Just checkin' in because I haven't in a while. Finally started to get some work towards me at work. Though, it's almost done, I can't complain. I just saw the new trailer for The Fast and the Furious 2...the cars aren't bad, but I don't know about the storyline...take for granted people are probably going to go see it for the cars anyway, but I don't think a sequel would be good for this movie. Both The Matrix sequels coming out this year are stupid too, I think. I'll probably end up watching it, but don't count on it. The last LOTR movie is what I'm waiting for. I hope Harry Potter burns in fucken hell. I got my license renewed to the new style today. I can't believe they make you pay $15 for this shit. With all the taxes I pay, it should be free. It's windy as hell todya too. Kinda calmed down now, but earlier all these leaves, pebbles and shit were just chippin' away at my car. I found out also that I can't put a different turbo kit on my car since Greddy (the company I like) doesn't yet make a turbo kit for a 96. That sucks. That pretty much leaves me with one choice. FMAX turbos, which, although they're badass and it's the best I can get, is $3800 WITHOUT installation. I'm thinking another grand or something for installation. Darn. Hopefully this weekend is going to be nice to me. My brother called too, which I don't care for much. My phone has been acting up lately and explains the reasons why my phone doesn't get calls sometimes. The phone just turns off sometimes after I close the lid or just turns off automatically. Defective hardware I would think. I just don't want to send it off to get a new one if I'm covered under warranty. I have LOTS of bills due right now...and coming up within the next couple of weeks. Good thing is that I got my W-2s and I will try to do them on Saturday when I get back from gambling. Then I'll just take care of all the big bills then. 5-6 more months until the lease is over and once again, we go finding another place to live. How fun. Classes are fine...everything's fine...laters.

I sort of had a mini nervous breakdown sort of things last night. One of my classes said that the instructor denied access to my class and I was like, what? And it turns out it's probably the WebCT folk at Front Range...and then there's the disastrous credit card bills that I have to pay for in the coming month...it's huge...tax returns, work, school, dealing with other people...it's just too much. Well, WAS too much. I'm all good now. Chris and I are going to see if we can attempt rock climbing near our hills. Fun, fun. Afterwards, I'm going to eat sushi with my Mom since it's her b-day. Happy b-day. Nothing big today...um, exchanged the loud muffler with a MUCH!!!!!!!!! quieter one, but it's still noticable at certain times...it's perfect. Still have the chrome tip too. No charge was given to me. What a great group of folks at Fort Collins Muffler. Hm...that's about it for now. Homework night tonight! And at least I'm not the ones who try to commit suicide after depression and breakdowns, right?

Whoa...I just totally had a deja-vu moment.

Today was a really fun day. It was a nice day too. First we woke up and I had to do some errands. I was thinking, it's such a nice day, that we should go hiking and what not. We ended up going just up to see the "A" sign by our college. It's always quite a hike, but oh well. Before we went, however, I wanted, for reasons no one knows, to get a CamelBak (one of those back pack like things that hold water and you wear it like a back pack...) So I shopped around and bought one for pretty cheap on sale. I'm happy with it. My Mom called, surprisingly, and it was about the gambling that we're going to do next Saturday. We're going to drive up to BlackHawk/Central City and gamble for the day to celebrate my 21st. Should be fun and it would be even more fun if I actually win some money. The truth is, if I win some money, it'll probably go to paying back my Mom and paying off my credit cards. After my old one is paid off, I'm going to cancel it so I only have the Sony one. I would think if I spent it until I was old, I would have a shitload of points. Nothing to do today. Tomorrow we decided to go to Denver to watch the Super Bowl with Laura's family...better than staying here, that's for sure. The WebCT, the way we take online classes at Front Range is experiencing some fucked up things and it apparently won't be taken care of for a few days. Good for me, I guess. I wil probably read computer or something soon. History is one class I'm kinda behind. But yeah, Nothing to do this night. Maybe just hang out inhouse or something. Laura's playing The Sims, as usual and the rest are downstairs. Oh yeah, did I tell you we redid our living room? I like it much better.

I just read the news on Google and an interesting article caught my eye. Kevin Mitnick, probably the most famous hacker ever became completely free yesterday. He was on parole for like 3 years or whatever and during that parole, he couldn't touch a computer or get on the internet at that. Seems like he surfed for a little while when he was freed. I wonder what he's going to do now? School also started yesterday, which though only it's Astronomy, was good. Not many people in the class and also seems like a fun class. Night time labs are going to be a pain to get done. Teacher says that March/April are the worst months to do it, so he advised us to do it asap. I will. The other classes seem fine too. I have to go exchange my Biology book since I got the wrong one and now it's out of stock. Great huh. It's snowing, strangely. It was such a great day yesterday. I checked the doppler radar and even though it's snowing here and it's cloudy, there's no sign of clouds anywhere on the radar...weird. Tomorrow's supposed to be a great day again. Weird weather man. So also I guess on the 1st of February, my Mom and I are going to Blackhawk/Central City to gamble, to celebrate me becoming 21. Woohoo. Next Thursday is the day. I don't think I'll really do anything, but yeah, just to mention. I can almost do everything. lol. There's really nothing to do. Work is calling, but I doubt I'll go today. Just don't feel like it you know? Just checking my checking account I discover I still have $120...I wonder if my Mom ever got the check from under the mat. Hopefully she did. Payday is this Friday. Hopefully I can "squeeze" a few extra hours than what I worked. I should really start working there, but man, there's nothing to do! Seriously, I just go, check e-mail, surf the intranet site for news and that's it. There's nothing. Every once in a while, like 4-5 days I get a small little assignment to do, but that takes mearly 5 minutes and I'm back to doing nothing again. I miss the days when I just started that I had stuff to do. A lot of stuff actually. The hiring of the research associate, aka, my supervisor, took a lot of my projects that I would have gotten away from me. Damn him. But that leaves less work for me, so it's a double-edged sword...(did I use that phrase correctly?) Well, I'm off to eat and probably pick Laura up from the bus stop because it's cold. See ya.

Howdy. Wow, what a spending day today was. Not really, but here's the deal. I went to Niwot today to give my Mom my monthly car payment. She wasn't there so I just left it there. Laura and I came back up and we went to lunch. Afterwards, I was like, well, maybe I'll go to Fort Collins Muffler and look at some mufflers. I go there and ask about some mufflers. I was like, okay, sounds good. I go to two other places...wait, just one other and I end up coming back to the first place. I was like, asking more questions and I finally decided to go for it and get a new muffler for the car. $145 and 40 minutes later, I'm cruising down the street going home in my exhaust. Loud? Yes. Annoying? ...well, maybe when I'm trying to accelerate and trying to listen to music, but that's about it. Cruising at a constant speed is very tolerable. More than I thought. We'll see how it sounds after I take a trip down I-25 around 80-90. Did it increase horsepower? Doubt it. And if so, only about 3-4 max. I didn't even get bigger piping, so. I asked them about emissions and they said that it won't affect it because it's after the catalytic converter. Good news for me. I'll probably call Mike sometime and show him. In the mean time, I have school tomorrow. Yes, the one I have to go to at 9:10...or was it 9? Either way, I am meeting Rod at McDonald's at 8 to have breakfast since he's in my class too. Hopefully the class doesn't suck. I was going to sort out today this week's class schedule and work stuff, but I'll do that tomorrow. I have to work tomorrow for a couple of hours, but to show up, you know? Well, Laura seems to be waiting for me, so I'll be going. TJ is moved into the dorms. Yay. Talk to you laters.

Just came back from Chris' house and seems like his date went good, but they decided to stay friends or whatever...Chris tells me that she said she didn't have enough time for a serious relationship and that boosting his confidence was the only thing he was aiming for, so. Sounds good I guess. Tomorrow I am going to Longmont to give my Mom my car payment for the month. I don't have to go to work thanks to the little ol' darky (you know why I said that, Laura) and his fight for freedom. If you didn't get that, I already mentioned that it's MLK Jr.'s day. Great man, great man. Um, I also borrowed the The Royal Tennenbaums because Laura wanted to see it, and that Grant liked it too. Plus it's the least that I can do for the cool weekend that they gave us. I also bought some roses. It's just weird how people change in front of other people or for other people. Sometimes they're totally tolerable and nice and shit, but then when you combine them with certain others, it just gets out of control. Just a thought to dwell on. Also, I just realized that I have been doing this blog thing for over a year now...about 13-14 months. Incredible. There's a lot of information that's within these pages that I don't want lost. Maybe I'll print them out sometime or something. I just hope blogger.com doesn't go the way of Enron. I guess it's not THAT big of a deal, but it's something that's nice to have. I really wish that I could get back those few weeks that I deleted that I can't seem to get back anymore. If anyone visitor to blogger.com is reading this and knows any way to get "unindexed" pages back to your archives and posted, please e-mail me at jamyam@hotmail.com. I guess I can just do some research on how blogger works, but I don't want to do that work. Still have to get school supplies tomorrow. I think I'll get them at the bookstore at front range so that I don't have to pay for it and just charge it to my financial aid account. While I was there some time ago, I saw some software there that seemed cool. If there was Windows XP or something, I would probably get it. Just that there wasn't. Only Office XP. I really don't need that. Prechecking my classes for this semester, it seems like Biology is going to be my hardest class. Either that or computer networking because 93%+ is an A and I know that people can just slack off and get like a 91% for a B, so. Hard work lies ahead. I'm headed for the bathroom now. Have yourself a good night.

Well, just got back from the surprise weekend. It was really fun. Even though I "knew" that we were staying somewhere, the hotel we stayed in was really nice. We ate at this Mongolian Barbeque place and it was great. Afterwards, we went ice skating, then came back and watched most of Shrek. The next day (today) we went to the Denver Museum of Nature and Science after we ate a little breakfast and then to Cinzetti's for the lunch. It was an all and all great time. Thanks Laura. Then I just find out that Grant, who works at Best Buy, can get a major discount off stuff anything in the store and with that information coinciding with the fact that Laura and I want a camcorder right now, it's very, very, very inticing. We may very well go there later tonight and buy it. If it's near half off...it's going to be only around $250. So, that's no bad at all. They're in the other room playing SIMS, but I really want a camcorder...though, I also want that and a mobile entertainment center. Anyway, I'm going to relax a little. It's been an eventful day...possibly the most since, well, a long while. Tomorrow is MLK Jr. day and it's a day off...so. Maybe a little playing around with the camcorder? lol. See ya.

