Bon jour people. It's the 13th. I just got back from a night at Ashley's and the gang. Fun overall. Trouble was kinda brewing with Ashley and TJ, but hopefully it'll get resolved. I have a surprise for Laura tonight when she gets back, if she's not too drunk. Anyway, things are pretty much the same. School's fine, for the most part, :), and the biggest thing of all is that I'm underway on my turbo project for my car. I've got the 3 main components of the system already. Well, I paid and the stuff is on it's way, so, basically the same. The 4th major component is also pending, hopefully. I'll have my car turboed within a couple of months, no later than February. I'm going to take it slow. I'm also stoked that my car registration is only going to be $83. A LOT better than the estimate that I gave myself of $300. That gave me quite the relief. After October, things should be pretty steady, as in not a terrible amount of debt and stuff like that. Halloween is right around the corner. Dunno yet if I'm going to do anything, but we'll see. My next update is probably going to be around that time anyway. My brother was supposed to come yesterday, but I guess appointsment were too few and he's going to try coming out near Thanksgiving. What's all this say? Bottom line, life is good at the moment. I've been swamped lately with school and sorta work, ;), but yeah, things are good. Christmas is also right around the corner. A couple of months and this society is going to be neck and neck with everyone else buying gifts, readying the house for the season and what not. I do have to admit that Christmas time kinda gives me a warm feeling inside. Everything is (or seems that they SHOULD be) in a really happy mood. I like reflecting on my past year during this time too. Then the new years comes along and all of a sudden, the entire process goes by like a flash of lightning. I wouldn't be surprised how fast today's date will come up again next year. I might go through my old blogs since I starts, since, it's been quite a while. 2001 is when I started writing if I'm not mistaken. I hope Blogger doesn't go bankrupt or something. I mean, I don't want to lose all this writing. Maybe I'll find a way to save this or something. The only thing, actually, that is tough to live by right now is money. It's really tight and I'm barely sliding by. I really need to start giving myself a strict budget. It's just that I've been buying stuff on command, err, on urges and they are really stuff that I don't need right now. I should be concentrating on work and school. Well, school first, then work. At least this coming Monday, Columbus Day I think, will get me a day off work. I didn't go in last Thur or Fri, so that kinda might kick me in the ass later on, but hey, shit happens. I also have to start thinking about what I want to buy people regarding presents. There will only be a handful that will get presents from me. Not that I'm a stingy guy or anything, I'm just saying that there's no reason to get people gifts if they don't get me anything. Still, some people deserve gifts. I'm not the one to say I need or want gifts. In fact, I never want gifts from anyone. In my mind, I don't deserve them. Oh well. We'll see how the money gets allocated during the season. Holly is probably getting excited for her 20th b-day in a few days, but yeah, like I said, her 20th. Not a big year you know. Well, this has been the longest blog since the days of yore for me, and at that note, I'm gonna chug along to bed. Actually, I'll probably wait until Laura gets home, so. Until next time, keep your chin to your, uh, up and stay cool. Laters.

Hey it hasn't been too long huh? I'm swamped with a paper to do for Friday, but I'll get to that tomorrow. Right now, there's nothing to do. Goodness has shined upon me in the form of currency and I'm happy to say that I own my laptop right now, out right. :) I'm almost finished with paying off my credit card, which I'm very happy about. Hopefully in a month or two I'll be at square one. Is that the right phrase? I'm not sure. Anyway, I gotta head out. I'm kinda busy researching and stuff.

I'm back again, and it's only been a few days! That's awesome huh? Anyway, this time, my "turbo-ing" my car may be a reality. I will need to dish out about $2000 in all in the process, but that'll be spread over a period of a few months so it won't be as harsh. To give a brief overview of it, it would HOPEFULLY give me plenty more horsepower, which in turn will let me beat a lot of the cars that are out there, yes, maybe even Chris' beloved piece of junk that's been breaking left and right as of late. Anyway, I'll update when I actually start the process. I'm just about done with the research aspect of it. Now I just have to come up with the funds. A test that I DO NOT want to take is coming up on Thursday. I may die as a result. Wish me luck. This test is either going to be good or all luck and guessing. 40 questions, A or B answers and about an hour. We'll see what happens. I'm hopefully going to line up an internship at Rocky Mountain, but I'll see what happens with that. I'll have to wear a fricken uniform or something and I'll only get like $120 a week. What's up with that?!?! I may have some other opportunities, like New Zealand. WOOHOO, but we'll see about that too. School's been good. Work's been slow. I'm doing ok. :) That's the wrapping up of my life right now. Chris is none other than bitching about his girl problems (like he's doing anything about it). Laura's working on the weekends. Oh yeah, she has a job now, since I haven't written about that yet. Um, Ashley and TJ are about the same. Still fighting but together. You know what I mean. Ben is with Remi. Ben Bath has turned 21. That's it. I'm at work right now, so I'm going to end this as I don't want to get caught, though like anything will happen if I do. What a great job. Laters.

Ok, it's been roughly 2 1/2 months since I wrote in here. I'm becoming more and more a busy man. :) Really. So, this blog has taken hiatus status. I'm sure I'll come back to this sometime in the future, but who knows when. Really, who knows. I do like writing in this though. it gives me a chance to relfect on myself and all that jazz. Other than that, things have been hectic to say that least. A lot has changed, but at the same time, a lot has not changed...if you get my drift. Plans have changed and rechanged and rechanged again. It's hard to keep on track right now. To sum it up and to make it easier, everything's "pretty much the same". :) Plus, another thing that entails not writing in here so long means that the blog system and interface has also changed, though, somewhat for both good and bad. It's a little iffy right now, but I like the change that Blogger.com has made. More modern. Man, it's almost been 2 years since I started this thing. It's a cool thing to see how time has passed in my life the last 2 years. Hey, one thing's for sure. I still love Laura. :) More each day, though she might not think so. ;) Well, that's it until the next blog...which could be MONTHS. Tough luck. Maybe my next year's resolution is to keep this shit up. But then again, next summer I might have an internship at Rocky Mountain. Woohoo. Laters all and hope all's well.

Wow! It's been a long time. Sorry I have been really bad at keeping up with the blogger thing. I have been really busy. I started my microeconomics class this past Monday and it doesn't look like it's going to be that hard, which is good. Here's a cookie for ya. I am writing this blog from my new laptop, :D, from a hotel using my cell phone as an internet connection. How bad ass is that? What technology can do for us now a days. Also, I bought myself a wireless network card and I can connect to "free" networks that are all around town, but I haven't found a place yet. I have tried it at my college library and it works like a charm. Hopefully I can find some good places other places, like coffee shops or something. I went to Laura's sister's rehearsal dinner tonight at The Fort. It was good, but you know, I'm not the big "expensive", high-class sort of guy. Anyway, I got her a salad spinner, which I think she liked. Then I came back home. I'm trying to get the room cold, because it's hot as hell right now. Tomorrow I have really nothing to do until 7pm. Well, 6pm, so I can get ready and have all problems accounted for if it comes up. Man, my life has just gotten so busy the last couple of weeks. We picked the date to move into our new place at Collins West. July 15th is the designated day. I can't wait. I don't want to move shit, but I can't wait. You know, I sitting here eating a cookie and playing on the laptop with a connection from my cell phone right? I feel and look like a damn hacker. This is the style of life a hacker lives. It's so ironic. Anyway, what else...I don't know. Nothing right now. I have to get some ice water. I'm thirsty as hell. Maybe tomorrow I'll scope around town in Denver/Lakewood there there is a network. Maybe not. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Nothing else is new really. Um, yeah, that's it from my first blog "out of town" and "away from the internet", so to speak. I'm gonna head out. Laters.

It's been such a long time! It's the longest in recent times. Sorry about that. A lot has happened too. Let me scoot on over back from my last post. Everyone except me, Laura and Chris have gone back to camp. No one else is here. Kinda nice, kinda boring at the same time, if you know what I mean. My credits from FRCC got transferred, so I'm officially in Junior status. I checked to see when I'd be done and it seems like Fall of '05, hopefully, if things go as planned and no mess ups occur. I have to concentrate my entire knowledge power from now on. We went up to camp last night to hang out with Ashley and friends because it's was Ashley's 21st. Not a big deal I would think when you reach it, but yeah, we ate as a group at this weird old sushi place that wasn't even a sushi place and I didn't like it at all. I'll go to Boulder if I want real sushi. :) Um, Chris came up too. Well, that's it for that subject. I was tired early this morning since we got up at 8 or so. I got up at around 6 to check what time it was, but I couldn't because my phone was either fucked up or out of power, so. I stayed up to make sure we got up on time. How nice of me. On the way up yesterday, I stopped by at Laura's house how to fix up something that I left undone when I installed the stereo in their car. Simple really, but Chris made it a big deal. He tried to help and stuff. Next week is Taste of Fort Collins on Saturday! I want to go. I haven't and it sounds cool. Lots of food to try out and stuff. Sushi restaurants are going to be there too, so hopefully we can get some free samples of the yellowtail, if you know what I'm talking about. I walked into our house today and it was FREAKING cold! I left a few windows open and closed all the blinds so it wouldn't get too hot in the house and it sure didn't! I mean, my luck, when I did this the weather turns out to be cold as hell, so it was colder than it would have been. It was 60 in the house, but oh well. I just put on a jacket for the moment. It'll get hot tomorrow again, so it'll balance out right? My new website has gone through yet another design update and the latest is at this place. I learned some cool new programming languages that does things like tell you how many people are at my site right at the moment and stuff like that. I paid my tuition for the Summer and I'm still waiting to hear back from the Financial Aid people to see if my appeal went through for getting aid for the Fall. I need it. We still haven't moved out, obviously. I'm thinking the original date of July 31st is the day. That's ok though. Hopefully I can save up SOME money to compensate for the rent increase. Hopefully the utilities don't go up either. Nothing else new I guess. Work is good. Doing my own little thing as always since I never have work. I'm trying to expand my knowledge base for jobs in the future. I really want this second attempt for my website to work this time. Hopefully I can lure in the freshman people in August. Hehe. That's my plan. Until then I'll do my best to get people started on it right now. I might do a little advertising when I'm in summer school. Nothing big though. My car is so dirty. Since it rained and snowed like a bitch last night up in Winter Park, it's dirty. I need to get one of those $8 car washes at the new place. I really liked it. I have to go on a hot day, so it will dry quickly. It that happens, it gets it so clean. Yay. I also have to pick up a tie and shirt and pants for Laura's sister's wedding in 2 weeks. I'm lazy when it comes to this. Yeah, I really don't need a shirt, but the rest I do. Well, I can probably get a tie, so just the pants then. I'll just go down to Kohls or something someday. Maybe I'll go tomorrow if/when Laura and I go get coffee in the morning if she's up to it. And then a week from Monday until my classes begin. I'm not looking forward to it, but it's life. Well, I'm about blogged out this time. I'll make sure to stay up to date on these things. See ya laters

Why do certain people always get "excited", even though it's nothing to get "excited" about? Beats me.

