1. My old junior high school

2. Recreation/pool center - used to swim there and took field trips there

3. Elementary school where I and a few others used to volunteer

4. Best friend's house

5. My house

6. My elementary school

7. My brother's best friend's house, went to school with his little brother

The circled building in the middle image was where my sister worked for a bit and our family were great friends with the owners. We got a lot of desserts there and even a few years ago when we visited, they remembered us, naturally, but yeah...well, IRONICALLY, 2 stores down to the right in that same building was where my Dad worked, a golf/tennis shop. I hung out there a few times too and that's where I got my first clubs. Weird how everything is occuring in a small radius.

The last picture is my japanese school (the big building with the parking lot, duh). Had the festivals in the parking lot and had garage sales in that little front grass area.

I was just watching the trailer for The Talented Mr. Ripley since I've always wanted to see it. I always remember that line where he says:

"I've always thought it would be better if I was a fake somebody than a real nobody."

How true do you think that is? Interesting little quote huh?

I just thought I'd post a picture that I took when Laura and Ellen and I went to Horsetooth reservoir. :)

Recently, like the last 2 days, I've been messaging Amanda, Chris' old gf on www.hi5.com since she is on there. You should check to see if you have any friends that are on there. I found out that I have a few that I didn't even know about! Just like www.classmates.com I guess.

Anyway, she lives really close to Laura's sister's place and I guess she used to deliver pizza around the area too. She's even thinking about moving near there! It's crazy.

Do you ever wonder if your friends are interconnected indefinitely? Like no matter what happens, in the end they are pulled toward each other? Maybe, I don't think it's true, I just thought it would be a cool theory to write here. Haha.

So the last couple of days I had some trouble with FireFox and I finally managed to delete everything and install it again and voila, it's healed. The good news it that now the Blogger shows the correct number of blogs that I've written. This will be my 311th blog. That's cool to know since it was pegged at 254 for the longest time.

I thought I would have word from my boss by today, but not yet, unfortuntately. Dammit!

I made cake last night and I am eating it like a meal since I'm too broke for real food. Haha, it's like going to McDonald's or another fast food restaurant is like "splurging" now. Makes me wonder what people and families with real problems feel like everyday day.

I was looking at some of the new movies coming out for 2006 and there's an impressive line-up, at least for me personally. Here are some of the ones that caught my eye which are guaranteed 2006 releases:

Mission: Impossible 3 - I may like this, I don't know, 2 was worse than 1, so yeah
X-Men 3 - I can't wait for this one!
Cars - Not really into animated movies
Pirates Of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest - A sure watch
The Da Vinci Code - Have you read my Da Vinci-reading blog???
Superman Returns - Nope
Ice Age 2 - Perhaps it will be good, dunno what else they can do
The Italian Job 2 - I will watch this

So that's my next year's picks. This year, I'm probably only waiting for Chronicles of Narnia and Night Watch (an awesome looking trilogy).

What am I gonna do today? I don't know. It's so boring. I want to work, but now I don't think I can push my employment. Argh. Bad situation.

Anyway, hopefully I'll report back soon with some good news...luck hasn't been with me lately.

Check out all the Price is Right games...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Price_is_Right_pricing_games

Man, I'm so bored. And it's hot out. I think I'm gonna help TJ consolidate some of his computer parts into one, but I'm not sure yet.

I'm starting to finalize what parts I'm going to buy for my next new computer. It should be pretty good and it will last for a couple of years at least. As long as it plays World of Warcraft, I'm happy!

EDIT: Ha, I just cut my own hair, lol

I'll just keep adding to this one.

A website that I frequent (and a very good website in my opinion) posted a couple of articles. Here is the original:

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/7/3/491/18474

Some girl is missing. This guy writes about how much coverage this girl is getting and all that and that he doesn't give a fuck.

Here is all the hate mail that the site/he got:

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/7/8/141115/2706

So, back to the article. Personally, I don't think I've really read or heard about this girl. Maybe a glimpse on Snopes or something. Anything, is it bad that I sort of agree with that guy that wrote the article? I mean really, why is she getting so much attention, and not other pressing issues? Sure, a life is a life, but how is hers more important than other missing children? Is it the money involved in the background? There is a website that says there's a $150,000 reward for information. WTF??? They must be pretty damn rich. Is she because she's white? Because she's slightly attractive? Why send a fucking Navy dive team to look for her? I also read somewhere that Holland is sending fighter jets to search for her!??! WTF!??! I doubt the media would give a fuck if it was another race. Frankly, I haven't seen the media cover an ugly, Mexican girl or boy before (no offense), at least not at this kind of level. I mean come on, just like Jon Benet...she was just another girl like any other, like my niece, for instance. Who fucking cares if she was a "talented", pretty girl. Why so much coverage? I think the values of the US and the US media are just not in the right place these days.

Here is another article that state a similar thought:

http://newsobserver.com/news/story/2578582p-9013209c.html

Anyway, I think I'm done with this rant. From the pictures I saw of her mother and father, they look like snobs who only care about one thing right now. :/

Let's do a quick (well maybe not depending on how fast I can type) blog. Went cruising tonight. It was more fun than normal. Lot more people and there were some people there that I haven't seen in a long time. One of the people that were there was Kellie. Yup, the first person I met from when I started the forums. Haha, we're good friends and all. It was nice to catch up. Met some other people...and then this fucking cocky, idiot guy came and I instantly didn't like him. We went for a lap and the best thing happened. He got pulled over. Fuck yeah, but it wasn't a ticket, just a warning. Ticket would have been better but oh well. That's about all tonight. Saw another good friend of mine. His girl is 4 months pregnant and he's all getting excited about the baby boy. It was just fun to chat about that kind of stuff (is that weird???). I guess it's kicking really hard already and we're like, yeah, he's just getting ready to work on cars! (He works on cars too) I dunno. At that point it felt like "grown up talk", if that makes any sense. We don't talk about school or anything. He talked about his new job, asked how my car was, I asked how his car was, but we're all busy paying bills, taking care of ourselves and the people we hang out with and care for. Yeah, it was just mature talk, lol.

So yeah, my old boss said she talked to the big boss and he said it was fine to hire me back for the internship. Good thing I had good relations with both! I e-mailed back yesterday, but I think it was too late since she might have left the office. She has Fridays off, so hopefully Monday I'll get an e-mail back and I can start next week.

Ahhhhh, money...wait, I'm assuming, but I hope I get paid the same amount!??! Either way, I don't care. I'm pretty much pushing the limits of my budget already. A few more days and I REALLY can't pay ANYTHING. My credit card is $1700/$1800 and although I have a grand in the checking account, that's for tuition. This is probably the closest call I've had to being homeless! lol

Well, other than that, pretty uneventful day, besides eating lunch at Pizza Casbah, where TJ and I saw a lucky kid being nanny-ed by a hot girl or could have been his mom, who knows.

Next week I'm going to swing by my Mom's place and give her my laptop and get my old one back. This one's a lot better, like I said, so I'm just switching so she has the better one. The least I can do.

My tooth was overly annoying today, like I felt it more...I gotta get it fixed soon. Really soon. The thing that sucks is that I'm already budgeting out my paychecks from when I start working. Basically it's already gone, if you know what I mean.

Say I get paid my old wage of $11/hr, in reality really $9.50/hr. 400 hours times $9.50 is $3800 total. That is until mi September or so. So, how am I going to allocate this? I don't know. I have a few main bills to pay. Car insurance starting August @ $125 or so for 4 months, $75 for phone bill for each month (yes, if you're wondering why I'm paying so damn much, I pay for my Mom's too), credit card is at $1700 and rent at $330/month with $80 or so in utilities every month. I get say $700 a paycheck, rounded down. It seems it's do-able and it is, but man, I just can't buy what I want, you know. I want a new computer, but that'll probably wait a month or two. I want to primarily get this credit card down to at least half and my fucking teeth fixed, which my Mom might help out, which would be good. After that, I need to find yet another job, like a real one to start my career in! That's scary if you think about it.

I think on that note, I'm going to take off and head to sleep. I'm tired.

Laters all.

Wow, so I just had a rush of old time memories. I was playing with Google Earth (of course) and I was looking up where I went to Japanese school on Saturdays from 9-12:30. Man, I can see the McDonald's that my Mom and I would go to before going to school and her dropping me off. She would go to L.A. to Little Tokyo for the time that I was in school. Come to think of it, I can't believe she did that every Saturday. I don't think I can keep myself busy for 3.5 hours. Really. I think a couple of times she went home, which was incredible because it took about 30-40 minutes to get there. I now realize how much work it was to take me there and pick me up, all while I just sat in class, had recess and didn't really challenge me, since I started at elementary up through junior high-level japanese. I can't thank her enough. I wish I could with the lottery so I can give some money back to her. The least I can do while I will always be in debt. We would sometimes even go to Little Tokyo AFTER my school, so I have no idea what she did during the time I was at school. Sometimes I wish I would have known a few more things than I did while I was a kid, like what went on and stuff. Things like how it was so that I had so much fun. What it took my parents to give me the life I had.

Back to the schooling thing, it was cake. Hell, I already spoke it pretty good. I just had to learn some writing and reading. Cake I tell ya. Anyway, more memories. The center would have annual festivals and stuff. That was FUN. I would volunteer to run some of the booths and stuff. Man, I just can't express this in writing. It was fun. Each year it switched off from a festival to a sports/game event thingy. The festival was the best, though. Lots of people came, mostly japanese and play games, watch shows, go through vendors and booths and such. It was from like early afternoon until sundown. Man, I can just put myself in that time.

These are the times when I wish a time machine existed. Not to go back, get rich, mess up the current timeline or anything, but to just "invisibly" relive my childhood and see my old friends again. Perhaps in the future.

