Just saying a quick hello! Gonna head to bed now.

2 hours until my birthday. Time to reflect huh? 23 years old. Come to think of it, 23 is soooooo old, relatively speaking. But then again, it's pretty young. I've got a long life ahead of me, full of surprises. I just hope that my life isn't some boring little adventure. I want it to be full of excitement and stuff, ya know? I think travelling the world with Laura would be awesome. I think we're going to try to go to a bunch of places including Africa, Europe, Asia, and S.A. I guess that's pretty much all the continents, but yeah. You get the point.

I filed my taxes last night and if all goes well, I'll get roughly $1400 back. All of which is already "spent". Car insurance and credit card payments baby. I will also pay SOME of my balance for my laptop. I would like to get that out of the way. Other than that, that's a lot of money I get and so little time to see it.

It feels like a long weekend. It's only Sat. night and I feel as though it's Sunday night. Good or bad I guess depending on how you look at it. Got back into Halo again. Playing online now. It's fun. That's all for the update. Tomorrow's a time to relax!

Another edition of weird thoughts going in my head.

So sometime (today? yesterday?) Laura was telling me about how a person at her work was dancing and stuff while listening to music (at least that's how I interpreted it) and I thought to myself what...well, let me start over. I always think about what others are thinking, doing, etc...you know, how they live their lives and such. When you get down to it, everyone needs certain things to live. Everything apart from that is filler I think, to make our lives more enjoyable, etc.

Okay, that didn't make sense at all...even I don't know what I'm saying. Anyway, I just thought that man, people are basically the same at heart and they do the same things as me and everyone else, they say the same things, experiences (more or less) the same things and think the same way. I wonder if they have worries like me. I wonder if they are happy like me and so forth. I know everyone's lives are different, but they can't be all that different. College kids go to school, work, come home, and hang out. Pretty much it until you graduate and then you just take out school...that about covers it doesn't it? I guess you replace that with an optionial "take care of your family" huh?

Bottom line, I guess I want to say for the moral of this night's blog to be that friends are super important in life. It's hard to make them, but you can erase them in a second. Hold on to what you have I guess. If you think of life as a sin curve, I wonder what part of the curve I'm at right now...the bottom? Top? Middle? On my way to going up to the top? Down to the bottom? We'll see soon enough.

Mid February is when I'll know about my internships. I'm sort of nervous. What if I don't get either? I guess it's not that big of a deal since I'm not in any hurry after May...well, I'll be strapped for cash BIG TIME if I don't do something then...but yeah, I guess I should keep searching for internships. My boss has been supportive saying I'll get at least one of them. We'll see about that eh?

I'm gonna head to bed...my classes are early tomorrow...I need to stop spending money...and I need to get back into school mode. I haven't done much except take notes in class, so...but then again most are discussion classes...which I'm not good at discussions. I think I'm going to have to change a bit of my style this semester. I'm going to have to be a little more outspoken...it's going to be hard but I think it's for the better.

On another note, I've pretty much conquered Tales of Symphonia...beat most of the side quests, the ones I can do anyway. If I want to do and get everything, I'll have to start another game and I don't think that'll be good considering I've just started a semester...my last one at that. ;)

See ya.

Tomorrow is the first day of my last semester! Well, I have to go in to my advisor again and make sure that it is, but I'm pretty sure that it is. Anyway, I hope this semester is as good as last semester, both grade wise and time wise. Time wise you say? Well, last semester was probably the fastest semester that I ever had. I don't know why. Maybe it was because the classes that I took were actually interesting and I had fun. Maybe, maybe not. Anywho, just wanted to get this last bit of rambling before I head to bed.

It's always weird for the first day of school. Even when I'm this old and it's my 5th year of college! It's also weird that some of my friends are done with school, so they don't have to worry about school anymore. Just a strange feeling you know?

Well, that's all. Catch you sometime soon I'm sure. Maybe later this week to tell you how my semester will likely go. Until next time.

P.S. I wonder if there's a way or ever going to be a way to print all your blogs from the site...that would be helpful as I want to archive for myself...sometime...

Hello.

While I was making myself a "sleeping time" CD and testing it out on my old ass CD player from the mid 90s...something just hit me. Like, I can't even explain it. I guess the realization that, whoa, I'm just a tiny speck on the planet and the universe, or something to that extent. I just sat there for a minute or two thinking was purpose life brings to whomever's life you are currently talking about. And then the realization that the world does indeed go on regardless of you. Time really doesn't discriminate!

This blog is sort of a geeky one don't ya think? Anyway, I just wanted to catalog that little moment. The battle between the two internships is still going. There are two I want, well, one I REALLY want and another that is sort of a back up, which happens to be (probably) the one that I can most likely take right now. The other one is still in the interviewing process and the lady will probably notify me in mid February...not good considering that's over a month from now and I have to notify my other people about what I want to decide within a week from now, no more than a week and a half. My brother said if he learned anything it's that you shouldn't wait for things to resolve, otherwise you could end up with the worst situation, in this case, me not getting EITHER internship. Should I wait? Should I accept the one that is second choice??? I don't know what to do! I'll have to think about this while I got to sleep the next few nights I guess.

Among other news, school is starting next week. Woohoo. I've been waiting since these long breaks are just killer as they are so boring. My last semester as I've said a couple of times now. I'm actually moving on!

Well, I'll talk to you later. Laura, if you're reading this before I talk to you, which will be very unlikely, I beat Tales of Symphonia and I beat Abbyssion!!! He was hard as hell, but it was on my first try...lots of items later and Raine dead, I came out the victor!

I love you.

Howdy,

First post of 2005. Seems refreshing. So it's been over 2 years (3?!?!) since I started the blog venture. Crazy stuff.

It's 12:17am and thought I'd write a little bit. It's amazing how much you really want to write a journal, but don't want to because you don't want to have to write it in a book. My hands would get tired after writing a sentence, but thanks to the cool folks at Blogger, we can do this from a computer...quickening the writing pace by hundred-fold. Well, maybe no hundred fold, but anyway.

Good news, if you want to think of it that way. I think I'm having a phone interview on Thursday from the place that I want to internship the most. That's awesome. I'm probably going to start to get more and more nervous as the time comes, but yeah. I'm going to have to go through the potential questions in my head the night before to make sure I don't fuck it up. And then I was thinking, maybe I could try and be unique but that could end up bad too. I guess the best way is to act yourself so if they DO hire me in, I won't act all different, ya know? I didn't go to work today. I don't know why, I just didn't. I was really tired for some reason. I better start sleeping earlier when the beginning of the semester comes around since I have to wake up at 7 every morning. Yup, that's right. I HAVE to this time. M/W is work from 7 to 11:30, then class, and back to work at 1:30 or so. T/Th I have class all day. F is an exception once again. Anyway, I'm going to head to work today and see what's up.

Oh yeah, I went to my first "LAN party" last Saturday and it was fun. It was all people from my work, 6 in all including me. The games we played were fun and right now I'm addicted to HALO. Fun game. Tales of Symphonia is fun too for the Game Cube. I sort of let off on that game for right now, but I'm going to get back into it so I can get on to the second disk. Laura's been playing that game a lot lately.

Anyway, lately I haven't been me for some reason. I'm really "on the edge" or more descriptively, snappy for some reason. I hope it gets resolved soon.

Well, I'm going to head to bed with some music on. Yeah, I moved my speakers into my bedroom so I can listen to ambient noises while I sleep. It's pretty cool. I sometimes think about being/living in a fantasy world like Tales of Symphonia and HALO and places like that. Oh well. laters.