James' Ramblings

Well, since the car turbo install, it's been just over a month. Well, okay, more than a month. Almost two. What this blog, which may very well be my last for this year, will cover is all the important stuff that happened this year. There's a lot. So I might take a while writing it. I just hope I finished within an hour so I can watch Good Eats. Anyway, let's head off. I can't believe 2003 is over already. When I started the year, I was still going to FRCC, trying to get back on track school wise. I bought Laura some jewelry for Valentine's, still lived at the old Sumac house and even friends with friends that we aren't friends with anymore. Of course, with change, comes some sort of constancy. I'm still with Laura, of course. Ashley is still with TJ. Chris is, well, you know the drill. Ben is still with Remi. And that's about all I have to mention in that area. Man, I can't even really remember that far back. Until about the start of Summer, I still had the astronomy class with Rod. Around that time, when school was about to end, things started going sour for reasons I don't know and thus starts the summer school session. I talked to Rod maybe once since then. I took speech class and found out I really liked that class. Maybe that class made me more social in a way outside of home. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows. But I did like that class a lot like I said. The start of the summer really changed me for my motivation for school. My route also changed for a degree. I looked to Rec and Tourism because, well, at the time because it was the easiest degree to get. Now I'm beginning to think that I might actually like it. During the summer, Ashley, TJ, Susan (more on her later), and other camp folk left for camp. Laura stayed, probably because for me. I'm such a whiner. We grew closer I thought living over the summer alone and then we moved into the same apartment for this semester. Ashley also moved to her own place not too far from here. I deem the split up, as do most others probably, a good thing. You know. By then, we've been good friends wise. Chris started to get into the picture more, as did TJ. Friends started to split even further. Ben hung out with JT and Ben, who lives in their own place near old town. Remi may be the cause of that, but who knows. Susan also lives at home for this semester, and she leaves for Greeley next semester. She started hanging out with Casey and Val and other friends. So there went that group of friends. I had a class with Casey and I really don't think she's that bad of a friend, but others may think otherwise. I met some new friends through school and work and I think all and all, this year was positive. The friends that we associate with got a little closer in a way which is a good thing. Through hard times and fun times, things like that happen. Now that I sit here and write about the stuff that's happened this year, it's all for the good. Things are supposed to happen how they happen. If I were to name all my problems right now at this very moment, I would have but one. That I am broke. But money is not always the case everytime. My car runs fine still with the turbo now broken in. Job's well. Friends are good. And for the first time I think I really did well in school. Laura got a job earlier in the semester which takes her time on Fridays and Saturdays, but I guess that's fine. Things are how they are, right? The holiday season always brings a warmth of fresh air and atmosphere to life. I'm not a big fan of it, but I do get some fun out of buying stuff for others and watching them receive it, whether it is faked or not. :) Again, this reminds us that it's the little things in life that are important. My website has been doing fairly well I think since it started in June and got up to speed throughout this semeser. I am going to strive to get more viewers next semester. Our movie collection has grown to about 75 now, which is nice, but not near what I want, which is potentially in the thousands. Hehe. Saw some great movies too this year. Pirates of the Caribbean, The Matrix, The Last Samurai, X-Men 2, and not to forget the Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. Music wise, well, not much in that department. I haven't listened to music as intently as I did a year or two back, mostly probably because of the file trading shit going on. What else went on this year? Well, gas prices, oil issues, war, Saddam, Bush, and Michael Jackson. That pretty much sums up the year. However, the important thing that I care about now are primarily my friends. Earlier today I e-mailed a slew of people who I thought were close friends of mine wishing them good holidays and we'll see how many I receive back. Some friends have gone, but they've been replaced by other potentially great friends. Only time will tell. Looking forward to the exciting things that might or might not happen next year...a spring break trip to Las Vegas, an internship for me or a trip to Ireland, grades, friends, job, and just having fun. I think earlier in the year I didn't have as much fun as I did in, probably the last few months. My Mom quit the market job and now works at the gas station next door. I don't know, sometimes I wish I can win the lottery and let her retire or something. This year I've been good about being independent. I've borrowed next to nothing from my Mom, besides the money she gives for my b-day or Christmas or something. I try my best to not burden her. She doesn't need that. I, as usual, haven't heard from my brother Yoshi. I don't even think he's alive to be honest. lol. Just kidding of course. I'm sure he's doing something, somewhere. Before I sleep tonight, I'm going to try and just think. Think hard about what my life is full of and what I should be really happy about. I guess all this holiday stuff makes you think that. I even donated all my Magic: The Gathering cards to some kid who wanted it and yeah, I've been collecting for years and years...and yeah, I kept most of my good cards, but hey, it's something right? I mean, it was probably hundreds and hundreds of cards. Giving things away don't seem all that bad anymore. As you age, I think you become that way. You in a way "pass on" a part of you to someone who'll actually use it. I don't know. I'm just babbling. I've been writing for about 30 minutes now and I think I'm done. So, since I most likely won't write in here again until next year, I'd like to say it's been a great year, as always, and I am really thankful for all the friends and events that have kept me going and I am in debt, especially to Laura for keeping up with me and my antics. I love you so much! I'll find ways to pay you all back in the future. Here's to a great year passed, and to another great year up ahead. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all.