Wow, so I just had a rush of old time memories. I was playing with Google Earth (of course) and I was looking up where I went to Japanese school on Saturdays from 9-12:30. Man, I can see the McDonald's that my Mom and I would go to before going to school and her dropping me off. She would go to L.A. to Little Tokyo for the time that I was in school. Come to think of it, I can't believe she did that every Saturday. I don't think I can keep myself busy for 3.5 hours. Really. I think a couple of times she went home, which was incredible because it took about 30-40 minutes to get there. I now realize how much work it was to take me there and pick me up, all while I just sat in class, had recess and didn't really challenge me, since I started at elementary up through junior high-level japanese. I can't thank her enough. I wish I could with the lottery so I can give some money back to her. The least I can do while I will always be in debt. We would sometimes even go to Little Tokyo AFTER my school, so I have no idea what she did during the time I was at school. Sometimes I wish I would have known a few more things than I did while I was a kid, like what went on and stuff. Things like how it was so that I had so much fun. What it took my parents to give me the life I had.
Back to the schooling thing, it was cake. Hell, I already spoke it pretty good. I just had to learn some writing and reading. Cake I tell ya. Anyway, more memories. The center would have annual festivals and stuff. That was FUN. I would volunteer to run some of the booths and stuff. Man, I just can't express this in writing. It was fun. Each year it switched off from a festival to a sports/game event thingy. The festival was the best, though. Lots of people came, mostly japanese and play games, watch shows, go through vendors and booths and such. It was from like early afternoon until sundown. Man, I can just put myself in that time.
These are the times when I wish a time machine existed. Not to go back, get rich, mess up the current timeline or anything, but to just "invisibly" relive my childhood and see my old friends again. Perhaps in the future.
And then again, the thing is, I sent about 7-8 letters to my old friends that I found their addresses online. One came back saying there was no person of that name and the others haven't written back. I wrote them letters, yeah, but come on, it was like a month ago. At least write back, e-mail or call or something. These were good friends too (or so I thought, if you want to reference one of my older blogs). One of them was my best friend through elementary and junior high. The last I saw him was like, 3 years ago I think when I was in California.
I don't know, I always thought that some, at least a couple, of my friends would keep in touch you know. I wonder how many actually think what I'm thinking now? Do they even remember me? Mysteries of our lives huh?
I'll just end with a few more "I wonder..." questions. I wonder what my dad is doing right now? I wonder what my middle school best friend is doing? I wonder what all my other friends are doing? I wonder...if my life is the best that I've been able to lead? I think so. Despite the what ifs of my life, if I could do it over again, I would and even if I had prior knowledge, I wouldn't change a thing. Who knows what a small change during my elementary school years would do to my current life.
Which brings me to believe some things about life. Is it predetermined? I think some parts are. Some parts are chosen and decided by you. Of course, I think the fact that we don't know what parts constitute what part is the best thing in life. The spontaneity, the mysteriousness, the discovery of it all. What happens after I die? Now that's a hard 5-word question. I think we just re-do our lives again, like a CD on repeat, or something. I truly have no clue what the afterlife, if there is one, brings someone. Is there heaven? Hell? Purgatory? Do we come back as the other gender? An animal? An inanimate object? (That would suck to be a rock, hoping to get thrown and skipped...and then settle on the bottom of the ocean) I don't know, coming back as a different person would be cool.
Anyway, this is a topic that I can talk and write about forever, so I'll stop for now. See ya.
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