I set up my desktop with a new style and I seem to like it better. Today some disturbing news from a person I don't necessarily want to associate with found its way into Laura's e-mail inbox. I am quite pissed, but everything's settled. If it happens again, however, I'm really going to snap. And it's not going to be pretty. The batteries in the mouse are good. We'll just see if they really last as long as Rayovac claims them to last. We are going to Mancino's tonight. I haven't ate there in the longest. I am split on deciding a calzone or grinder. I am using my credit card like mad. I need to tone it down. But as long as the tax return (or some of it actually) pays off the old card, I'm in good shape. Tomorrow we leave for the surprise that Susan and Laura has planned for us. It seems as though we will be back on Sunday. I have to cancel the coffee with Chris. We might reschedule, but we may not. Then school starts on Tuesday. Wow, break went by...well, both fast and slow. More fast than slow. I have Monday to look over my classes and get back into school mode again. I have to go buy some supplies too. A notebook and a pencil will do it. Actually, I already have a pencil so I'll just get a one subject notebook. 4.0 is my goal...but more realistically, it's going to be hovering near 3.5. I decided yesterday to take my Mom out for dinner (sushi to be exact) on her b-day. It's the least I can do. TJ is still here. He's moved into his dorm though for the most part for all I know. I finally figured out why I couldn't watch...wait, I might have already posted this information in another blog...I think I have. I'll stop. I have been in the mode to buy something. Seriously. This $1000 limit credit card is not something that I want to have when I have no money and I have a lot of expenses to pay for. Right now I am in the middle of a portable computers (not a laptop), Gamecube, a camcorder (even though I say we don't need that, Laura says it will be a good investment), a dryer, which we really need but in reality I will probably buy it when we move next, and maybe a Gameboy Advance or even a TV for my car. I am just in a dilemma. Anyway, I'm going to search for stuff on eBay. I'll let you know if I buy anything...I will get close to, but I won't really in the end. My conscience is a strong one...

Seems like the blogger is working correctly for a while. I say that because sometimes it doesn't show all the archives and stuff, but anyway. Today we went to Walmart and Laura got me some recharcheable batteries (Rayovac) because I began to think of the usefulness of these babies. Recharges in 1 hour and lasts 3X longer than regular batteries and on top of that, it rechargeable 1000+ times. You can't beat that. I am yet to try it, but I will probably by tonight. TJ is moving into the dorms today. School is starting to come back into session. Yesterday Laura and I went to Best Buy and we saw a couple of camcorders that we would like to have. Not that we NEED it, but it would be just cool. I was looking at the digital 8 kinds. Only about 400-500 dollars. Maybe sometime. Right now, I have to buy Laura's b-day/valentine's present, which is going to set me back, hopefully not so much, before I have to start paying the damn insurance bills again. I am waiting anxiously for my W-2 for tax return purposes. I should get close to $1000 back, which is nice and is also a large sum of money that I wouldn't know what to do with. I probably will pay $500 to the insurance to get a lot of it out of the way, then the rest I have no idea...exhaust?...TV in car?...computer even? I don't know. Maybe I'll save it for a spring break trip. I did, though, find an awesome mini pc online. This thing is a complete working computer and it's fricken small! 2.5" thin, 6.5" wide and like 7" deep...you can get any smaller than that. I was going to get that, but a monitor. Then I can put that in the car and...yeah...I'm dreamin'. Anyway, that's it for this update. Seems like this weekend is going to be the days that Laura and Susan is going to give me and Grant a surprise. We don't know what it is, but the only thing I know is that we're going to be travelling somewhere. Who knows where? I'll report on it whenever we get back. Lates.

Ah, I got more ramen from my Mom. Good thing because I was running low. I was just watching the video of Good Charlotte's "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous". I was closely listening to the lyrics more than watching the video and what they is probably true to some extent. The rich snobs of this world have probably gotten to the point where they wouldn't be able to stand the lifestyles of even a modest living family/lifestyle. Everything probably is handed to them in a bowl and stuff. How pointless their lives must be. I will admit to some degree that they must have gotten there with SOME kind of effort, whether that be practicing to act or learning to play instruments, sing, or just to act like a dumbass on TV. I'm sure there's a reason why everyone can't be like them. They must have some skill for this "talent". But then there are those who become rich and famous through their family, born into a wealthy society, etc. These people I hate. And then I begin to think of the lowest classes of this country. There are people who really live badly. Even I feel ashamed at myself about how I live compared to this folk. I am not rich or anything, but I don't consider myself poor...though sometimes I do and sometimes I really am. I try not to act like it. Even when I have money and I KNOW that spending it is no big deal, I hesitate inside about spending it. Peer pressure plays a big role. I always think how well off I'll be, or not be, in the next 10 years...and what I'll be like presenting myself in front of the same peers that I went to high school with at the reunion...if I'm able to attend, that is. I always wanted to live in a peaceful, happy little town, maybe no more than a few thousand people when I grow up. I watched TV as people walked everywhere, the barber shop, store, sidewalk, and they would know people. I'd like it to be like that for me. That's not for a while, so I have nothing to worry about. I think right now the key is the live as much as I can while I'm in the position I am. College is pretty laid back. You go to classes less than high school, don't have to listent to your parents...well, SOME people don't, and it's a period of time where you experiment and try out new things. Trust me I did! Some things you learn NOT to do again, some things you WANT to do again, and some things you just CAN'T do again. With that said, I like the life that I've lived. I don't think I've held myself back much. Granted there are times here and there that I wish I would have done different, but heck, everyone has that, you know. I don't care. Time goes on. There's bound to be a chance like that again. And then again, what if that one chance you got was just that, one chance? Then that sucks for you. :) I just want to be able to look back at my life and say, wow, I did a lot of things in my lifetime and I loved every minute of it. That's really my goal. I don't care if I become super rich or super famous. I don't even give a damn if I get a good job or education. Some will agree with me and some will not. If I won the lottery, I wouldn't know what to do really. I tell people that I would get a car, house, and all the stuff that I've always wanted. Truth is, I probably wouldn't get a new car until I really needed it. I wouldn't get a house until I really needed. Would I quit working and going to college if I was set for life? Probably not. Doing these things is what life is. Take that away and all you do is just live and not experience anything. I read somewhere if people would rather choose to die among their friends happily at 30 or die lonely at 85...I put my money everytime that they'll choose the first choice. No one wants to be lonely. Even if I live to be 300 or 3000, I wouldn't, I would choose to die earlier with my friends. Sometimes I'm too hard on my friends, I know, especially Laura. I don't know how she handles me! I love her for it though. Well...nothing much else to say. Tonight felt good to talk about this. Life isn't always about money, though it painfully is and it controls every aspect of how we live. The thing you have to make sure is don't let money control you...or else bad things happen...and most of the trouble will stem from the IRS. :) Land of the freedom my ass.

Before I start playing Starcraft and then calling Laura, I'd like to get in a few rants. First, I got my eye lids back, paid $95 and I think they've done a great job. The paint closely matches that of the car and that's what I was most worried about. Putting it on is the next step and I don't know how I'm going to accomplish that. I am going to go buy some sticky tape...VERY strong sticky tape and figure out a way so that the lids go go flying...$95 isn't worth it to just throw away. Second, I realize sometimes things happen not because it just happens, but because the event happens hoping to create a cause. Just a thought. I'm going to go downstairs and make sure my eye lids are drying and curing nicely, and then it's off to play some starcraft. Other than that, have a good night...I'm picking Laura up tomorrow from Denver. 1 day earlier than scheduled. Also, I checked on Ben's monitor and looks like UPS tried to deliver it today, but, yes, you guessed it, Ben would have gotten it if he was awake. Actually, I think he WAS awake, but I don't know. His loss I suppose. See ya!

I just spend money left and right! Well, I went to the body shop and just came back and I left the eyelids there and they said it would be ready by tomorrow around 5pm. Then I'd had to wait another day or so for the paint to fully cure, and then I can install it. Hopefully it will install correctly and not look all ghetto. The lids came with some 3M double-sided tape, but I'm going to go buy more because I don't want them flying off when I'm on the highway, you know? I'll make sure to get that thing on there good. Well, off to calculate my budget for the next two weeks since I get paid tomorrow and this paint job is going to cost around $100...damn, but I have to start thinking of presents for Laura and man, I'm going to be broke for the next month.

Stupid me...I can't believe I did this. I checked my own blog to make sure my posts were showing up correctly and when I did, I couldn't find the long one that I just wrote...so I was like, ok, must be blogger.com, so I refreshed and refreshed and finally restarted the computer to completely flush out my internet cache and still no luck...only to find out that I changed the post settings so that the latest ones go on the BOTTOM and not the top, like I was used to it doing...so I just promptly changed it. Better now...dumb me...god damn.