And then again, the thing is, I sent about 7-8 letters to my old friends that I found their addresses online. One came back saying there was no person of that name and the others haven't written back. I wrote them letters, yeah, but come on, it was like a month ago. At least write back, e-mail or call or something. These were good friends too (or so I thought, if you want to reference one of my older blogs). One of them was my best friend through elementary and junior high. The last I saw him was like, 3 years ago I think when I was in California.

I don't know, I always thought that some, at least a couple, of my friends would keep in touch you know. I wonder how many actually think what I'm thinking now? Do they even remember me? Mysteries of our lives huh?

I'll just end with a few more "I wonder..." questions. I wonder what my dad is doing right now? I wonder what my middle school best friend is doing? I wonder what all my other friends are doing? I wonder...if my life is the best that I've been able to lead? I think so. Despite the what ifs of my life, if I could do it over again, I would and even if I had prior knowledge, I wouldn't change a thing. Who knows what a small change during my elementary school years would do to my current life.

Which brings me to believe some things about life. Is it predetermined? I think some parts are. Some parts are chosen and decided by you. Of course, I think the fact that we don't know what parts constitute what part is the best thing in life. The spontaneity, the mysteriousness, the discovery of it all. What happens after I die? Now that's a hard 5-word question. I think we just re-do our lives again, like a CD on repeat, or something. I truly have no clue what the afterlife, if there is one, brings someone. Is there heaven? Hell? Purgatory? Do we come back as the other gender? An animal? An inanimate object? (That would suck to be a rock, hoping to get thrown and skipped...and then settle on the bottom of the ocean) I don't know, coming back as a different person would be cool.

Anyway, this is a topic that I can talk and write about forever, so I'll stop for now. See ya.

EDIT: Holy shit this is funny! http://www.ebaumsworld.com/flash/bubblegirl.html

Here I am at it with Google Earth again. The picture is my old house, from which I lived through 1st to 8th grade...or was it 3rd to 8th. Whichever, I spent a lot of my time there.

I guess Blogger images isn't working right now. I'll add it later.

Another day of doing nothing much. Had lunch with TJ. I haven't talked to Laura, but it looks like they're not coming done tonight. Maybe they might, who knows.

The guy at the Lakewood office for the city's parks and recreation called today to ask for my resume and I sent that just now. It seems he's interested, but he's going to look at that resume and get back to me in a couple of days. The thing is, it's another period of weirdness since I already asked my old boss to see if I can get hired for the summer, and now this. I would rather take my old job back, make that an internship, finish up this school thing and then move down to Lakewood to get myself into the field of parks and recreation through this job, so not really an internship, well, I guess it is an internship, but not school-wise. I don't know what's going to happen. We'll see what happens at the end of the week!

We were also seeing if we could rent out a boat for the day sometime late this month before T.J. goes out of the country...well, I don't know if it's out of the country, I guess not, but anyway. Boats were like $200 or so for the day for a 4-5 person, or however many they fit. That would be fun. The thing is that you can't rent it overnight, which would be awesome, but I guess that privelege is reserved for the rich who can buy their own boats and keep them there.

UPDATE: I just got a call from Laura and she said that they are leaving now for Fort Collins, so around 6:45 they should be here. Well, I guess I might go clean up the house a bit, even though it's pretty clean, to make it welcoming.

Laters.

Oh, my old website, partly, is back up. http://www.csuconnection.com. Har, har.

Happy 4th to those that celebrate it. I went down to Laura's sister's house yesterday and spent the night. It was fun, although this afternoon was sort of boring. Everyone except me, Laura and Ellen were doing yardwork. Anyway, light some sparklers and a flower bomb or whatever it is. Maybe next year we'll go big with the fireworks. Man, I can't even begin to think about a year from now. I think a lot is going to be different. Laura will be finishing up her first year of graduate school, I should hopefully (haha) be done with school in like Fall, and hopefully getting myself into a career. Who knows what everyone else is going to be doing. I really have no idea.

So some other news. Late last night, I couldn't sleep at like 10:30 ~ 11:00 since I always stay up late, Laura suggested I read the Da Vinci Code. I was like, nah, that's ok. She kept insisting and started reading the first couple of pages (the prologue). I was like, that's sort of interesting, so I started to read it from chapter 1 at like 11:10 or so while Laura tried to get to bed. Bad idea Laura!!! I started reading chapter 1, finished it. Chapter 2...then 3, then 4 and next thing you know it, it's 2:00am and I'm on like page 200 or something. I was literally hooked! I think I kept waking Laura up every hour or so since I would shuffle and get in a better position to read. Anyway, yeah, so let's continue the story. I read for another amazing 3.5 hours to about page 430 or so and finally put down the put at 5:30 since it was getting light out and everyone was starting to fricken wake up. The book is about 600 pages, I might add. So, I literally can't remember when I fell asleep, but I woke up around 9:45 or so. I got up and felt a bit tired, but I had to finish the damn book! I picked it up and continued reading. Finished in the next 2 hours and closed the book at roughly noon. I haven't read a book like that, albeit in 7 fricken hours, well, ever! I like it. The cool thing about the book is that I like the cool conspiracies and stuff that was in the book. I had actually read about some of the stuff in my spare time, about the Holy Grail and the true identity of it and stuff. In conclusion, it was a good book, went by quick, obviously, and I would recommend it.

I think I am going to sleep well tonight! Laura and Ellen might come up tomorrow or on Wednesday for a few days to hang out up here. That's cool. Well, that's really all. I'm still broke and hope to hear from my old work this week maybe. If not, I'm fucked in the ass! And I have no gas.

Laters. I gotta work on a website project...might start CSUConnection back up if I can get this figured out and working! Hundreds of videos at your fingertips.

So I was going to head down to Denver to see Laura and spend a couple of nights there tonight, but I called and called and she never answered, so I didn't end up going. I am going to down tomorrow, though.

It was weird today. It was windy most of the day, but for a total of an hour or so, in 30-minute periods, the winds kicked up a fuck load to like, I swear, at least 50+ mph. The screen on my room window was freaking out and the doors were about to bust open. I guess that's a mini hurricane huh? I was driving around later tonight and there were tree branches everywhere. Crazy stuff. Imagine combining that with some good sized hail and you got yourself a fucking army!

I was going to do an autobiography of myself (I guess that was redundant to say "of myself) but I decided to hold off on it for a few days. I wrote one a while back, but it got lost into cyberspace.

I'm about to head to sleep soon. July 4th. Ah, the day where I doubt anyone cares of what it really signifies, they just want to see some fireworks. Bleh.

I always wonder...why do Americans and everyone else, I guess, that isn't Japanese, pronounce karaoke like "carry-okie"???? WTF mate!??!?! I never understood it...I don't even want to see the first person who pronounced it that way. I guess it's hard to say "ka-rah-oke"...the last part isn't "okie", it's more like "okay".

Arg.

So I want to ask those visitors out there. What makes a good friend? I'm sure you'll throw me the usual. Loyal, honest, dependable, blah, blah. So then, tell me, what differentiates a friend from a good friend from a great friend from a best friend? Then the fine line gets even thinner and harder to explain. There's always that joke/saying of who is your best friend from among your friends (probably not the right saying, but it's close and it takes care of the idea):

"A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend will be sitting next to you in jail."

How true is that? I would fucking hope that my best friend wouldn't get me in jail in the first place! But then again, that's my opinion. Next would be the one bailing me out and last would be the one sitting next to me, leaving me no outs.

Oh well.

Went climbing today. Took some cool pictures. I might go back there with Laura sometime next week if she comes up. I'll have to send my pictures or give them to TJ. They're on my laptop now and I would put them up online, but they're pretty big files, so it'll take forever on dial-up.

Among other things, I downloaded a buttload of old TV show theme/intro songs. Some 300-something of them. It brought back some memories of the shows I used to watch. Some of the more watched shows would have to be The A-Team, Saved by the Bell, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Star Trek: The Next Generation/Deep Space Nine, Full House, Knight Rider, Family Matters, Hercules (haha, yup, actually a pretty good series) and 21 Jumpstreet. Lesser ones include Charles in Charge, Growing Pains, Who's the Boss, Airwolf, Family Ties, Unhappily Ever After, Xena, and let's say Magnum P.I. Some shows that I've never really watched at all (only a few minutes or something at a friends house or only if that's what they wanted to watch even though I really didn't) was The Simpsons, Seinfeld (though I got sort of into it, but not really), all the stupid ass reality TV shows that are certainly scripted no matter what you say, and I guess all the other mainstream shows that elicit the response, "What, you've never watched that before??? You've got to, it's so good." Yup, thanks, but please don't tell me what to watch!

This no job thing is sort of starting to suck. I really hope that my old boss can get me a summer job. I don't care if it's fucking janitorial. I just need a job. I need to get this fucking internship done with. And this tooth thing is just fricken annoying as well.

Sometimes, things are going great, sometimes they're not. Why is it that you remember the bad things? Why do they stick out more? Weird huh.

This is a long blog. Sometimes I wonder how humans are weird in that they are really writing and talking to no one. But it's weird in the sense that these are things I probably wouldn't talk to other people about unless I HAD to and it's totally not my way of talking. I'm sure everyone else does, but I have a completely different way of talking on the internet.

Another thing that I have to worry about is my forums. It's been up for almost a year and it's gone great. I think next semester will be even better, but yeah, I'm done with it and I need to find someone who'll take it over. There have been a few people who said they'd pitch in for the license to get the vBulletin forum software, so that's nice of them. Still, I need someone who'll oversee the forums or I'll probably have to end up watching over it now and then. If it's not watched it'll blow up for sure.

That's it for tonight. Oh, and the picture I uploaded is one of the ones taken tonight. TJ took it. I like that one!

So I like this image thing, so here is another pic. This one I took myself just outside the backyard. It was an awesome sunset and I was glad I took it.

