I'm currently doing my laundry at Chris' house. I'm going to go turn in my timesheet at CSU around 4:30 and then drop by and pick up my laudry. I didn't get paid as much this time, though I worked the same amount of hours. This worries me. I wrote an e-mail about it. Well, while I was waiting for the washer to finish in the laundry room, I walked about the basement and stuff, like my room and my bathroom. I got a rush of memories. Like, I remember all the good times I had there. That was around Fall of 2001. I doubt it'll be like that again. It was just fun, you know? I do miss the old house, though I don't regret moving out. I ate, watched some TV (first time since early June), and I'm writing in here now. Gosh, that paycheck that's lower than usual is really worrying me. I can't check my e-mail until Monday, so I'll have to wait until then if I am to get an answer. I should have sent the e-mail through Hotmail. Damn. I have a few bids on the stuff I have on eBay, but nothing on my digital camera. Dammit. I found a great thing to do earlier today. Since students like me get huge discounts for software and stuff, I think I may buy software and sell it on eBay for near full price. I don't know if it'll work, but it's worth a try. Well, I'm gonna get going. Tomorrow Ashley, Laura, and 7 other people are coming here. Yes, I thought the same thing. I'll be cleaning up on the Sunday, that's for sure. Bye.

Ok, so I really didn't go to sleep. I really was, until I went into Laura's room to find a book of some sort and I began to put together the frame I got for her for the Dave Matthews poster. It took about 20 minutes, as it was confusing for one, and pretty hard to do by yourself since the glass seemed like it was going to break. Then I was standing there looking at her photos and stuff and I began to wonder. Why don't I have a lot of photos? I guess my family was not a photo family, like Ashley's or Laura's, but sometimes I wish they were. I like not having photos for reasons aplenty, but it's nice to have something to look at when you were younger. I guess my photo album is in my head. Thankfully I was blessed with great long-term memory and I remember thngs really cleary. I still remember when Nmy brother taught me how to ride a bicycle, when I played golf with my brothers, when I went to Disneyland with my Mom and when I used to go to my Dad's work and every trip that I have gone to. Most of the time it's best left in my head, but some of the great times I want to share it with people, but I can't. I can only tell them about it. That's frustrating in the inside. Though I probably will never be into taking pictures everywhere I go, I will take a few shots here and there. No reason. Just to have something. I look around my house and there's pictures and pictures in frames, albums, and just lying around of Ashley and her friends, Laura and her friends and so forth. I like looking at them. I don't know. Lately I've just been thinking because I have so much time on my hands. Nothing else to do. I think about some of the choices I've made and what would have happened if I chose different and I play out an alternate future. Do you do that? I've played out so many different paths, it's ridiculous. And in the end, I'm just fine where I am now. I have great friends, an okay living area (hehe), a good job, and a great girlfriend. It's hard sometimes in life just to think about the important things. If you're rich, then you can think about the luxury aspect. But if you're living paycheck to paycheck, like how I practically am, things are a whole lot different. Days and weeks are passing by so quickly for me, I feel like I'm wasting my life. It seems just yesterday, I moved into the dorms with Chris, setting up our room, computers, and furniture, getting ready for a crazy experience called college. College isn't as different as any other time of my life. I'm just opened up to a whole new group of people that I'll most likely never meet. :) The friends I make in middle school and H.S. don't mean anything they say and the friends you make in college are the special ones. Not that kind of special. You know what I mean. I think that's true to some extent. To me anyway. My life's been affected the most through college I think. I've learned a lot of things to do, not to do, and what I can do. I've learned to accept others the way they are and not try to change them. I've learned not to go without car insurance for 6 months and find out getting insurance afterwards is a humongous dent in your wallet. And I've learned that I can't live by myself. People need to be surrounded by people. I haven't really lived by myself like this ever and it sucks. Sometimes my best companion is sleep. Now's that's wasting my life. So, enough of this depressing blog crap and the other similar blogs that I've been writing recently. I think the Summer has hit bottom for me this year and from now in it's just on the rise, so I'm happy. If in one year I can learn to live with two crazy girls, :), be away from your loved one for 3 months, have absolutely no money to do anything and sleep all day, I think I can handle pretty much anything. Yup, anything. See ya.

I'm just about to log off, I mean, go to bed, for the night. I decided to sell a few more things on eBay to make my bills a little more pleasing to my wallet. I forgot to write this down a few days ago. I had a cup of water in my hand, well, actually I think it was on the desk. Anyhoo, I was doing whatever I was doing and I reached over the keyboard to touch the monitor or something and when I retracted my hand, it caught on the cup, spilling a few ounces of water on the major left side of the keyboard. I hastedly grabbed the keyboard, waving it around like a maniac in panic, trying to get the majority of the water out. At this time, I though the keyboard was shot. Electronics and water don't fair well the last time I checked. I was pissed, but I decided to stand the keyboard up behind the fan in the room and put the fan on full blast. I left for about 15 minutes and when I came back, the keyboard seemed dry and it worked! Thank you very much to the process of evaporation. This Logitech keyboard is one tough mother. I recommend you all get it if you spill stuff constantly, but just water. I don't know how it reacts to the aftermaths of Kool-Aid or Coke and I will rather not try. Thanks to Laura for getting me such a durable keyboard. The mouse right now is out of commission, just due to batteries, which I can't even find or get. The batteries in the mouse have just enough juice to keep the lights of the laser flickering, but not usable. Bummer. I am currently using Laura's mouse, as my other one just ceased to work. Yes, for no reason. Electronics sometimes. I went on eBay and discovered a wondrous section of "travel". There you can find lots of travel packages, cruises and stuff for so cheap!!!!! I'm talking less than $100 for a few nights stay at like, Cozumel, Puerto Vaerta (?), and Las Vegas. Damn, I have got to bid on one of these sometime. Maybe for me and Laura? Well, the room is beginning to heat up, probably because the enormous heat cloud that this monitor and computer produce, so I'm going to turn it off and read some books or something. Laura calls me tomorrow! (Hopefully after 8 to reduce the damn phone bill). Signing off...

Anna Faris is hot. Check out www.anna-faris.com and you'll see what I'm talking about. If you don't know who she is, she's the girl from Scary Movie 1 and 2. Anyway, I realized that I work differently than most people. Granted, all people are different, to an extent, but I'm extreme. I'm extreme about punctuality, cleanliness (sometimes) and stuff like that. Another thing weird about me is that I learn from trying. That's not such a bad thing, but when it comes to getting a pet, like I did about a month ago, that's the only way to go for me. Of course, there are people, like my Mom and Laura, who say that I should have thought about it more. Yes, true, but thinking only takes you so far. What if I wanted to experience it too? Anyhow, sometimes even I think it's weird for me to have a dog for a month to figure out that it just wasn't going to work and I had to give it back. The dog might have had it coming too. Everytime a thunder goes, it came running upstairs. It put its paws in the water dish and made a mess. Ran around like an idiot sometimes.Yeah, oh well. I learned my lesson. I need time and money. The bike that I was going to get is probably going to work the same way. I can't get enough until I have it and tried for it myself. I don't take stories from others' experience. Just not enough, you know? I will get the damn bike myself if it takes months or years. I will get the bike. Earlier today I thought my fridge was broken again, but luckily it wasn't. Just some condensation from the open water dispenser. It's going away now. It's a really cool night out tonight. Temperature wise. I looked at my phone bill...$19 over. It was $61. God damn! I went over on the anytime minutes. Probably calling and talking to Laura. I'll have to tell her we need to keep it lower this time. I can't pay these outrageous prices. The last month was fucking $48. It's just rising and rising. Well, I'm going to do some research on the 'net on some stuff I wanted to look up.

What am I supposed to do with my life? I don't know. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know where to do what I don't know what to do. I have no answers, but I like to live in the present. I worry only the important things when it comes to the future, like paying bills, rent, etc. Not education, work, what I'll be doing in 5 months. I just don't let it get to me. Now, that could be a downfall in my personality, but hey, that's how I live. Spontaneity is bliss...unless you travel to Japan and have nowhere to stay (it's a long story...it's really for 3-4 people actually). I think I may stay at Front Range and get an Associate of Arts degree...or, wait, maybe I'll go back to CSU...but wait, maybe I'll take online college courses and graduate that way. I have no idea. Let me tell you exactly all that's in my head right now, at this moment: Why can't I get a bike, it's hot in here, I miss Laura, I wonder if she's coming down this weekend, I wonder how much I'll have after I pay my ridiculous credit card bill, should I cut up my credit card bill, yes I think I should cut up my credit card bill, what should I do tomorrow, and I can't wait until I get paid Friday. So, the farthest day away that I'm thinking about is pretty much the end of the week. I was looking at some of the alumni list at my old H.S. and I came across this one kid I knew, pretty damn smart kid, going to Stanford and all. I remember when we used to hang out. We both came very different paths. I'm sure he'll be successful (probably) in the future. But is he a better person than me? Of course, it's very opiniated...I don't know. Whatever. I'll have something in the future and so will he. Let's just hope for my sake that I'm happy and doing something I like. I've been wanting to travel lately too. Mostly to England. I want to be in another continent. Just somewhere out of this state, but yeah, England would be nice. I want to take Laura too. Wouldn't that be even nicer. I've decided on a lot of things earlier today. I am determined to go through with it all this time though. The first thing's first. Pay off the credit card bill. After I put this rent check in the bank tomorrow and I get paid on Friday, I'm going to sit down, balance everything out, pay off all current bills, credit card, etc. and I'm going to save up. Save up like a madman. I don't know what for, but I'm sure maybe in the vicinity of Christmas time, I'll have enough money to do SOMETHING. I'll decide then what I'll do with the money, but yeah, I'm going to save up and up and up.

Seems like the fucking world is against me and getting bikes. Damn, I didn't get one and you know what? I realized something. Too personal to say even on this blog, but yeah, I have a new outlook on life now. Maybe I'll trickle out the details as the weeks and months pass by, but stay tuned. Today was a very stressful day at work. Don't even want to talk about it. Anyway, later.