Howdy all. It's another edition of James' late night rants and babbles. I just received my "eye lids" for my car from Chris. They seem to be just fine. Gotta take them to the body shop and have them paint it now. Hopefully they won't charge me an arm and a leg for them! I am thinking the painting is going to cost around $50...maybe more, maybe less. Hopefully less if I tell them I'll be here for the body kit (which will probably not happen) and the fact that I've gone there already and I'm a repeat customer. Hopefully!!!!! So, well, another day passes. Already a week into the new year. Suzanne messaged me today. The first time in maybe a year or something. She got a new e-mail address and stuff. Nothing new I guess. Laura is coming tomorrow and she wants me to be asleep for when she gets here. I have to kill some time since I usually wake up around 7-8 automatically. But yeah, I've been feeling better lately about everything and my outlook for this year. It seems like I'm finally on the right track you know? I remember last year around this time, I didn't know what the hell I was doing. I wasn't doing well in school at all...it was the semester that I needed to do really good, and I eventually gave up around March or something. Pathetic yeah. I wasn't motivated at all and during the last few months, I've figured stuff out, you know and realized that I can't keep doing what I was doing (this was around the beginning of last summer). I knew I could do what I did last semester...just wasn't motivated and now I have what I need. Sometimes you need something to hit you hard, you know? Hitting the bottom academic-wise was the cure for me. I was just playing Rod in chess and I kicked his ass. I think he got mad because he was talking to me through the game and for some reason I couldn't answer back, so he probably thought I was ignoring him. Anywhoo, I'm about pooped out for tonight. Hopefully I'll wake up later than when Laura gets here...but I also want to check the body shop for the price of painting the eye lids. I don't want to do that because that'll have to be in the morning...but then again I guess I can head over there in the afternoon after Laura leaves. I'll do that. Maybe they'll be done by this weekend or something. That would be cool. I am eager to see it in action. We put it on for a test run tonight, but when I turn the headlights on, since it's not painted, the light shines through. I hope the painting of the lids block out the light trying to escape. Also, tomorrow will be a fun in more than one way!!! :) Oh man, funny, funny...

Okay, everytime I try to buy sometime on the down low, or, better explanation would be, not so extravagantly, I go crazy and get stuff that I know won't use. Anyway, there was a Primus stove on sale, so I got that. I bought a few fuel bottles to keep me stocked up. I should have stopped there, but I got some storm proof matches, fire starters and a heating pad...??? Oh well. $50 altogether that I could have just saved and bought something else with. Damn me. Well, the good news is that together with the new sleeping bag that Laura got me and her new tent, I want to go camping quite bad, even though it may be kinda cold up there. Ah, the joys of being me. I'm off to watch a movie now. Laters.

Okay, so my MSN is all back to normal. Found a new chat logger like I had a while back. I'm just surfing around right now. I think I am actually going to buy a gas stove for camping. I want to go soon. I am looking at them right now...I'll be back if I purchase! Hm...there's a good one that's on sale for 37% off...I'll be back. I'm deciding now...um, yeah, I'll be back to write in here.

Today's not a good day. I thought something was wrong with my MSN, so I uninstalled my 5.0 and installed 4.6...that didn't work and I find out the problem is on Microsoft's side. So I reinstall 5.0 again, but I can't get the polygamy patch to work and now there are ads back on my MSN again...fuckin eh.

Well yesterday it was a surprise that I got to see Laura. I wasn't planning on it but people went to Ocean Journey and I decided to go to. I think they wanted me to go because someone needed to drive back from Denver. Anyway, my MSN doesn't work worth shit right now. Something's wrong and the status of the network (MSN's) says it's operational. God damn it. I skipped work today and it'll be a half day tomorrow. There's a 50/50 chance I get my braces off tomorrow, but considering there is still a little gap in this one place, I doubt it would get taken off. I just paid for Ben's LCD monitor. That may be confusing. He gave me his credit card number and I paid for him. He should have his computer all received and ready to go by next week, if not late this week, like Saturday. Laura is going to try to come up on Thursday. Hopefully I can ditch work again. :) I have to go to CSU today to check to see if my timesheet has to be in early or not. I went yesterday, but the damn building was closed. Ashley is making something downstairs...smells sorta over cooked? Anyway, I'm gonna get dressed and head there now. My MSN better work by then. My finger is close to healed. I can put pressure on it again, but I can't put pressure against the fingernail...it kinda hurts. So, one more day, or I can start using my finger so it heals faster. Ashley just left. Weird. Um, yeah, have a good day.

One thing that I wanted to blabber about was that the movie Empire brought up the issue that America is the land for success and all that matters is money, respect, and power. That is true to some extent. The movie also goes on to emphasize the importance of friends in life. Very true. The plot is the classic would-you-leave-your-lifelong-friends-to-become-rich scheme. The people you meet at the top of the economy aren't usually the best of friends you'll ever meet. Some of the best friends are created through the toughest of times. I myself try not to be too concerned with money, but it's fun to talk about it. It's when it takes you over that you need to start worrying. Money can't buy true friendship, though some out there think they can. And I'm sure you can for a very little percentage of the time. Money hungry folk will do anything to get more money. I empathized with the guy in the movie for the most part. Hopefully I won't follow the same path if the chance ever confronts me.

Well, it's the weekend and my finger is almost to full healing. One more day? I can type way more easily now. Laura just called and she is now back in Denver. She had fun. I have some stories too. Well last night Chris and I went to Westminster to see Empire, which was a great movie. A lot of mexicans in the theater though and this one fucking cracker fuck was behind me kicking the chair all through the movie. I was about to bust his ass and kill his family. But anyway, on the way back, I told Chris to find a different way home...bad mistake. First we head down this road and I thought he knew where he was going. He starts going into the mountains and I start becoming worried that he doesn't know where he's going. It's true. We drive for nearly 40 minutes and we end up in FUCKING ESTES PARK. Yes, that's about 40 minutes away from home. So we get there and he's like, I must have turned at a wrong place...no shit. We drive back home and I get home around 3am, when I really wanted to be home at 2am. I don't trust Chris with his "shortcuts" ANYMORE. Then I was like, it would be cool to have a GPS in the car in times like these. It would have helped so much. I was by myself on this road near the house and this dumbass comes up and wants to race me. I was like, fuck it, and he races into my lane and turns. Idiot. I'm going to bake the rest of my bread now. I am fairly hungry. I might make eggs or something too. Anyway, laters.

Well, it's well into the new year and it's time for me to make some resolutions and goals! Um, sure, it's been a couple of days, but who cares. My first resolution is to make Laura and I's relationship even better than last year. :) Next, school. My goal is 3.5 or above. One of my 4-credit geology classes got cancelled due to not enough registrants, so I am currently in Psychology 2, with the same damn teacher I had last year. I really didn't like her. I am contemplating changing to History 2, but I'm not sure yet. I think I'll end up with Psych. Next, I want to go to California this summer. Maybe for a few days or so, but that would be a fund road trip. That means before then, I have to get a LCD screen for my car and other stuff so it will be more entertaining. Don't get me wrong, I love the scenery that we get on the way there. The few moutain ranges that we get to see, and vast open space desert and so on...and absolutely no water. What is up with that? Anyway, maybe save up some money and cut back on the expenses that I put into the car, but we'll see about that. That's about it. Nothing special or out of hand for me. I do want to accomplish a road trip goal, though. We'll see. I'm at work right now, so I'll see you guys later!

Happy new year. And still no keys. This sucks. Also, this morning Laura and I were going to slide the mattress out to checl the other side of the bed and it was heavy so I let it down just a bit, but not all the way and that got Laura's hand stuck in the crack and hurt her, so she let go completely and then my middle finger nail got stuck right in between and hurt the hell outta me! There's a big purple bruise right in the middle and it hurts to even move it. I'm typing, skillfully, without my right middle finger, and I am realize how important that finger really is. But yeah, nothing to report. Just another day.

Well, I had a big blog all written out and guess what, my comp freezes right before I was going to post it. What a day. Anyway, since none of it got to the posting, I'll recap it fast. I was drinking some coffee contemplating calling my Mom for a spare key to my car because my keys are lost. Yes, I have been searching for a couple of hours now I can't find them. The fact is, the doors, I think, doesn't open with the spare key. It has to be the master key, which of course, there is only one. I may possibly have to call a locksmith and have them craft me a new master key. Other than that, and the fact that I was supposed to go with Laura to meet Melanie, a friend of hers that I have heard a lot of, nothing is new. Yes, what a way to begin the new year. Seems like everything is going bad. I'm listening to Crazy Town right now. I configured the computer that Ben is going to buy. He's supposed to come here later and buy it. We'll see about that because he's going to be drunk. Well, happy new years to anyone who celebrates it. TJ is coming tomorrow, which will create some interesting atmosphere. 1 hour to go for the eastern folk until the new year. I always thought of start at New York or something and driving westward and having a few new year's, but I don't think that can happen...I just realized that you'd have to go QUITE fast to cross each time zone in the 1 hour limit you have. I'm stupid yes. Well, I'm back to searching and hopefully finding my KEYS GOD DAMNIT!!!!

Well, the weekend is over and hopefully the "holiday spirit" is gone from the hearts of the millions of people who get into it. Ahem. Ben and Ashley were just downstairs making a trailer gingerbread house. I guess it looks ok? I just got a mini pie thing and it's actually quite good. Ben made whip cream by whipping some egg whites and sugar and it's not bad. Maybe if it was colder. Laura comes back tomorrow and I'm quite happy for that. I'm going to go into work and probably leave early, depending on my mood and the amount of work there is, which is usually very little. I went a little overboard today. Well, I frequent this computer website and they have a list of good deals and stuff. One of them was getting magazine subscriptions really cheap. So, I went to the website and behold, they are cheap! There are a lot of $3.95/year subscriptions and $4.95 ones. I got out of control and got myself 6! Only $30 for those 6, though, so you have to look at the price factor. Anyway, that's about the only thing that's new over the weekend. Chris bought me some eyebrows for my headlights for the car. I got him a subscription to a car magazine (not from the place!). I should get that soon and then I'll have it painted and I'll install that baby. Just waiting for Laura to call right now...and surfing. I really want a Gameboy Advance!!!!