I just got back from watching War of the Worlds at the Westminster theater. Well, it's not as great as I hoped to be, but it was an ok movie I would say. I saw a lot of similarities between it and Signs in some parts. So yeah, I'll give it a B, not bad, but not the best I've seen either, especially from the Steven/Tom combo...wait, have they done others? Nevermind that. However, I am liking Dakota Fanning more and more. She's gonna be a great actress when she hits her prime...or maybe it's already her prime? lol, knock on wood. I'm probably gonna go watch the movie Dreamer with her and Kurt Russell. Looks like a good movie. And the trailer for King Kong? Well...I probably won't see it, however, the Chronicles of Narnia trailer is awesome and I can't wait for that.

Tonight was weird. It was like a gathering of lots of friends, and weird combinations at that. Laura, Kelly, Ellen, T.J., Ashley, Amy, and me. Not a group that gets together often. It was fun though.

And then when I was driving back, there was this one stretch of road where I was going about 80-85, fluctuating and from the left hand lane two cars are going pretty fast. As they pass, they are cop cars. I was like, hmm, they must be in a hurry. I thought they would pull the guy in the left lane over who was just chillin' in that lane going like 85, but nope. I'm sure they have better things to do like go home and sleep.

Ohhhh, and my tooth? Fuckin eh. I have to get a root canal...well, I don't HAVE to. I guess I have a choice of saving the tooth by doing one or pulling it out. Haha, my Mom was like, just pull it out, it's just a tooth. Truth is, for $1700 for the whole procedure, taking it out is the much cheaper way to go. I don't know, I'm sure it'll be fine, though. Just have to tough it out with the temporary seal for a bit and then save money for this shit. Really, the blame is on the last dentist who supposedly FIXED the cavity that was there before. I guess they put a base of something to cover up the nerve from seeing the outside...if that made sense. Anyway, there was a hole in that base and my nerves were dead, I guess. Fucking dentists. I should kill them. That's another story.

So, I'll know next week if my boss can talk to some people and get my old job back for the Summer. Next week! Money is getting tighter and tighter man.

Gotta hold up for a couple of more weeks and hopefully, my boss can work some magic and give me another chance!

Well I'm off to the dentist in 20 minutes or so...I guess I'll let you know tonight if it was a root canal and if the movie War of the Worlds is good!

I just wanted to test out the new Blogger Images thing...ha! It works.

EDIT: I guess Fark doesn't allow hot linking. Pooey.

So I've been playing a lot today with the new service that Google came out with (yeah, who else?).

http://earth.google.com

This thing is amazing. It's just like being there and the ability to tilt to the level of the ground is awesome. I think this is the next generation of directions and looking up things on the internet. Anyway, for like $20 you can buy a version where you can hook up a GPS to it and it shows up in the program where you are. That's awesome! That's for sometime in the future.

Now onto job stuff. I e-mailed my old boss and she's going to talk to some people to see if I can be hired for the internship/summer. She's on vacation, so it'll be late next week...but man, I hope this goes through because that's about what I'm hoping for...I guess I can work at fast food, lol, but anyway...ONLY if I really have to I guess.

Back to playing more with Google!

Yup, just switched to a simpler layout...told ya SOMETHING had to change! :)

So it's really bothering me that my blog count is "stuck" at 254 even though I have a few more than that. Yes, it's a small problem. Anyway. I just put on some streaming classical music as a backdrop to my blogging.

So, what's been up? No money is what's been up. Just to recap. I still have no job...not one in sight...well, I sent an e-mail to my old both and she said that she'd generously try to help me out. If nothing pans out in the coming days (yeah, to me, like in the coming hours???), she would talk to some people to see if they can hire me back for the internship. Gotta tell ya, networking is key in the real world huh? It's all about favors and returning favors I guess.

And now, to the money thing. I think I'm going to have to do weekly house rent to Chris' parents, since I don't really have money for a whole month. Hopefully I'll have everything sorted out by the next 2 weeks, tops. So, and then yesterday I have a flat...great. I went today to Discount Tire to get 4 new tires...the CHEAPEST ones they had. $30 a tire. Now, I probably didn't need to get all 4 changed, since I don't really care if my tires are bald. Hell, if you think about it, in the summer, bald = more traction! :) Anyway, $120 for the tires and all these installation fees, taxes, blah, blah adds up and the 'real' total is $180...great. My credit card is at $1700 of the possible $1800...woot for me! I'm fucked!

I just want to get my internship done with so I can just find a job, any job. Going off on a tangent, I took off the hubcaps to my car and dabbed a little spray paint action to the rims...I think they look better...or maybe it's worse? Hell I don't know. I just like change, whether it's good or bad. I don't think I can ever live with at least SOMETHING in my life changing constantly (of course, besides Laura, lol). I changed my room a couple of days ago too. Now my small room is my office and the big room, which is quite empty, is my bedroom. It's weird, though, that something has to change or I get REALLY bored. The next thing? Who knows.

I've been wanting to sell my laptop too, so I can build a good desktop to play games on. Tough to find people to buy it, though. We'll see what happens in the next few months. I would like to ideally keep my laptop AND have a new desktop. I planned out what I'm going to get and it comes to about $550 for a nice, high-end desktop. Not too bad. I walked into Computer Renaissance the other day to check out their computers...man are they overpriced! I mean, there was a computer almost exactly like the one I'm going to make, just that mine actually has more RAM and a better video card and theirs was priced at $899...and then I was like, maybe I should just make computers and sell them. Worth it to me. Buy parts for $550, sell it for $650, make a $100 to do something fun and productive.

Well, that's it for now...I don't have any more news to shed...HOPEFULLY I'll have some job news soon.

Oh yeah, Wednesday I have a dentist's appointment to fix my chipped fillings/tooth...and I hope to god that I don't have to get a root canal...not for pain's sake, but for money's sake!

I think my post count hasn't been rising for the last few blogs. Anyway. I made this earlier today because I was bored.

http://www.voipnuke.com/uploads/NatureSlideShow.wmv

It makes you think how beautiful the world is with all the old buildings, ancient cities, tropical places, and just imagine the hundreds of locations around the world that we've never even stepped foot on or haven't even seen yet.

Among other news, I didn't get the Hilton job, but that's ok. I'm one of the last two candidates for the Marriott job and I haven't even gotten a reply from Embassy Suites, which I would like to hear from, but who knows. I'll know about the Marriott job FOR SURE on Monday...50/50 chance I guess. The pay starts at $7.50...which is sort of low...ok, really low, but oh well. You get what you get. The pay at the Embassy Suites is awesome, but oh well once again. I'm going to e-mail them to see what the status is.

Laters all.

I stumbled upon this (literally, but I don't want to explain that) and it just makes ya think, you know? I've seen this thing before, but it was for a population of 1,000. 100 works even better I think.

http://www.miniature-earth.com/

Just click the language you want to see it in.

I guess you could say that I'm in the MAJority. ;)

And then you realize, in the real world, how well you actually are compared to other countries. I don't know if I'll ever be able to escape taking things for granted, as that is how I was raised and that is how the environment I was raised in, was raised...although I can't speak for everyone.

I then sometimes wonder what life would be like if I were to be born into a MUCH more unfortunate life. Living in South America, Africa...I would be that those people who are very unfortunate have a much better understanding of life. Life without money, life without daily hassles, and perhaps, life to a more simple degree...just looking out for one another in the community and living. They don't have greed. There's nothing to greed over. They don't have jealousy (well, maybe). How can you be jealous about a car or a big screen TV when you have no roads to drive it on or no wall to put up the TV on. However, I have to say I'm sure they have dreams and goals, just like any of us...just a different kind. We dream of getting rich, getting famous, living a well-off life with family, kids, a steady job...they dream of surviving to the next day. They dream of perhaps the chance in the future that they will be taken out of their situation. Maybe they want to be...maybe they don't want to be. If I were in their shoes (well, more like sandals) I wouldn't want to be given the chance to live in grandness...it would just ruin something that they have that we don't. I'll let you guess what that is!

So this is the 255th post. That's a lot dude. It covers nearly 3 years of stuff! Anyway, an update. I had my dentist's appointment today and twofold:

1. I have no cavities! But, the back left tooth that I was talking about, if I ever did talk about, has a chip or something where my filling or tooth broke off. They have to take out the filling and re-fill it, but I guess the filling is REALLY close to the pulp, which is the nerve area of the tooth. If it's too deep, it's root canal time. Doh! I really hope I don't need a root canal. Really. Not because of the pain or whatever it might bring, but the fucking cost. Anyway.

2. There are still plenty of good people left in this world. I got there with my Mom and my appointment wasn't on the schedule. I guess the computer didn't save it or something and I had to re-schedule. My Mom was getting all upset and stuff and then while we were getting the next appointment, I guess another patient probably overheard us and he offered to give up his appointment time for us. What a fucking nice gesture. I don't know if this is appropriate or relevant, but he was Hispanic. I don't know, it's nice to know that there are nice people still around these days. He gave up his appointment for a July one...man, I don't even know if I would! Thanks to him though.

No word from the Embassy Suites yet. Tomorrow is my Marriott and Hilton interviews...man, I hope I get ONE, just ONE of the 3 jobs ya know? I'm tired of just sittin' here everyday not doing much...well, anything for that matter. Anyway, I'll update in a couple of days to let you know what my dealio is.

I just wanted to write in here before I lost my train of thought. I was cleaning out my old trunk of old stuff and came across some stuff that really sparked my memory of when I was in elementary, junior and some even high school. It's amazing how we all remember stuff instantly like that. I had a class picture from like kindergarten or 1st grade or something and although I don't really remember that time very well, I know and remember the people perfectly.

That's what life is about, right? Memories and people. In my opinion, that's all that you need to have a good life. I don't know if everyone would agree, but yeah. I mean, what other things matter? Money? Fame? How popular you are in school? The job you have? Nah, it's all about the people you meet along the way in your life that either adds or subtracts from your life. Those are moments you remember.