I just took a shower, I feel refreshed and I'm listening to trance as I'm getting ready to go to bed. How much better can it get? I'll tell you how. Tomorrow is Tuesday. Yesiree. You know what that means. The bike!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really hope that when my Mom comes up, she will buy the bike. I really do. I want it so bad. I didn't get ANY responses for the job apps that I gave out, but oh well. I'll keep searching. By this time tomorrow, I'll still be drooling over the new machine that I got. Hopefully. Damn, I have doubts, but there shouldn't be any complications. I'll tell her that I'm getting a second job to pay for all this and so forth. IT WILL WORK! Still, it's going to be nearly $6800 total and I hope they deliver it to my garage. Well, I really don't have anything else to say. Laura called this morning on her morning off. I sent her 3 letters (yes, three), and hopefully she got my hallmark card that I got her on the 3rd. That's it. I'll write tomorrow about you know what!

So, I am beat. I'm so tired. But this weekend (Saturday) was one of the more fun Saturdays that I've had in a long time. Ashley, Derek, Grant, Susan, and Becka came down to Ft. Collins. Although I only hung out with the latter 4 people, we had fun. I hung out with Ashley and it was really fun. The most fun part of the night, I think, was when we were moving the mattresses of hers from the old house to the new house. It was sooooo heavy, and I couldn't have done it by myself, but Ashley did give a much needed hand. It was funny though overall. Everything seems to have settled down around here though. The rent check of $316 was apparently sent to Ashley's PO Box (don't ask) so her Dad sent another check to my new address. The one in the PO Box is for next month's rent. But yeah, it was nice to see everyone again. Back to the bike story. TUESDAY IS THE DAY!!!!!! That's right. You read it right. Tuesday I'm going to have my own bike! I talked to my Mom and although she was hesitant, she is coming up on Tuesday to get the bike that I was looking at yesterday and HOPEFULLY going to buy it then. I am going to register for the motorcycle training class for this weekend. Hopefully I'll be able to pay it. I can't wait! The colors are white and blue, though mostly blue. I am getting a white and blue helmet also. I'm skipping right now on all the other accesories because I'm flat broke, but we'll see what happens. I've been getting weird charges on my credit card too. I e-mailed the appropriate places to get refunds. It's like $40. Today I woke up at 6:30, because Ashley had to leave for camp quite early. She's not too fond with Derek OR Rod right now. I'm glad I'm not either of them. Went to Starbucks and I called Chris at like 10:55 because I just had the feeling he wasn't up and I was right. He ended up showing at around 11:05. Strike one for him. He's still trying to find a car. I, on the other hand, am in perfect position. I got a quote for insurance from Progressive at $147/year. Sounds good to me. By this time next week, I should be set for riding my bike regularly. :) Well, I'm going to go eat my leftovers from last night, so I'll be back here maybe today, probably tomorrow. Depends whether or not I'm bored, which, most likely, I will be. Bye.

People are too unpredictable. I just woke up at 5:30 to go meet a friend at a jacuzzi at 6...to find out that he didn't show up. God damn. Why make me go through the trouble of waking up butt ass early in the morning, driving to the place, and make me come back here. Sometimes I tell you...last night was also one of the most frustrating, and tiring, nights of my life courtesy of Laura's huge, oversized, heavy, stupid desk. Rod and I had moved the lower half sometime ago before the girls went to camp and yesterday we got around to moving the upper half. We stopped it at the top of the stairs and Rod went home and decided to do it in the morning, ahem, after the jacuzzi. Anyway, I'm not the one to leave stuff unfinished, so I decided to try and figure out a way to put it into the room, the first reason that we stopped and left it at the hallway. The things too damn big to go in the room, great huh? I spent 30 minutes or so trial and erroring trying to take off the fucking cabinet doors, which had phillip's head screws, with my can opener on my knife. That didn't work and I ended up breaking one of the screws, so I went to Chris' house and got an actual phillip's head. By the way, if you know that I'm spelling it wrong tell me. Is it phillips or phillip's? Ok, back to the hardship. I got both doors off and I proceeded to slide the desk into Laura's room, which barely fit. And then I POSSIBLY couldn't leave it there unfinished, as I wouldn't be able to sleep well. I devised a setup to lift the huge desk (way more than I can carry or let alone lift up with just my strength) and mangaged to get it up some 3 feet onto the lower half of the desk. I screwed in the doors and the task was done. This whole process, which took nearly 1 1/2 hours, yielded two important lessons for me and hopefully to everyone out there. Never say you'll help move a desk that takes more than 2 people to even lift and NEVER GET A DESK THAT BIG. *sigh* And now here I am, half awake, tired, and aching from getting up early for no reason. I would call him, but that'd be too nice of me. I'm sure he's sleeping his time away. At 11 though, I'll be going to the motorcycle shop with Chris to check out the awesome sportbikes that I can't get and hopefully I can see the bike I want. Afterwards, I'm going to Longmont to pick up the frame for the posters that I got Laura. Oh yeah, I haven't written that down yet. I got Laura a signed Dave Matthews poster for Christmas. Yes Christmas. I ended up getting two, because I thought she'd like the other one better, but I showed it to her and she likes them both...equally. My luck. So I gave her however much time she wants to decide. I bought a glossy black frame for one of them, so I'm going to get that today and I'm going to see which one looks better in the frame. AFTER that (gosh, it's a busy day), Ashley, Derek, and Grant should be arriving, or maybe even just leaving, from camp to come out to Fort Collins to visit. That should be around 4pm or so. I have no idea what we're going to do when they get here, but I want to move Ash's bed matress tonight. I think I spelled that wrong. Mattress. That looks better. Anyhoo, I'm thinking we're just going to have to put it on top of Ash's car and take it to the house. Should be a VERY FUN EXPERIENCE once again. My life is very weird. I'm hungry now, though I have nothing to eat and I don't want to go buy anything as my credit card bill is up to around $310 or so. I NEED that rent check! I thought to myself why hasn't it come yet. I'm afraid that Ash's Dad my have sent the rent check to her P.O. Box, which I couldn't get to anyway. I hope that's what happened and I can put the money in the bank on Monday. If not, I have no idea what's going to happen. I better not be out $316.66. I'm not that rich. Well, I'm going to leave you for now. I'm gonna maybe fall asleep for a couple hours before I have to get ready. See ya.

Good evening. Well, the fourth is slowly coming to an end. I ended up, upon request from Chris, to watch the fireworks from the roof of his house, but we didn't get to see the fireworks...yeah, and then after we get down (it was a pain getting up and down in the first place), the fireworks near the house starts. Great, we say. We stood there for about 10 minutes watching the fireworks end in its finale. I came home, watered the lawn and now I'm about to go to sleep. We also went to Applebee's beforehand and there was a damn hot hostess there and I COULD not make Chris do something about it. I guess he is convinced that he's never going to get laid in his life or what not. The funny story too was that he went to the mall to the chocolate store and actually bought $5-$6 worth of chocolate to talk to this girl only to find out that she had a boyfriend. Moral of the story? Only get chocolate if you like chocolate and THEN think about the benefits that might come out of buying the chocolate at this place. Anyway, that's pretty much the night. It's cool out tonight also, so that's great for me to sleep in. I hate it when it's blistering hot even at midnight. And another thing, I may have made a decision on a certain thing that I was thinking about for the past week. I think I'm going to go through with it. It'll be the better for both parties. I won't put it on here, as some people may read it before I get a chance to explain, but yeah, I should be posting it here by Monday to tell you the overview and result. I'm going to see bikes on Saturday. Yippee. Until tomorrow, g'night.

Good afternoon. So, I watered the lawn for a good 30 minutes just now. It was quite calming. I thought about a lot of stuff, actually. Just little things. Rod and I went to Boulder today, after we concluded that going to Denver, our original idea, would be a waste as there was nothing to do there. We looked at a pipe shop and Rod couldn't get money from the ATM, so we ended up leaving and got back a few hours ago. Derek is driving himself and Ashley down to Fort Collins this weekend. Rod found that out and he was in a bad mood, talked about running away and what not. Although, I admit, I may be a little irritated if I didn't get hardly any letters or calls. I am a lucky fellow, as Laura calls me every chance she could and I get letters. On a side note, it seems as though Ashley's Dad sent the money a while ago, but I don't understand why it's not at my house. I need that money. My credit card billed is racked up to $273 the last time I checked. But keep in mind that $218 of that was for fixing my brakes, so $50 ain't that bad for me. I used to spend hundreds of dollars more than that and that was when I didn't even have a job. So yeah, I need to pay that off and start from $0 again. I don't it to get out of hand and the interest to kick in and never be able to pay it back. I may take off early from work tomorrow. It's going to be a sloooooooow day. I could just skip, but, I have nothing better to do. Today is hot too, outside, but it's not so bad in my room. It's nice and cool. I was in the mood to take a nap, but now I'm not tired at all. A couple hours ago I was drifting away into my own world for a minute. I was also hoping I could plan to sabotage the stupid ass fireworks display that's going to be near my house tonight. I was hoping it would rain, but that's not going to happen. Damn shit. I tried to go look at bikes today, but the stupid ass holiday (again, spoiling my fun) made the store get closed. The mail doesn't come either. What the fuck is up with this holiday crap. Work during the holidays would ya? The next big holiday from what I can gather from my head would be Labor Day in September. Finally, a couple months of no holidays. I want to go to the hot tub with Laura. Rod and I went a couple days ago, yesterday actually (??) and it was raining. It was so cool. I should just get a fricken spa/jacuzzi for our place. They aren't that expensive, if you consider $500 cheap. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I have NOTHING to do. God damn. I need more things to do. This sucks. This Summer sucks in general. Well, I'm going to look for more jobs online. See ya.