Today is just a blog of a day isn't it? I was just listening to MP3s and Creed's "One Last Breath" came on and I stopped what I was doing for a minute and just thought. I don't know exactly what I was thinking, but I was thinking about Laura for a good part of it. I remember asking Laura what some of the lyrics were and I was re-living that moment. It was weird. And then I realized stuff, but I'll keep that to myself. Nothing bad, I'll tell you that. And then I was reading some stuff online and there was an article saying that the New York Times is going to put a mini disc player in its time capsule to be opened in the year 3000. That got me thinking...too bad I'm not going to be living that long to see that happen (or will I???). And then I was thinking how I was going to leave this world and what it is really like. Reincarnation or an after are my best wishes, but who knows what happens huh? I think it would just be a waste for us to just...die. We should come back or something, at least. I guess since we don't know for sure, we should live our lives the best we can now huh? Sometimes I just want to fast forward to when I'm like 70 and see what I'll be doing. I'm listening to "Time of Your Life" right now. It's a really good song, I've decided. I was telling Laura this some time ago, but I sometimes just stop and think how weird us humans are. Like, how we act the way we do at different times and it's always different between everyone. I was thinking what the other person was thinking while he or she is doing what he or she is doing. Weird I know. I'm a complicated thinker. I was also listening to Vitamin C's "Graduation" and that's a good song too. It's only 7 or so now, but I feel like going to sleep. I have nothing to do and sitting in front of the computer for so long isn't all too healthy for me either. I am missing Good Eats right now. It's almost over anyway. Damn, I wanted to see it too. If I were a little more talented, I would sit down, write out some lyrics, some tabs, and make a song, but I don't think that'll happen in this lifetime. Maybe I'll be reincarned as a destined music artist. That would be pretty cool. I'm gonna get something to drink now. I'll see ya later.

Okay, I'm back. The bread was good with olive oil and garlic. So on Thursday I drove to Laura's to spend the night so we can leave for the ski park early in the morning. That night, though, Chris drove up also, because he was going. He got lost in the first place...and drove around for who knows how long and then he forgets where her house was. Anyway, We get back and I was hungry, so we went to eat, ending up at Carl's Jr. After getting back, we pretty much went to sleep. The snowboarding day was next. The entire thing cost $45 for the lift ticket, $32 for the rental, and fricken $12 for lunch. And to top it off, I didn't have that good of a time either, and now I'm sore. So, if I didn't go, I would have been not feeling sore and around $90 richer. Go figure. I wanted to spend more time with Laura, but it really didn't go that way. We hardly did spend time. We got back last night around 6pm and Laura and I went to dinner. That instantly put me in a good mood. I think you could figure out what the negative factor was for that day. I went to sleep (spent the night again) because I was tired. I'm at home now. Got paid yesterday, so that's good...but yeah, bills and rent took it all away. The year is coming to a close! 3 more days and another year has passed. Seems like every year is passing faster and faster. By the time I know it, I'm going to be retiring. Yeah right. Anyway, I guess I can say some "end of the year" closing statements. I think this year was a good one for me. I learned a lot of things and, in fact, a lot of things have happened that has tested my patience and trust with people, but in the end, I think I came out in the positive ranging, learning more things everyday. Some highlights??? Well, the big fight between all of our friends and our group somehow splitting up instantly, camp, Laura and I...(hehe), school, a new car, new living place, etc., etc. Hopefully next year will treat all of us even better. 21 will be my age, which means I can almost do everything. I am going to go gambling with my Mom on the 1st of February, if I get my taxes early and other factors. If not, it'll be another time. Ashley's back today, well, I think she's in Boulder or something, because her car's here, but not her. Next year TJ is moving out to go to CSU. That will cause some interesting situations. I guess I can have a new year's resolution out by the first week of the new year. Keep watch for that. Just to let you know, from about the 31st on till like, the 3rd, I probably won't make a blog entry, considering I will be doing stuff, so. I may sneak in once to write something short. Things are the same as ever here, though. Hope you all had a great Christmas. I did.

Fast forward 4 days and here I am, back home. That was a quick 4 days after realizing my last blog was Christmas Eve. I am currently warming up some bread that I got as a present...yes, weird gift, but it's food. I'll be back to continue writing after I finish it up and get settled back in again at home. So until then. See ya.

Christmas Eve...what a normal day. Didn't go to work today and did absolutely nothing. I hate when I do that, but oh well. Laura called and said she didn't receive the ornament present that I got for her Mom, which sucks. I wrote an e-mail asking for a refund on the difference of shipping prices, because I chose the faster one because it said it would arrive TODAY. Damn carriers. Played the demo of Warcraft 3 and it's awesome. Chris is getting it tomorrow, so maybe I'll get hooked on that for sometime. I remember when we played Starcraft ALL the time during my freshman year at CSU. It did hurt my study habits and class attendance...yeah. I won't let it happen again. I ate some stuffing and chicken. I may eat the rest of my spanish rice later on. I am downloading the Age of Mythology demo right no on Laura's computer, because my computer sucks. :) I will probably play that until it's time to sleep. Tomorrow I'm off to my relatives in Longmont. Dunno for how long, but not long I know. I don't even know why I'm going to tell you the truth. I'm just wasting gas for the trip there and back and then on Thursday I have to go down there again because I have to drive to Laura's house to hitch a ride to go snowboarding on Friday. I decided I'm just going to have Chris pay for it and I'll pay him back. I don't want to borrow money from my Mom. I'll ask though and see what happens anyway. Boring night...I mentioned that already didn't I? Yes, very boring. I looked at the grossing for LOTR: The Two Towers and it was impressive. $101 million + on its first weekend. Great movie. Oh yeah, I guess some of the presents that I got Laura out of nowhere are the SAME presents that her sister bought her a few months back. She called me feeling down. Oh well. Stuff like that happens. Hopefully I can request a refund. My phone has been good so far. No dropped calls and I think all the calls have gone through to ring at least, unlike my old one, which was a p.o.s. Also, now that I have moved "up" to color displays, I don't think I'll ever go back to non-color phones. Just not the same. A good analogy would be the upgrade to dial-up to broadband...and not being able to go back. Maybe tomorrow it'll snow here. One thing that I haven't seen yet is a white Christmas while I've lived here...maybe, but I don't remember. It would be cool to see that. If I dont' write tomorrow, which I may or may not, I probably won't write until Friday or Saturday. Happy holidays to you guys.

The weekend passed, and nothing new happened. That's the story every week. Anyway, I thought I would take a trip down memory lane of my childhood in this edition of my blog. I was just taking a shower and I was thinking to myself how we all grow out of things as time passes, whether it be a hobby, doing something, friends, etc. You know what I mean? For instance, in my case, I used to LOVE playing video games, especially fantasy ones. Back then I wouldn't think twice about going to my TV and spending hours upon hours of game time. If there was a new game out that I wanted, I would buy it. Now, it's like, eh, I don't need to play it, or "that's stupid"...It's weird how something I really liked doing just goes away like that. I guess what replaces these things are more important things in life as you get older...school, your loved ones, money, work, etc. For me these things are more important than videos games and computer games...though, I do like to play the occasional game or two with the company of friends. Board games have also started to elude me, though they weren't as prominent as video games for me. Some, however, around me still are attracted to these things. Derek and Grant to lead the pack. They play video games a lot. Just the other night they even had a "video game" tournament. I was never THAT obsessed, by the way. My hobby for now is working on my car with the little money and patience that I have. Heck, I hardly work, but I get through. This coming year is another step toward becoming more "settled" in life. You can begin to actually lay out your plans and follow them. I mean this now because everyone knows that most people who plan out their life in their middle school or high school years end up not following those plans anyways, be it to change of mind or situations that are just unavoidable. The first years of my life were fun, now they're becoming serious, and then eventually they'll become fun again. Until then, though, it's gonna be a hell of a journey. I look around my room right now and I don't see much that has survived the test of time in terms of my belongings. The only thing that I have had since childhood is probably a couple of postcards in a box somewhere. Even things from high school are missing. The newest thing sitting on my desk (and my room) is my phone. I'm not a pack rat...so to speak, though I tend to keep things that I THINK will come in handy later on or ones that I think have a special meaning to them. For the most part, though, I'm a man without past memorabilia. No photos of ANYTHING in the high school years, except maybe a graduation shot and a scant few from when I was a childhood. Then I watch some people, say on TV or in real life rummaging through their old photo albums and such and for a little bit, I actually feel jealous that they have these things. Sometimes I wish my family was closer, but not really. It's only when other people talk about "their sisters" or "their brothers" and fighting and stuff. We never fought. Heck we never really talked. Hopefully I can change that in the future amongst friends. I don't want to be someone who looks back on their life and regrets not talking...or something. Anyway, I'm gonna get going for tonight. Tomorrow...yeah, I don't know if I'm going to work. Wednesday is Christmas. Boo hoo. The holidays...the time to spend with your family and friends. I think the holidays is sad for people who don't have people to be with. Luckily, I have a few. :) Chris and I were talking the other day about how the holidays made him depressed and what not. Society sometimes does a good job of landing a punch in the form of so called "tradition". Oh well. So long for tonight.

Finally the weekend. Not that I have anything special to do, just stressing the fact. I have been searching around for rechargeable batteries lately and the new Rayovac nimh batteries and the 1-hour charger seems to be the best bet. Rechargeable up to 1000 times and it holds its power and even is more powerful than other batteries when they're full. I want it. Hehe. It will come in nice use for my keyboard and mouse, which I have to replace once every couple of months anyway. Though the initial cost of like $40 for the charger and a few batteries seems high, it's really not in the long run, so, I may do that sometime. Well, I may go play golf later. I have to do some stuff to get ready and stuff...yeah, stuff. I'll write later.

So, I got my phone earlier than I expected. I love it. I tried the wireless internet thing when I had free minutes and it's pretty cool. The color is amazing. Hopefully it works better than my other phone in terms of reception! Laura is going home tomorrow for the holidays, which sucks. Nothing for me to do. I didn't go to work today. I will go full-time next week for the extra money. I need it! I think I am going to buy a car charger for my phone, however. I think it will come in handy. So yeah, it's only been what, a few days since I've been out of school and I'm bored as hell. This break, like all breaks before, is going to suck.