Do you remember more of when you got an A on a test? Possibly...bad question. Or do you remember what you did with your friends? I don't know, this topic is actually going nowhere fast. I just wanted to remind myself that my childhood wasn't all that bad I guess. I mean, I wasn't rich like other people (cough), but it was fun and that's what made it great. Spending the night at a friend's house after begging your parents, going to little league games and getting a bloody nose after the pitcher throws the ball in the air and I can't see it because the sun got in the way, and throwing rocks over the fence of someone's house you don't even know...and to keep throwing them until you break something. That's the stuff that makes life fun.

The last few days have been a series of reflection for me, sort of. Before I go to sleep, I'd think about the stuff I did bad when I was 9 or 10.

Anyway, just a short rave. Today's interview went well I think. Two more on Thursday and HOPEFULLY, one of them pulls through. I need a job bad man...really bad.

So here's to a job!

So we (TJ and I) got done finishing up this awesome project. I can't say what until after tomorrow night because people might be reading this. Anyway, it's sweet. Hope Ashley and Laura likes it!

So some good news on the horizon, sort of. I have an interview with the Embassy Suites in Denver tomorow (er, today, really) at 4pm for a front desk position. They really rushed it seems like, which is good for me. I literally send a resume via e-mail today and they got back to me. I also sent an app to Marriott on Saturday, they called me for a couple of questions, and now I have an interview on Wednesday at 10am. Cool huh? Hopefully, one of these goes through. Otherwise I'm back at square one!

Wednesday I have a dentist's appointment to look at my sore molar on the left side of my mouth and perhaps fix my cavity on one of my lower front teeth. Hopefully the molar one isn't a big deal, though the last two days, it has been more sore than ever before, although it's tolerable. It's just to that point where it's barely noticeable. I DO NOT want to fricken get my wisdom teeth out, which could be causing the soreness...let's hope not. I hope it's not a root canal either!

I'll probably report back on Thursday or so just to see where I'm at. I'll either be living here in Fort Collins or at Laura's house in Denver...we'll see if I get any of the jobs!

Just came back from watching Cinderella Man. It was a good movie! I can't imagine how life was like during the depression. I mean, living literally on a few dollars here and there, a few cents here and there is incredible. I would imagine that most people who lead a fairly good life today can't even start to imagine what this feels like. Anyway, it just made me a think a little (you know, like I always say I do in these blogs). I have it pretty good despite all the bad things that may happen. And now I'm beginning to think more like it's ok to not have everything. I mean, yeah, I've always thought that, but really, I don't need all the fast cars that I want to get or even small things like video games or to play golf. There are really only a few things you really need in life...pretty much for everyone across the board, in my opinion. I don't really want to get into the details. Maybe that'll be the next blog or something, but it's along the lines of friends, family, and a dash of _____. I'll fill in the blank later!

So it seems that my car finally took a turn for the worse. It started to erratically not start in the last few days and today it just stopped trying to turn on. Went to the Honda dealership to see about some parts. I bought a new main relay, which didn't do much, but I guess for the $64 that I paid, I can tell myself that now THAT'S not the problem. Next up was why it wasn't giving power to the main relay. The ignition switch. Since that was the next problem (most likely) I bought that online with next day shipping. Hopefully that will come Saturday and install it that day. If THAT doesn't work? Well, I spent just over a hundred dollars to figure out that it wasn't the parts that I just bought. I don't know what else it could be after this Saturday, so it's going to be off to the dealership to see if they can fix it...I know they will rape me up the ass.

I guess on the good end of things, I learned a bit more of how the car works...good thing or a bad thing who knows.

Well, that's all...

So I'm still waiting to hear back from Inverness. I hate waiting. You would think that if they are busy and short on people, they would get back to you as soon as possible. I called another place yesterday and left a message on the voicemail concerning an ad I saw in the paper. No word yet. I sometimes begin to wonder if people really call back or they know why they put ads in the paper...because they need people!

Anyway, I just had this sudden urge to see the ocean. I haven't been to the beach or seen the ocean or smelled the ocean in a loooong time. The last time was probably back in the early 90s when I was visiting my sister in Monterey, near San Jose, California. I remember we were on this rocky beach area and looking through the cracks and stuff where crabs or something lived and cool little sink hole type things where the water carved out wells and stuff. I was to see somewhere different this time, though. Maybe a more tropical location with a hidden cove or something. It would remind me of like a pirate story or something where the pirates are just chillin' and resting at a cove that nobody knows about or something. Oh well, maybe in the near future.

I'm going to get ready and head to the bank and then to eat now. See ya.

It's 1:33am...I'm starting to sleep earlier! lol. Chris just bought a new series of the car video game that we used to play on the PS2, but this one's for the Xbox and it seems to be much better. It's so easy to get into these kinds of games. I'm tired now and my eyes are hurting from watching too much TV.

I'm not sure what I'm doing tomorrow, but I'm going to see if TJ is free to do something. Waiting for Inverness to contact me is so, well, frustrating and nervous at the same time. Will I get the job? Will they say no? I always hate it when they say a position is filled. Anyway, I'm going to head to sleep now. I'll probably wake up around 11 or something tomorrow...because I have mono (a joke to Laura).

Good night.

Damn! 1:44am again. I can't sleep. I don't know why. I'm going to actually try and get to sleep after this blog, but anyway. Had my interview at the Inverness yesterday. I think it went well, but there are other candidates that they are going to look over for over the weekend and then they're supposed to get back to me early next week. Other things on my mind are figuring out whether or not I am going to be staying with Laura's parents over the Summer, what's going to happen after the Inverness job...well, before we get that far, I need to GET the Inverness job...which if I don't get, I don't know what's going to happen. I guess wait for my boss from Alaska to maybe/hopefully write back and say he can get me a job in Jackson Hole. And then that's another ordeal I have to deal with in finding a place to live and stuff like that. I really hope I get the Inverness job. But anyway, had dinner with TJ last night. That was fun. I am back to doing nothing tomorrow and until I get a call from the Inverness...well, that's all for tonight. Laters.

Well, it's 4:07am and I just wanted to say I love you, Laura. I hope you know that I really mean it.

Another late night/early morning post...this time, it's like 3:30 in the morning. WTF? I went to bed at like 12:30 and I couldn't get to sleep. I was just thinking about a lot of stuff. Anyway, I think I am just going to stay up and get breakfast with Laura or something. I think she'll get home at like 9 I think...6 hours to kill!!! I may watch a movie, but who knows. One thing I know for sure is that I'm going to be tired as hell later today. I am going to Kohls to get some nice shirts for the interview coming up. I REALLY hope I get it...otherwise I'm sort of screwed! Really! No money, no job, and stuff coming up to pay for things don't add up. Well, I'm going to go find a movie to watch and I'll be on my way. I can't wait to see you Laura! This may be the first time, if I stay awake, that I am awake when you get home! At this time, however, I am thinking of going to sleep for the few hours that I can...ugh, I should have went to sleep early. The thing is, it's hard to sleep without Laura. :)

A little late night posting. It's 1:30am. Laura's sleeping downstairs and I don't want to wake her if I go down there. I'm really not that tired, but I'm tired at the same time, if you know what I mean. Thursday is my interview! Hopefully it goes well.

Among bad news, my car won't start! It sucks. I was going to go cruising, but my car just ticks and ticks and won't start. It may be the battery, but I REALLY don't want to go buy another battery if it's not going to fix it. I want to know what's wrong with it! The thing is, that same thing has happened in the past, but it just got better and the car started in a few minutes. It seems that this time it's not the case. I fucking hope it's fixed by the time Thursday rolls around. Anyway, Laura works tomorrow morning, so I may just sleep up here and wake up in the morning and make coffee for us or something. It's weird. I'm just sitting here, surfing around, no work, no school (except an internship), and there's really nothing that I can be doing. Well, I guess I can look for a job, and it's probably a bad idea for me to assume that I'm going to get the Inverness job, even if it is just for the summer. I don't know what I'm doing right now. :(

Well, it's Susan's b-day today technically, so. That's about it. I'm gonna head to bed soon. See ya.

I think it's safe to say that in the last, what 14 days, a lot has happened and have thought a lot about things.

Just an update. My graduation was good. My brother came and my Mom, and a few friends. Did the whole thing and then went to Hibachi for some dinner. That was good too. And then the day after, it was the whole "me leaving for Alaska" thing and that passed. I had a loooooong day ahead of me. I ended up not staying at the airport and got a hotel that was open all night. Next day, we leave for Denali on the shuttle. Met some friends through the trip and turned out that those friends were my roommates. Good? Well, let's continue the story.

The place was great, the job seemed good, but everything else was not me. The employees and roommates were great, when they were not drunk, which was every night. The management I thought sucked...nothing was ready, including rooms, amenities, and even training was a little hectic.

So what did I do? I quit after my 3rd day. I talked to my manager and explained everything. He understood. It seemed like he was going to be leaving as well...he said to give him a call whenever he's back in Jackson Hole in Wyoming if I ever needed a job. I may just do that. It was an interesting experience nonetheless...I was out there for 1 week, almost to the hour. I don't know, the environment just wasn't for me. I don't care what others may think about that, but it just wasn't for me. Yeah, I may have wasted some things like the plane ticket and some money, but it's a learning experience. It'll be a great place to visit, though. Lots of things to do and see.

Now I'm back home, no job and practically done with school...I sent in some applications at hotels in Denver...haven't heard back yet, obviously, but I don't know what the hell I'm doing right now. I'm just sitting here and money is going to start to run low fast. I'm waiting for my Mom to call back when she gets back in from New York. That was probably fun.

The thing is that the people in Alaska are weird. Not in the sense that they look weird or act weird, but, well, yeah, their thoughts and actions mix. Like, all of them are there for a reason, to work. They are also there for another reason. Because they like the outdoors and nature at least to some degree. The strange thing is, at least to me, is that they don't act like that. They drink, smoke weed, etc. and do all these things, but it's just hard to think that inside, they're generally cool, nice people like any other person. I don't know, and they're even smart as well. They're mostly in school and all that and most have done this for a few seasons and stuff. It's just weird.