Ok, I swear this is my last time for today, but I just wanted to get this down so I can remember it later when I'm scouring through my blogs. Friends are weird. They are the weirdest things in the world. You can never figure them out, ya know? I think every human is the same deep within. They just care about themselves. Seriously, I'm sure there are really nice people out there that are caring only for others, but in the end, it's you who you want to protect. The past year I learned a lot about me, my friends, and my life. I can't take things for granted anymore. People change. I have to accept that. People act the way they want to, when they want to. I have to accept that too. The only thing that I can do is the cope with it, maybe manage to try and influence them a bit, but that's about it. In the end, everyone is going to have to adapt and change along with everyone to get along. I have changed a lot in the past couple years and I can tell that. No one has to tell me that. I know how I've changed. A lot of my views have also changed. I think about stuff differently now. What I used to think and know doesn't comply anymore. Like I said in the earlier blogs some 3-4 months ago. Nothing is a constant in this world. Wake up next morning the you might now see the sun come up, or the sun go down. Fuck, you might not even wake up the next morning. You just can't tell the future. You can only create it. But yeah, I just wanted to let that rant out before I lost it. I'm getting ready to leave now. Have yourself a great night.

I'm sitting here munching on chocolate chips despite the fact that I hate chocolate. For some reason it's good and there's nothing else to eat in the house. Anyway, update for this weekend: Ashley is coming down to Ft. Collins since she has the weekend off, so I'm going to hand out with her. Maybe I'll get her that b-day present while she's here. I guess the package that Rod and I sent with a lot of stuff from the $1 store got there today and Laura was a bitch about it and Ashley got nothing. *shakes head* I'm going to have to have to a talk with her about this. Tomorrow being a stupid ass holiday, I can't go to work. I hate holidays, especially this one. Why the fuck would you want to shoot fireworks into the air for a few short-lived seconds and celebrate what happend hundreds of years ago...people dwell on the past too much, I swear. Anyway, I am going to work on Friday, after careful consideration. I was going to take it off, but I thought, heck, I don't do anything anyway. Might as well get paid for it. So, I'm still looking for that second job and I just finished watering the backyard. Woohoo. Well, that's it for now. I'm going to the hot tub later and hanging out with Rod, who I'm sure is just going to smoke...fricken pothead. Lates.

I'm furious. I got a letter from the financial aid office and I went over there promptly to give them what they requested. Next? Here this. They want this one form that I gave to them about 3-4 weeks ago and yes they did go check to see if they had it, but of course not. Fucking assholes. I hate the people who can't fucking do their job. I sent in the forms, so put them away in a secure place so it can be found later. I called my Mom and asked her to fax the form again to the financial aid office and if they lose it this fucking time, I'm going to take some action. I'm tired of people who can't do their jobs. The lady that helped me wasn't doing shit when I got up to the counter and it took at least a minute for her to respond and say "Hi, can I help you?" Yes you can fucking help me. No, wait sorry, I was just coming here to lean up again the fucking counter you piece of shit. I'm sorry to bother you and waste you "work" time about my problems, but the due date for tuition is about a month away, so I'd appreciate it if you can take about 2 minutes of your time and help me out. Go have a break afterwards or later in the night, but not when I get to the counter. You hear me? I almost chose to forget about this financial aid thing and pay for the tuition my god damn self. Hell, it'd be easier and less irritating for me AND it won't bother them with more work. Fucking shitheads. If they give me anymore trouble, they're going to get a letter so nasty that once it gets through to the big boss having fun and relaxing somewhere in the Bahamas, they'll be giving me scholarships left and right.

Just a note, I changed my layout. I didn't know that you could change the layout this easily. I was really getting annoyed with the one I chose when I first started...my knowledge about blogs are increasing slowly. :)

Well, July has started and in a good way, I guess. Not really, though. I sent some packages out today to the girls up at camp. I hope they like it. :) I got a request to do a Flash intro for a person at work for her webpage. I get paid $25 at least. Hehe. I dropped the price down from $50 to $25, was that stupid of me? Nah. I don't think so. Another thing can go into my "portfolio", plus, I like doing these things. The week is halfway there. I know it's only 4 on Tuesday, but for me, the work day is already passed. I need TV. I want to watch the Food Network and the Discovery/TLC more than anything. Dammit. I might just break down and subscribe to cable. My bills are expanding rapidly. Rent was due yesterday, and though I wrote a check and turned it in, I haven't gotten Ashley's part. It better hurry, as the check may bounce. Also, I haven't gotten ANY mail in the last two days. I know that it can happen, but it's just weird. I usually get SOMETHING plus letters from Laura. She sent one on Saturday and that should have been here way before today, like Monday, but to no avail. God damn. I suspect someone is stealing my mail. If that's the case and I find out who is doing that, I'm going to impale him. Laura called last night on her night off. It was a good time, but I made her feel guilty about leaving for camp and leaving me here all alone. :) It's true though, they're up there with their friends, having fun, and I'm left here with a scattering of people who I call friends, my hot ass room (it really gets into the 90s in this fricken room), and I do nothing all day. But we say to each other that it'll be better in the long run, when she's moved in here and we'll see each other everyday. I don't know, do you think fights are healthy??? To an extent I think so. I am about to go to (in about 3 hours) Barnes and Noble for some reading to exercise my noggin. Plus I want to look more at bikes. Pretty much it for news from the midwest. I think I might go prance around the blogger website and find some neat stuff. I also need to check out my daily dose of www.ilovebacon.com. Just an awesome place. Although, I can't believe the guy does the website for a living.

Welcome to another edition of me babbling aimlessly. Today, well, let's first start off with yesterday. Laura came down from camp, which was great. We hung out, ate some lunch and dinner, and watched Ocean's Eleven (part of it, she was tired), and spent the night cuddling for our 7th month together (tomorrow). She's just great. The best thing that's happened to me. Yeah, but I won't be able to see her for a couple weeks from now since she has to work on the weekend next week. Sucks I know! Not much done today. Did some laundry, surfed around, and talked on MSN. Today was damn hot though, again. But here's the update on the bike thing. It's getting closer than I thought. I applied to for a couple P/T jobs so I can make some payments easier on me. As for the bike, next pay check I'm going to take the rider safety training, which upon completion, will waive my motorcycle riding part of the license test and all I have to do is the written part, which shouldn't be hard at all. Then, my quest for finding the bike I want starts and the whole getting a loan, thing. I'm looking to spend around $6000 for a 2001+ Yamaha YZF600R for my first bike. I can't wait! But yeah, I was at Chris' house today (doing laundry) and I was reminiscing some of the times we had in that house while I lived there. All and all, I had a good time there, I'd say. Don't get me wrong, I'm not regretting moving out, but yeah, things are better now. I think I'm going to have to get a new windshield though. I noticed just today the crack across the windshield and partly up the windshield has almost gone all the way to the top. Dammit. I'm probably going to Elite Auto Glass or something to replace it. Damn, another couple hundred gone. Shit like this just sucks. I have no space to spend money for myself, but I guess I can't complain. So anyway, that's about all I have for tonight. I keep wondering how long this blogger.com is going to last. If they go down the shoot, are they going to send me my blogs via e-mail or something? I don't want to lose them. I spent time on these fuckers. But, I'll be seeing you guys later.

Well, we're nearing the end of June. Lots of stuff happen at that time. Rent is due, bills are coming, and most importantly, it's only 6 more weeks until the gang at camp come back to good, fun Fort Collins. I miss them, especially Laura. Now that the kids are coming every week, I hardly have a chance to talk to her. On the weekends I see her though, which is good. The past week I saw The Bourne Identity...I don't know if I said that already, but yeah, it was good. What was even better was Minority Report. Awesome. Tom Cruise was good as ever. I was at their site last night and was at the precrime site doing games/puzzles and stuff. Anyway, I'm hoping to switch my ridiculously expensive insurance from the one I have now at $938 for 6 months, to Geico (yes, the fricken lizard) at $650 or so for 6 months. That's almost a $300 savings. That's always good. Having a credit card is a bad idea. lol. I swore to use it for emergencies, but yeah, it's already piling up. Thank god I have a job and am getting paid in 2 days. I'll just pay that off quickly. I bought some stamps yesterday. I can't believe they're raising the price to $.37. Why are they doing that? It's stupid. But I guess they need the money huh? 1 million people buying a book of stamps at $.34 would yield $340K. With a $.3 increase that becomes $370K. I don't know the annual stamp buying statistics (though I should), but 3 cents would come to a lot more money in the whole scheme of things I guess. Fricken government. That was a useless rant. I took the day off today. Also, I sent Laura a bouquet of flowers to camp yesterday! It got there supposedly at 2:21pm, which was too late for her to get it yesterday, so she'll get it today while she's having lunch and HOPEFULLY, she'll be embarassed when she gets it today. Just a dozen pink roses, which she loves, but yeah, I thought it would be nice. Plus, there was a good deal. Hehe. Looks like it's going to be damn hot again today too. I don't know. I just hate Summer. Summer vacation may be the worst thing in the world. There's never nothing to do even though earlier in the year you and your friends talk amongst each other about going to road trips and stuff. Usually never happens, but hey, it's good to chat. My motorcycle project is coming along smoothly. I recruited the help of a fellow co-worker that has a bike and I'm getting advice from him. So far the only things I'm sure about are the following: the bike will be 600cc or lower, insurance won't be over $150/year, and it's either going to be a Yamaha or Kawasaki. I can't wait. I found a nice looking bike here in Fort Collins, but I can't get it dammit. I have no money. I don't want to go get a loan now. That would be stupid. I'll just have to wait. I have, in the meantime, downloaded some mpegs of bikes. Damn. They're awesome. Well, before I babble on to my death, I'll be going now. I have to get ready ya know?...to do nothing that is. I'll be back soon...er or later.