We're going to Ashley's tonight to have an early b-day party, thought it won't be much of a party. I'll have my camera to take plenty of pictures. Yesterday we went to see the new Matrix movie (good by the way) and went to the Old Spaghetti factory to eat. Fun time overall. TJ went have to Iowa via train. A couple more weeks until camp begins and virtually everyone here is gone. We'll be up there anyway in a few weeks time too, so. My ankle itches. Um, yeah, a small but effective update, right? Yeah, right.

Ok, my brother-in-law pisses me off. He asks me how I'm doing in school, which is find in itself. I'm reluctant to tell him, but I do anyway, then he starts to lecture to me about how I shouldn't have "wasted" 2 years at CSU and that I should transfer schools so I don't have to worry about my GPA and all this other shit. I'm standing there, laughing it off, while at the same time, I want to fucking punch his ass and tell him to stay out of my business. I don't want to live HIS life. Fucking eh. Just pisses me off. I don't go over there saying that he's a cheapskate and all that shit. Anyway, talked to my Mom, and it's great how she doesn't really care about it. I'm like, yeah, I'm getting a recreation and tourism major and all this stuff. Don't matter what it means to people. It's my life. Onto the fun stuff. Got a digital camera today. Hell yeah. Time to start snappin' pictures, if you know what I mean. I need to go buy a card reader so I can transfer the pictures to my hard drive. Until then, well, I might do that tonight, I can't get pictures up on my site. I might go to Best Buy, so. I'll tell you soon about it. Also, I went by Office Depot in Longmont while I was down there to see if I could tell Naomi (dunno if I mentioned her ever in my blogs, but it was Derek's old girlfriend. We go way back) happy b-day since it's next Sunday. Yeah, early, but I probably wouldn't see her anyway before or after then. I left a little note between the car door handles because I recognized her car. Just waiting now for a chicken pot pie to be finished. Afterwards, I may go to Best Buy...well, it might be closed. Dammit. It'll have to be tomorrow. Yeah, tomorrow. A big timesheet is going into this week's paycheck, which is awesome. 59 hours is the largest I've gotten since, oh, last Summer's end. I hope to have near 80 next time. Lots of money coming in is a good thing, did you know? After next, next paycheck, I should have everything paid off. Yes, everything. And then bills will roll on in and yeah, the cycle repeats. Tomorrow we're likely to go see the second Matrix movie somewhere. Other than that, there's a small party at Ashley's on Saturday (early b-day) and for sure I'll have some pictures from that night. Well, I'm gonna get going. Laters.

Hi again. It's been a full week since my all-out update. Here goes. Well, to tell you the truth, I don't remember anything from the last week. I finished up my finals last week and that's all I remember. I'm all done now, working full-time again. Sold my books and they didn't even take one of them. I think it was the most expensive one too. Oh $150 isn't bad. I'm putting it all towards the credit card. It should be paid off in one more paycheck. Thank god! I am pretty busy at work, but the work is tedious and it sucks sitting there for anywhere near 4+ hours. This week is lined with nothingness. We may have a party or something, but we're not sure. We're going to Coldstone later, in like 40 minutes. I want to be able to export my blogs to my new website, but I'll have to figure that out later. I sent my Mom a $70 gift basket for Mother's Day. It went from a simple going down to Niwot to this. I don't even have the money for this, but oh well huh. That's about it really. Summer's just around the corner and everyone's finishing up finals, getting ready for vacations, some are getting ready for camp and what not. I'm just looking forward to Dave Matthews. I probably won't get my seating assignments until a week or two before the show, which sucks, but I guess it'll be a better surprise in the end huh? Unless that is we find out I paid $60 a ticket for nosebleeds. How pissed would I be. It's been hot lately. I'm actually sweating driving in my car. I'm not one for driving around in the daytime with my windows down, but yeah. I also don't use the air conditioner. I don't know why. It's like religious to me. I don't know. Um, yeah, that's it. So far I'm 3 for 5 in As in my class. A couple of them I haven't gotten back yet. I should within a couple of days. Then I'm off to tackle CSU, again. Hopefully I won't fuck up. Laura came up with a good idea about maybe getting a Bachelor's at CSU while also getting an AA at Front Range concentrating on computer information systems or something. We'll see. Laters.

Now my blogger starts to work, when I don't feel like writing in it. I have a lot to talk about, but I'll hopefully update to the latest information by tonight.

We're about to leave for Hibachi. I can't wait for the food.

It's not later tonight, but I'm back. It's Friday and there's not a thing to do in the town. Chris and I took some pictures of our cars. He's gonna get it scanned and gonna put it up on the website. Anyway, O.A.R. concert. Yes, that was an awesome concert. It was my first one too. Gov't Mule was the opening band and I hate to say it, but they sucked. Really bad. It dragged on until finally they left and O.A.R. came on. I'm hooked on them right now. Ashley for the most part moved out. We helped move her shit because of course, she can't do it. Her place is nice, but some areas are small. Still, over kill for one person. It's like living in the high stakes if you know what I mean. School is over next Thursday! Hell yeah. I'm gonna sell my books back on Monday. Well, I'm gonna need a few of them, well, then again, maybe. What the fuck am I talking about. I don't even have to worry about needing them. My days are screwed up. So, now that's over with, I think I'm going to go on ahead and learn some O.A.R. tabs. I might get a 4.0 this semester!

I'm a little busy at the moment, but I'll be back hopefully later tonight to inform you on the various happenings in the last few days. In short, I was at an O.A.R. concert and got some tests back and Ashley, well TJ, has started moving out to her new place.

Okay, so I didn't come back right after I said I would. I had to take care of some business and it was time to sleep. Today was a rather uneventful day. I overheard my boss and the bigger boss about them not having that much funds in the CSU account that pays for me and my supervisor's pay. I was like, I don't like where this is going. I hope I don't get laid off or something. That would suck big time. Anyway, right now, I feel like doing nothing. Literally nothing. I don't even want to be typing this right now, but I have nothing else to do. We went to Jim's Wings and I guess it was fun. Not something I'd do again, that's for sure. I don't know what we're doing tonight. Everyone is getting excited and shit about moving out to their new places. We're not even moving out yet. I'm convinced that we're going to stay here until the lease goes up in July. I don't really mind, though. I don't want to move all my shit to the other apartment anyway. It's going to be such a pain. It's near the end of the semester and I'm starting to get a little behind in terms of class assignments and reading. It's as though I'm loosing my momentum, you know? Oh well. Hopefully I'll do just as well this summer at CSU. I can't fuck up. Period. If I do, I don't know what's going to happen. I'll probably die. Lots of bills coming my way too, recently. It sucks. I may find another job to have some extra cash. My room's a mess. I've said that before, but, again, I don't want to do anything right now. I might go lay down or something and read a magazine. I don't know. I hate Mondays. Um, yeah, so I'm gonna stop writing now. See ya.

4 more days until heaven. Yeah, I know what I mean. This weekend we went to Elitch Garden's grand opening. It was fun, though it cost an arm and a leg. It was the day that I tried the XLR8R, which is basically a bungee/swing type ride. $15 extra to ride and Laura, Ellen and I did it. It was fun as hell. I admit, I was a little nervous waiting, but once we began the process of getting strapped up and all that, I was fine. They made me pull the rope that released us. The scariest was probably when we were being pulled up to the launch point. We were just looking straight down until we released it. Come to think of it, I was so into being ready to pull the rope that I don't think I ever looked around to see the scenery. I remember look at the top of the structure of the swing and I was like, whoa, that's high and I was trying to compare it to Tower of Doom, but I don't remember. The first 70 feet I guess is a straight free fall. That was the most fun part. Then after that, the bungee cord kicks in and you start to swing and not fall. We're going pretty fast though, I guess it said around 70 mph. That's pretty fast I guess. Anyway, yeah, it was a fun ride. The entire day was fun. Chris and Ashley were flirting around all day and they were pretty much dating, if you ask me. The last ride we went on, Ashley wanted to go on the boat ride so I went with her. I was sure that we wouldn't get soaked, but alas, we did. I dried pretty quick though. Afterwards, we came back and we were all tired as hell, so we took a nap. Later on, Susan and Grant came by and we went to Johnny Carino's to eat dinner. Target afterwards where we saw Ben and Remi. The entire day was fun I guess. Ashley moves out on Thursday. I don't know how much she's going to move out or if she's going to start staying there for the month or what, but we'll see on Thursday. Still no word on the fricken rent assignment. I have a feeling we'll be living here until the end of the lease, which is going to suck big time. Well, I guess it's not going to suck, because for the time being it's going to be cheaper. Yeah, I guess I don't care if we move out sooner or later. I just finished a big research paper for my geology class. I think it's the biggest assignment I had left until the finals for my classes. That's a good sign...uh, I'll be back later.

Turns out I can't go read them. Probably something going wrong with the Blogger server. I'll try again later.