But now, I'll be here and taking in the changes that will be happening in the next few weeks. Moving, getting a new job (although being unemployed is sort of cool!) and then watching Laura head up to Wyoming, where I might head as well. Who knows. It's weird that the future is never a written story, you know? Like 1 week ago, I had it in my head that I was going to be coming back in September. Well that didn't come out like that!

But anyway, just thought I'd write a little about the craziness going on right now.

Hopefully I'll have some ENCOURAGING news in the next few days!

Just to note, this is probably going to be my final blog to a while, like 4 months while. Between work, getting used to Alaska, doing assignments for the internship, I probably won't have much time, if any, to come on to blog.

So anyway, this Wednesday is going to be my last work day. I can't believe it. I've worked over there for over 3 years. I think it's 3. They're throwing me a little, 'send away' social or something rather Wednesday. Just ice cream and brownies or something. I actually liked working there, but at the same time, I think it would be better if I left. It was so dang boring and that's just the start of it. I have made some good friends through it, though. Gaming friends which I intend to get together with again after my internship to play games. A good boss and supervisor that can give me some recommendations. And of course, there's Shannon whom I'm good friends with now. I remember when she was working on the other side of the building when I first started and then she moved to the desk in front of me. I can't even remember that far back. And there's Lee and her husband (a fellow gamer). Laura and I went to the Renaissance Festival with them last year. That was fun. All in all, I will miss working there, but like I said, I can't wait to find new ground.

What will I be doing? I hope to be working at a hotel or similar establishment when I get back. I may try and get a job up in Laramie working with the city and the parks and recreation division, but who knows. It's 4 months away now.

Lately I've been having the urge to do my Master's. There's a good looking program at the University of Tennessee for a Master's in Urban and Regional Planning. That interests me. Other than that, probably an MBA in human resources or something would be good.

The next couple of days, as well as the next few months will be turning points in my and Laura's life for sure. She's moving up to Laramie, I'm finishing school, being gone while she moves up there and all that. Life is starting to begin! It's exciting. I love you Laura. What the future holds? No one knows. We'll take it one step at a time.

So with that said, if I don't write back in approximately a little over a month, I'm dead. :) I'll be taking lots of pictures and such as well which I'll be posting up. I think that's it for me. Grades will probably be due next week, but unless I remember to check it when I'm up in Alaska, I probably won't check it until I get back. I'm nervous for my grades. It's one of those things where it can go either way, like good, as in 3.0 or great, as in 3.5+. We'll see. Heck, I have no more classes, so, haha!

Come to you, come to you, come to youuuuu!!!!!!!

So an update:

1. Fundamentals of Management - done!
2. Tourism Promotion - Done!
3. Tourism Impacts - Done!
4. Tourism Planning - Done!
5. Economics of Natural Resource - Taking final on Wednesday
6. Event and Conference Planning - Taking final on Wednesday

And that, folks, will be the last (well, maybe) test I'll take for my undergraduate career.

Among other news, t-minus 1 week before I head to the unknown area of Alaska. Getting more and more nervous by the minute! Other than that, though, things have been calm.

I've been thinking about doing a Master's program more and more. I might end up doing a Master's for business or some other related area at Wyoming, maybe the last couple years of Laura's Ph.D so we can both finish at the same time. A Master's will help out a lot.

Well, that's all for now. We're going to go eat dinner in a few hours with Holly and Susan. Laters!

It's May 3rd. Here's an update on my classes for the last semester of my undergraduate career!

1. Fundamentals of Management - done!
2. Tourism Promotion - Done!
3. Tourism Impacts - Done!
4. Tourism Planning - Just gotta turn in a 90% finished group paper
5. Economics of Natural Resource - pending - maybe a final, maybe not
6. Event and Conference Planning - 1 test and 1 presentation left

I'm outta here in 1.5 weeks. Scary and exciting at the same time!

Less than 2 weeks until I leave for Alaska...I can't believe how fast it's going and how fast this semester went. I have a grueling next 3 days to tackle in terms of tests, presentations and papers, but after that, I'm done! Well, for the most part.

Today's our monthly anniversary! I love you Laura!

Last night we went to the Carousel Dinner Theatre and Beauty and the Beast was playing. It was a great time! The food was good and the play, including the cast and set, was great. I would even go again if we have time before I leave.

Anyway, I just made some experimental soup and I'm waiting for Laura to come back.

Wow, interesting turn of events...one of the people that got accepted to Wyoming's Ph.D program decided not to go, so naturally, the next person in line was picked...and who was that? Laura! I'm so happy for her that she got in. No more $30,000 loan for her!

Now, this might change some things...such as whether or not I'll still move down to Denver to work at a hotel or something to get some experience. I'm not sure yet though. There is a Holiday Inn Express that is being built right now right where my work it and I would like to work there and get experience, but we'll see. I don't know when it will be done, so I'll have to swing by sometime and take a look. Otherwise, I'll worry about finding a job when I get back.

Only 3 more weeks until I'm done with school and I'm out of here for the summer! It's going by so quick. I should really get going on getting ready to go, as in buying the dress I need and buying some bathroom necessities for when I arrive in Denali. I probably won't be able to write in here for the entire time, but who knows. I might.

See ya laters.

Tomorrow is going to be a tough day! Luckily, one of the teachers generously moved her test tomorrow to Friday because we're giving a presentation in the class after that. Still, I have a test and a presentation tomorrow. Poo.

Already less than a month to go before I'm off to Alaska. Time is flying by quick. A few things to report today.

Yesterday, Laura and I headed up to Estes Park and RMNP and hiked up to this lake called Bierstadt (?) Lake. It was 1.2 miles, but it felt much longer. The middle part of the hike was the best and easiest, the beginning and end had snow on them. Anyway, the lake was frozen, but it was cool. It would have been nice to see it thawed out. My legs hurt a little today.

I saw my Mom today and she gave me the new digital camera that my brother go me for my graduation gift. It's sweet! 3.2 megapixels and a whole slew of features that I probably won't use, but yeah, it's pretty neat. I love the focus feature. I'm hoping to take some great photos in Alaska and use them for my wallpaper since the resolution is MUCH better than my piece of crap old one.

That's about it to say.

Ashley just called (like JUST) and said they were lost in Boulder. They're headed the right way now.

I want to take some pictures with my camera, but I don't know of what! I need a bigger memory card which I might ask Laura's Mom to get but yeah, it's convenient because the type of card it uses is also the slot in my laptop. w00t!

And yeah, www.csuconnection.com is once again closed. :)

I hope you get in Laura. :)

A little early-night blogging from me.

I'm now realizing that in a little over 1 month, a lot of things are going to happen really quickly. Let's go over briefly what's going to happen.

1. I'm going to be living in fucking Alaska for 4 months! It hasn't hit me yet, but it will soon. Apart from moving from California to Colorado in '96...and, well, to Fort Collins in 2000 I guess...I haven't really done anything this drastic until now. I know no one there. Don't know the area. Don't know what kind of job I'll have (yeah, it's front desk, but you know what I mean), and so forth. I'm going to have to get used to it pretty quick if you ask me.

2. I have to get all my shit together fast since I have, like, a day after I graduate to get everything ready to go. Granted I'm going to start packing much earlier than the day before, it's just going to be chaotic to say the least. I have to take care of car insurance stuff the day I leave, I have to finish up work (last day will probably be the 11th of May), say bye to friends, get internship papers ready, etc.

3. The biggest thing is that I'm going to be with people I don't even know. Yeah, I already mentioned this, but anyway. I'm going to be away from Laura for 4 months. I can't even imagine that. She was away for about 2 months or something last summer and it was hard. Laura just called to say I love you and made me think about the summer and how it's going to be. Making me more nervous I guess.

4. I guess the good thing that will come out of this is the fact that it's an experience that I'll probably only be able to have at this age. I have to try and look at the good things that will come out of this job. You know, I should say internship, but it's weird as it doesn't seem to look like an internship right now. Anyway, yeah, it'll be good for my future job plans.

School is sort of going steady, nothing too hard coming up and it should be a "breeze" the rest of the way in. That's good to here. I am going to make one resolution for tonight until I leave for Alaska. I need to try and spend as much time with Laura as I can! I am going to miss her a lot.

Well enough of this. Laters.

Laura's happy and that makes me happy!

So it's about a month and a couple of weeks before I'm off to pretty much frontier land. We all got a team e-mail sent to everyone who's going to be working at the front desk. Seems like I'll be working with 9 other people and those include the managers and assistant managers and stuff. Should be fun! I like small group work forces. But yeah, the bummer part of this is that I guess I'm going to be missing 2 days of training by the time I get out there. I guess they train Friday and Saturday...that sucks! I'm going to miss out on the first couple of nights of "hangin out" with the work group and getting to know each other. Dammit! Oh well, hopefully I can sneak myself into it.

I just remember that I have an economics homework due tomorrow, so I'm going to get on that right now. Laters.

Man, my visual-related headaches seem to be back again. It was good for a few days but it's back now. I took a couple of Advils and it's getting better. I'm listening to some classical music to see if that does anything. I think it does. Classical is so calming.

I can't wait for this week to be over already, school-wise. Just lots of stuff to do.

Just wanted to post that.

Well I guess it's time to finally sit down and write some details. So, I accepted the job at the Denali Bluffs, not my first choice but anyway. The reason I did that was because I felt as though Talkeetna wasn't really trying or interested in hiring me. I probably did have the job since the hiring lady told me they were just waiting for a spot in the housing to open, but I don't know what would have happened if they didn't find any spots. Plus, since I didn't get the internship job there, I didn't want to further ask if they could work with CSU to make the job an internship. The hiring lady at the Bluffs was really nice, talked to her a couple of times and was willing to work with making the job an internship, but long story short, Denali Bluffs won out. I'd rather be working with people that are nice than a place that's nice but not nice people. Hopefully I'll know soon who I'll be working with and all that. All and all, I can't wait to do this!