Well, well...look what we have here. Little ol' me writing again. Seems like from the last time I wrote..well, it's bee 13 days. I just came back from the theater watching The Bourne Identity. It was a good movie. I like Matt Damon...but above all, I've been waiting for tomorrow's premier of Minority Report. Damn, that looks good. I have been working, but pretty much 3/4 days because I have nothing to do, but apparently we are getting another big project here within the next week, so I'm psyched for that. I'm also excited to go up to Estes Park on Saturday with Laura. We're going there because she can get free rooms at a hotel through her work at camp. Nice huh? It's going to be a long day though...about 4-5 hours of driving I'd say. Can't wait to see her though, that's for sure. I can't go a week. But yeah, I have some things to say here, but I can't because it has to be kept confidential, even to my close friends. Sorry to whoever reads this! I don't think many people read this though. But yeah. I have been wanting to get a motorcycle for the longest time and I should be able to pull it off maybe by next Spring. I didn't realize how cheap the insurance is for a bike. It's like $140 a year...damn good if you ask me. Next month my insurance for the car will HOPEFULLY go down lower than fricken $166 a month. That's killin' me. If it would go down to about $105 like it used to be, it would help me out so much. It's been hot here lately. around 96 and shit. I can't do that. It's too hot in my room and I can't cool it down because, well, it's hot outside and we have no A/C. Oh well, it's not so bad. Living here is going good, by the way. The dog's doing great too. He's bored though, I can tell. He stays in the house all day because there's no one home, (me primarily) and I am never in the mood to take him out on a walk. My next project, though, like I mentioned would be the bike. I need to take motorcyles classes, as I have no idea how to run one, and that'll make the insurance even cheaper. I'm looking at a mid-class ~600cc bike...pretty much anything for me to start out. I just want to go fast, that's all. 180+ is my goal before I die. It's getting dark outside, which has usually been my que to go to sleep. Yeah, 10:30's my bedtime. I wake up at 6:30. I'm used to it now. I have to take a shower though. It feels so good right before you go to bed. It's the third to best feeling. I'm not disclosing what the top two are. Hehe. It's not what you think. I'm selling a couple more things on eBay...actually it's over now, I'm just waiting for the payments to arrive. The combined total should be around $120...hehe, extra money baby. I also got a fricken credit card again, but this time I've learned my lesson...not to use it when I have no money to pay them back. Seriously, a credit card can be either the best thing in the world when used correctly, or pretty much hell. Never get into debt people...it sucks. Lucky for me, I have fairly good credit, as I haven't ever been late for a payment courtesy of my Mom, which I promise will pay back soon. Maybe even the next pay check depending on how much I have left ya know? Bills suck, vacuums suck, and whores suck. Well, I'll try and not to forget about my blog...because I really did forget up until about 20 minutes ago when I'm like...wait a minute. I have a blog!...and thus I'm here writing again. Among the hundreds (hehe) of hours of surfing I've done in the past couple months, I have seen a slew of new sites that're cool. I'm not going to write them down because it's a pain and I can't really rememember them all, but yeah, just wanted to mention it. The next edition of the blog will be a lengthy, well, kinda, of my opinion on 'geniuses' of our century (past century). We'll see how that goes. Talk to you later and have a good night!

Whoa, so, a lot has happened again since the last time I wrote. It's been a while. I have good reasons though. I wrote this blog at home, as a matter of fact, saved it on disk, and took it to work to upload it to my entries. So...right now I have no idea what day was the last time I wrote, so I'm going to update you. Laura and Ashley left for camp on June 2nd...THAT sucked. It was probably the saddest day for a long time for me. Laura and I hung out all night the night before and the morning was even harder. We both cried a lot. I'm embarassed to let that one out. Anyway, we are going to communicate to each through letters since she can't make calls at camp NOR will she have internet access. How else can it blow? I got the new dog, named it Magellan and he's doing quite well in the new home. He's learned to pee outside, not go upstairs, etc. We're doing great. The house is empty though. Not furniture, food, etc. empty...just...I want company. I guess Camp Chief Ouray isn't too far from here, only a couple hours from what Laura told me, so I am happy about that. I am going to go up there every chance I get. I can even go up though for the first time until about 2 1/2 weeks from now since they have training or something and they don't have weekends off the first two weeks. More bad news huh? Tell me about it. I've been trying to keep myself busy since they've left, but it's really not working. I miss Laura so much. I can't stand to be away from her for more than 1 or 2 weeks at a time and now it's the entire Summer?!?! I have been getting lunch with Zach though up here in Fort Collins. The first time we went to Wok and Roll and the second to Schlotzsky's Deli. I'm sure we'll go again sometime this week. The house is still packed with things to get unpacked though. We only managed to move Laura's lower half of the desk before they left and nothing big of Ashley's. Kinda sucks. I'm going to try and convince Rod to help me move the rest of the shit. What else...work is going good. Busy lately, which is a first and it's stuff that takes quite a while. I need to keep myself entertained at work somehow. Also, the site that Jesse and I were working on is finally up and running. EliteStudia.com is the URL and please visit! We're hoping to make some money on this deal. Apart from copying a few hundred dollars worth of software at work, namely Macromedia stuff, that's about the bulk of the news and sadness. I'm going to Rod's work here in about 20 minutes. I took Magellan to the vet today and fuck it was a lot. $80 or so with an exam and all the shots. Unbelievable how much they charge. I don't even think I have that much money lying around. I just wrote a check and hoped that it's not going to bounce. That would suck. I should be fine though. I can emphasize enough how much I'm missing Laura. I've written 3 letters and it's been 2 week days. I'm going nuts. I have been watching so much Food TV that I'm going insane. That's a good thing though, because although we cancelled the cable 4 days ago, it's still there. We're hoping that it'll stay like that for a long time. Also, Friday is a glorious day because I'm getting cable internet installed in the house! I can't go for more than a week without the internet. That's almost as bad as missing Laura. It actually would be if I cried over not having the internet. I cried a little today though thinking about Laura. I hope she's having a blast at camp though, as much as I hate camp. But yeah, the blog will become regular again after Thursday and I'll BET you that I'll write every night bitching about me missing Laura. Oh well...I can't wait to see her. I saw a documentary on the Goo Goo Dolls and I learned a lot about the hardships they went through. I haven't gotten a haircut and I desperately need to. Maybe tomorrow? Nah, I have no money for that kind of luxury. Well, I think I'm going to say goodbye for now with a tribute to Bob Marley (I'm listening to him right now). So, stay healthy...I know I wont'!

New blog coming very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't sleep. I need to, but I can't...it's the worst feeling in the world. I am going to fall asleep knowing that when I wake up a few hours from now, I won't be refreshed and subsequently will be tired the entire day. That's what most of my weekdays are consisted of. Maybe things will change. Fat chance...there are two kinds of people in this world. The liars and the non-liars. Whichever becomes your friend is your choice. Some people like liars, like to lie and some people are truthful and trustworthy. The only answer to find out the truth is life. You have to live it and you'll find out sooner or later. I just hate the ones who tell you one thing and you KNOW that they're lying and is feeding you bullshit. What do they get? Amusement apparently. People just joke things off. I fucking hate that. What do I get? The worse feeling inside you. The bad feeling when you know you can't trust people...it sucks. There are a few people in my life or was in my life that I could really trust. Really trust. Not the usual meet me for lunch at 12 or could you send these letters out kind of trust. I mean trust like would you stick up for me in situations, even though you know I'm wrong. Would you do so and so for me and not tell anyone...as telling anyone would result in disastrous consequences. Of those few people, I'm hesitant and sad to say that there are just a couple in my life now. I'm not saying who. You know who you guys are and I know who they are. That's all that anyone needs to know. The world needs more people like these people. It's just...sad. You spend your entire life with the people you choose and sometimes that turns out to be a blessing. Sometimes not so great. But you need them. You need both kinds of people to live, which is strange. You should just be able to live by yourself if you could, but you can't. You can't just live with the liars, because then you wouldn't even know the truth. Living with just the honest ones is just, well, boring. A careful blend of each will yield the best results. Do you have the right blend? I am going to start an internet site offering services for money with my friend that I've ignored for the most part after H.S. It turns out that sometimes the ones you hated are the ones that really care. Strange how that works. I know who my friends are and of those friend, a few of them I've got to know them well enough that I know when they're sincere. It's just a matter of whether or not I should do anything about it. I am going to get shit for teaming up with my old friend to do this site, but he's the only one who was willing to put forth the effort to start something like this with me. Some just said yes and never took action with me. I can't deal with that. So continuing on my life at age 20, I guess I'm still searching for great friends. Great friends that I thought I had up to now aren't really that great anymore. Sad to say. People replace people, friendships are replaced by other friendships...but memories stay. I will still have the memories of when my friends WERE actually friends. I don't know if they had a plan or what. What is the meaning of my life? Is it to just satisfy the fucking life of another friend by giving up some happiness of mine? Is it to be existing so I can hear the bullshit of this world and not be given enough power to do anything about it? Is it to go out of my fucking way to make another person's life easier? Shit, I'm tired of this. In a little more than a day, I will be moving out of this house and moving into a new house, with different people. I think it's a good decision on my part. I will be able to get away from a lot of my troubles and worries. What am I sacrificing for that? I don't know. I'll know in the future when I look back at my entire life and see what I've accomplished. I need to start putting my priorities in order. It's the people who do that correctly who become successful. But what is success? It is characterized by your status in society? I don't think so. I'll bet that even a homeless person out on the streets is a better person than most living in this world. Wanna argue that with me? I don't want to. You go try living out in the streets and giving up everything you have to survive. I'm sure most will give up and go back to one of their "friends" for help. Well what about the people who don't have friends? Friends are taken for granted. I hate it when I'M taken for granted...again sad to say that I am sometimes. I notice it yes, do I say anything? No. Why you ask? Because it's not worth the effort. Some people just don't fucking care if you are there or not. You're just there to use. When I become 21. I'm willing to bet that friends that I haven't talked to in days, months, or even years might come to me asking to buy alcohol. And you know what? I will for the most part. Why you ask again? Because I just hate to see people getting let down. But sometimes you just have to let them down to make them realize the importance of a friend. If they still don't get it. I have no solution for that. Go fucking find other friend's who'll be your bitch. "Good things come to those who wait"...is it true? Maybe. I have been waiting quite sometime for something good to happen to me and frankly I think I've gotten it. In the big view of things, that phrase doesn't apply to things like, winning a trophy or getting an A or shit like that. It's the more valuable things in life. Your true love, accomplishing what you've wanted to do since you can remember, making someone happier than they've ever been before. That's the things. What's the good that's happened to me? Well I'm sure someone can figure that out. College is one of the best times in your life. If someone tries to tell you it's the best time of your life, who's to say that? What if your childhood was the best time of your life? Other people don't know your life. Frankly I don't think college is THE best time of my life, but it sure it a good time. New people, new experiences, and new ideas sprout. Yet...I'm still waiting for the good things to come my way. Working, paying bills, schooling, and shit like that will hopefully pay off for me in the future. When someone tries to out do you in something they have no idea about...that just pisses me off. To this day, only a few people know the shit I've gone through and had to deal with in my life. If you're not one of them, please, don't fucking try and impress me with your bullshit. I don't CARE if you're smarter than me. I don't CARE if you have more money than me. I don't CARE if you think you are a better person than me. Everyone is individually perfect. Hell, most animals are smarter than most fucking humans. Go out there try to survive for even a month. I'll guarantee you'll get eaten by the bacteria in the end. Why do you frown upon Hitler? Bin Laden? Why do you praise soldiers who KILL the enemies? Who's a better person? Each are fighting for what they believe in. So who's right? Obviously the bad guys are wrong...since they're...well, bad guys. A lot of people disagree on my liking of Hitler, Stalin, Genghis Kahn. Yeah they tried to take over the world. Yeah they killed millions of people. What's the furthest you've gone to obtain what you want? I bet it's not THAT far. I'm nearing the end of my thoughts and I do have to get going to bed. I feel a little better now that this is over. I hope people begin to realize that life ain't a game. It's war.............