K, so Ben doesn't hang out with us anymore. He's too caught up with Remi, seems like. Oh well, no bid deal. I am going to an advisor tomorrow to see what classes I need to take and what not. Hopefully they don't laugh at me and say something like I can't get into any college because my GPA is so low. But, all jokes, aside, I'm really gonna get my act together and see if I can finish in about a 1 and a half. I also hope that I qualify for financial aid, too. If I don't, I'm very, very, very screwed. For the Summer, I'm gonna take two classes. Microeconomics and...dread speech. I don't even want to take it, but it's required. Dammit. Among other news, i REALLY want a camcorder. I want to make a car video. I have been downloading a buttload of songs the last few days. I guess I'm actually taking advantage of Kazaa and P2P file sharing. How bad am I? Not really. Millions do that same thing. Chris and Laura are both like you're going to get caught, blah, blah. Shut up! No one's going to get caught. I got back my astronomy test today. 94%. Not bad considering I made some stupid mistakes and I didn't really study. On the other hand, Rod got something that he won't tell me, so, must have been bad. School is going along quite nicely. Cruising along a borderline 4.0 right now. We'll know in about 3 weeks my real GPA. Then, I'll have about a month or so off and then back to school again. Class EVERYDAY for 1 hour for the two months thereafter. I'll keep my mind to it, and it'll be all good. If I fuck up this time, I'm a goner (gonner?). Anyway, sippin' on some Sprite right now. Laura is studying and the others are doing whatever in there rooms. Was loud so I closed the door. I've been obsessed with minesweeper lately. I can't stop playing it and I can't beat expert level. I have beaten beginner in 8 secs and intermediate in, um, I think it was somewhere between 80-130. I don't remember, but it was good. I am going to drink some more Sprite now and after that's done, drink some water. I feel thirsty all of a sudden. Nothing new once again. I need to get my butt to work you know? I better start working 50+ hours a week over next school year or I won't be able to pay the fricken $60+ increase rent. I may save up some money over the Summer too. That will help a lot. Yeah, remember when I was going to open a savings account? Never happened. CSU Connection is slowly losing its momentum that it had for a while there. I may be getting ready to shut it down and start another site. A trance or car site. Whichever. If I get a camcorder, which I doubt I'll get, it'll be a car site. My room's a mess right now. I think I'm going to go read my first blogs that I wrote when I first started. Look back on the memories, you know? Laters.

So, I'm back on my own computer now. I'm just downloading songs now. I have found some new bands that I really like. Rufio, O.A.R., Beck (I didn't know they made some of these songs I downloaded) and Five Iron Frenzy. I guess I'm a little slow to catch on huh? Anyway, just doing nothing. Maybe going to coffee with Ben later on if he messages me back. Actually, he needs to wake his ass up first. Laters.

So it's bee roughly a week and what a week it's been! I'm writing from Laura's computer because I don't want to go into my room. Ashely and TJ are getting ready to go to Boulder. I wish TJ didn't take a shower because I need to. Now I have to wait a while dammit. Anyway, last week. Yeah, I got paid on Friday. All gone as far as I know. Paid about half my credit card, my car insurance, etc. I can't pay my Mom at all this month, which sucks. I'll have to e-mail her about that. Yesterday, Laura's Mom had two free tickets to Winter Park, so Susan and I used it. Yes, strange huh. Anyway, the first two runs were really nice. The thing was, though, that I used Laura's board, which was goofy, so I had to ride regular on a goofy board. How weird is that? And the weirder thing? I think I did better! I like it like that more than regular. Don't ask why! I was carving and picking up speed better, you know? Strange man. And then, it started pretty much blizzarding and every time we would pick up speed to go down the mountain, the snow felt like ice needles and it would hurt like hell. I would look up and the ice would hit my face, and it would melt, you know, and the water would drip into my eyes and that would get cold. It was hell. I couldn't see where I was going. I would imagine goggles would have helped, but I don't know. Susan said snow got into her eyes too, so. Oh well. After a few more runs and at like 3, we left. The place that we rented Susan's skis were fricken cheap! $13 for a pair of skis and $17 for snowboards. Damn nice! I'm going to start using that place. It's right on the way too. Convenient. I got home, I had to finish my fricken computer assignment. I whipped that up and I didn't even know the criteria, so I just added a reference section in the end and turned it in. Oh well. I don't really care about that class, so. Next week is the due date for my geology paper. This one I will have to actually do it good. I don't want to get a B in there. Astronomy test was, well, on the easy side, but I don't know how well I did. I could have made some real easy mistakes so. Other than that, Laura's in Lakewood celebrating stupid Easter. I'm gonna head to Starbucks at around 11 if we're even going today. I just messaged Chris. I should get a response here in a little bit. So that means I'm gonna get going. I would take a shower, but I can't you know, since all the water's gone before I even have a chance to use it. I'm really strapped for cash this week, and next! I'll have about $20 for the next two weeks, which sucks. Anyway, have yourself a dumb little Easter!

Okay, so the internet has been down on and off at our house for the last couple of days and frankly I'm annoyed. It's up now, obviously, but I can see it going down again. Wouldn't it suck if it went down just before I submitted this? Anyway, camping was fun, though at night it was a little on the cold side. I think the only problem was that the ground was cold. We were next to some red neck, drunk guys. They were funny, but their music kept me up for a little bit. My neck is so itchy. I want to itch it, but I know that it will just make it worse. I want a supra. Yes, I do. I think I am going to create another site. Something about trance or cars, maybe. What else...um, I don't know. That's it for now. Nothing's been up since the downing of the internet. It was so boring. Anyway, I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. Lates. I love you Laura!

So, we're going camping tonight. It can't get any more last minute than this. I just went and got some firewood...though, Ashley and TJ are late...no reason they should be, but anyway. We'll probably get there around 9:30 or so, set up camp and chill for a bit. Should be a good time. PLUS, I finally get to use my new burner. I don't know what I'm going to cook, but it'll be something! :) Anyway, laters to you all.

The weekend. Yay. There's always nothing to do. Tonight, so, we may all go out to dinner or something dressed up. We haven't done that in a bit, so, who knows. Laura will be back around 6 I guess. I have no idea what's going to happen. Chris (if he ever wakes his ass up) and I will go driving around Loveland and the back roads today. I actually want to find the place that my field trip went to. It was a nice place. Anyway, yesterday Ashley rented Communion for me and watched it. It was freaky at first, but it was to the point that about 1/2 way through the movie, it wasn't anymore. In the beginning though, it was pretty scary. Oh yeah, I didn't even say what it was about. It's based on a true story about this guy who was abducted for a few years and he took hypnosis and found out what was happening. No one believed him and so forth. The aliens on there were cheasy, but freaky in a way. It's a nice day again. I want to do something outside. I will settle for just driving though. I bought Laura something, but she won't be able to see it until next week. :) I know you'll probably read this by then, so don't ask me what I got you. No word on the DMB tickets yet. I'm giving up and waiting until they actually e-mail or put a notice up on the board. All my tests are over until next Thursday when I take my astronomy test. After that, it's all finals I think. We have, well, I have, less than a month to go in school. Ain't that a good deal? Granted I won't be doing shit during the summer, hopefully moving out by May's end and all that. I will be saving up quite a bit to meet the rent and utilities of next year. I was going to get a savings account, but I am putting it off since I'm lazy. That's about it to report. Have a good weekend.

So I've just been surfing around the Dave Matthews Band forums and it seems to me that I'm not the only one complaining about now knowing where my seats are for the concert that I've bought tickets for. I mean, it's kinda annoying to not know, when you already shelled out nearly $120, you know? Some people are getting more irritated than me, so I'm not the most crazy or anything. I'm just glad that I did get tickets. I just went to Ticket Master and the best seats they have are nosebleeds seats behind the stage. Hopefully mine will fare better, but I did read a few people's experience of people getting lawn seating and stuff like that. If that will be the case, I would have rather tried to get tickets on Ticket Master right when it went on sale and probably gotten better results. Too late to bitch about it now, so I'll have to wait and hope that it will come soon.

April is rolling along just great. I'm listening to Evanescence - So Close right now. I love the background music of this song. They are a great band. My website is coming along good, I guess, but lacking in the area of PICTURES, something I need. Oh well. Whatever. This month is probably the busiest month that I've had so far in terms of school. Everything is winding up to the end. I have papers due for each class (this month at that!), tests, and assignments. Hopefully I'll get a response from CSU soon knowing if I got in or not. I sent in my trascript and everything. I don't have much time to do anything these days. My life is actually becoming a life! I'm going to be overwhelmed with the amount of free time (hopefully) that I'll have in the summer. I don't know if I wrote this already, but Ashley's found a place to live at the Preserve (s******) so we went in to Armadillo to get out of the lease early if possible, that is, if someone wants to take it over. That will be the 1st of June. Then we'll be moving along to Collins West. Great huh? Hopefully next year the living situation will be even better than this year. It seems that it's getting better and better as the years go by. The other day for the first time in months, we all went over to Chris' to drink. Yes, me too. I just had a beer, but hey, whatever is ok right. Ben and I are going to the bars on Thursday to check out the scene. It's not something I'm into at all, but I figure I'd see what it's like you know. We're going to invite Chris to go too. That will be funny. I'll probably sip on a beer the entire time or something. Yeah, what else...oh yeah, our last geology lab was yesterday and it was a field trip. It was fun. This one place we went to was just awesome. We sat by the rocks that we pretty high up overlooking a small valley. There was a ranch and stuff, but that was the only man-made obstruction there. It's unbelievable when you look at the environment that hasn't been touched. It reminded me of the LOTR and stuff. I can't wait for Ireland, where there are surely more vast landscapes and such. I love those kinds of scenery, you know? It's inspiring in a way. I want to take Laura to this place, maybe even tomorrow or something, but yeah, it'll be fun. Nothing much to do tonight. I did a majority of my work yesterday and today, primarily tests. I have 4 more to go. 1 will be down tomorrow, another on Wednesday, another probably by Friday and the last one before finals on next Tuesday. Right now, I can't believe it's already 7:30 because of the fact that it's still quite light outside and the daylight savings time. It's starting to feel like summer again. :) I like it. It sorta, in a vague sense, reminds me of my childhood. I can't explain it. Anyway, I'm also in a money crunch. My credit card statement is coming here in a week or so. I'll get paid a good sum next time, so all of it might go towards the credit card and maybe a little to the insurance. I've got about $650 to pay back...slowly. I'm not a credit card person. I need a money making plan. The lottery would be just fine. It would be awesome, actually. Even a million would be so nice...I would put $700,000 into like a retirement plan to accumulate. The rest would go to, well, I don't know. Maybe $200,000 to a house that we'll live in after I graduate and the rest would go to a new car (Supra anyone?) and misc...like furnishing the house or something. Maybe I'll play sometime. I have no cash on me, so. Oh well. The friends department is the same old I guess. Looking at the weather, seems like this weekend might finally be a prime time for camping. Hopefully it is. I want to put my stove to use, you know? I bought it for something. But yeah, I'm gonna head off now. Nothing else to talk about. I'm just ramblin' right now. I'll see ya laters.