I don't have much time to get ready either, I leave pretty much right after I graduate, so I have to be ready a couple of weeks before I go. It's going to be hectic and then I have to do training and get settled into the Alaskan way of life, which is going to be weird at first. Hopefully I can make some friends quickly and all that and settle down. It's sort of nervous, you know, considering you're moving somewhere you haven't been, with people you've never met, for 4 months taking only a week or so worth of clothing and so on and so forth. Heck, I haven't even met the employer that's hiring me! It's strange to think of how the world works when you're actually part of the process. It would be weird for me to hire someone over the phone and internet. I would have lots of doubts whether or not the people I'm interviewing will be fit for the job and stuff. And since it's Alaska, there are lots of people who just go there seasonally and probably their first time there, like me. I intend to have a good time though. Gonna take lots of pictures! The thing I'll miss the most, apart from Laura, :), is probably all the amenities I have here. Well, I'm not quite sure how much of it will be there, but you know, internet, computers, etc. I'll probably have intermittent internet access...well, since I'm front desk, I'll probably have access. I don't know whether I should take my phone there or not. I'll take it anyway. Waste of minutes if I don't try and use it at least!

That aside, we went to Colorado Springs for a couple of days this Spring Break. Did some hiking at the Garden of the Gods, went to the Cave of the Winds and had some local foods. It was overall fun. AGAIN, we couldn't do the lantern tour because this time it was because it's weekends only and we failed to catch that little tidbit. Oh well. Spring Break is over and now it's back to the normal routine again. I don't really want to go back to work tomorrow, but I have to obviously. School is (I know for sure) going to get rough again the next couple of weeks since I have a few big things that I have to get done. After that, though, like after mid April, it should be a breeze. Hell, if you think about it after mid April, that's all the school I have left. The last big project I think I have is due first week of May. I leave the 14th. Wow, time is flying by really fast.

My brother was nice enough to get me a ticket with his miles to Alaska, so that saved me a hefty $450 or so. I'm probably going to get a hotel room near Anchorage for the night I get there, even though it'll be for like 10 hours. I need to save money since I won't get paid for the first few weeks I'm there.

And yeah, after my job there??? Who the hell knows! I was thinking of working and travelling Ireland/Europe, but I don't know. That's even bigger than working in Alaska!

Anyway, I'm going to go watch Laura play some Baten Kaitos. She's almost done with it.

Hello!

I'll get straight to the point this time. Well, I sent in my signed fax form to my employer for the summer. Where you say? The Denali Bluffs Hotel, run by Aramark. Why not Talkeetna you say? Well, a lot of things adding up to the decision, but I will just leave it at indecision and testing my patience did it.

I'm going to leave the details at that right now, because I'm not 100% sure yet, but I'll right back when I hear more stuff!

So, where to begin?

I guess let's discuss my internship situation. So on Monday I was like, I wonder if anyone is going to write back or call about my applications and what not. Around 5:00pm, I decided return a call to Denali Park and Resorts about an offer they wanted to give me. I was stoked. The hiring lady is really nice and sounds like a fun place to work. I officially got an offer letter from them yesterday and I have 10 days to respond. The interesting part start here. Talkeetna, my first choice, also replied within minutes of that call and said they're looking for housing since they want me at the front desk. Now, I'm a little confused whether or not I got the job "officially" so I don't know. It would be weird for them to look for housing if I'm not offered the job, but anywho. That's that. So I e-mail today since they said they'd get back to me yesterday. They are now just waiting for a spot to open up. What does that mean? I have to just sit here? What if a spot doesn't open up in the 10 days I have to accept the other job? So yeah, I'm getting a little nervous here but if I don't hear back from Talkeetna in, oh, 4 days or so, I'm going to e-mail them back and see what the dealio is. Otherwise I'd take the Denali Park and Resorts job for sure. ANOTHER funny thing is that today I got a call from Crater Lake Lodges in Oregon saying that they want to offer me a job, but I have to call to talk with them about it. I don't know what to do! I think I'm going to decline the Crater Lake one, though it looks pretty cool.

All this amidst midterm-ish week. I have had so much shit due this week it's unbelievable. I have a paper that I already finished due today and there's a midterm today as well. I think I should do all right in this one. Tomorrow there's a huge paper that I have to work on after my class tonight. I just actually have to add citations and tweak it a bit since I'm already done with the bulk of it.

Anyway, that's my rant for the moment. Next week is Spring Break and Laura, Ashley, Chris and I are going to Colorado Springs for a couple of days next Thur/Fri. Should be fun. I am dog sitting this weekend again for my coworker. Hey it's money! I am going to work on some projects I have for work while I'm there since I usually have NOTHING to do there. It's relaxing though.

Other than that, everything's good I guess. All these things that are happening I guess aren't really negative, but things that just happen, you know? Next week will be a good break. Finally.

However, I am getting nervous (yeah, already!) about working and staying up in Alaska. I guess it just hit me. lol. But hopefully I'll make some friends quickly and see how it goes. And then the big question of what the hell is going to happen AFTER the Summer. What am I going to do? Laura's not sure yet where she'll be going, but she'll find out soon, though, probably before I leave. The thing is, I graduate on the 13th of May and I'll have to leave for Alaska within a couple of days of it! It's crazy. And then I have to sign up for the internship, which is another story. I have to talk to my coordinator to see whether or not this "job" will apply as one. It better, or I'll be screwed! Then the shit with tuition will be up my ass as welll. It's nearly $1000 for 5 fricken credits. What a rip off. Anyway, just lots of shit going on.

Well, I'm going to go eat my bratwursts and then get ready for my class/test. It's going to be a long night!

Laters.

It certainly has been a while. School suddenly got busy and all that jazz, so I've actually (probably for the first time) been strapped for time since there are so many damn things to do and so many projects that are going on (of which I'm behind in). Anyway, I have some time now to update on things. Well, things went downhill on the TJ situation, but I'm not sure what the status is right now. Work is going good. I got a big project actually that'll keep me quite busy. I haven't really heard back from my internship stuff yet...which sucks. Spring Break is coming up, but you know, there's always troubles of what to do. We may end up going to Estes Park for a couple of days.

Other than that, I sent a few things I wanted for graduation to my brother since he asked me for a list where he could choose on thing was. I sat down and thought, but I really couldn't think of anything. I put a DVD player, digital camera, and a muffler for my car. Yeah, there's really nothing that I want.

I've been REALLY into first person shooters lately. I got into the PC Halo addiction for a while there and then now it's Starcraft. I think this weekend we might head down to Laura's parent's house for me to play Halo 2. Yes. All the way down to try out Halo 2. It looks awesome. I can't wait to play it if we are going down.

Ashley got a ferret. I saw it a few days ago. It's pretty cool I guess. I still want a dog though. I'm almost done with school in 3 months! That's crazy. After that, I'm hopefully going to be doing my internship somewhere in Alaska...and then, after we know where Laura goes to grad school, I might be taking a few months off, just working and travelling before I settle down. I was thinking of working and travelling Ireland for like 6 months. That's a long time, but I think it would be so cool to do. Yeah, it's definitely a little nerve racking, considering I'll be at a place I don't know ANYTHING about and I don't know ANYONE. Sort of scary. I don't know, maybe I'll work somewhere in the US, but we'll see. It'll take some time to think about it.

It's starting to become Spring time, sort of. It's getting relatively warmer, but it's still chilly when the wind blows. I'm ready for Bandimere to be open. I'm only going to be able to run my car a few times before I leave, though so I better make them count. I was then thinking about what I was going to do with the insurance on my car. I think I decided if I do go out of town for that long, I'm just going to cancel my insurance for that time and save some money.

I just got the urge to go online and search for some jobs in Nevada.

I'll continue again soon. Laters.

Happy b-day Laura!!!!

Well, I just wanted to put this blog before I forgot. I saw Finding Neverland with Johnny Depp a few weeks ago and I want to say this was one of the best movies I have seen in a looong time. I don't recall one part of the movie where I wasn't interested or unengaged or was boring. I really liked the storyline and so forth. I'm not a fan of Kate Winslett (because of Titanic), but she was ok in her role. A+ for the movie. It didn't win a Golden Globe, but it's nominated for an academy award, so we'll see how it does in that.

Just saying a quick hello! Gonna head to bed now.

2 hours until my birthday. Time to reflect huh? 23 years old. Come to think of it, 23 is soooooo old, relatively speaking. But then again, it's pretty young. I've got a long life ahead of me, full of surprises. I just hope that my life isn't some boring little adventure. I want it to be full of excitement and stuff, ya know? I think travelling the world with Laura would be awesome. I think we're going to try to go to a bunch of places including Africa, Europe, Asia, and S.A. I guess that's pretty much all the continents, but yeah. You get the point.

I filed my taxes last night and if all goes well, I'll get roughly $1400 back. All of which is already "spent". Car insurance and credit card payments baby. I will also pay SOME of my balance for my laptop. I would like to get that out of the way. Other than that, that's a lot of money I get and so little time to see it.

It feels like a long weekend. It's only Sat. night and I feel as though it's Sunday night. Good or bad I guess depending on how you look at it. Got back into Halo again. Playing online now. It's fun. That's all for the update. Tomorrow's a time to relax!

Another edition of weird thoughts going in my head.

So sometime (today? yesterday?) Laura was telling me about how a person at her work was dancing and stuff while listening to music (at least that's how I interpreted it) and I thought to myself what...well, let me start over. I always think about what others are thinking, doing, etc...you know, how they live their lives and such. When you get down to it, everyone needs certain things to live. Everything apart from that is filler I think, to make our lives more enjoyable, etc.