Hey...so yeah. Let's see, where to begin. When Shane was here last night we talked a lot about school and I got to thinking about it. There are people out there, like Shane and another friend of ours, Jeff, who study their ass off in school to do good. I guess I'm not that kind of person, but I want to be. I guess Jeff had 20 credits and he pulled a 4.0, which is pretty amazin in itself plus the fact that he's in a hard school. I guess he didn't have time at all to have fun, or if he did, it was a meager amount of time. I can't get motivated to do that. Shane said that the last couple weeks he said he'd study for about 8 hours on the weekends just to be ready. I CAN'T do that. I know that sometimes studying can be actually fun. I've had that experience before. It's when the studying is boring and goes over my head when I starts to lose concentration and listen to music or surf or whatever there is to do to get away from the studying. I hopefully can change next semester. I decided to up my credits from 9 to 15, though 4/5 classes are online. It's a start for me right? I guess we just have to get through these times. Once we get through this, it should be a pretty nice life after the education that you get from college. I guess that hasn't hit me yet, since I believe that a degree isn't everything, but everything in the real business world thinks that a person with a degree is always better than one without. With that out of my head, I'm raising my glass to a better next semester. Most likely next Friday or Saturday will be the day that I get a new dog. Hopefully there'll be and I'll be able to get it. I'm looking for a cattle dog, like the dog that Laura has. I like those kinds of dogs. Sucks that huskies and dogs like that are out of the question. I may go to Elitch's on Sunday, but probably not if I get a dog, since that's over $200 down the tubes right there just with the adoption of the dog and the pet deposit. Plus I have to buy food and accesories. Then I have to RUN with the dog most every morning. All plans put aside, I probably won't be able to do that, because it means me getting up around 6, running for maybe what, 30 minutes or so???...taking a shower, and then eating and going to work by 7:30...I will either love it or hate it. I do need to get in shape, so that may be what I'll do. No one will be here this summer with the exception of Chris and Rod. Rod with be working right when I get off work and he gets off at 10:30, so I'll most likely not see him unless it's the weekend or something. Even then I want to drive up to Winter Park to see Laura a few times this summer and the rest of the time I'll want to sleep or something. It's gonna be a weird summer. If I don't get a grant or something for my tuition, that means I'll have to pay that too, which will suck and probably half my money made this summer will be gone. and with bills, rent, and insurance...oh yeah, and phone, it's gonna be a tight summer budget wise. At least I'm getting to know the real world huh? Chris is doing who knows what. I will probably see him maybe a couple times this year. I will also be working on making the garage area look nice before the girls come back for the summer. Man, I thought summer was the time you have fun?? I guess some people have fun, some don't. Nothing else has happened lately. Been working, wasting time, watching the food network and sleeping for the most part. I have nothing to do at work (yes, still). I am trying, but my both actually comes back next Tuesday, so, I'm SURE she'll have something for me to do. I listened to a few hundred songs (trance) the last couple of nights and compiled a CD of the songs that I liked...of those few hundred, I managed to pick out a scant 15. I guess I have picky taste for trance. I only like one or two "kinds" of them...high, high, HIGH treble! Then I listened to them in my car and found out most of the tracks have huge amounts of bass...damn. But yeah, I think I may talk to Laura now...so I'll be heading off. G'night.

I will write a pretty long blog later on...I don't know what time, but I just want to write down some things that have been in my head from last night. It's not a big deal or anything, just thoughts. Yup, um, see ya later.

A very good friend of me and Chris came up today. I haven't seen Shane since, oh, probably sometime after graduation. Man. It was good to see him though. Work was boring. Laura stayed the night and I ended up going to work at like, 10. Oops. So Saturday, Laura and I are going to go to dinner with my family. She's really nervous about that. I keep telling her that there's nothing to worry. I am contemplating to see if I can go to Elitch's on Sunday. Maybe, maybe not. We'll have to see. We are finally moving in next Wednesday! I can't wait. I got the job of decorating the garage. Yes, the garage, we're using it as a "room", so to speak. The party room really. We'll have 3 couches and a chair in their, so. It should be the coziest of all the rooms. I am beginning to wonder if the general public is reading my blogs. I think they aren't, but yeah. Doesn't really matter. Tomorrow is just another day at work. Actually I have an orthodontist's appointment at 8 in the morning. God damn. I have to wake up in just over 6 hours. *sigh* I need these braces off soon. Well, with that said, I'm going to get going and get a good night's rest. Bye.

Another color change...and another blog. So as this end of my living at this house nears the end of its existence, I am starting to think about the fun times I've had here near the beginning of the year, all the way through when the troubles began...around November. I remember the first party, the second party, having Ashley and Laura over all the time, and that's about it. Those were the most fun times for me. Then the big shit hit the fan when Ashley and Derek hated each other, Derek and Mat moved out, and I didn't hang out with Derek nor Rod much for about two months...which brought another group of friends over that I didn't like much. All in all, I think I learned a lot of lessons this year. I'm not going to list them here because they're my lessons and mine only, :), but maybe someday. Going to Denver last night was fun. We went to the mall, which wasn't fun for me, and ate at the Hard Rock Cafe. I can't believe it's only like 2 weeks until everyone goes to camp...I'm gonna miss Laura quite a lot. But yeah...I don't know. Seems like I have been writing in here a lot! I was reading the earlier blogs a couple days ago and brought back some fun memories. I stopped reading around February, though. I got tired of reading it. Today is another plan-less day. Ashley is going to Boulder and then coming back. I am going to eat some 7-layer bean dip when she gets back. Rod is working. Laura is shopping for wedding stuff with her family. Chris is working, I think. So yeah, a little R&R time for me watching the food network. Good eats is on today! I am going to watch that this time...laters.

I'm really sorry for those who were wondeirng where all my earlier blogs went. I know only a couple people check this blog (you know who you are), but I didn't even notice that the earliest blog I had was from April. I took the liberty of republishing all my blogs...I may even read those right now...I had no idea that I started this blog thing way the hell back in November...my how time flies...

As the Summer gets off to a rocky start, I'm starting to think what everyone is thinking. Everyone's just been, weird, to say the least. Ash seems to like Chris and vice versa though they tell me no. (bull, I think) Rod is liking everyone all of a sudden (again) except Ashley. I guess Mat isn't being talked to by Grant and Derek...I could go on and on, actually, not really, that's about it, but anyway, that's not the point. Work was quite boring today, though I came back with some goodies courtesy of Uncle Sam. I am finalizing my tax shit and hopefully I'll get some help. Tomorrow Rod and I are going to Denver to visit Laura and going to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. I haven't seen her in a week, so it will be a GREAT thing to see her. I don't know...I haven't been doing much else. I never like the whole idea of Summer. It's like a void of nothing, for most people that is. Don't get me wrong, a select few percentage of people actually have fun...yes, those spoiled fucks who don't work and have their mommy and daddy give them money to lay back on the beach in the bahamas...WHILE, the other thousands of teenagers out there are working their asses off for things like NEXT year's tuition...aren't we supposed to be able to forget about school during the summer? Apparently not. We pay insurance, bills, and other expenses. Damn the spoiled rats. But, I just hope that something good will come out of what I'm doing later on in life. I calculated the next 30 days' worth of expenses and my income from my job is around 90% gone, which leaves me with enough money to eat a couple times a day and fill up my car a couple times. I've been perusing the web during work the last 4 days since I have jack shit to do, but I have found an interesting place. If it's not wrong, the address is web.archive.org and on the front page there's a thing called "The Wayback Machine". This little program will find pretty much any website that has been up since 1996. I myself have checked my own site and I found a really old page of mine. Brought back memories of last summer, actually. Anyway, check that out and check out how the web has changed over the last decade. 2 more weeks plus a day until the day we move in to our new house. I can't wait. I guess the only people living at this house is going to be Chris and Ben. Lucky them. I will be living at the new place all by myself this summer, which is a well deserved break for me, apart from not being able to see Laura. I am planning on going up a couple times a month hopefully, but the 6-hour round trip is a killer. But yeah, it's for good reason. I can't stand to be away from her more than a week or a couple weeks if I'm lucky. Yeah, sad? No. Good? Yes. You figure it out. I have been sleeping great lately though. I think I've finally gotten in to the routine of waking up at 6:30, leaving for work around 7:15, getting off at around 3 (though it should really be 3:30), and coming home and pretty much doing nothing until the cycle is started over again around the early time of 10:30 pm or so. I'm listening to Greenday right now. Contemplating whether or not I should go to sleep. I hope tomorrow is a good day. I mean, I know it will be, but I just hope nothing pisses me off. It always does for a couple hours and goes away. This is no relevant news, but I got enough stamps to go get a free grinder at Mancino's thanks to the help of Susan. She has given me a total of 12 punches on my card for the 3 grinders that I have actually paid for. Friends in good places is definitely a good thing. Soon though, everyone will be gone for camp. The only people left from our group will be me, Rod, and Chris...about it. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Probably what I'm doing here, but oh well. This has probably been one of my longer of my blogs. I just felt like writing today. I feel better now. I saw Ashley's Mom and her sister today. They are pretty funny. Okay, so I've gone through like 5-6 songs while writing this blog, which means I've spent plenty of time now...probably more than a few day's worth of blogs so don't be surprised if I don't write again until next week or something. Hope you have yourself a quiet, relaxing evening like I will...adios.

