretty clean, to make it welcoming.

Laters.

Oh, my old website, partly, is back up. http://www.csuconnection.com. Har, har.

Happy 4th to those that celebrate it. I went down to Laura's sister's house yesterday and spent the night. It was fun, although this afternoon was sort of boring. Everyone except me, Laura and Ellen were doing yardwork. Anyway, light some sparklers and a flower bomb or whatever it is. Maybe next year we'll go big with the fireworks. Man, I can't even begin to think about a year from now. I think a lot is going to be different. Laura will be finishing up her first year of graduate school, I should hopefully (haha) be done with school in like Fall, and hopefully getting myself into a career. Who knows what everyone else is going to be doing. I really have no idea.

So some other news. Late last night, I couldn't sleep at like 10:30 ~ 11:00 since I always stay up late, Laura suggested I read the Da Vinci Code. I was like, nah, that's ok. She kept insisting and started reading the first couple of pages (the prologue). I was like, that's sort of interesting, so I started to read it from chapter 1 at like 11:10 or so while Laura tried to get to bed. Bad idea Laura!!! I started reading chapter 1, finished it. Chapter 2...then 3, then 4 and next thing you know it, it's 2:00am and I'm on like page 200 or something. I was literally hooked! I think I kept waking Laura up every hour or so since I would shuffle and get in a better position to read. Anyway, yeah, so let's continue the story. I read for another amazing 3.5 hours to about page 430 or so and finally put down the put at 5:30 since it was getting light out and everyone was starting to fricken wake up. The book is about 600 pages, I might add. So, I literally can't remember when I fell asleep, but I woke up around 9:45 or so. I got up and felt a bit tired, but I had to finish the damn book! I picked it up and continued reading. Finished in the next 2 hours and closed the book at roughly noon. I haven't read a book like that, albeit in 7 fricken hours, well, ever! I like it. The cool thing about the book is that I like the cool conspiracies and stuff that was in the book. I had actually read about some of the stuff in my spare time, about the Holy Grail and the true identity of it and stuff. In conclusion, it was a good book, went by quick, obviously, and I would recommend it.

I think I am going to sleep well tonight! Laura and Ellen might come up tomorrow or on Wednesday for a few days to hang out up here. That's cool. Well, that's really all. I'm still broke and hope to hear from my old work this week maybe. If not, I'm fucked in the ass! And I have no gas.

Laters. I gotta work on a website project...might start CSUConnection back up if I can get this figured out and working! Hundreds of videos at your fingertips.

So I was going to head down to Denver to see Laura and spend a couple of nights there tonight, but I called and called and she never answered, so I didn't end up going. I am going to down tomorrow, though.

It was weird today. It was windy most of the day, but for a total of an hour or so, in 30-minute periods, the winds kicked up a fuck load to like, I swear, at least 50+ mph. The screen on my room window was freaking out and the doors were about to bust open. I guess that's a mini hurricane huh? I was driving around later tonight and there were tree branches everywhere. Crazy stuff. Imagine combining that with some good sized hail and you got yourself a fucking army!

I was going to do an autobiography of myself (I guess that was redundant to say "of myself) but I decided to hold off on it for a few days. I wrote one a while back, but it got lost into cyberspace.

I'm about to head to sleep soon. July 4th. Ah, the day where I doubt anyone cares of what it really signifies, they just want to see some fireworks. Bleh.

I always wonder...why do Americans and everyone else, I guess, that isn't Japanese, pronounce karaoke like "carry-okie"???? WTF mate!??!?! I never understood it...I don't even want to see the first person who pronounced it that way. I guess it's hard to say "ka-rah-oke"...the last part isn't "okie", it's more like "okay".

Arg.

So I want to ask those visitors out there. What makes a good friend? I'm sure you'll throw me the usual. Loyal, honest, dependable, blah, blah. So then, tell me, what differentiates a friend from a good friend from a great friend from a best friend? Then the fine line gets even thinner and harder to explain. There's always that joke/saying of who is your best friend from among your friends (probably not the right saying, but it's close and it takes care of the idea):

"A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend will be sitting next to you in jail."

How true is that? I would fucking hope that my best friend wouldn't get me in jail in the first place! But then again, that's my opinion. Next would be the one bailing me out and last would be the one sitting next to me, leaving me no outs.

Oh well.

Went climbing today. Took some cool pictures. I might go back there with Laura sometime next week if she comes up. I'll have to send my pictures or give them to TJ. They're on my laptop now and I would put them up online, but they're pretty big files, so it'll take forever on dial-up.

Among other things, I downloaded a buttload of old TV show theme/intro songs. Some 300-something of them. It brought back some memories of the shows I used to watch. Some of the more watched shows would have to be The A-Team, Saved by the Bell, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Star Trek: The Next Generation/Deep Space Nine, Full House, Knight Rider, Family Matters, Hercules (haha, yup, actually a pretty good series) and 21 Jumpstreet. Lesser ones include Charles in Charge, Growing Pains, Who's the Boss, Airwolf, Family Ties, Unhappily Ever After, Xena, and let's say Magnum P.I. Some shows that I've never really watched at all (only a few minutes or something at a friends house or only if that's what they wanted to watch even though I really didn't) was The Simpsons, Seinfeld (though I got sort of into it, but not really), all the stupid ass reality TV shows that are certainly scripted no matter what you say, and I guess all the other mainstream shows that elicit the response, "What, you've never watched that before??? You've got to, it's so good." Yup, thanks, but please don't tell me what to watch!

This no job thing is sort of starting to suck. I really hope that my old boss can get me a summer job. I don't care if it's fucking janitorial. I just need a job. I need to get this fucking internship done with. And this tooth thing is just fricken annoying as well.

Sometimes, things are going great, sometimes they're not. Why is it that you remember the bad things? Why do they stick out more? Weird huh.

This is a long blog. Sometimes I wonder how humans are weird in that they are really writing and talking to no one. But it's weird in the sense that these are things I probably wouldn't talk to other people about unless I HAD to and it's totally not my way of talking. I'm sure everyone else does, but I have a completely different way of talking on the internet.

Another thing that I have to worry about is my forums. It's been up for almost a year and it's gone great. I think next semester will be even better, but yeah, I'm done with it and I need to find someone who'll take it over. There have been a few people who said they'd pitch in for the license to get the vBulletin forum software, so that's nice of them. Still, I need someone who'll oversee the forums or I'll probably have to end up watching over it now and then. If it's not watched it'll blow up for sure.

That's it for tonight. Oh, and the picture I uploaded is one of the ones taken tonight. TJ took it. I like that one!