Okay, that didn't make sense at all...even I don't know what I'm saying. Anyway, I just thought that man, people are basically the same at heart and they do the same things as me and everyone else, they say the same things, experiences (more or less) the same things and think the same way. I wonder if they have worries like me. I wonder if they are happy like me and so forth. I know everyone's lives are different, but they can't be all that different. College kids go to school, work, come home, and hang out. Pretty much it until you graduate and then you just take out school...that about covers it doesn't it? I guess you replace that with an optionial "take care of your family" huh?

Bottom line, I guess I want to say for the moral of this night's blog to be that friends are super important in life. It's hard to make them, but you can erase them in a second. Hold on to what you have I guess. If you think of life as a sin curve, I wonder what part of the curve I'm at right now...the bottom? Top? Middle? On my way to going up to the top? Down to the bottom? We'll see soon enough.

Mid February is when I'll know about my internships. I'm sort of nervous. What if I don't get either? I guess it's not that big of a deal since I'm not in any hurry after May...well, I'll be strapped for cash BIG TIME if I don't do something then...but yeah, I guess I should keep searching for internships. My boss has been supportive saying I'll get at least one of them. We'll see about that eh?

I'm gonna head to bed...my classes are early tomorrow...I need to stop spending money...and I need to get back into school mode. I haven't done much except take notes in class, so...but then again most are discussion classes...which I'm not good at discussions. I think I'm going to have to change a bit of my style this semester. I'm going to have to be a little more outspoken...it's going to be hard but I think it's for the better.

On another note, I've pretty much conquered Tales of Symphonia...beat most of the side quests, the ones I can do anyway. If I want to do and get everything, I'll have to start another game and I don't think that'll be good considering I've just started a semester...my last one at that. ;)

See ya.

Tomorrow is the first day of my last semester! Well, I have to go in to my advisor again and make sure that it is, but I'm pretty sure that it is. Anyway, I hope this semester is as good as last semester, both grade wise and time wise. Time wise you say? Well, last semester was probably the fastest semester that I ever had. I don't know why. Maybe it was because the classes that I took were actually interesting and I had fun. Maybe, maybe not. Anywho, just wanted to get this last bit of rambling before I head to bed.

It's always weird for the first day of school. Even when I'm this old and it's my 5th year of college! It's also weird that some of my friends are done with school, so they don't have to worry about school anymore. Just a strange feeling you know?

Well, that's all. Catch you sometime soon I'm sure. Maybe later this week to tell you how my semester will likely go. Until next time.

P.S. I wonder if there's a way or ever going to be a way to print all your blogs from the site...that would be helpful as I want to archive for myself...sometime...

Hello.

While I was making myself a "sleeping time" CD and testing it out on my old ass CD player from the mid 90s...something just hit me. Like, I can't even explain it. I guess the realization that, whoa, I'm just a tiny speck on the planet and the universe, or something to that extent. I just sat there for a minute or two thinking was purpose life brings to whomever's life you are currently talking about. And then the realization that the world does indeed go on regardless of you. Time really doesn't discriminate!

This blog is sort of a geeky one don't ya think? Anyway, I just wanted to catalog that little moment. The battle between the two internships is still going. There are two I want, well, one I REALLY want and another that is sort of a back up, which happens to be (probably) the one that I can most likely take right now. The other one is still in the interviewing process and the lady will probably notify me in mid February...not good considering that's over a month from now and I have to notify my other people about what I want to decide within a week from now, no more than a week and a half. My brother said if he learned anything it's that you shouldn't wait for things to resolve, otherwise you could end up with the worst situation, in this case, me not getting EITHER internship. Should I wait? Should I accept the one that is second choice??? I don't know what to do! I'll have to think about this while I got to sleep the next few nights I guess.

Among other news, school is starting next week. Woohoo. I've been waiting since these long breaks are just killer as they are so boring. My last semester as I've said a couple of times now. I'm actually moving on!

Well, I'll talk to you later. Laura, if you're reading this before I talk to you, which will be very unlikely, I beat Tales of Symphonia and I beat Abbyssion!!! He was hard as hell, but it was on my first try...lots of items later and Raine dead, I came out the victor!

I love you.

Howdy,

First post of 2005. Seems refreshing. So it's been over 2 years (3?!?!) since I started the blog venture. Crazy stuff.

It's 12:17am and thought I'd write a little bit. It's amazing how much you really want to write a journal, but don't want to because you don't want to have to write it in a book. My hands would get tired after writing a sentence, but thanks to the cool folks at Blogger, we can do this from a computer...quickening the writing pace by hundred-fold. Well, maybe no hundred fold, but anyway.

Good news, if you want to think of it that way. I think I'm having a phone interview on Thursday from the place that I want to internship the most. That's awesome. I'm probably going to start to get more and more nervous as the time comes, but yeah. I'm going to have to go through the potential questions in my head the night before to make sure I don't fuck it up. And then I was thinking, maybe I could try and be unique but that could end up bad too. I guess the best way is to act yourself so if they DO hire me in, I won't act all different, ya know? I didn't go to work today. I don't know why, I just didn't. I was really tired for some reason. I better start sleeping earlier when the beginning of the semester comes around since I have to wake up at 7 every morning. Yup, that's right. I HAVE to this time. M/W is work from 7 to 11:30, then class, and back to work at 1:30 or so. T/Th I have class all day. F is an exception once again. Anyway, I'm going to head to work today and see what's up.

Oh yeah, I went to my first "LAN party" last Saturday and it was fun. It was all people from my work, 6 in all including me. The games we played were fun and right now I'm addicted to HALO. Fun game. Tales of Symphonia is fun too for the Game Cube. I sort of let off on that game for right now, but I'm going to get back into it so I can get on to the second disk. Laura's been playing that game a lot lately.

Anyway, lately I haven't been me for some reason. I'm really "on the edge" or more descriptively, snappy for some reason. I hope it gets resolved soon.

Well, I'm going to head to bed with some music on. Yeah, I moved my speakers into my bedroom so I can listen to ambient noises while I sleep. It's pretty cool. I sometimes think about being/living in a fantasy world like Tales of Symphonia and HALO and places like that. Oh well. laters.

Whoa, new post already! It's because I'm bored. Sort of took the day off early today...just a couple of hours of at the office. Not work, because I really didn't do any of that. Anyway, cool stuff to tell you about. I was bored last night as always and I wanted to see if I can find my old friends online, whether that be through Google or Classmates.com or whatever. It turns out that it's pretty hard to find out that kind of stuff, but then it's the internet, there are always other ways to go about things.

I stumbled upon LocateAmerica.com and browsing around, I found all the people that I have been looking for. It's a HUGE database of virtually all the people in the United States and their name, address, and sometimes more. I decided to try it out and paid $20 for a 24-hour pass to do as many searches you want. I found quite a bit of people and although I'm not sure if the addresses that it gave me will be accurate, I'm going to try anyhow. I already wrote the letters to each of my old middle school friends. Of course they're not all different, just changed the name on most of them. Anyway, yeah, hopefully I'm going to send those out soon and see if I get any replies back. That would be cool if I did, but I have a feeling I might get ONE reply back and this entire ordeal would have been a waste of time, money, and envelopes and stamps. No matter, I looked back (well, more like thought back) at all the stuff that I did back when I was in middle school in California. Fun times.

Among other news, I have been submitting a lot of internship information and requests the last month or so. A few seem really probable, but we'll see about that. An internship that really seems fun is at Alaska, but I saw that it's not paid, which could cause problems, so I'm not submitting that yet. I'm looking into it though.

Laura is working right now. She worked from 10pm last night, and well, I guess until 10pm tonight. 24-hours! Anyway. She got Tales of Symphonia for Christmas and she's been playing that for the last couple of days. I just got into it and it's fun. Since it's sort of close to an RPG, I just spent a bit of time just fighting enemies and leveling and powering up. Ah, how RPGs work.

What else...nothing else! Um, yeah. Seriously, I sometimes even wonder if anyone reads this!

So fast forward to December 24th...Christmas Eve. Again, it's been two months since I've written on here. Oh well. To update, things have generally been the same around here. Big news, however, include Laura and TJ graduating from CSU. We went to each of their graduation ceremonies and it was good to see them walk...though I don't know if I'll walk yet. Everybody is good. Went to Laura's house in Denver to exchange a couple of gifts and such. Ohhh, that's another big thing, presents! The group gave each other our gifts early since people wouldn't be here in town for Christmas. Anyway, I got some cool shit including a RMNP pass for next year, a video camcorder and of course DVDs. Ashley got a watch, martini set, and others, Chris a game steering wheel and DVDs, TJ some house warming gifts, and Laura some decorative stuff and a Kitchen Aid stand mixer. All and all it was a fun time.

So, what now? Well, I'm going to be starting my last semester here at CSU on the 18th of January...I can't believe it's come down to this already! Back in 2000 when I started, of course I was hoping to get out in 4 years...after a year of screwing around, getting kicked out (man, that sounds bad!), going to Front Range, getting my act together, and finally coming back here, I've realized that I've gone through quite a bit during my college years. Most good, some bad. Now it's coming down to the final chapter of this part of life huh? I'm currently trying to find an internship lined up for the upcoming summer since it's sort of required to get my degree, but I'm not in a hurry. I don't think I'll be "using" that degree soon anyway.

Yesterday I sent out an e-mail to a bunch of people saying happy holidays. I got one back from a friend from middle school whom I keep in touch with on an infrequent basis...like once or twice a year. I asked if she wanted to meet up the next time I went to California (which could be a long time!) but yeah, it brought up memories. Really, I remember back in those days when we'd do nothing and get by. We would play games outside, camp in the back yard, "stay over" at each others' houses (and the funny and nostalgic part of that was the whole process of asking our parents if it was ok, lol) and stuff like that. I remember biking around our little town plaza and buying ice cream in the summer time and so forth. I really miss those days. If I had a wish, I would probably ask to be back in that time period again. Well, maybe money if it were really to happen, but second would be to go back in time, as many times as we could, as secretly as we wanted. That would be cool. Anyway, that was my flash back for this blog.