Just got back from the theater watching Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers. Badass movie! Loved every minute of it and it really didn't have "slow" parts and scenes like I remember the first one having. Anyway, the battle scene was awesome. Had a lot of comedy too, actually, which was unexpected. Probably the best $6 you will spend on a movie this year. On the way back, this stupid mustang was driving up next to me and revving its engine and stuff wanting to race. Of course I didn't. I can't take it! :) Then he tries to race a Maxima that was in front of me. I think it had stuff done to it as I saw a muffler, but I think it might have been just the exhaust tip. He turns off, and then a little while later, an M3 drives up past me on the left. We (Laura and I) were thinking it would have been cool to see the cocky mustang get its ass beaten. Anyway, not much. I'm still recovering from this severe coughing of mine. It's almost done though, I can tell. Other than that, just waiting for my new phone, probably on Friday, to arrive. Oh yeah baby. Wireless internet here I come. Hehe. But it's time for me to get sleeping. I am tired. See ya later.

The day is mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers is out today and I am going to watch it at 5pm. I can't wait man!!!

A fight with Rod (over chat) broke out. Ended bad, but oh well. I also bought a new cell phone service plan from Sprint PCS with vision. Yes, the same vision with color. Oh man. Because of the $80 instant rebate, the phone wasn't as expensive as I thought, which is good because it clears up some money for me to use. Other than that, there are 4 confirmed grades for this semester. 3 As and 1 B, with music appreciation still on the horizon, but grades are due by tomorrow, so I'll know then. I think I had a good semester. Hopefully I can back it up with next semester. I think I have bronchitis. I have been coughing nonstop for the last two days. It sucks. Getting better, but still bad. Tomorrow I have an orthodontist's appointment and then the next one after that should be the last one as I MIGHT be taking my braces out. Joyous occasion I know! Anyway, I think I'm going to go take a shower. I have a website now, at this place but the bandwidth that I get (basically the number of people who can look and surf my site) is very small and even now the site is down because I exceeded my bandwidth. Anyway, now I'm going. See ya!

A day of presents for me! Well, I guess I can't really call them presents, but yeah, here's the storyline for today. I went to work and low and behold in my e-mail box there's a message from the college saying that they were buying back books for the semester. I was like, oh, nice, I can go sell my books. I got a nice, plump $140 back for it and to top it off, the guy compliments how well the books were kept. I was like, well, duh, I did that so I can get the money I'm getting now. So I'm off back home with $140. Earlier in the day, I had called to see how much tinting my car would be. It was coincidentally $140, but it turned out for illegal tinting (what I did), was $170. So nonetheless, I get the car tinted at 20%. I'm happy. So that is my line of early Christmas presents for me. More to come!!! :) Laura isn't feeling good right now and we just got back from Cold Stone. I have the rest of my ice cream in the freezer because it was too much to eat. Tomorrow is an easy day, I think. I am going to go to work, for a very little while, and then probably eat lunch with some people and I have no idea what to do. Hm...yeah, nothing to do. Oh yeah, but at night, it's the Nutcracker play at the local center. Um, time to go surfing. Late.

Since yesterday morning, my throat has been weirdly acting up. It hurts near the end of it, but only when I cough or drink something. I'm sure it's some weird body thing and it'll pass by in a couple of more days, but in the meantime, it's annoying. I'm listening to Simple Plan. They are ok, I guess. Earlier I just watched music videos on Yahoo!'s music video site. I have my import car club website set up. I just have to advertise it in the college paper. I figured out the price and for a 2" by 2" add for a week, it's like, $30 or something. I just might stick with a day or two and hopefully people see it. But other than that, there's really not much going on. I missed work today on the excuse that my throat was bad. Hopefully they don't think I'm ditching. I like drinking coffee, but whenever I drink it, I get sick. I don't know if my stomach can't handle it or if it's because I'm drinking it on an empty stomach. Oh well. I did get started again on my own site, just preliminary run at the design, but I can't think lately. I have web designer's block. Laura got her Christmas present from my Mom. It was quite a gift and she was really happy. IF, I say again, if, I get paid like I'm supposed to this Friday because of the fact that I turned in my timesheet late last time, I should be able to get tint for my car with the extra money. I should have about $200 extra, so that should be plenty, but then again, there are bills coming. I hate bills. They always seems to come more than once a month. Like the last electric bill I thought it was a couple of weeks ago that I sent in my bill, but yeah, I get one again. Not doing anything for Christmas once again. I think it's a good "season" to have, with all the nice things going around, but I don't like the holiday. Too many people do too many things. This Friday is the night Laura and I are going to see the Nutcracker (which was my present to Laura for our 1 year anniversary if you didn't know). I am actually looking forward to seeing it. I would have probably gotten better seats if I hadn't waited longer than I did, but I guess they are ok seats. Well, I'm back to doing nothing I guess. I really have nothing to do. I don't want to spend money, so I don't want to go out and do something, but yeah. I'll write again sometime later.

A little edit on the last blog. I guess the webmaster resets the high scores daily or weekly, so it's gone, but today, since the high scores were low, I got second place again. Well, other than that, I'd like to say people are just stupid. Oh yeah, I'm done with school for this semester and nothing to do until January 21st. Yay.

Fun news! Head over to Orisinal, an online flash games site, and play the first game on the upper left, called Fishball. I have been playing this for quite some time now and I finally got 2nd place!!! Woohoo. Just to note, I put "I_Love_Laura" as my name.

Hello. Okay, well I lied about doing this blog this weekend, but I guess I'll try to redeem myself by doing a little of it. Anyway, I'll give a very brief overview of what's been happening since my absence (the major things). First of all, my car has been worked on quite a bit. I have gotten a spoiler, which took a week to install because body shops were closed on weekends. That was $125. I guess it was worth it as I couldn't have done it myself. Second, I bought clear tail lights for my back lights. I like that a lot. And the last thing that I have done is put an air intake under the hood. Creates a very nice low noise whenever I accelerate. I have a few more things on the horizon. The next thing that's coming is most likely the tinting for my windows. Then around tax return time, it's going to be a full body kit. I can't wait for that. Then, not in any order, racing seats, exhaust, headers, lowering, etc., etc. That's it for my car. Next is school. This was the Fall where I decided to take all online classes and fortunately, I can say that that went awesome. I could have gotten a chance to pull a 4.0, but I don't think that I did. At least a 3.25 or higher, so that's good. I've already registered for next semester and I am really in school mode. I have 18 credits, which is the most I've taken by far and I have one class that I have to actually go to, astronomy. I have it with Rod, if you remember him, he's the pot smoker. He's still doing it. Go figure. By the way, he got fired from his work and is currently unemployed. Complications at work...uh huh. Chris and Ben are still the same. Chris is struggling to finish some of his classes and he has to finish his math by this week. Ben has changed quite a bit. He seems to like Ashley, but we're not all sure. He denies it, but yeah. They've been hanging out a lot lately. Interesting where it's going considering TJ is moving out here in about a month. And yeah, so is John, the "other" guy from camp. God I hate camp. Yes, it's past summer and it's still haunting me. Nothing else new around town. Oh yeah, I forgot to write it on the last, last blog, but it was me and Laura's one year anniversary on December 1st. I can't believe it's already been one year. I still remember vaguely writing in this blog about our first date and kiss, but time flew by quick. Well, actually we're caught up to the current events. I guess there wasn't much to say. My Mom got a new vehicle, a Honda CRV. It's really nice. It suits her really well. She was choosing between that, a Subaru stationwagon and a Toyota Rav 4. I am still working at the National Park Service like I said before and I even got a raise and also the chance to work there through whenever. I think I mentioned that, but not the raise. $10.50/hr now, so that's great, considering we're going into the winter break and I'll be working full-time. I'm looking forward to watching the second Lord of the Rings. Also, a movie called Equilibrium and Empire. That's really it. Not much more. I don't know what we're doing for Spring Break yet. I think it's just me and Laura now, but a cruise is still an option as it is really cheap at $300 a person for a 4-day cruise. I will have to drive out to California, as it leaves from Los Angeles. I don't know about that, but we'll see. We're almost wrapping up the year of 2002 and what a year it was. It went by really fast. I wonder how 2003 is going to turn out. I still have one more final left to take tomorrow. I have to finish a study guide and turn that in for some extra credit. I need to end my school year in a good way. It's 8:30 or so and I'm out of things to write and say and do. I guess I will surf. Hehe, yes, I still do that. But like I said, the early part of 2003 (the first couple of months) is going to be an interesting one due to the number of people moving out here, my car progressing and school. My expected bachelor's acquiring date is effectively the spring of 2006 (estimated of course). I may be able to do it the later part of 2005, but it's cutting it tight. Wow, after that (2 years!), I don't know what I'm gonna do. It's scary actually. I'm going to have to start making a career, a life and working and stuff. Strange, yet scary. I cleaned my computer yesterday. It was so dusty, I think that was what was causing my messed up internet connection problem. I haven't had a problem since, so. Well, this is beginning to get long, so I'll stop. I'll begin to write in here regularly like before. Maybe I'll publish this blog to my friends now that it's pretty long, but I don't know. I still want a personal website. Anyway, I'm off. Good night.

*sigh* I have to study for finals, so I doubt I'll get to this blog tonight, so...sit back and relax for this week and I'll get to it sooner or later.

Well, howdy. It's been almost 3 months since I stopped writing in this thing. And you know what? I actually missed it. The reason I stopped was because I deleted (or so I thought) some of the posts from about July to August, and I was pretty mad because I didn't have them anymore. Only a few remain from that time and I thought at the time I could get those back somehow, but I guess I was wrong. A friend and Laura and I were talking about the days back when everyone still talked to each other and I told him that I would check on my blog about the things that we forgot happened. This blog came in handy sometimes too. I think...yeah, I am going to start writing in it again. I would have thought there is a limit on how long you can keep a blog on hold until they delete, but I guess the nice people at www.blogger.com kept my files intact. So, without further ado, I am officially reinstating my blog prowess. Unfortunately, I cannot start immediately tonight and cover all the things that I have not been writing about, which would be from September 9th until now, December 1st. Let me tell ya, a lot of shit has happened and some of it you probably won't believe or can't believe. But I promise I will get to it sometime you know? Before the end of the year, for sure. Well, I am pretty tired and I am going to hit the hay since I have to work tomorrow at 8, so. (Yes, I still have the job at the National Park Service, thank god, for those of you who are asking where I am now working) I will write again tomorrow night and pick up where we left off on the last blog made on September 8th. Good night.