It's been a while! The last week has been stressful as hell. You wouldn't even know. 5 tests in the next 1.5 weeks (though I finished one already today), applying back to CSU, work, bank stuff, having no money, signing the lease and stuff like that. It's just way too much! Hopefully it'll start to settle down here soon. I really haven't been able to do anything. Things are so hectic. Ashley has found a place for this coming May at the Preserve, we've found a place at Collins West, and well, we're going to try and get out of this lease here at the end of May, hopefully. I wish to get all the deposits and shit back, so. We'll know about that on Friday when we go in to talk about it. It's been a nice week in terms of weather though, that's something to look forward to! I want to possibly go camping this weekend, if the snow is melted and all, that is. I'm sure it'll be fine though, unless the weird ass weather brings us shit again. That's it to report. Oh yeah, I JUST changed the font to Arial instead of Verdana, to give it a little change. I've been doing a lot of my school typing in Arial, so I've grown to like that font right now more than others. Um, I guess it's back to more school work for me though. Laters.

So the problem is averted for the time being. I'm just getting a little annoyed at the moment. People need to learn to be, well, more educated or something. I don't give a fuck. I just made a CD with new trance songs that should hold me over for a little bit. Other than that, I had my 2nd geology lab and my 3rd and hopefully last one will be next Saturday, which is a field trip to see the rocks of the area. Interesting to know that Horsetooth Rock, this rock not too far from here and it's visible, is 1.6-1.8 billion years old. Pretty amazing considering the fact that the Earth is only about 3 times as old as that. Anyway, I'm going to head over and play Catch Phrase now. It's a very recommended game from me. Trust me. I don't like many games. Laters.

It's just incredible the things that happen when people say stuff sometimes. I don't even know what to say. I've probably created a big problem that may or may not stick around but I really don't care. There's a fine line between being dependent and being ridiculously dependent. Solving YOUR problems at the expense of OTHERS' discomfort and dissatisfaction is just wrong. It's just asking to wage war. Taking things for granted is also a bad thing to do and just builds up the problem even more and sooner or later, you're going to have to face it, whether it may end nicely or fuck up your life. And it seems as though war has been waged in a sense. Some things are just how they are and you just have to accept them. Some people just don't want to do that. I'll keep an update of what's going on in this situation over the next few weeks and we'll see how it progresses. I mean, I'm not going to back down or anything, but I'm not going to push anything more than it's been pushed already, unless it comes to the point where it has to. I hope it doesn't come to that because once it's come to that, some things won't be able to be healed. I'm going to burn a CD now, with the latest songs that I've downloaded. I may have some news for the blog later on, even. We'll see.

So, today was an exciting day at work. Not really, but I finally got to spend a few hours on a project and felt important. Unfortunately, I'm done with it, so I'm out of things to do. Great huh? It fricken snowed today and during the little snow shower, the sun came out...what is wrong with the weather in this state? I mean, come on. It's supposed to become pretty good weather, you know, this week. Strange I tell ya. I have a lot of stuff to do in terms of homework this week. I do not want to do them. I think I'm going to visit Zach on Wednesday. I have an ortho appointment, so I might as well stop by and say hello or something. I didn't even know he was in town, nor did anyone else. Seems like people are starting the stray away from their friends and starting to do their own thing, if you know what I mean. I think, well, life's starting! Not for me though. Not yet at least. I have a couple more years to go. So boring today though. It was a good mail day, I guess. I got my 256MB of more RAM and I installed that already. I do feel the computer is a little more zippy. I also go 2 movies, A Beautiful Mind and Time Machine. I think I'm going to watch the Time Machine tonight. The other one seems to be kinda slow, but that's ok. I signed up for Netflix (2-weeks free trial) so I'm renting a few movies for the next couple of weeks, then cancelling it. Cool huh. I'm watching my lava lamp do its thing while I type. It's sooooo boring. Today my ad for my website went up. It was in a great place apart from the other ads. Hopefully this will increase traffic a little, but I'm beginning to think that it's a lost cause. I doubt anyone is going to send in their pictures. I set up a forum for the website, but I doubt anything will go on that either. Oh well, I have three month before my hosting runs out, so I guess I can wait until then, but I mean, I had to try it. I'm kinda hungry but dunno what to eat. Ash and her sister are playing Mario Party downstairs. They have nothing better to do I suppose. We tried to go to the office of the new apartment we hope to live in, but again, they were gone. What is up? I'll know the Dave Matthews tickets status by this Thurs. Hopefully I won't have to buy it through the public sales. My car is pretty clean. I like the rain since it cleans the car, but snow I hate. Well, that's all for now. I'll be here soon I think since there's NOTHING TO DO.

*sigh* It's just a drat when you solve one problem and that just sprouts up another. That's about the only news I have. I just finished talking with a good friend from high school that's going to the school of mines. Also, maybe I'll mention it in this blog that I have a "secret" website that is very well underway. I'll show Laura sometime when there's enough content. :)

Well I got my timesheet signed for a measely 28 hours...that's not going to pay for anything. My credit card bill is up the snafoo and I'm screwed. I'm gonna die. My Mom messaged me on MSN today from Japan. I thought it was a little weird, but anyhow. I guess it's cold there. Why is this Earth so damn cold? Laura went to Denver today and tomorrow so she can shop with her Mom and spend her sister's b-day down there. I'm left to do nothing. There is nothing to do. Haha, here's something funny. I tried to spray paint the small inside area of my car red to match the car's exterior and yeah, it didn't work. I'm looking for some paint thinner now to try and get the paint off. Hopefully it'll come off, otherwise, it won't be appealing to some buyers if I ever sell it. I should sell it soon if I am to, so I get get some good deals around here. But yeah, nothing else to report. Literally, nothing!

So the snow finally stopped and the city is well on its way to recovering in terms of driveability and clearing them damn roads. The funny thing is, yeah, I decided to go to breakfast with someone and that in turn caused a part of my underside of the front bumper to break off and a little piece is just hanging from there right now. I mean, there's nothing I can do about it. I don't think they sell just the underside, but it's ok I guess. Doesn't hurt the car in any way, so. The driveway is hard to get into. It's ridiculous. I am going to take down the TV to Longmont today. And I also have to stop by radio shack, maybe, and swing by Chris' house to pick up his smaller 19" TV for Laura's room so we can watch movies in there without the "choppiness" of the computer DVD player. I may also stop by work to see if it's even open and to see if my bosses are there. If not, better for me as I can put some hours down on my timesheet for this week since you know, work wasn't so fun this week. Anyway, I'm gonna get some shit done. Later.

Well, I've found a "saving" event that will calm my nerves for the most part, but it just keeps on coming. It's snowing like the devil out there. Predictions put the number of inches of snow at 345872340952435" or yeah, roughly the end of the world. No kidding, either. My car and every other car out there is covered like fuck. It's already snowed a few inches and it the bulk of the storm hasn't even reached us looks like. It's gonna be one heck of a week. My ad for the collegian for my website got rescheduled for next Monday, the 24th, which was nice of them since they aren't going to publish any newspapers probably all this week. My paycheck in turn is going to be shit, or maybe nothing at all depending on whether or not I can even get to work or if work's even open this week. My turn in date for my timesheet is Friday and yeah, frankly, I don't think anything will be open, so, I'm screwed probably for the most part.

I'm going to blow up!

Okay, it's later. Well, it's been quite a hectic week actually, despite the spring break that it's supposed to be. First, an update on my website. My friends' profiles aren't up yet. They'll be up hopefully on Sunday so by Monday, everyone can come to my site and enjoy and flourish it...yeah right. Second, when I went to work on Thursday, for the first time in ages, they complained that I should tell them when I'm not going to be in the office. Oh well. Third, I had a dentist's appointment today to fix that lone cavity that I've had for over 2-3 years now. It's fixed, no pain, all good. Fourth, my credit card is up the creek. Hopefully I'll be able to pay it off by within 2 months. Sixth, my data cable I was finally able to figure out. My computer I think is just too old or needs a heavy upgrading in the motherboard/BIOS area. I did it on Laura's computer and it worked wonderfully. The speed it connected at was amazing from just being a phone service. Over 110Kbs! Even 56K modems don't work that well. I'm going to start abusing it soon, like when I go down to Denver or on a road trip or something, granted, I have a laptop. Seventh, I finished up on lots of homework for this week. It really wasn't a spring break...more like a spring weekend. Nothing different for me. Ashley and TJ are back from their trip and they got my a nice little cactus plant in a pottery. Nice huh? Which brings me to my Eighth and final point, our trip to NM. Okay, so we left at 4:30 sharp on Saturday as planned. I drove hell of a lot faster than I should have been, but that's okay. After a couple of hours, stopping at Colorado Springs for some breakfast, we got to Santa Fe in 6 hours. 8 hours courtesy of MapQuest my ass! I put the cruise control on 100 for a good part of the desolate landscaping which helped. Lots of dirty bugs hittin' my windshield too. Right when I got into town, the atmosphere was noticiably different. The people were all mexican! Go figure. We got to our Days Inn ok and we decided to go to the plaza for Laura to shop. We did, and we ate at The Shed, which is reportedly supposed to be good, but my enchilada was just too damn hot and wasn't good either to boot. Strike one. The next place we ate, Tomasitas was really good, despite the idiot hostesses that worked their who made us wait 30-40 minutes. Anyway, that was that. I must tell you these mexican people aren't friendly toward tourists, especially those of japanese. This one guy in the gas station was laughing at me. I'll rather fucken send him to the border patrol than stay there. Anyway, the next day we set sail for Roswell...yes, Roswell. The infamous alien crash landing incident. We got there in 2 hours (4 hours my ass, MapQuest) and went to the UFO museum. What a place. I loved it. Took a picture next to an alien and we were off to see the contents. Good stuff. We visit the gift shop where I went ahead and purchased a alien mug and a keychain. Laura bought just the mug. There were some cool posters and shirts, though. After that, we ate at Applebees (always good service served by crackers :) ), and headed up back to Santa Fe. This time we ate at Denny's...ok, usually Denny's's (??) are ok, but this one sucked. The hostess was an incosiderate idiot who I hope dies soon. The waiter (mexican) was just TOO nice and weird. Whatever. We got back to the Days Inn and went to bed. Next day, we drive back to Black Hawk, where our free hotel room awaits. We get there, sort of slower than on the way down, and I get the room. Nice room it is! My Mom was coincidentally staying there that night too, so I found her and we went to dinner. Laura was all nervous and actually getting mad about it. Don't ask why...I eat and do all kinds of stuff with her family. After dinner, I think my Mom gambled a little more and left early that next morning for some hot springs. That night, we decided to watch LOTR:TTT and ordered high speed internet. Yeah, I know I can't believe I did that. Anyway, next day we stop by Laura's house in Lakewood and head home. Fast forward to now and here we are. You're all caught up now. I'm so tired of this constant typing...I'll be doing that again soon since a paper is due for astronomy in the coming weeks. 2 to be exact. I'll pull it out of my ass. Anyway, already 11:30pm...time for bed, or rather, way past bed. I'll talk to you again soon. See ya.