And then, I just realized that this blog has been in existence since 2002...that's crazy. I have gone back and read some of the earlier ones but that brings back memories too. I wonder what everyone I've mentioned has been doing, like Ben, Derek, Rod, etc. Sometimes I think maybe I should have kept in touch with them or something. Oh well.

So anyway, one more semester, and then an internship and who knows what will happen. In April, we'll find out where Laura was accepted for graduate school and that'll partly determine what will be happening. That's in 4 months. So I guess in those 4 months, the best thing will be for me to keep looking for an internship and hopefully securing one, doing good in school and taking some time to reflect back on what I've done so far and not to take things for granted. Wait, was that just like a set of resolutions for 2005? Maybe.

I'm out for this session, but I will be back as long as blogger.com stays in business!

Laters.

Wow...almost 2 months!

Lots to update I guess.

First off, my website, www.csuforums.com has been a real success in my eyes. Yeah, there isn't as many members as the # of students at CSU but hey, it's getting there and it's only been 2 months. Anywho, I've met some awesome people throught these forums and I'm hoping that I can keep the momentum behind it and try to get a lot more people through the months to come.

Second, my car is doing good. Just today actually, I painted my FMIC black, so it looks more "stock" than before. I think I lost a little power, but oh well. No big deal.

Third, and this is probably the biggest news, is that I'm graduating in the spring! Yes you heard right. If I can take all the classes I need without any hitches, all 6 classes and I should be able to because I already checked it online and I can fit all of them in. May is the expected graduation and my Mom and my brother want to come see for some reason. Whatever. I'm stoked. So, come to think of it I'm not graduating all that late. 5 years. I mean, it would have been sooner without the 1 year of dicking around...so 4 years...right on the money. But yeah, I'll be graduating with a Natural Resource Recreation and Tourism major. I want to work outside and hopefully at a resort or something but we'll see. I still need to do an internship next summer or I won't technically get a degree...like, I'll walk at the ceremony I think, but not get my degree until that fall or something.

Fourth, I got a new cell phone! Yeah, I thought I needed a new one about now, so I went ahead and bought it. Actually, my Mom and I are sharing minutes right now. She got a new phone too.

Other than that, that's the news really. Everything's been a-ok. Laura's been working a lot so I don't see her much, but we're doing good. We're coming up on 3 years soon! :) We're going to go to the sushi place we went to on our first date. Should be fun!

But anyway, I thought I'd give a little update on my so called life. Everyone else is doing good. Ashley is good and will be graduating in the spring as well, TJ and Laura will both be done in December and Ben will be done in the spring too. I talked to him a few times over the last couple of weeks. Seems like everyone is just busy, busy, busy.

I think it's Holly's b-day tomorrow and we're going to go each with them or something, but I'm out of the news on this one. I'll know tomorrow I guess.

I'll catch you laters!

Hey well it was ALMOST 2 weeks! Things have been hectic lately. I didn't realize that school was so close. 4 more days! The freshman moved in today. Saturday is me and Laura's weekend out. We're staying at a hotel, watching movies, and eating dinner. Should be really fun! Also, I began a project. A project of big proportions. www.csuforums.com. A message board for CSU students. My goal is to get the entire student body involved...hey, it probably won't happen, but it's a good goal right? Just opened a couple of days ago and it's flourishing. I hope this becomes big and the talk of the campus during the first week in school. Thanks to all that helped me and are helping me out on this project. my main website is going great as well. Anyway, I think I ate too much or something because my stomach is upset, but that's always the case. Chris went to Vegas for pretty much 2 days, since Wednesday. He's getting back tomorrow. That's all the news I have. Laters.

My god...it's almost 5 in the morning on Sunday. I haven't slept up until now. I tried to go to bed at like 11:30 or so, and even layed down in my bed, but I couldn't sleep...so I got on my laptop and voila, it's fricken 5. Unbelievable. I'm going to be tired the rest of the day...

Laura's going to be back in Denver tonight and back home tomorrow!!! Woohoo.

The amount of frustration I have right now toward money and buying things is ridiculous right now...I'll leave it at that. I'm way to pissed.

It's 2 in the damn morning and I'm laying here watching music videos. Evanescance's My Immortal music video is a great video. I watched that over and over. I never get tired of it...the fact that Amy Lee is hot might have something to do with it, lol, but it IS a good song. That's all I wanted to say I guess. Yup, gotta get to sleep. Laters.

I'm listening to "This Kiss" by Faith Hill right now for some reason. I like this song, but still. It's weird. It's raining again. Dammit! I just called my friend in California too. It's his b-day. Why is it that every time I call someone to tell them happy b-day, or even write to them, they say, "Oh!! You remembered?" Every fucking time. It's not that hard to remember one date and on that date say happy b-day...they think it's like a fucking miracle. Once they tell me, it's not like I register to my head saying "Oh, they told you their b-day, forget it." I don't know. Whatever. It was good to talk to him though. He's doing good. I asked him about his little brother and he's 18 I guess...damn! I remember when he was like 10 or 11. Time passes so quick.

But yeah, Laura will be back next Monday! That's like 5 days. And it's going to go quick because Thursday/Friday is a cake at work...ahem, if I go that is. I want a project to do but I don't know what. I'll think of a funny thing though. I think tonight I'm just going to listen to music and chill. Might get coffee or something but I need to stop spending money. I need to get my credit card down even more because I found out I have to pay a little more for tuition and the financial aid won't cover all of it...so. And I NEED to think about the Ireland trip. Dammit!!!! I need money fast. I need to think of stuff to do you know? I don't have anything to sell because, well, I sold it already. :

Well gonna go. Laters.

I just want to add that it's the little things in life that are the best memories. Yup, that's true. In the end, money, how big a house you have, what car you have, what achievements you've done and stuff like that really don't matter. Really, it's great if you have all that stuff, but what good is it if you die alone? Or die in misery, sadness, etc.? Granted being rich is good, but only on the outside and only up to the point where you pass away and that little, yet significant moment where you look back at your life and think to yourself what was my life about. Was my life meaningful. That sort of questions. These questions aren't answerable until the very end of your life and it's a good bet that you don't want to be in that situation without anything to look back on. So, just remember that little things prevail in the end, not the big things.

Call me old fashioned, but I just got the old school NES with 8 games in the mail today. It rocks. I also have Super Mario 1, 2, and 3 that I bought for Laura. All the games work fine except the first Super Mario. I've cleaned the pins with water, but no go. Later I'll try cleaning it with some cleaning solution. Hopefully that'll patch things up. Excite Bike, I gotta tell ya, is the best damn game ever. :)

*Note to Laura*
Happy early X-mas present Laura. Haha, just kidding. This was a gift to you from me for being a great gf! Hope you have fun with it...when you get back of course.

I'm going to go play a bit more now.

Well before I head to bed and get up tomorrow to go to work, yes I'm going to work, but only for a little bit and to sign my timesheet, :P, I thought I'd mention some memorial stuff. I'm sittin' here looking at my 5th grade yearbook. Holy shit that's a long time ago. 11 years ago, probably around this time, I was doing what I was doing in the yearbook. I can't believe how time flies so fast and stuff. I'm actually really glad that technology like photography captures these moments. I don't think I had a worry in my life back then. Maybe here and there and possibly family stuff, but not too much. I can CLEARLY remember the friends that I hung out with during that year, looking at my class of course. I remember playing kick ball on the fields, running around the play area, having student/teacher conferences and having classroom activities. I really believe that it was a fun time. I kid that my childhood wasn't all that great. From a, say, financial perspective, I really wasn't. But from a social perspective and stuff like that, I think I was. Family wise I wasn't so much either but I spent most of my time at my friend's house and came home, did homework if there was any, played video games with my brother until bed time and head to bed. Simple life huh? And then fast forward 11 years and here I am. Writing to this blog, on my laptop, worrying about school, work, missing someone I love and getting everyday things done. Is this how life is? You have a pretty laid back childhood, go through the "education" stage, then graduate, finding a job, then retiring? I hope every life isn't supposed to be like this. I'd like my life to have some sort of uniqueness, not in the sense that everyone's life is unique because of the different people involved, but the way I LIVE my life. I don't want a normal life. I really don't. You only have one life to live and I don't want to waste it on normality. Oh well, we'll see what happens huh?

It's raining like hell here. It's been like this most all day. I don't like the rain, but it's kind of nice listening to the water hit the ground outside and the roof as you go to sleep. I just noticed that I ONLY use the space bad with my right thumb so there's a big "bald" spot if you will on the right side of my laptop's space bar where it's worn out. I've tried using my left thumb as an alternative, but really my typing speed drastically reduces. It's weird because I really can't type well when I use my let thumb! Har, har.

I'm off to bed. See ya later. Oh yeah, it was Chris' b-day yesterday, but I think I already mentioned that two days ago. I don't remember.

Well, it's about an hour before Chris' b-day tomorrow. 22 is the age. Gettin' old. We ain't doing much though. We were going to go eat tomorrow with Ashley and others, but Chris will be with his parents to dinner, so. I don't know what's going to happen. Things have seemed to settle down in my life. A couple of more weeks to push through before Laura's back. My website's almost fully functional. It's nice to have 4GB of space as opposed to 1GB. Bigger is always better. lol.

Anyway, I was just coming in for a little bit. Heading out now. Laters.

What's up people. First off I'd like to say that I have a new favorite song. Stain'd "How About You". The lyrics are great and the song itself is just cool. Read the lyrics and you'll understand.

Anyway, I'm broke as hell. The last couple of days I just spent like $200 or so dollar, probably more like $300. Bunch of various stuff but yeah. I didn't go to work today either. I don't know what's with me!

I watched bits and pieces of Good Will Hunting. It's a great movie. This is a pretty quick blog. I'm actually going to head to bed. I need to get up for a long day tomorrow. 1 1/2 weeks until Laura gets home! :)