Well, I brushed my teeth for the night. Ashley is upstairs right now...and I'm beginning to think they both like each other despite what anyone says. :) It's my opinion. This is will get interesting further I'm sure. Laura is coming home tomorrow. I'm working in the morning. That's about it from Colorado. G'night."

"I can see clearly now the rain is gone..." I am in a rather good mood right now...oops, nevermind.

Man am I tired. I have to get to sleep as I have to wake up quite early tomorrow...as a matter of fact, this is going to have to become my routine...up at 6:30, sleep at 11...up at 6:30...sleep at 11...and you get the picture. I'm gonna lay low for the next few days. Maybe I'm all in a pissy mood because I haven't seen Laura in a long time. It's been only like 4 days or something, but yeah, I don't know what the deal is. Maybe it's just the people here. Heck if I know. I have been having fun with Ashley though the last couple days...making necklaces, going to eat, and shit like that. I think things are going to be just fine next year with the three of us. I just hope that Front Range goes well...I can't believe I'm going there...*shakes head* G'night.

I was reading up on some oooooooooold shit earlier today. My old, old site from when I did it in the dorms. That's about a year from now. I was reading some of my own journals and stuff that I did back then. It brought some good memories. I may even decide to like, put it all back online again. Who knows. I also found templates of a site that Chris and I were going to start...wallpaper site. But yeah, I just thought that that would be interesting information. Primarily for me that is. I had a good time last night actually. Ben is officially back home in Longmont for the Summer. I'm sure he'll come up and stuff periodically to hang out and party. I will definitely have to go down there and play some golf with him or something. Chris is at work now. I think Ashley and I are going to go check out Rod at work...sorry, let me rephrase that... GO SEE Rod at work because he wanted us to. Then tomorrow and on will be full-time for me and make some money. I can't wait to move into the new place. I guess I'm supposed to decorate the kitchen area and the girls are going to decorate pretty much everything else. What else...oh yeah, I'm going to buy a DC/AC power inverter for my car...an easier way to understand that is I'm going to get a cigarette lighter that turns into a coupld electrical outlets for appliances. Then I'm going to put in my DVD player and I'm going to buy a small 7" TV or something and I'll be able to watch DVDs on long trips. :) Hell yeah. The adapter is going to be around $50 and that's all I need. I'm sure I can find a small TV somewhere. Anyway, I'll write later.

Hey guys. Finals and school is finally over. Thank god. Starting work full-time next Monday. I have been figuring out how much I have and shit in terms of money and it looks grim. The next month, I might have enough money to buy a lunch at McDonald's or something...yes, even with working. Rent is coming up and utilities from my old house and...yeah, it makes me depressed just thinking about it. Hopefully my insurance will lower after my 6-months is up. Anywhoo. I miss Laura. She's been gone for like, a couple days now, but anyway. My room's a mess. I haven't hung out with anyone, though the reason is because I've been tired as shit, for a couple days now. Chris and Rod and Ashley seem to be best friends the last few days. Man...I think I think too much about what's gonna happen. I tell people not to worry about the future and I worry myself. I should take my own advice more. Turns out that my family in Niwot want to have dinner with me and Laura...so I told them probably next Saturday. Hopefully Laura will want to too. I can't get a husky, like I always wanted at the new apartment...but I can still get a smaller dog, like a miniature snouzer...(dunno if I spelled that right)...or a jack russel terrier...or maybe even something a little bigger. Going to the Denver Dumb Friends League is the next course of action, however. I have to fill out the big ass property damage sheet for everyone for the new place when we move in. They better thank me for that. It's like 50 pages.I'm drinking a can of Sprite right now...it's 4:15 or something. What am I doing up? I fell asleep around 10:30 and woke up about 30 minutes ago. I took a bath. My eyes itch like a mother fucker. It seemed like it almost healed like a week ago, but it's back. God dammit. I think I'm gonna go surf for a little bit now and then pass out again probably around 7 o' clock. I'll wake up again around evening and I don't know. I feel as though I don't want to do anything anymore...

I swear...I'm not going to disclose what I'm talking about, but something needs to get straightened out...Maybe I'll discuss it in further detail later, but I am not in the mood to do this shit, so I thought I might write this down for my own personal reasons. I'm going to play ping pong now. Go have a night.

Okay...so maybe this world isn't fucked up...but it sure is weird. Things are never a constant that's for sure. Things have been hectic lately. We finally secured a townhome about 1 minute from where I live here now. It's a nice place. I can finally get a dog! I am looking around and I found an awesome at the local humane society. A siberian husky, but I doubt it'll still be there around June 1st...so. I'm just going to starting looking for one around that time. Among other news...seems like everyone here in this little city is back to being friends again. We went to Cold Stone ice cream last night and there was a long ass line. It's not really worth it in my opionion to wait almost 20 minutes to an hour for some ice cream, but apparently hundreds of people a week think otherwise. I watched a little Food TV today in a long time. Great channel. I will start working full-time next week...which means lots of money coming in!...and most likely going out. I will have to save up though. So that's fine. Finals is this week, but I'm not too concerned about that. I applied to Front Range Community College last week and I register this coming Wednesday. I'll take some regular classes and hopefully I'll really, really try this semester. I have to or I'm gonna start paying the price soon. I am not able to go to California this Summer, but maybe I might be able to squeeze in some time for a little vacation somewhere. Just listening to music now, but I'm gonna go eat soon. If you have time, take a gander at Ray of Light. He updated his site just yesterday and I must say it's pretty nice. I like his experimental site also, which you can find on his main site. He's really talented. I have been yearning to make a new site for myself in the last couple months, and I may finally start on it. I just need an idea. I didn't have Photoshop just until a couple days ago thanks to the great services of Grokster :). Work is going great and well, there's nothing bad going on right now. I have to do an oil change soon or my Mom is going to start geting mad. I fricken got two photo radar tickets in the last month. Sucked. $80 down the drain at $40 a piece. I'm sure them fuckers will use that money for donuts for the next couple weeks for the station...*shakes head*. See ya later.

THIS WORLD IS FUCKED UP

Well, nice to see that I'm writing in here again. Been working and not much schooling. It's okay though. There's only 2 weeks + finals week left. I'm psyched to work full-time this Summer. Hopefully I'll be able to do some cool projects. Lately I've been printing out hundreds of pages of manual shit. Boring I tell you. Anyway, here's a link to my autobiography that I completed this weekend. I'll add more stuff as I find things that I've missed and what not. Maybe I'll update it every month...yeah right. It was long to type it out as it is. Anywho, here it is: BAM!. Among other news...I bought some neon lights for my car today. I want to try them out at night...it's 5:30...and there's like 2-3 more hours of light...damn..the time is going by slow. I bought some stickers to put on my car also. We went shopping with Rod's sister last night. Well, I just walked around with Rod and his sister split up with us. But yeah...nothing new to report. The antenna for my phone that I ordered a while back was supposed to come yesterday, but haven't seen a sight of it yet. Strange...but it did say 5-7 days...which means tomorrow will be the 7th day...and that's the time when I start to get angry. I also cleaned my car, which made me feel better and took out unnecessary shit. I have no ideas for this weekend. It's an open weekend I guess. I should start studying for finals, considering I haven't gone to class in such a long time and I really don't know what's going on. My laundry is still on the floor since yesterday. I really do not want to put it away. I finally got my new registration stickers for my car so I don't have to worry about getting pulled over. Today was actually a busy day. Tomorrow is golf day! Man, Chris and I are on a team playing best ball against Ben Bath and our Ben. I don't know how it's gonna turn out. We have a good chance though, so. I'll write about it tomorrow. Time to wrap it up. Go have a night.

Howdy fellas. Long day...long day. Everything and everyone is ok though. Last night Rod decided to not live with us and he's going to live with his parents. Fun day at work. I was designing this new site that my boss asked me to make. I should be done by tomorrow though. I was going to change the design anyway, from vertical layout to horizontal. But yeah, tonight is a chill night. I am going to watch the rest of Training Day and most likely go to bed. I might sign on later to see if Laura is on and talk for a bit. I am tired though. Today especially. Nothing really new to report. Kicked Chris' ass in ping pong earlier. I am waiting for this Summer to start. Man. Only a month to go, a little less even. I can't wait to make some serious money this Summer. I have to pee so bad right now. I'll go after I finish this. Man, my eyes have been itchy so bad lately. I don't know if it's pink eye or what. It's this time of year again. Fricken rashes, allergies, stuffy noses. I should really get a prescription for this, but I am not going to. :) I think we are going to the zoo this weekend, weather and time permitting. Just checking my checking now right now, I have (finally) financial freedom. Actually I really don't because the insurance is up $66 to 166.50...I should have kept my insurance. Dammit. $66 per month is such a lot of money. Hopefully after this 6 months, I'll be able to lower it a bit. Then, I have my cell phone bill that I never fricken use. That's $40 a month. Then there's one more month of rent at $315, and I think, if I'm not mistaken, 2 more months worth of utility bills, which will probably equal around $150 or so. Then I'm home free. I'll be living at Ashley's house for a couple months and then it'll be time to move into our new place August 1st. I can't wait. Front Range is also on the horizon, which I have to apply to soon. I didn't think I'd be where I am right now. I should really get my act up to snuff. I need to stop playing around. At least I have a job now right? :) Cheers to everyone for now.