Okay, I don't have much time as of right now to talk about our trip to Santa Fe/Roswell, NM, but I will tomorrow sometime. We are going to Rod's to sit in the hot tub here in a little bit. All and all, I had fun. But yeah, I did get the data cable...TODAY. God damn it. I tried to fiddle with it for a few minutes today, but I couldn't get it to work. Hopefully I can get it to work. I don't want to have spent $30 for nothing. My credit card bill is up the roof. I am in deep shit! That's right, very deep. My Mom is going to Japan in a couple of weeks. Hope she has a good time. Nothing to report right now. I am in the process of promoting my CSU Connection website. I hope it gets big. Really. On a side note, my site is 100% up now. Checking the webstats, it seems as though some amount of people are actually visiting the site because the hits on the site is going up and that's during when I didn't check it, so it must mean SOMEONE is checking it out. Once spring break is out of session and everyone's back, which would probably be this weekend, I'll report again on whether or not I think it will be good to continue keeping it up. That's for now. Be back later.

It's coming down to the wire now. I have all the things for the website set up. All it needs to do is for my domain name to recognize my new hosting and it'll begin. I have to go put flyers and such up around campus tonight. I'll let Laura do the design. I hope this really works out. Anywho, got my Astro test back and got a 88%. Not bad eh? Rod, however, didn't fare as well, but he wouldn't disclose his score. Goes to show that goofing off and not taking notes kinda hurts when it comes to it. I have been discussion on the forum at the paranormal site pretty intensely today. Did not much else. Turns out that my Mom has also reserved the 10th of next week as the day for the free night at the casino hotel. That's the same day Laura and I are going there...weird huh? I heard from a co-worker that this time of year is cold for New Mexico so I should bring some warm clothes and possibly get ready for some snow there. I thought it didn't snow in the southwest? Aside from that I have to get a couple of things done homework wise before this trip. Also, the package containing the data cable that was allegedly sent via USPS priority mail on Tuesday wasn't here today. Seems kind of odd, but it better come tomorrow, or this money I spent was down the drain. I want to surf the net this weekend dammit! I am so impatient for this website to go online! I know it's going to take 1-2 days for the change to occur on the settings that I had to set, but still, I just want it to go faster. Hopefully by tomorrow morning it'll be up...but with my luck, it probably won't. The launch date is supposed to be tomorrow, but I may have to change it to the 8th, just in case. But I don't want to have the students try to actually go to the website when it's not there and get a message saying that it's not there. I want it to be there. Chances are they probably won't come back if they're not interested when they first get there. I am getting used to the new stuff I have to learn for setting up my own site and what not. I had read a little about how to set up a message board and it doesn't seem hard, but I'm sure I'll run into some problems. The problem is that I have to pay another $10 to setup a database access thing for my hosting to be able to run the message board. I am contemplating even putting on up, but I think it would be for the better. I'll have that answer by next week or so. I am kinda low on money right now, you know what I mean? My credit card is rapidly increasing as we speak. I need to cut back. My Mom is going to Japan in a couple of weeks. Ben's b-day is coming up and he's going to Las Vegas. Oh yeah, I haven't said anything about my dentist's appointment that I had this week in years. Well, luckily I only have one cavity, which considering I haven't gone since I put my braces on is quite incredible. For me anyway. Next Friday I have to fill that cavity in, then in a week go to the ortho to put the permanent retainer on the bottom. Thank god, because this temporary retainer is a bitch to talk with. Among other things, that's it. Really. This is the longest posting I've done in a while. Depending on whether or not I get the data cable, I won't be writing for a while.

The internet has been slow on and off all day, but oh well. Tomorrow we are going to get donuts for our astronomy class. How nice are we? Also, I am actually really doing a website, called www.csuconnection.com where I compile people's information who send me pictures and their information at the website and other visitors can meet and talk with each other. Nice huh? I got the design already done, the website domain is purchased and the hosting is being taken care of right now and shoudl be ready to launch by tomorrow. I'm excited. This is the first real website that I've attempted and hopefully it'll go well. I'm going to have Laura and Susan and TJ pass the word along about the site to CSU students and put up flyers and what not. I might put up an ad in the CSU newspaper for a day or two, because it's so expensive. If it wasn't, I would do about a week. Anywho, I'm learning up on setting up a bulletin board for my site. I think it's $10 to set up a database thing and then I can start having members and stuff. I have to learn more of this because it's an area where I haven't touched ever, so. It's a learning experience for me I guess. I'm going to New Mexico in about 3 days. Woohoo. I hope my data cable comes tomorrow so I can test it before I head out. I'm going to help Laura study for a test now. I'll talk to you guys later and just so you know if I don't write in here on........well, I guess if my data cable works, I'll have internet when I'm in New Mexico, so nevermind what I was going to say. Laters.

Well it's been quite some time now hasn't it? Yes, nonetheless, nothing is new. I just received an e-mail regarding Dave Matthews Band ticket sales and they go on sale on the 29th...EXCEPT for Warehouse members, which begin on the 7th. Yes, stupid me that I am, I joined just so I can be part of the early ticketing. I hope it pays off! It was $30 for the membership! Anyhow, I vow to get good tickets. Among other news, I ordered a data cable for my phone so I can surf the net through any computer. How cool is that. True portable internet! I should get that tomorrow or Friday and I'll mess around with that so there's no trouble using it on Saturday. We already reserved the hotel rooms and what not. Should be a fun time. I am getting two tests back this week and hopefully I didn't bomb both of them...or either of them, actually. I bought a new Nalgene bottle yesterday. It's a 16oz. one, but with a narrower neck, with is soooo much better, personally, for drinking. I think I am going to read some history now. I want to get rid of MOST of my homework before this trip. I have to finalize a few things so there's nothing to be worried about. Worry free road trip baby! It's been snowing like crazy. Well, it just snowed all day yesterday and it's fine now, but there is a bunch of snow. Looks like, for the most part, the work abroad is going to happen. Hopefully my brother will have enough spare tickets by next year that my airplane ticket can be paid for...that would be such an awesome deal. But anyway, have yourselves a day.

So, right now it's a big difference in the internet's speed...it's so sluggish right now. I take back my last post. Anyway, I finally go my braces off! Hell fucken yeah. Felt really weird when it first came off, but I'm getting used to it now. The bad thing now is that I have to wear the retainer for about 6 months full time. Then at nights. In the mean time, I have to get this stupid cavity fixed...not looking forward to that. Laura is singing like a weirdo next door right now. Laura got her parents' approval to live with just me next school year. Good. Now we have to find a place. Hopefully we can snag one of the two options we were hoping for. Can't wait for the Spring Break trip. I need SOMETHING to take pictures with. Digital or not. Probably film will do. We are going to go eat some dessert at Rod's house and we're going to sit in the hot tub. It's his b-day, by the way. We got him Phase 10 Masters Edition. Hopefully he doesn't have it and will like it. 1/2 will do. Well, nothing else to report. Took the astronomy test today and it was an "eh" kind of test. I'm sure I did okay. I just didn't know a couple of the short answers. No big deal. I am not looking forward to this geology lab on Saturday from 10-4...yeah, 6 hours long. What the fuck are we going to do for 6 hours? God damn. I think as of now, the plans for an Ireland work abroad is going to happen and should take shape soon. I told my Mom and she was all for it, surprisingly. She said better to do this kind of stuff while I was young. Ha. I have to check on my passport to see if it's still valid. If not, I have to go do that. I'll update as I need on this plan. Late.

I just did a check on the speed of my internet and it's damn fast! I can feel it too. It's so much faster than the T1 line at work, it's great. Thank you technology! Went to work, did some stuff, now I'm back at work. Gonna to eat in a little bit, but I just wanted to stop by. I got my state tax refund, which was much needed. Well, not really, but just good to have you know? I forgot that it was $300 instead of $250. Goodie, goodie. Tomorrow's my astronomy test. I'll have to study for that tonight. Not really much to study for. Just cover a few points and do my note card. Should be all right...and then FINALLY, after months and months of delays, tomorrow I get my braces off. If I don't, man, I'm gonna fucken wreck some havoc. I'm serious. I want these fuckers off now! Well, gotta get going. Be back sometime soon.