This is the last blog that I will write. It was fun while it lasted!

Well, it's been quite a stir the past few days. I haven't written in here in 10 days, the longest I've gone for quite a bit now. Let's back up a little bit. As I don't remember when the 20th was (the day), I'll just explain starting Thursday, which was the night Laura and I went to Manitou Springs to stay at a B&B. It was a great time! The first experience was a good one for me, fortunately, and I'm probalby going to go back there again sometime. We just, well, relaxed, really. We walked around the town and such. All and all it was a good time. Then, though, afterwards we went to pick up Chris from the airport, and on the way back, in Ashley's car nonetheless, I got a speeding ticket. It was a black guy on a bike. Fucking tards. Anyway, fast fowarding to Monday, I go to Ralph Schomp BMW and Honda to go look at a car...I settle on a red, Honda Civic EX. I have them turn in my credit report to see if I'm good to go with financing...I'm not, of course, after spending hours there. I need a co-signer. I go talk to my Mom afterwards and the next day, aruound 5pm, I'm home free with my new car. It's a damn great machine. A hell of a lot better than mine. It's been a few days now, and been putting a little too many miles on it for my sake. I'm need to start slowing down. I waxed it last night, to find out this morning it rained last night too. I washed the windows today. Soon, I'm going to create a website of my car, though I somehow need a way to get damn pictures on the net. Oh well. It's Friday already and that means that the first week of school is already over. It went by really fast. I am totally caught up except for a couple of classes because of book shortage. That's out of my power anyway. I think this Fall is going to be a lot better than the other semesters. The weather's been tolerable lately, too. Not TOO hot, though it's still hot. Tonight I think I'm going to show up at Chris' house for a little party, but I'm not going to stay long. I wanted strawberry ice cream last night, but didn't get to it. If I still feel like it tonight, I'm going. I might go watch a movie at the $2 theaters. $2...its so cheap. But yeah, things are on the upside recently. I'm enjoying it. My room's a mess, though. Ashley and Laura are pretty much moved in and hopefully they're enjoying it too. Ashley, Grant, Derek, and Susan are taking a trip out to Iowa to see TJ and his 21st b-day. Oh, how fun would that be. I am staring at a puddle of wax that's on my desk because I was careless enough to not put anything under the candle as it lit, so it leaked onto the desk. I am kinda hungry now, so I'm going to try and find something to eat. Probably ramen, but hell, it's better than nothing. See ya!

Well tomorrow Laura comes back. I think I'm gonna leave work early. Hehe. I have some things to take care of beforehand, but yeah, not new. I want to say some more stuff about music and its influences. I was rummaging through my box of unneeded stuff and came across my old cd containing backed up mp3s of all my old japanese songs. I put it in the cd player and started listening to them. Man they bring back a lot of memories from when I was about, oh, 11 or 12, maybe earlier. Yeah, it has to be about 10 for some of the songs. The amazing thing is that I remember each and every one of the songs clearly! These are old, old songs. It just has a quality to get ingrained into your mind. These songs put me in a really good mood, since I remember the times I hung out with my friends when I was in junior high. I spent a great deal of my allowance on these songs. Hundreds of dollars at least. Good thing I preserved them in the trusty old mp3 format. :) Thank you Germans! The sucky thing is that I don't have ANY of the songs of my favorite band. I gave the CDs to a friend and I think he still has them. The originals I sold on eBay for a morale lowering $60. But yeah, I think I might listen to a bit more of these songs and head to bed.G'night

Phew, another day done with. Left a little early, but oh well. I wasn't doing anything anyway. One of my co-workers said that she and a gang of friends went to the city where Laura and I are going for the B&B. She said she had a great time and said we shouldn't have any problems finding stuff to do. I completely forgot about one thing that I wanted to do, so I have to compensate for that and leave a little early from work on Thursday. It should be fun. I'm not saying where, since Laura checks this periodically and I can't have her finding out. Hehe. Sorry. But yeah, nothing new. Chris called. I guess he wants to have coffee or something on Friday when he gets back. I'm gonna have to call Ben and go by our coach's workplace, too. Thursday and Friday are going to be quite busy, actually. I might even say that those two days combined have out done all the other days for this Summer combined. That's how bored I was. I put a lot of miles on my car this Summer too, but good thing I'm getting a new car soon. I'm just waiting for the moment my car to stop, so I HAVE to get a soon. :) I have to think of something cool for my custom license plate number too. Well, I'm gonna...maybe take a nap. I'm kinda tired...sorta...maybe. Laters.

Well hello to Sunday. It's almost past. Laura's back, though I haven't talked to her much. Surfed all day mostly, did my laundry though, albeit only about 80%. Cleaned up her room a little too. I think I'm obsessive/compulsive. Maybe. Yesterday I hung out with Ben S. Yes, the same Ben that I haven't talked to all Summer and then some. We went to Starbucks, tried to catch up with our old golf coach, but he was "out sick". Yeah, right. We then went to Chili's and I ate lunch. The service was horrible. I gave the guy a $.50 tip. That's what he gets. Fuckhead, I'm never going to that one again. Then we caught up for a little while and I went over to my Mom's. Got a haircut, brought home the old, small fridge that I have no idea where to put even though at the time it was a good idea to bring it back up. I might put it in my room, but it will get unnecessarily hot in there. I might keep it right outside in the hallway...I don't know yet. Right now I'm pretty much waiting for when Laura can talk, either MSN or the phone. I'm pretty bored. I've been reading about how the moon landing by the U.S. might have been a hoax and setup. I was convinced there for a minute, but I think that the U.S. actually might have gone up there. :) I'm always a skeptic and open for any information that might come my way. 3 more days until the B&B. Can't wait. I hope my stay there is better than my Summer, which blew horsenuts all season long. I think I'm just gonna go listen to some music and chill for a bit. Oh yeah, Rod's a little baby.

Why does this world always try to go against me? My Mom was going to come up tomorrow to look at cars and I thought that I was going to get a car now, but I guess we aren't now. Fuck this, I am just going to have to earn this shit myself. I just need to come up with $1600 or more dollars for the down payment. Here's my plan in detail (this is mostly for my reference and plan to follow). I should be able to whip that out in a month and a half or so. I have about $600 spendable right now. My next paycheck should be around $580, so after $320 going to September's rent, I should have near $850 after bills and such...about half way there. If I can push myself to save my next paycheck, which would hopefully be around $500, all of that can go toward my savings, totalling around $1300. So close huh....That would be September 7th. The 21st would be my next paycheck. I have no idea how much I can get from that one, since I'll go going to school and stuff, so let's say a safe $450. After another $320 to rent, I'm left with $1400...god damn!!!!!!! My NEXT paycheck would be early October. I can put all, say, $450 to my savings, which equals a smile-inducing $1800 or so (I'm taking money here and there out, for social reasons). Bingo. I'm golden. BUT, I am supposed to be a nice little $1700 refund check from my great little community college for overpaid grants. That brings the grand total to over $3500. More than enough to get any used car I want. Problem is two-fold. Can I wait that long...and will my car last that long. Tough decision huh? My Mom said she would help me some for the down payment, which is great, but it would be greater if I can pull this off myself. The monkey on my shoulder would be lifted greatly if that happens. Well...it's back to the drawing board for me to make more money. :)

Ah, the weekend is approaching near. Tomorrow is Friday. Hell yeah!!!!!!!!! I just checked my checking account and magically $200 appeared. It must have been my Mom. Couldn't be anyone else, you know? So remember that lottery ticket I bought on Tuesday? I don't think I wrote it in a blog, but yeah, I bought a lotter ticket for last night and I got one number right. I guess everyone was wrong about how I should buy a lottery ticket because I'm so lucky and I would have one. The funny thing is, though, that three of the numbers were off by just 1. Oh well. I'm done with the lottery buying thing. Not my type of thing. Listening to Everclear right now. I haven't heard them in a long time. I wonder if they're gone or just busy recording. This ones going to be a short blog. I'm fresh out of stuff to talk about. I skipped work again today. Yeah, better them saving money than me going there, doing nothing, and them losing money. The funny thing is that they still lose money, hehe, but that's another story. Robin Hood, I tell you. Steal from the rich and give to the poor....err, me. Well, late.

Well not calling or e-mailing in about my day off wasn't so bad. Anyway, I'm now just shooting away the days to when Laura gets back. Actually, it's not the day she gets back that I'm waiting for, but the day I get to see her, which is Thursday. Another week. She's back on Sunday. That's in like, well shit, a few days. How fun is that huh? I was just thinking (like, JUST now), music is a powerful tool. It makes you wonder, think, daydream, pass time away, and thousands of other things more. It makes you happy, sad, excited, anxious, scared...you name it. I'm sure there's a song out there that'll convey a feeling. I always feel happy and secure when I listen to the music I like. I got to hand it to the artists who make great songs. Something I can't do, that's for sure. Chris called me yesterday. He was getting ready to go to Pearl Harbor then to Maui or something. Oh well. I'm really considering going working abroad next Summer. Ireland would be my first choice, but anywhere out of the U.S. would be cool. Council Exchanges is the service provider that I'm probably going to use. For $350 and $40 a month, you can work up to 4 months in places like Australia, France, Ireland, etc. I have to do the job finding, shelter finding, and stuff like that. It sounds great as it literally puts you in the middle of a city and you have to try and live. That's a little less than a year away, but something for me to ponder this long. It'd be a great experience wouldn't it? Laura wants to study abroad too, so we may try and coordinate our dates and travel, but I don't know how much we can coordinate it. Hey, well, I gotta run for now. Later.