I'm back and on the same day even. Anyway, I cracked the glass on my scanner earlier today because I put my knee on it thinking it was the ground and it just snapped. Now I'm going to find something fun to do with this rubble. I want to throw it as hard as I can on the ground, but maybe I'll throw it off the interstate or something. I don't know. I went to the DMV and fucking there was this shit-ass-fuck long line of high schoolers trying to get their driver's licenses or what not. I was like, uh...no, and left. I'll just send in the stuff to get new stickers for my plates. Speaking of which I have to decide what I want on my custom license plates because I want to get that soon. $35 for the first year and $25/year after that isn't too bad for showing off that you have different plates than most everyone else. I was going to put "DA JAP" but I think that won't get accepted, as it is pretty vulgar. In any rate, today hasn't been that good of a day. Coupled together with that fact that its only Thursday makes it worse. I went to the mountains (hills, really) to chill and get some quiet. I looked at Fort Collins "up close" with my binoculars and had some fun with that. There's this road that goes up to a higher point, but there's no road that I can see that connects to it, so I'll have to venture out and find out what the deal is. I'm going to play some ping pong with Chris now, so I'll let you get back to what you guys were doing before you decided to read this stupid blog. Lataz.

So I'm sitting here at work. This is the first blog that I've done from work. I really like my work I just realized. I don't do much and when I do get swamped with work, it's not like it's hard or anything. I can do it within an hour or two and the rest of the day is a breeze. Man, this is the life. Too bad there's school to worry about. Anyway, I'm still waiting for my two movie tickets to United Artists that my Mom was going to give Chris but Chris is a dumbass and he left without getting them. Actually, that's all I have to say right now. Um...I'll get going. See ya.

Howdy. I finally got my emissions test. Now I have to go to the DMV to get a sticker. Then I should be good for a while. Problem wise, that is. I got a photo radar ticket a couple days ago. That sucked. i was driving along and *flash* goes the, well, flash. Anyway, Rod is going to live with us next year, so we're going to look at 4 bedroom houses now. Hopefully we can fetch one by the end of this week. Ashely got a white parakeet. Sorry, but I don't like birds. Speaking of pets, since this new house can have a dog, I'm going to get a husky!!!!!!! Fuck yes. I've always wanted one. Work is going good. Today was kinda hard since I actually worked all day on Flash stuff. Time consuming, but easy. I think I caught a cold or something. My nose has been, well, sinus really, really bad and it makes my eyes water like every 30 minutes. It sucks. I hope it goes away soon. Just as an update, there's been a handful of good songs that came out lately. Goo Goo Dolls' "Here is Gone" is a good one. Alien Ant Farm's "Movies" is also a great one. I've been into Dave Matthews lately too. I like "Lie in Our Graves". Today was kind of a mellow day. I didn't really do anything. I actually took a nap from 4-7. It was nice. I haven't gotten much sleep lately. I don't know why. But yeah, I think finally everything in my life is going smooth now. Well, as smooth as it can get. I have been trying to think of an original idea for a website. Any ideas? I wanted to do something cool, but oh well. I'll think of something sometime and get to it. Well, I'm out of stuff to say...I'm really trying hard, but I'm out, so I'll be leaving now. Go have a good night, if you want. See ya.

Ok, so I didn't like that last font either. I'll try out arial instead this time. I filed my tax returns finally and should be getting that money back within the next month. Rent is due tomorrow. Ugh. I get paid for the first time this Friday. I don't get a paycheck, just into my checking account, but it's been so long since I've last gotten paid I don't think I know what to do. Just listening to "Lightning Crashes" by Live right now. I played a little ping pong last night with Chris and Ben for who knows how long. I beat Chris, but Ben beat me, so I have to work on that. Just a note, my room is still clean. :) I have to do laundry today too, I guess. Well, I really don't need to do it, so I probably won't. It's a nice day out I think. I went over to Rod's place last night because people were there, but when I went they were all at IHOP I guess, and I didn't feel like waiting, so I left. I watched TV while going to sleep. I haven't done that in a long time. I watched some Food TV this morning. I love that show. I don't know what I'm doing today. Oh yeah, Happy Easter to those who actually celebrate it. I don't. I don't celebrate many holidays. Well, come to think of it, none. Pretty simple huh? I am truly out of things to do. I don't want to surf anymore (which is a big deal for me), but I'll probably end up doing that. I'll write in here soon. See ya!.

What's up? It's, again, been a while. Before I ramble off, I'm changing the font for shits and giggles. I'm here right now listening to "Falling for the First Time" by the Barenaked Ladies. I've got a whole lot to tell you today. That's only just because it's been a week and a half. First off, I'd like to say that I accidentally clicked the wrong button the last time I did an update, so it saved my blog, but it didn't publish it to the web. Anyway, it's all fixed now. To start off our update this time, I want to say that when I went into work today, my computer did not let me log in, which meant I couldn't work on the stuff I needed to. I'm still going to put one hour down as my work time, but yeah, it sucked. I have to get that computer checked now. I probably did something to it, but, oh well. I'm known for that. Laura, Ashley, Derek, and Rod are in Boulder right now, hangin' out with Jenny (Jenni?) Dill and stuff. I decided not to go because I wouldn't have had fun. So I still haven't done my emissions test for my car. I'm such a lazy donkey. I'm doing it tomorrow though. I have to go down to Longmont and also do my taxes while I'm there. I hope I don't run into problems! :P I should be getting like $400-$500 back so that's a real help, though that will probably go to rent and paying my Mom back. I also rearranged my room today. It's a helluva lot nicer and more room to work with. I am going to keep it fricken clean from now on. No more shit on the floor and stuff. You hear me? I also got my new website up. Take a peek here and let me know how it is. A good friend of mine gave me this space and it's finally without banners. Phew! yeah, I was also learning more programming languages earlier today, though it's just for web design purposes. I learned finally the gist of CSS, XHTML, and some JavaScript. I'm still working on the JavaScript. I had a history test today too. I did pretty bad. I read some of the pages of the covered text afterwards and a lot of the answers were right there, so I think my solution is to read this time. :) In any case, I'm probably going to go to Front Range next year, so it's ok. I'm taking it easy, if you know what I mean. We're still apartment hunting, if anyone cared. Can't find the perfect one. It's pretty hard to find one actually. We're looking into homes now. It's kinda cold here in the basement. Ben and Chris decided to redo the ping-pong table. The basement smelled like spray paint all last night. It's mostly gone now. I am going to take it east tonight. If I'm not too tired when they get back, Rod wants us to watch Training Day at his house, but I think I'm going to stay here and watch Braveheart...Laura too if she wants to :). I guess I'm out of stuff to say. The new song that I like right now is "Sorrow" by an old band called Bad Religion that just came onto the scene again. It's badass. Well see ya!

Well, well, well...it's been well over 3 weeks. Sorry about that. Anyway, a lot has happened. We just had our Spring Break for CSU, though, it's not even Spring yet. Anyhow, Laura and Ashley went to Missouri, Grant went skiiing, Mat, Luke, Susan and the gang went camping in New Mexico. I stayed home and worked. Yes, that's right. I have a job now. I work for the National Park Service doing web work and updating and stuff like that. Fits me perfectly since I already do that anyway. Getting paid $9.50/hr for that isn't bad at all. Well, yeah, so for the last 6 months or so I didn't have insurance. I went down to Longmont today to meet up with my Mom and get insurance again for my car. I'm glad to have it back again. I can speed, (well, not like I wasn't speeding) but speed with confidence. lol. I missed Laura that entire week that they've been gone. So anyway, Derek and Ashley still aren't together. Um, Laura and I are doing good, I'm talking with Ben, Chris and everyone else again, which is good. It's weird how a small talk and a little time can do to situations. Rod is still kinda mad, wants to move away or what not. We still have to figure out our housing situation for next Fall, but yeah, it's all good here in good ol' Ft. Collins. I have to go to school now. And I also have to watch my brother-in-law's house the next week and a half. They are all going to Hawaii, Maui to be exact, and that sucks. I want to go, but I really don't want to. I just want to go myself. My Mom is going too, so that's a well deserved vacation. :) Um, that's about the updates I have. Chris made a his new computer. Pretty fast and it should be up to technology for a little bit at least. I would love to make a computer right now, but I am going to wait for a few more months until both my budget increases and new technology comes out. Lately I'm like, "I don't want to do this, but I have to". You know what I mean? I have a lot to do this week. Emissions test for my car, get my car registered, do some paper work for my classes at CSU, work. Damn! I work now. Hehe. We'll I'll be going now. laters.

Hey, been a while again. I e-mailed about a couple job openings but haven't gotten a response back. I NEED to find a job this week for sure. It's snowing right now and I hope it's not that bad tomorrow morning. I hate driving in the snow. I am going to shovel it in the morning so we don't get a fucking ticket for it again. We hung out at Derek's tonight a little, but Derek was at Ashley's. I dunno, it's been weird lately. Like, mellow, if you know what I mean. I haven't talked to Chris or Ben in a while, and that's a hard thing to do considering they're my roommates, but I am beginning to feel that I want to leave this place. God I can't until Summer/Fall. I don't know how the school situation is going to be, but we'll see. Maybe I won't even have this blogger thing in the Summer. Spring Break is soon! Like, 2-3 weeks. I hope I will be working and everyone else will be having fun whatever they are doing. I need to get a hair cut as well as do my taxes this week, which means that I have to go down to Longmont. I don't particularly want to do that right now, but I guess I am going to have to. I'll explain later. School is going ok. Nothing is wrong, or good either. I don't know. I am totally not in the school mode. Well, I am going to surf a little more and gonna sleep so I can wake up early tomorrow. I'll write soon. BYE.