My computer class test is ready and available on the website. I could take it and probably get a good grade, but I'm going to take it tonight when I have quiet and time on my hands. I don't want something happening like thinking it's going to be really easy and then making stupid mistakes. I make a lot of bill payments today, most notably my credit card and insurance. Together equaled about $1000. God damn! My bank account went from a good $1200 to a scant $100 or so. Watched the Boiler Room last night. I like the movie. Tonight is Laura's pick and she chose the wedding planner. Oh well. I am just finishing up this blog before I head out to work. It's cold outside, but it's not really cold, if you get that. It snowed a good amount last night and the snow on my car is still piled up high. I tried to go fast to blow it all away, but no can do since the roads were quite slippery today. I hope it's an eventful day at work. I don't want to just sit there like usual. Maybe I'll go in a little late today, but probably not. I still have to get ready and stuff. Ah, I know, I'm going to take my astronomy paper there so I can re-write it. Nice. Anyway, hope you guys had a good start to another week of work and fun! Oh yeah, I have to get a dentist's appointment today. I don't know whether I should go there or call. Maybe I'll go there now. I feel like I'm in a chatty mood. Which reminds me, I also cancelled my old credit card today right, but then as we were talking this guy (I swear I knew he was black) kept telling me that it's good to keep the account open for credit and shit. I said, "No, I want to close it." And then he comes back saying "Well, are you sure, because it's good to keep it open." "No, I want to close it." This continued for about 3 minutes when finally he got hte picture that I wanted to close the account. After all, isn't that what someone is trying to say when they say they want to close the account? Man, sometimes the darker color seems to "block" messages that are trying to get into their damn brain...no more Capital One for me. Late.

Well, well. Today was a "let's buy something for no reason" day. Laura and I just came back from Target and Circuit City and we each bought 3 and 4 movies, respectively. I bought my all-time favorite The Rock and some other noteworthy ones. Laura bought 66% chick movies, but that's okay since I have action movies to cancel it out. I rearranged my room and took out the big ass couch that I had in my room, you know, since I always used it and all. Now I have more like an office setup which I like much better and seems more roomier and cleaner. It's snowing pretty hard outside, but they're little bitty snowflakes that'll take a long time to build up. I just checked the weather report and seems like there's a chance of snowing today and tomorrow and then it'll settle down for a little bit. That's all the news that I have for now. I'm just waiting for the state tax refund to get back and my school refund and then I'll get to paying off all my debts at the moment. Well, hope you had yourself a good weekend. I'm getting ready for 3 tests this week. Fun.

I just noticed my last blog and that the sentence sounds really weird when the word 'wind' is pluralized. Anyway, I got a 59/75 on my first history test, which equates to around 79%...not good, but not bad either I guess. I had to get a feel for the tests. I found out that I missed on the short answer but did great on the multiple choice. If I bump up my efforts, I should be able to get an A by the end of the semester. Lots of news today! First I sent off an e-mail to Suzanne. It's her b-day tomorrow. She sent an e-mail back saying thanks. Yes, Laura, I just said happy b-day. :P Second, I got paid today a whopping $370, which is enough to cover for a lot of stuff, but low and behold, I got my federal income tax return back!!!! That's a gigantic $759 back to me....hahhahahahahaha, the problem is, that's just about enough to cover for my new credit bill...yeah, I spend too much. The good thing is that I'll get my state tax refund back for about $250. I just realized that I hadn't paid my Mom for this month's car payment! Shit! I'll say that I couldn't give it to Chris or that I'm giving her the return for the financial aid, so this month is a freebie or something. Anyway, my last credit is paid off and I'm going to cancel it probably early next week. I'm in a good mood, despite the fricken history test score, but oh well! I'm gonna go to front range on my way to work to have this form filled out, head out to work, and then get my timesheet signed and I'm off at around 1 or so? I have nothing to worry about this weekend. This week sucked because I had so much shit to do. I have two tests next week, computer, which should be quite easy and biology, which I'm not too happy about, though it's still a take home....shit! I just remembered about the astronomy test too. Oh well. I'll do good. Another weird thing, another weird ass bump, this time a one that hurts, appeared on the same ear that already has that fucking alien implant. What the fuck is up with that? In any case, I'm going to take a shower. A nice long one, maybe it'll make the shit go away. It hurts when I try to scrape it off. The difference about this one is that it's just on the surface and not in the inside. Any-fucking-way...oh yeah, here's an interesting episode. Last Saturday Rod, Laura and I were playing Phase 10 (card game) and right before Rod when home, or apparently close to it, I called him an idiot and said that he had a brain tumor...so he jets off and I knew he was pissed off about that. We have class on Tue and this Thurs. and turns out he's still mad. I mean come on. Can anyone take a joke? Laura's taking his side at times, but I ain't doing shit. It's his problem to deal with. Now I'm going. Lates.

God damn winds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The next round of tests are coming up for my computer class, biology class, and history is this week. I'm going to review probably sometime today and tomorrow and take the test on Wednesday. Shouldn't be too hard as I did the reading. :) The internet is rather fast, today. Which is nothing for me to complain about. My orthodonstist's appt. is at 1pm today. I thought it was way earlier so I woke up way early. Oh well. I picked up Chris yesterday from the airport. I should rather say early this morning, since I got back around 1. It's pretty fast to get to and from the airport. It was probably about a little over an hour from here and a cool 40 minutes or so to Longmont. That is, however, at 11pm, so there was absolutely no traffic and no cops. Helps a lot. Now, if everything was as dead as at night, I would be happy. My car passed 100,000 miles a few days back. I'm already over 300 on it. I will probably do an oil change this week to get ready for the Spring Break trip that hopefully we'll have. I then as I got out of the shower this morning, I thought to myself that it's incredible how things aren't starting to grow in our bathroom. It's so filthy, it's just disgusting. My toothbrush has met it's end now. I have to go get another one when I go to the ortho today. I have to. I don't know what I'm going to do now. Maybe surf a bit and get to some homework possibly. Thank god for president's day!

Well, it's been a while. I have to catch up on myself about what I wrote. Valentine's went well. I gave Laura two pendants, which she loved, plus a jewelry box (albeit it was from King Soopers!), and a little strawberry smelling plush bear. In turn, I got two movies, The Count of Monte Cristo, which is awesome, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind. I've always wanted to see it. Among other things, chocolates, candles, and a fleece throw. Yesterday we went and saw Laura's sister play volleyball in Greeley. There were A LOT of girls there. Other than that, today I tried to teach Laura how to drive a stick and she started crying. We'll try another time. I have to pick Chris up from the airport today, Fucken eh. The plane comes in at 10:50pm. I am going to try to take a different way to DIA than the other times I've went. I home I get there in time. An hour and 40 minutes should be plenty. We'll see. I am hungry right now, though. I want to eat something. I will probably end up eating ramen, but I don't really want ramen. Oh well. Deadline for some of my bills are nearing! I hope I get my tax return and/or my refund check from the school REALLY soon. I might not be able to make it. Tomorrow's president's day! Hell yeah.

Good news and more good news. I may be lined up for an internship at my work, but that's pending the meeting that the person wants to get me into it and my boss. We'll see how that goes. The majority of the internship focuses on written Java code and debugging and stuff, but it would be a great experience for me to work hands on with some experienced people. I ordered Laura's Valentine's/B-day present yesterday and it most likely shipped today. If I would have ordered it by 7am yesterday, it would have gotten here tomorrow, but oh well. My credit card is inflating everyday. I'm going to have to start budgeting out soon, like within a couple days. I have bills to pay and I have to make sure I'll have enough money to pay certain things first and so forth. I read an article about Valentine's Day on MSN and it talked about how this holiday has gotten out of hand in terms of people thinking "Oh, I have to get so and so this." It starting to become as though they're buying stuff BECAUSE it's Valentine's Day and not just because the care for the other person. Oh well. Speaking of holidays, Monday is a federal holiday, which means I'm free for the day. I found out today that on federal holidays, I have the day off PLUS I get to put down the hours that I would have worked. I just found that out. How wasteful is that. Anyway, I also got my free $10 and free night's stay at the casino place yesterday. We're going to use it on Spring Break. Woo hoo. But yeah, I'm going to start surfing again. Yes, the internet. Laters.

Productive day at work today. Today was just a frustrating day overall. Don't ask me why. Yes, don't ask me why. I did my taxes, went to Lakewood for Laura's early b-day thing. For the taxes, I am getting back about $1050, but it's all gone with the bills I have. Things are going to be tight for the next couple of weeks until I get everything paid off and settled down in terms of credit card usage and stuff. I am caught up with work and everything. There's nothing to do. Laura is talking to Rod downstairs right now. I believe they're talking about baseball, and then switched to football or something. She likes him. Ha. Lates.

Well, another day gone and it's finally the end of the week. This week was kinda hectic, relative to other uneventful weeks. Anyway, went to class, then work, and came home and did the usual. Did a lot of homework. Actually, finished up my homework for the week so I don't have anything to worry about this weekend. It's a nice feeling. Laura went to her friend's tonight to hang out. Hope she had fun. My Mom bought be some clothes, as they were on sale at Kohl's. I like them for the most part. :P I just finished downloading and extracting Microsoft Visio, a handy little software that I discovered at work today. It's cool, that is, when you have the use for it. It's nice to have, I guess. Snowed today. I also found out that my cold air intake for my car was really loose. Turns out that the bolt that was connecting it to the car was snapped off. Probably because of "rough" driving and the extreme cold. Oh well, nothing a good length of duct tape won't fix. :) Anyway, going to see if Visio works. I'll be back later.