It's Monday. What a weekend. I must say that was a weekend not to be forgotten. Right now you probably don't know whether or not it was a good one or a bad one. Let me just recap from the start. Saturday morning I wrote a blog right before I left, if I remember correctly. Well, I left, stopped by CSU, turned in my timesheet and left for camp. It took about 2 1/2 hours or so to get there. First I stopped by KFC to eat something, but I fucking hated it. I got to camp and I was greeted by Laura. That was good. Then she asks me to take to her this shirt place to place orders for camp shirts in Winter Park....I fucking just came from there...anyhoot. I take her there and back to camp. No one knows what the fuck is going on because apparently John in the "man in charge". I started to get irritated so I go outside until something happens. Derek asks me to go to his cabin to pick something up so I take the offer, since I'm doing nothing else. Right as we left the main building, everyone is magically ready to go. Fucking tough shit for them. So we leave camp around 2:45 or so for the camp site...oh wait, it's not just any campsite. It's a campsite that no one knows where the fuck it is. So we drive probably 40 minutes total until we backtrack 75% of our first route to find the campsite. Way to go John, way to go. I'm pretty much out of gas (since I didn't know we were going cross country) and we get there around 4 I guess. We stop by a campsite and get everything out...it's not good enough. "Let's go to the other campsite down there". We pack up and drive down 100 feet to the lower campsite. We set up camp there. By then I'm not in a good mood. I ask Laura to go on a walk with me. We went like, through the woods and sat down on a log and talked for a bit. That made me in a much better mood. We were in an area that resembled the likes of fantasy scenery. Anyway, we went back to the campsite and this ranger type fat ass comes up in a car and starts complaining about shit. About how only 5 people per campsite and shit. We had to pay an extraa $11. No one has money or whoever did couldn't act any sooner so I end up provided the needed $8 that we were short of. He then went on to complain about my car being parked in front of the LOCKED gate saying he might have to go to the pump house tonight or something. He never came that night for your information. I move my car. I keep on eating my lunchable. Soon it's about 6-7 and we gather around to talk and chill. I had fun there. Really. I was cuddling with Laura, but all I heard (well 90% anyway) was camp shit. They go camping to get away from the camp atmosphere and all they can talk about is camp. By now, I'm zoning off in my own imagination and looking up at the sky to see the meteor shower and stuff. I never saw any. I might go look tonight to see if I can see any. Well, around 10 or so, Laura and I go in the tent. We're tired and it was getting cold. The others trickle into their tent around 10:30, I guess. I'm like, finally, I can sleep. Oh no. John, the fucking idiot who can't keep his mouth shut, talks for the the good part of 2-3 hours. I can't sleep while he's laughing his ass away as loud as he can. A couple times the other campers told him to shut up. Apparently he's deaf and dumb. After a bit, one of the campers comes out of his tent, opens Johns tent and chews him out hardcore to shut him up. I was relieved about that, though yet somehow, John must be missing a few chromosomes or genes or something, because he just keeps talking. After he's done, I'm ready to sleep...then TJ and Ashley start talking. What the fuck is this. No one sleeps. I am laying there thinking, I should fucking go home now. That ends at about 4, at which time it's fucking cold. I give all the blankets to Laura because she was cold. I didn't want her to be cold. I was sufficed with the sleeping bag until about 5, when I got pretty cold and I couldn't sleep until the morning came. We all packed up and Laura and I left before anyone, because I needed gas and shit. Aside from seeing Laura, I would have rather taken a 2 day-long shit than go camping with some idiots. After I leave camp, as I had a 1pm appointment with Chris at Starbucks, I realized that I left too late. I was late 30 minutes after hitting traffic and missing some exits that I should have taken. We saw Jeff later on that day. Once we came back, we went to Starbucks again and ran into Ben and Emily. Ben and I caught up for the Summer and decided to play golf with coach probably sometime this week. I have an ortho appointment tomorrow. I'm just glad that this is the last week of camp. I will get to see Laura for good in one week. I can't wait for the B&B. This is Summer went by pretty quick and I can probably say it was one of my worst Summers. No one's fault, but it just sucked. I managed to save no money because of rent, bills, etc. I don't know. I just can't wait for the Fall to start and my classes to start. in two weeks, that'll happen. Before that, though, I just want to spent some good "alone" time with Laura. Well, that was a good blog I guess. :) When we were with Jeff, they talked so much about school, our old high school friends and what they might be doing now and stuff. I didn't talk for much of the dinner because frankly I gave no shit about that. Everyone's different and I am certainly the different one in the group. Then I got to thinking...I need to get the fuck out of this place. I might go work abroad all next Summer. Wouldn't that be so awesome. Laura wants to go study abroad too. If we can somehow coordinate this, it might be a great time. Ireland or England would be the destination. That would be such a great experience. That's next Summer, so who knows what will happen in a year. Well, I'm gonna try and find something to do. I skipped work today. Didn't call or e-mail this time. I just wanted another day of weekend. I'll see ya later!

Well it seems as though the earlier posts are back to normal. I'll read though probably at the end of the Summer to recap a somewhat boring and stupid Summer. I did a lot of thinking last night (sorta, I kinda fell asleep). I'm a decent person, I came to conclusion. I help out when I can and I say things that I mean. Sometimes that may not be the way to go, but hey, at least I ain't lyin'. Anyway, it's 8am now. I'm going to be leaving Ft. Collins in just about an hour. I think I'm going to go have myself a good weekend. Later!

Welcome back to another edition of my ramblings. By now you've probably understood me as a person who can change minds pretty quickly. Well, yeah, I just wanted to state that. I have been listening to two songs over and over the last week. "Everytime you need me" by Fragma and "Heaven" by DJ Sammy...damn...these two pieces are probably the best trance songs that I have heard so far. The two women singing in each song is just amazing, voice and appearance. :) But, today was Friday, which means that I got paid. This is, I believe, the first paycheck where I don't have to pay for anything. Bills aren't here yet and probably won't until my next paycheck. I think I may just save this wad of cash for the down payment for the car. Did I just say save? The cell phone bill is coming, and I decided that I'm going to check it on Monday, after my weekend, to, well, make the weekend a good one. I had my presentation for the web design workshop and it went well. I was pretty nervous, but it went well. Chris I guess has a date with the girl he has been talking about at work tonight. Right about now, he should be with her. I am curious as to how it goes, but that is going to have to wait until Sunday. This weekend is surprisingly busy considering it's mine. Maybe the most eventful weekend. August 12th is the peak for the Pleseids meteor shower that can be seen if you look, I think West? Well, if you know where Casseopeai is, look there. I know I fucked up that spelling, but sorry. I am planning to look for it tomorrow night/Sunday morning with Laura. It is the perfect time, and since the campsite is most likely going to be away from the city, it should be a great view. Isn't it romantic? The two of us under the stars? :) If only there was one more thing we could add to that. lol. Time is going slow and fast all at the same time. I'll explain another time. I have decided to make something for Laura for her B&B extravaganza on the 22nd. I should be able to put it together by that time if I can find the right components of what I'm trying to make. Aside from everything that I'm talking about, I watched XXX earlier today. I have to say, after all the alleged hype, it sucked. I never wanted to see it, but after being dragged by Rod, I caved in and said to myself it couldn't possibly worse than sitting in front of my computer at 4pm in the afternoon in the heat of my room. Well, it did beat it. The only part of the movie I liked about it is the "coolness" factor of the characters and the quite hot Asia Argento...I think that's her name. Look her up when you get the chance. I will definitely recommend it to people to NOT see it. Go see Signs instead. Much better plot, acting, and more realistic. I'll be leaving my house around 9am tomorrow, stopping by to drop off my timesheet at CSU and continuing on to drive to camp. I'm going to try and go slooooooooooow tomorrow. Slow as in the speed limit. I haven't had a time where I "relaxingly" drove my car in a while. When I lived in Niwot, I liked driving back home from Ben's house at around 1 or 2 in the morning with my windows down and going slow enough (about 10 or 15 mpg) to be able to hear the trees whistling in the wind. I am in such a better mood than I was in earlier. Maybe it's the trance. It's hard not to get into a better mood listening to it. I think I kinda made Laura mad earlier today when I talked to her. She was already having a bad day and I didn't help much. This was the second time that she happened to call when Rod was around...it is probably the most annoying thing in the world, I must say. He keeps talking and talking to me even though he knows I'm on the phone with her. It's like, shut the fuck up for just a minute. When this happens, I can't center my attention on Laura, while she keeps talking, and I'm here trying to listen to both of them and when I say "what" to Rod, Laura says "what" since she doesn't know what's going on and sooner or later Laura starts getting mad since she think I'm not paying attention to her, which is true for the most part while I try to give off the idea that I don't want to be around Rod right now. And it's hard to do all this when he tells me to fucking go with him to get food when I just want to sit and talk to Laura. He insisted on me going "just to go along". Fucking the only thing that was accomplished was pissing the major fuck out of me. Well, with that said, I'm about to crash for the night so tomorrow comes a little quicker. I'll write again possibly on Sunday night. Have a good one.

Tomorrow is the dreaded presentation that I have to give. I am not ready to give it at all. I have to practice tonight to make sure I don't fuck up. The good news is that there won't be many people there...hardly any, actually. Maybe 4? I don't know. I'll know tomorrow. I have been trying to fix this blog thing and trying to republish all my previous posts, but it ain't working. Hopefully it's something technical in the blogger system. I want to read my old blogs. Anyway. I tried to check my cell phone bill today and it's in the final stages of processing, so I'll know about tomorrow I guess. It's going to be...horrible to say the least.Over $100 for sure. I don't even want to see it. Anyway, this weekend is going to be either really fun or absolutely crappy. Going camping with camp people at camp isn't exactly my way to celebrate doing my presentation, but I get to see Laura and I guess Derek is excited to hang out with me, so. I'll give it a go. Then on Sunday, Chris and I are going to meet up with a couple good friends from H.S. to hang out and have dinner. That should be fun. Then Chris is leaving on Monday for Hawaii for a couple weeks. I am pretty much going to be by myself for about 1 1/2 weeks. Then on the 22nd, Laura and I will hang out ALONE for the first time in god knows when at the B&B. I can't wait for that. Well, I just gave you my itinerary for the new few weeks. School is about to start and I can't wait for that either though I don't want to take speech. I am really considering dropping it. Ah....the suckiness of life sometimes. Well, I'm going to try one more time to publish all my other blogs. See ya.