Hey!!! Okay, so I have a lot to tell you I guess since it's been, what, damn near 10 days? Actually, well, I don't even remember what happened between this time. Laura's birthday passed and that went good. I gave her my birthday present, which was a road sign that said "SLOW Children Playing". It's funny because even though there's supposed to be a pause after SLOW, it's more fun to say it without one. Hehe. She liked that. She also got other gifts like a plush tiger and an N64 game. Then there was Valentine's Day. Not a big deal for me, but Laura and I had a lot of fun. We got high (how ironic!) on that night and came back and also had fun. Well, that's the end of that. Now here's the big part of this blog. This past weekend was quite possibly my best day of my life. I had so much fun. Ashley through a party at her house. I was there, Laura, her friend Katie, Rod, Derek, Ashley (of course), Mat, Grant, Chris, Ben, Ben, JT, their friends, Luke, his friend, and even Larissa showed up. We had a great time. The beginning seemed weird because Chris' gang and our gang didn't mingle quite well. After they left, pretty much only the drunk people were left, so that was interesting. The best part of the night was that although I wasn't drunk or anything, Katie gave me Ritalin pills and I took 3 that night. My oh my was I hyper. It was the first time taking it and it was actually damn fun. The downfall of that is that I haven't slept really since then, so I'm tired, but I can't sleep. Hehe. Anyway, the drive over to Greeley to pick up Katie was fun, being it just me, Laura, and Rod. The best part, sorry, I was mistaken earlier, was that EVERYONE got along!!! Even Ashley and Derek did. We played Pocket Fighters on the PS and just hung out and talked. The drive to take Katie back to Greeley was nice too, and on the way back. Our "old" group was getting along again. On the way back to Ft. Collins from Greeley, we did a group fist love. Hehe. That was good too. The entire time I was so happy to see that everyone else was happy! I don't know how to explain it. Everyone didn't have a single problem that night. By the end of the night though, everyone was damn tired. Laura and I came back to my house and slept. Derek, Rod, and Ashley went to Denny's, apparently. I wish it could be like this all the time. Of course there's always bad news to follow. The bad news is that I have no money whatsoever to pay my rent or utilities or cell phone bill. I will have to ask my Mom or possibly Chris for some. I need to get a job. Which brings me to the other news that I'm most likely not going to be doing anything for Spring Break. Some are thinking of going to New Mexico to backpack and camp and some are still considering Missouri. I don't know what's going to happen but oh well. Oh yeah, and Ben, Ben, and JT ended up not going to Mardi Gras that I mentioned on the last blog. But all and all, this weekend was more beneficial to me than anything. It gave me a nice time off from all the stress lately. Tonight we went to Old Chicago's and our waiter was a fucking bastard. I'm going to return to the parking lot tomorrow and fucking shoot out his window on his car. He told me that Sprite (the best drink in the world) was quote, "the same damn thing" as Sierra Mist. God fucking shit. And then later on Laura and I were just bickering about stuff and he told me to quote, "Shut up, you're digging yourself deeper." By that time, I was just furious. I fucken hate that no good shit piece of bull feces. I'm going to kill that motherfucker. That's right, it may be my first murder. Uh huh. With that said, I read a little PC World today to catch up on the latest computer technology. It's roughly 1:30am right now and frankly, I am not tired at all. Well, tired, but not able to sleep. The Ritalin is still in me I guess. It should be ok by tomorrow. I have to call my sister tomorrow to see if she can check over my taxes for me. Afterwards and a few weeks later, I'll be able to claim some money! I can't wait. But I guess the high point of this blog was that party. It was great. I still can't get over it. I'm also thinking about what I should do next Fall too. I don't know if I should just work or work and school or just school or what. I don't have a clue. Well, I'm going to try and get some sort of sleep tonight. It's going to be a long day tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! Damn. I just want to say that I love Laura too!!!! I realized how awesome she is during that party. I think I know who my real friends are now....and that's something only I will know. :) Keep reading!

Okay, so today started out a horrible day. I woke up late, so I missed class, which also means that I missed my quiz in History class. That also means that I forgot to call Laura in the morning. I didn't study much for the art test that I also had, that was kinda disturbing. I skipped my Chemistry class because I got a 70 on the first test (which I found out yesterday) and I didn't feel like school today at all. I'm sitting here now typing this and deciding what to do tonight. Most likely go to Derek's party and come back and sleep. Laura is back home for her early b-day, which is Monday. Turns out JT, Ben, and Ben are going down to Lousiana since it's Mardi Gras. I personally would not like that trip. I think some people know why. I was also asked to go to Missouri for Spring Break. Laura, Ashley, and Rod are awaiting my decision from what I hear. I'm going to think about it, but I'm sure I'll go since I have nothing else to do...but in the case that I do get a job or something, it's gonna suck to say "I can't go" at the last minute, so. We'll see. That's all. I'll write again soon.

So, hmm, it's been way too long. A lot has been happening and all and all, it's been for the good. I had my first Chemistry test yesterday. We'll see how that one went tomorrow, or maybe today! Derek went over to Ashley's place last night and I guess they got along really well. That's a nice thing to know considering they both thought otherwise. I hope it all works out. My teeth have been moving lately too, so it's a little sore in the back. Laura's b-day is coming up soon. I have to get her something. :) I moved all the TV stuff and speakers and such into my room since the last time. I love it. I finally have speakers and a TV!!!!!! I have to do my tax return today too. I keep putting it off, because I was going to do it earlier this week, but the faster I do it, the faster I get money, so. I have to this week. I love Laura more than ever. ;) I have a couple tests tomorrow too, so I have to study for that later on. Well, one of them is a small 5-pt. quiz, but I still have to do good. I have a stupid lab to do today too, for computer class. It's a word exercise. *shakes head* Um, what else?? I lot of people that I haven't been in touch with have been e-mailing me too, well, after I've e-mailed them of course. Oh yeah, Laura? Ellen wrote me back again....so ha! :) I'm listening to Madonna right now for some reason. "Material Girl". I'm really in a good mood right now. It's gonna be a nice day I know it. Well, I promise I'll start writing on here more. Laters!

I put January 22nd on all the things that I dated yesterday. Dammit! I have to go back and change all that shit now. It's not a big deal though. I ate sushi today with my Mom and saw my brother-in-law and nieces. I got a parking ticket too. Dang it! Today I'm going to take it easy, although I'm going to try and wake up at a reasonable time as not to waste the precious days off I have. I just re-read an e-mail from a certain someone that I got a couple days ago, and I am so happy. It's an honor having this person as a friend. You know who you are. Oh yeah, so that rash thing I have. It's a stupid common skin condition that happens to a lot of people I guess in the Fall/Spring. There's no cure or cause. What the fuck. But, I guess it's supposed to subside in a couple weeks, so. All's well. Friday is The Count of Monte Cristo night. I can't wait to see that movie. I love the book and the movie seems to follow it well from what I've seen in the trailers. My lava lamp has been on for approx. 3 1/2 days straight now. I wonder if it uses a lot of electricity. I have to pay bills and shit soon too. I need that job. I guess I'll know by Monday or early next week if I got it. I'm nervous. I love my new desktop. It's got blue as its main color, which I like. It's the kind of blue you see like, on an ocean or something. Damn, I want to go to an ocean so bad. In due time. I'm going to relax in bed now. I think I may start to do this: go lay in bed and fall asleep naturally. Like, don't force yourself to go to sleep, ya know what I mean? Most of the time I do that, but the last couple days I've just been thinking about stuff and I wake up the next morning without realizing when I actually fell asleep. I like that. Plus it's some time for myself. :) Today isn't a busy day. I just have to send off a Gameboy that I sold in an auction, and maybe call Rod to see if he wants to get lunch or hang out or both or whatever. I fixed that elastic chain thing today too. It's pulling hard as fuck, and I can actually feel the teeth move as time passes. It is more sore than a prosititute. =) That smiley was a smiley that I used for a loooooong time before I started to like the emoticons on the new MSN. I should start using it again. My birthday is in uh, 7 days? I am not excited like any othe birthdays of mine. In 3 days, however, it's my Mom's birthday, so I still don't know what to do for her. I will probably get something somewhere and go give it to her. No big deal. She's 60! My Mom is so awesome. She's been through a lot too. Wish that I could be as strong as her. Well, I'm going to end on that note, and later on today I'm going to clip my fingernails because it's getting long. I'll be back!

So, I had a busy day today. First, I went to the doctor's at 8am, where I was greeted by a "come back at 4pm" and so I left. I had my second round interview at Front Range Internet Inc. I guess I have more throughout the week. Who knows. It's confusing. Then I had to go down to Longmont for an orthodontist appointment. BUT, as I was coming back, one of the elastic chains that they put in was so tight that it snapped. I have to go down again tomorrow at 4:20. After that though, I'm eating dinner with my Mom (japanese restaurant at that!). So that's good. Then I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm, uh, done for today, I think. I'm tired. So I'll see ya.

I'm starting to get sidetracked from the blogs lately. I promise I'll start getting back on track. So, the red spots on my body LOOK like chicken pox, but I won't know for sure until tomorrow morning, when I'm going to the campus health service to check what the fuck this is. I could have sworn I had chicken pox already, but then again, it could have been another visit like for shots or something. My birthday is getting nearer and I won't mention when my birthday is to anyone besides the people who already know it. I want it to pass like any other day. Valentine's is coming up and am thinking of something to do. Oh yeah! Laura's sister, Ellen, came up to hang out with us yesterday. We ended up going to Windsor to go ice skating. It was me and Ashley's first time. We did good. She fell a couple times and thank god I didn't once. It's actually a fun thing to do. I was trying to learn to stop quickly like the hockey players. I'm sure with a little bit more practice, I can start to do it. Today was one of the most worst days of this year. Just was. Now it's not, but was. I don't want to have that day again. I was sleeping for a while and I just woke up. I'm not going to be able to sleep for quite a bit huh? It's ok. I just did something stupid, but that's only for those who ask me personally. We are looking at apartments now for our place to live for next Fall. We recruited (hopefully) Rod to be our 4th resident, which makes our rent cheaper and our living situation more fun. I can't wait. Among other news, rent is coming up, which I can't pay, and the cell phone bill came, which I'll send out tomorrow. I sold my Gameboy, but the payment, which has been about 2 weeks, hasn't come yet. Damn, now, I'm contemplating cancelling the entire order and putting it up on Ebay again. What else, what else...nothing else. I'll write tomorrow first thing when I get back from the doctor. Other than that, I'll talk to you later.