Lots of stuff today. Woke up really tired around 9 o'clock. Slept in today for once. Anyway, I had to go in for work since my boss was going to take me to lunch for my "belated" b-day present. So I chose to go to Old Chicago and a couple other co workers went. I ordered a calzone. I got a card that was signed by a lot of people at work and then after dinner, they told the waittress that it was my b-day, so they brought a cookie pizza thing and the worse thing...they made me stand up on the fricken booth while they sang their version of happy b-day. Fucken eh. Can you say embarrased? Anyway, that's the bulk of the shit that happened today. I don't think I wrote it, but this Sat/Sun we're going to Laura's to have dinner for her b-day. Olive Garden is the place. I'll get to meet Ryan, Laura's sister's fiance officially, since the first time I met him, it was for like, 30 seconds. Today I'm scheduled to read history...but I don'r really feel like it. It's snowing like mad again. I don't like the snow, but I guess the more we get, the better the chances are that there won't be any fire bans this summer to go camping. I got my end of the year statement thing from my credit card and I spent $1600 total last year beginning June. Man, that's a lot of money. In July alone it was almost $600. But yeah, mostly car stuff. I'm about to pay this credit card off and cancel it. I'll be using the new Sony one for a while now. That's it!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Well I'm back! Well, I was back nearly 5 hours ago but in any case. The gambling went well. I had borrowed $100 from my Mom and within the first $40 or so dollars, I paid her back, which was good. In the end, before my last round of gambling, I was up $30, but lost it all, so I broke even. If I didn't want to go home, my Mom would have spent the last $40 she had for sure. Oh well. I'm looking around for my wallet now...oop, I found it. I feel like Coldstone. I don't know why. Um, yeah, that's too bad that I didn't do as well as I hoped I'd do, but at least I didn't lose. Was going to go camping tonight, decided not to. Kinda windy out and I didn't want to take the risk of not being able to start a fire, keep a fire, smoke in the eyes, and getting cold. There'll be other times. Well, gotta go.

Wow, it's early. Well, I'm off. Wish me luck...and strange. I just went outside, and as you can see, it's around 5:45 out...and it's fricken warmer than I'd expected! I mean, It's supposed to be cold right? I went out there with a t-shirt and I was fine. It's probably going to be hot day. Hope my luck is the same.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll come home a richer man. I doubt it, but it's better to go gambling with an optimistic attitude...and it IS my first time. Chance and luck are nice to me in general, so we'll see. Didn't go to work today. Did homework instead. Got an at-home exam for biology. Still can't figure out some questions...pathetic huh? I brought home Stargate from Chris house. It was mine, but it's all scratched up since I didn't have a case for it. Hopefully I'll watch it tonight. Chris went to see a lacrosse game in Denver. Yeah, stupid. Nothing new...people are talking downstairs...annoying kinda.

Just checkin' in because I haven't in a while. Finally started to get some work towards me at work. Though, it's almost done, I can't complain. I just saw the new trailer for The Fast and the Furious 2...the cars aren't bad, but I don't know about the storyline...take for granted people are probably going to go see it for the cars anyway, but I don't think a sequel would be good for this movie. Both The Matrix sequels coming out this year are stupid too, I think. I'll probably end up watching it, but don't count on it. The last LOTR movie is what I'm waiting for. I hope Harry Potter burns in fucken hell. I got my license renewed to the new style today. I can't believe they make you pay $15 for this shit. With all the taxes I pay, it should be free. It's windy as hell todya too. Kinda calmed down now, but earlier all these leaves, pebbles and shit were just chippin' away at my car. I found out also that I can't put a different turbo kit on my car since Greddy (the company I like) doesn't yet make a turbo kit for a 96. That sucks. That pretty much leaves me with one choice. FMAX turbos, which, although they're badass and it's the best I can get, is $3800 WITHOUT installation. I'm thinking another grand or something for installation. Darn. Hopefully this weekend is going to be nice to me. My brother called too, which I don't care for much. My phone has been acting up lately and explains the reasons why my phone doesn't get calls sometimes. The phone just turns off sometimes after I close the lid or just turns off automatically. Defective hardware I would think. I just don't want to send it off to get a new one if I'm covered under warranty. I have LOTS of bills due right now...and coming up within the next couple of weeks. Good thing is that I got my W-2s and I will try to do them on Saturday when I get back from gambling. Then I'll just take care of all the big bills then. 5-6 more months until the lease is over and once again, we go finding another place to live. How fun. Classes are fine...everything's fine...laters.

I sort of had a mini nervous breakdown sort of things last night. One of my classes said that the instructor denied access to my class and I was like, what? And it turns out it's probably the WebCT folk at Front Range...and then there's the disastrous credit card bills that I have to pay for in the coming month...it's huge...tax returns, work, school, dealing with other people...it's just too much. Well, WAS too much. I'm all good now. Chris and I are going to see if we can attempt rock climbing near our hills. Fun, fun. Afterwards, I'm going to eat sushi with my Mom since it's her b-day. Happy b-day. Nothing big today...um, exchanged the loud muffler with a MUCH!!!!!!!!! quieter one, but it's still noticable at certain times...it's perfect. Still have the chrome tip too. No charge was given to me. What a great group of folks at Fort Collins Muffler. Hm...that's about it for now. Homework night tonight! And at least I'm not the ones who try to commit suicide after depression and breakdowns, right?

Whoa...I just totally had a deja-vu moment.

Today was a really fun day. It was a nice day too. First we woke up and I had to do some errands. I was thinking, it's such a nice day, that we should go hiking and what not. We ended up going just up to see the "A" sign by our college. It's always quite a hike, but oh well. Before we went, however, I wanted, for reasons no one knows, to get a CamelBak (one of those back pack like things that hold water and you wear it like a back pack...) So I shopped around and bought one for pretty cheap on sale. I'm happy with it. My Mom called, surprisingly, and it was about the gambling that we're going to do next Saturday. We're going to drive up to BlackHawk/Central City and gamble for the day to celebrate my 21st. Should be fun and it would be even more fun if I actually win some money. The truth is, if I win some money, it'll probably go to paying back my Mom and paying off my credit cards. After my old one is paid off, I'm going to cancel it so I only have the Sony one. I would think if I spent it until I was old, I would have a shitload of points. Nothing to do today. Tomorrow we decided to go to Denver to watch the Super Bowl with Laura's family...better than staying here, that's for sure. The WebCT, the way we take online classes at Front Range is experiencing some fucked up things and it apparently won't be taken care of for a few days. Good for me, I guess. I wil probably read computer or something soon. History is one class I'm kinda behind. But yeah, Nothing to do this night. Maybe just hang out inhouse or something. Laura's playing The Sims, as usual and the rest are downstairs. Oh yeah, did I tell you we redid our living room? I like it much better.

I just read the news on Google and an interesting article caught my eye. Kevin Mitnick, probably the most famous hacker ever became completely free yesterday. He was on parole for like 3 years or whatever and during that parole, he couldn't touch a computer or get on the internet at that. Seems like he surfed for a little while when he was freed. I wonder what he's going to do now? School also started yesterday, which though only it's Astronomy, was good. Not many people in the class and also seems like a fun class. Night time labs are going to be a pain to get done. Teacher says that March/April are the worst months to do it, so he advised us to do it asap. I will. The other classes seem fine too. I have to go exchange my Biology book since I got the wrong one and now it's out of stock. Great huh. It's snowing, strangely. It was such a great day yesterday. I checked the doppler radar and even though it's snowing here and it's cloudy, there's no sign of clouds anywhere on the radar...weird. Tomorrow's supposed to be a great day again. Weird weather man. So also I guess on the 1st of February, my Mom and I are going to Blackhawk/Central City to gamble, to celebrate me becoming 21. Woohoo. Next Thursday is the day. I don't think I'll really do anything, but yeah, just to mention. I can almost do everything. lol. There's really nothing to do. Work is calling, but I doubt I'll go today. Just don't feel like it you know? Just checking my checking account I discover I still have $120...I wonder if my Mom ever got the check from under the mat. Hopefully she did. Payday is this Friday. Hopefully I can "squeeze" a few extra hours than what I worked. I should really start working there, but man, there's nothing to do! Seriously, I just go, check e-mail, surf the intranet site for news and that's it. There's nothing. Every once in a while, like 4-5 days I get a small little assignment to do, but that takes mearly 5 minutes and I'm back to doing nothing again. I miss the days when I just started that I had stuff to do. A lot of stuff actually. The hiring of the research associate, aka, my supervisor, took a lot of my projects that I would have gotten away from me. Damn him. But that leaves less work for me, so it's a double-edged sword...(did I use that phrase correctly?) Well, I'm off to eat and probably pick Laura up from the bus stop because it's cold. See ya.

Howdy. Wow, what a spending day today was. Not really, but here's the deal. I went to Niwot today to give my Mom my monthly car payment. She wasn't there so I just left it there. Laura and I came back up and we went to lunch. Afterwards, I was like, well, maybe I'll go to Fort Collins Muffler and look at some mufflers. I go there and ask about some mufflers. I was like, okay, sounds good. I go to two other places...wait, just one other and I end up coming back to the first place. I was like, asking more questions and I finally decided to go for it and get a new muffler for the car. $145 and 40 minutes later, I'm cruising down the street going home in my exhaust. Loud? Yes. Annoying? ...well, maybe when I'm trying to accelerate and trying to listen to music, but that's about it. Cruising at a constant speed is very tolerable. More than I thought. We'll see how it sounds after I take a trip down I-25 around 80-90. Did it increase horsepower? Doubt it. And if so, only about 3-4 max. I didn't even get bigger piping, so. I asked them about emissions and they said that it won't affect it because it's after the catalytic converter. Good news for me. I'll probably call Mike sometime and show him. In the mean time, I have school tomorrow. Yes, the one I have to go to at 9:10...or was it 9? Either way, I am meeting Rod at McDonald's at 8 to have breakfast since he's in my class too. Hopefully the class doesn't suck. I was going to sort out today this week's class schedule and work stuff, but I'll do that tomorrow. I have to work tomorrow for a couple of hours, but to show up, you know? Well, Laura seems to be waiting for me, so I'll be going. TJ is moved into the dorms. Yay. Talk to you laters.