Hey all. It's been a boring yet busy weekend and the time I was not writing. I decided to give Laura an out of the blue gift. A bed and breakfast. Actually it's a two for one kinda thing, as I haven't gone to one myself, but she has. Anyway, I found a nice little place about 2 hours from here. I would have found something closer, but I only searched the places with websites. This place seems great and the service I have gotten so far has been great too. I'll report back on how that went when we get back. It's reserved for the 22nd, so it's still a ways away. Among other news, I saw Austin Powers and Signs this past weekend. They are both great movies, though Signs takes my vote, since I'm a alien freak. I rearranged my room, livened it up a bit and put up posters. Looks more cozy and clean than before. I am fucking nervous for this presentation that I have to do for work. It's on Friday. This weekend I told (well, not yet, the message hasn't gotten to her yet) her that I will go up to camp one last time, since it's near the end anyway, to hike with her and her friends. I'm only doing it to see her. I don't like camp or camp people at all. I am glad that camp's over, but at the same time I know I'm going to be annoyed by all the new camps stories that are going to be talked to each other about REGARDLESS of the fact that I don't give a damn and both parties were AT CAMP, so each person knows everything about it already. Anyway, I've already put aside the money for the bed and breakfast. It was quite a dent in my wallet, but hey, it's worth it. I can't wait for Laura to be back. I think this Fall is going to be just fine despite what everyone thinks about me living with my girlfriend "already". I don't care what they say. Just because they say it's not good or wasn't good for them doesn't mean you have to make me worry. Anyway, Chris and I worked on his car today. We put some tint and some decals. Looks much better, but he still has a ways to go. I am currently looking for something to sell in my arsenal of collections, but to no avail, looks like I might have actually sold everything that I can sell. I have nothing left but this old computer, car stereo stuff, my car, and Laura. :) I bet I can get a lot of money for her...hehe, but yeah, it's not for sale. I don't want to take speech class this Fall either. I know I should get it over with, but I don't like talking in front of huge amounts of people. Yes, a classroom is "huge amounts of people". I don't know what I'm doing tonight. It's so boring. Everynight I do the same thing. Forget to eat. Drink lots of water. Surf. Surf...oh wait, surf again, and then put on a trance song and go to sleep. Go to work in the morning...repeat. Boring eh? I gots to find something to do. Oh, and more bad news. My cell phone bill this month is going to be astronomical. Yes, I bet it will be over $100. I can't believe that shit. *sigh* I'll be back soon. I just got depressed. Laters.

Ok, it's been a while. Lots have been happening and it's all not in my favor. My brother came to visit last weekend and I had dinner with him and the family. It was a nice time I guess. The bike idea, however, is out of the question now. I am concentrating on getting a car. Yes. My car is ending is life soon. I can feel and hear it. Anyway, my proposed plan is to get a 3000GT in the coming months...hopefully. I have been under serious pressure lately. Everyone seems to be against me. That's ok though. I don't even know what to do sometimes. I think about what I should do every night before I go to bed and whatever I choose, I change by day's end. I can't make up my mind. Should I buy a car? Should I save up? What should I do? No idea. No one can help me. 2 1/2 more weeks until camp's over and everyone comes home. I'm glad about that. I can't wait for this new school year to start. I mean it. This Summer, sad to say, has been one of my worst. Many reasons contribute to this, but yeah. Currently I have no stereo in my car since I took it out on Saturday hoping I would get a car Sunday. It's Wednesday now and I haven't gotten a damn car. I don't think I will for a bit. I'm not going to install my stereo anytime soon. I may just have to go without stereo for a while. It's not so bad though. I mean, music in the car is something almost everyone who drives take granted for. It's not really necessary (except for those looooooong road trips). I really don't need it. I'm doing fine without it. It's nice to have some quiet sometimes. My credit card is almost paid off (yes, again). I don't know what I'm going to do after that, if I should cancel it or something. Yeah, well, it's burning hot in my room. I'm going to go cool off. See ya.

I think I may have come to a conclusion...after days and weeks of trying to get something, and you can't get it after you've gone through all your options, maybe it's just destined for you not to get it? I say this regarding the motorcycle that I want to get. I have tried everything. Nothing is going right. Tomorrow I will know if I got my loan for the bike or not. I'm serious about this decision. If I don't get this loan, screw it. I'm not going to get a bike until next Spring at least. I mean, why else won't things go my way? I don't know. I'm just bitter. I feel bad about leaving the guy whose bike I am going to buy in the open like this. Oh well. And then I buy this dry mist fan for $111...and it works like a piece of shit. I'm returning it tomorrow, and hopefuly I don't have to pay for shipping, but even if I don't, I'm out $21. I learn by doing. I learned my lesson. Everything in this world costs what they do because it's valued at that price. Simple as that. If you try and get something that worth $500 for, say, $200, it's probably due to some reason that the seller doesn't want to disclose and wants you to find out afterwards. The bottom line? Work, work, work, save, save, save and finally buy what you want to get at the price they charge. No shortcuts. Sadly, my head doesn't function that way. When I see something, it immediately tries to find a way around it to get it cheaper or better yet, free. I can't change this. I know that. The only thing I can do is to learn to control it. I am just waiting for Chris to come by now. I'll tell him the bad news, talk a little, and I'm off to bed. I hate the troubles that I have in my life. It's caused by one thing. Money. If I had enough of it, I would be living just fine. Unfortunately, I'm not like other well off 20-year-olds in the world. I have to work. Pay bills. Earn the shit I want. But in a way I like it. I'm already experiencing the real world. Of course, some people my age might never have to live like me. Good for them. But they'll never feel the satisfaction and sense of achievement that I feel. Paying my bills with the money I earn. Buying the things I've wanted with the money I earn. The list goes on and on. That's all I have to say for now.

Life has a way of swinging things around in complete directions sometimes. I'm sure everyone can relate to that. I got a call, well, a voicemail, from Ben today. That was a surprise. He wanted to know if and when we were going to play against coach and settle the money bet. I am not in the shape or skill to do that, but I will nonetheless. Maybe next week we'll set up a time. At least he hasn't forgotten about me. Anyway, back to what I was saying. Life is strange to say the least. I may get my bike tomorrow after some good news came my way. If I see a good one, it's mine. $4000 is my max though...maybe $4300...but no more. I can't afford it. After selling all the software, I'm going to try and save up. I have my job interview for my second job on Wednesday. You know something? Job interviews seem a lot more unnecessary when I already have a primary job. This second job would be great if I get it, but then again, it doesn't really matter if I don't. :) So, I am going to write a letter to Laura (e-mail) after this. I have something to tell her. I am going to hit the head soon. The faster I sleep, the faster the reality of getting my bike hits me. Hehe. Laters.

The import show was cool. I don't know if it was worth $16, but I got to see my favorite car! A Nissan Skyline GT-R. A very rare site indeed. You find me one strolling along the city, you call me. And then I got to thinking, where do all these guys (and gals) who own these cars get their money? It costs hundreds and thousands of cars to do these things to the cars, not to mention buying the car itself. Do they work? Sell drugs? Ask their parents? I don't know. I know that I sure as hell don't have enough money to do this, even if I do work TWO jobs. Life is one big obstacle for me. Really. I have to work to get what I want. And I have to work REALLY hard to get what I REALLY want. It's proportional. I want to see a movie? I work 45 minutes. I want to buy a bike? Hell, hundreds of hours of work there. Truth is, I don't really need a bike. I keep writing that in here, but I keep telling myself, I need a bike. I don't...I'm doing fine with just my p.o.s. car. It gets me to work, school, and other necessary places. That's all I need in life, right? Wrong. Humans need fun. That's how we grow and learn and live. I can't emphasize enough our striving for fun. Everyone wants it. It may come in different forms, but everyone will kill for it, literally. Well, tomorrow my first work day in 4 days. For a person complaining about money, I sure as hell aren't working enough. :) Well, I get paid this Friday, so. We'll take it week...err, two weeks by two weeks, shall we? Here's to a good Summer.

It's been some time since I wrote. Laura and Ashley and friends came up the 17th. That may explain why. I was at Estes Park for two days and Laura and I came home after we couldn't get a hold of anyone and we kinda ran out of things to do. We did go up a tramway and fed squirrels, went to dinner, looked at shops and stuff. It was fun though. I guess Ashley and TJ are together now. He's cool. I guess I can put "he's ok", too. I don't know. We then went to Rod's work (the 4 of us). He was pretty mad about that. A little fun isn't all that bad is it? And then my luck...I swear, my luck is changing rapidly these days. I checked my checking account and I find out I'm overdrawn $146. What the fuck is up with that? Upon further research, there's a mysterious returned deposit of $316.76. Now, it can be one of two things. Ashley's Dad's check bounced, and Laura's parent's check bounced. I haven't made a deposit for that amount ever, but it's the same as the rent here, so it's one of their rent checks. I am in the process of finding out who's it is. I can't remember which one of them wrote a check that was $.10 over the rent. I am pretty positive it's Laura's parent's check, since I remember her saying "Look, you made $.10". I am going to call her about it now. Hold on. No one picked up. I realized that I told Ashley to tell her parents about it, though it may not be them. Oh well. Ashley's Dad will e-mail me back hopefully today and I will get this straightened up soon. I can't afford this kind of layover time. I need to fucking pay bills and shit. I can't write checks if I'm overdrawn. God DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, today Chris and I are going to an import show in Denver. Paid $16, so it better be worth it. But my bike buying process has come to a halt, for one thing this stupid check return and the other thing my financial aid status is yet unknown. No way am I going to buy a bike if I'm to pay for this myself.

Ugh...*sigh* *slump*...I'm drifting in and out of sleep...and I'm at work. I just started. Damn, I can barely stay awake typing this. I need to find something to do or find a way home...*closes eyes* *opens eyes* *hits head on keyboard* fjknfddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.*wakes up* oh shit...