James' Ramblings

The weekend passed, and nothing new happened. That's the story every week. Anyway, I thought I would take a trip down memory lane of my childhood in this edition of my blog. I was just taking a shower and I was thinking to myself how we all grow out of things as time passes, whether it be a hobby, doing something, friends, etc. You know what I mean? For instance, in my case, I used to LOVE playing video games, especially fantasy ones. Back then I wouldn't think twice about going to my TV and spending hours upon hours of game time. If there was a new game out that I wanted, I would buy it. Now, it's like, eh, I don't need to play it, or "that's stupid"...It's weird how something I really liked doing just goes away like that. I guess what replaces these things are more important things in life as you get older...school, your loved ones, money, work, etc. For me these things are more important than videos games and computer games...though, I do like to play the occasional game or two with the company of friends. Board games have also started to elude me, though they weren't as prominent as video games for me. Some, however, around me still are attracted to these things. Derek and Grant to lead the pack. They play video games a lot. Just the other night they even had a "video game" tournament. I was never THAT obsessed, by the way. My hobby for now is working on my car with the little money and patience that I have. Heck, I hardly work, but I get through. This coming year is another step toward becoming more "settled" in life. You can begin to actually lay out your plans and follow them. I mean this now because everyone knows that most people who plan out their life in their middle school or high school years end up not following those plans anyways, be it to change of mind or situations that are just unavoidable. The first years of my life were fun, now they're becoming serious, and then eventually they'll become fun again. Until then, though, it's gonna be a hell of a journey. I look around my room right now and I don't see much that has survived the test of time in terms of my belongings. The only thing that I have had since childhood is probably a couple of postcards in a box somewhere. Even things from high school are missing. The newest thing sitting on my desk (and my room) is my phone. I'm not a pack rat...so to speak, though I tend to keep things that I THINK will come in handy later on or ones that I think have a special meaning to them. For the most part, though, I'm a man without past memorabilia. No photos of ANYTHING in the high school years, except maybe a graduation shot and a scant few from when I was a childhood. Then I watch some people, say on TV or in real life rummaging through their old photo albums and such and for a little bit, I actually feel jealous that they have these things. Sometimes I wish my family was closer, but not really. It's only when other people talk about "their sisters" or "their brothers" and fighting and stuff. We never fought. Heck we never really talked. Hopefully I can change that in the future amongst friends. I don't want to be someone who looks back on their life and regrets not talking...or something. Anyway, I'm gonna get going for tonight. Tomorrow...yeah, I don't know if I'm going to work. Wednesday is Christmas. Boo hoo. The holidays...the time to spend with your family and friends. I think the holidays is sad for people who don't have people to be with. Luckily, I have a few. :) Chris and I were talking the other day about how the holidays made him depressed and what not. Society sometimes does a good job of landing a punch in the form of so called "tradition". Oh well. So long for tonight.