Just came back from Chris' house and seems like his date went good, but they decided to stay friends or whatever...Chris tells me that she said she didn't have enough time for a serious relationship and that boosting his confidence was the only thing he was aiming for, so. Sounds good I guess. Tomorrow I am going to Longmont to give my Mom my car payment for the month. I don't have to go to work thanks to the little ol' darky (you know why I said that, Laura) and his fight for freedom. If you didn't get that, I already mentioned that it's MLK Jr.'s day. Great man, great man. Um, I also borrowed the The Royal Tennenbaums because Laura wanted to see it, and that Grant liked it too. Plus it's the least that I can do for the cool weekend that they gave us. I also bought some roses. It's just weird how people change in front of other people or for other people. Sometimes they're totally tolerable and nice and shit, but then when you combine them with certain others, it just gets out of control. Just a thought to dwell on. Also, I just realized that I have been doing this blog thing for over a year now...about 13-14 months. Incredible. There's a lot of information that's within these pages that I don't want lost. Maybe I'll print them out sometime or something. I just hope blogger.com doesn't go the way of Enron. I guess it's not THAT big of a deal, but it's something that's nice to have. I really wish that I could get back those few weeks that I deleted that I can't seem to get back anymore. If anyone visitor to blogger.com is reading this and knows any way to get "unindexed" pages back to your archives and posted, please e-mail me at jamyam@hotmail.com. I guess I can just do some research on how blogger works, but I don't want to do that work. Still have to get school supplies tomorrow. I think I'll get them at the bookstore at front range so that I don't have to pay for it and just charge it to my financial aid account. While I was there some time ago, I saw some software there that seemed cool. If there was Windows XP or something, I would probably get it. Just that there wasn't. Only Office XP. I really don't need that. Prechecking my classes for this semester, it seems like Biology is going to be my hardest class. Either that or computer networking because 93%+ is an A and I know that people can just slack off and get like a 91% for a B, so. Hard work lies ahead. I'm headed for the bathroom now. Have yourself a good night.

Well, just got back from the surprise weekend. It was really fun. Even though I "knew" that we were staying somewhere, the hotel we stayed in was really nice. We ate at this Mongolian Barbeque place and it was great. Afterwards, we went ice skating, then came back and watched most of Shrek. The next day (today) we went to the Denver Museum of Nature and Science after we ate a little breakfast and then to Cinzetti's for the lunch. It was an all and all great time. Thanks Laura. Then I just find out that Grant, who works at Best Buy, can get a major discount off stuff anything in the store and with that information coinciding with the fact that Laura and I want a camcorder right now, it's very, very, very inticing. We may very well go there later tonight and buy it. If it's near half off...it's going to be only around $250. So, that's no bad at all. They're in the other room playing SIMS, but I really want a camcorder...though, I also want that and a mobile entertainment center. Anyway, I'm going to relax a little. It's been an eventful day...possibly the most since, well, a long while. Tomorrow is MLK Jr. day and it's a day off...so. Maybe a little playing around with the camcorder? lol. See ya.

I set up my desktop with a new style and I seem to like it better. Today some disturbing news from a person I don't necessarily want to associate with found its way into Laura's e-mail inbox. I am quite pissed, but everything's settled. If it happens again, however, I'm really going to snap. And it's not going to be pretty. The batteries in the mouse are good. We'll just see if they really last as long as Rayovac claims them to last. We are going to Mancino's tonight. I haven't ate there in the longest. I am split on deciding a calzone or grinder. I am using my credit card like mad. I need to tone it down. But as long as the tax return (or some of it actually) pays off the old card, I'm in good shape. Tomorrow we leave for the surprise that Susan and Laura has planned for us. It seems as though we will be back on Sunday. I have to cancel the coffee with Chris. We might reschedule, but we may not. Then school starts on Tuesday. Wow, break went by...well, both fast and slow. More fast than slow. I have Monday to look over my classes and get back into school mode again. I have to go buy some supplies too. A notebook and a pencil will do it. Actually, I already have a pencil so I'll just get a one subject notebook. 4.0 is my goal...but more realistically, it's going to be hovering near 3.5. I decided yesterday to take my Mom out for dinner (sushi to be exact) on her b-day. It's the least I can do. TJ is still here. He's moved into his dorm though for the most part for all I know. I finally figured out why I couldn't watch...wait, I might have already posted this information in another blog...I think I have. I'll stop. I have been in the mode to buy something. Seriously. This $1000 limit credit card is not something that I want to have when I have no money and I have a lot of expenses to pay for. Right now I am in the middle of a portable computers (not a laptop), Gamecube, a camcorder (even though I say we don't need that, Laura says it will be a good investment), a dryer, which we really need but in reality I will probably buy it when we move next, and maybe a Gameboy Advance or even a TV for my car. I am just in a dilemma. Anyway, I'm going to search for stuff on eBay. I'll let you know if I buy anything...I will get close to, but I won't really in the end. My conscience is a strong one...

Seems like the blogger is working correctly for a while. I say that because sometimes it doesn't show all the archives and stuff, but anyway. Today we went to Walmart and Laura got me some recharcheable batteries (Rayovac) because I began to think of the usefulness of these babies. Recharges in 1 hour and lasts 3X longer than regular batteries and on top of that, it rechargeable 1000+ times. You can't beat that. I am yet to try it, but I will probably by tonight. TJ is moving into the dorms today. School is starting to come back into session. Yesterday Laura and I went to Best Buy and we saw a couple of camcorders that we would like to have. Not that we NEED it, but it would be just cool. I was looking at the digital 8 kinds. Only about 400-500 dollars. Maybe sometime. Right now, I have to buy Laura's b-day/valentine's present, which is going to set me back, hopefully not so much, before I have to start paying the damn insurance bills again. I am waiting anxiously for my W-2 for tax return purposes. I should get close to $1000 back, which is nice and is also a large sum of money that I wouldn't know what to do with. I probably will pay $500 to the insurance to get a lot of it out of the way, then the rest I have no idea...exhaust?...TV in car?...computer even? I don't know. Maybe I'll save it for a spring break trip. I did, though, find an awesome mini pc online. This thing is a complete working computer and it's fricken small! 2.5" thin, 6.5" wide and like 7" deep...you can get any smaller than that. I was going to get that, but a monitor. Then I can put that in the car and...yeah...I'm dreamin'. Anyway, that's it for this update. Seems like this weekend is going to be the days that Laura and Susan is going to give me and Grant a surprise. We don't know what it is, but the only thing I know is that we're going to be travelling somewhere. Who knows where? I'll report on it whenever we get back. Lates.

Ah, I got more ramen from my Mom. Good thing because I was running low. I was just watching the video of Good Charlotte's "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous". I was closely listening to the lyrics more than watching the video and what they is probably true to some extent. The rich snobs of this world have probably gotten to the point where they wouldn't be able to stand the lifestyles of even a modest living family/lifestyle. Everything probably is handed to them in a bowl and stuff. How pointless their lives must be. I will admit to some degree that they must have gotten there with SOME kind of effort, whether that be practicing to act or learning to play instruments, sing, or just to act like a dumbass on TV. I'm sure there's a reason why everyone can't be like them. They must have some skill for this "talent". But then there are those who become rich and famous through their family, born into a wealthy society, etc. These people I hate. And then I begin to think of the lowest classes of this country. There are people who really live badly. Even I feel ashamed at myself about how I live compared to this folk. I am not rich or anything, but I don't consider myself poor...though sometimes I do and sometimes I really am. I try not to act like it. Even when I have money and I KNOW that spending it is no big deal, I hesitate inside about spending it. Peer pressure plays a big role. I always think how well off I'll be, or not be, in the next 10 years...and what I'll be like presenting myself in front of the same peers that I went to high school with at the reunion...if I'm able to attend, that is. I always wanted to live in a peaceful, happy little town, maybe no more than a few thousand people when I grow up. I watched TV as people walked everywhere, the barber shop, store, sidewalk, and they would know people. I'd like it to be like that for me. That's not for a while, so I have nothing to worry about. I think right now the key is the live as much as I can while I'm in the position I am. College is pretty laid back. You go to classes less than high school, don't have to listent to your parents...well, SOME people don't, and it's a period of time where you experiment and try out new things. Trust me I did! Some things you learn NOT to do again, some things you WANT to do again, and some things you just CAN'T do again. With that said, I like the life that I've lived. I don't think I've held myself back much. Granted there are times here and there that I wish I would have done different, but heck, everyone has that, you know. I don't care. Time goes on. There's bound to be a chance like that again. And then again, what if that one chance you got was just that, one chance? Then that sucks for you. :) I just want to be able to look back at my life and say, wow, I did a lot of things in my lifetime and I loved every minute of it. That's really my goal. I don't care if I become super rich or super famous. I don't even give a damn if I get a good job or education. Some will agree with me and some will not. If I won the lottery, I wouldn't know what to do really. I tell people that I would get a car, house, and all the stuff that I've always wanted. Truth is, I probably wouldn't get a new car until I really needed it. I wouldn't get a house until I really needed. Would I quit working and going to college if I was set for life? Probably not. Doing these things is what life is. Take that away and all you do is just live and not experience anything. I read somewhere if people would rather choose to die among their friends happily at 30 or die lonely at 85...I put my money everytime that they'll choose the first choice. No one wants to be lonely. Even if I live to be 300 or 3000, I wouldn't, I would choose to die earlier with my friends. Sometimes I'm too hard on my friends, I know, especially Laura. I don't know how she handles me! I love her for it though. Well...nothing much else to say. Tonight felt good to talk about this. Life isn't always about money, though it painfully is and it controls every aspect of how we live. The thing you have to make sure is don't let money control you...or else bad things happen...and most of the trouble will stem from the IRS. :) Land of the freedom my ass.

Before I start playing Starcraft and then calling Laura, I'd like to get in a few rants. First, I got my eye lids back, paid $95 and I think they've done a great job. The paint closely matches that of the car and that's what I was most worried about. Putting it on is the next step and I don't know how I'm going to accomplish that. I am going to go buy some sticky tape...VERY strong sticky tape and figure out a way so that the lids go go flying...$95 isn't worth it to just throw away. Second, I realize sometimes things happen not because it just happens, but because the event happens hoping to create a cause. Just a thought. I'm going to go downstairs and make sure my eye lids are drying and curing nicely, and then it's off to play some starcraft. Other than that, have a good night...I'm picking Laura up tomorrow from Denver. 1 day earlier than scheduled. Also, I checked on Ben's monitor and looks like UPS tried to deliver it today, but, yes, you guessed it, Ben would have gotten it if he was awake. Actually, I think he WAS awake, but I don't know. His loss I suppose. See ya!