Well, we're nearing the end of June. Lots of stuff happen at that time. Rent is due, bills are coming, and most importantly, it's only 6 more weeks until the gang at camp come back to good, fun Fort Collins. I miss them, especially Laura. Now that the kids are coming every week, I hardly have a chance to talk to her. On the weekends I see her though, which is good. The past week I saw The Bourne Identity...I don't know if I said that already, but yeah, it was good. What was even better was Minority Report. Awesome. Tom Cruise was good as ever. I was at their site last night and was at the precrime site doing games/puzzles and stuff. Anyway, I'm hoping to switch my ridiculously expensive insurance from the one I have now at $938 for 6 months, to Geico (yes, the fricken lizard) at $650 or so for 6 months. That's almost a $300 savings. That's always good. Having a credit card is a bad idea. lol. I swore to use it for emergencies, but yeah, it's already piling up. Thank god I have a job and am getting paid in 2 days. I'll just pay that off quickly. I bought some stamps yesterday. I can't believe they're raising the price to $.37. Why are they doing that? It's stupid. But I guess they need the money huh? 1 million people buying a book of stamps at $.34 would yield $340K. With a $.3 increase that becomes $370K. I don't know the annual stamp buying statistics (though I should), but 3 cents would come to a lot more money in the whole scheme of things I guess. Fricken government. That was a useless rant. I took the day off today. Also, I sent Laura a bouquet of flowers to camp yesterday! It got there supposedly at 2:21pm, which was too late for her to get it yesterday, so she'll get it today while she's having lunch and HOPEFULLY, she'll be embarassed when she gets it today. Just a dozen pink roses, which she loves, but yeah, I thought it would be nice. Plus, there was a good deal. Hehe. Looks like it's going to be damn hot again today too. I don't know. I just hate Summer. Summer vacation may be the worst thing in the world. There's never nothing to do even though earlier in the year you and your friends talk amongst each other about going to road trips and stuff. Usually never happens, but hey, it's good to chat. My motorcycle project is coming along smoothly. I recruited the help of a fellow co-worker that has a bike and I'm getting advice from him. So far the only things I'm sure about are the following: the bike will be 600cc or lower, insurance won't be over $150/year, and it's either going to be a Yamaha or Kawasaki. I can't wait. I found a nice looking bike here in Fort Collins, but I can't get it dammit. I have no money. I don't want to go get a loan now. That would be stupid. I'll just have to wait. I have, in the meantime, downloaded some mpegs of bikes. Damn. They're awesome. Well, before I babble on to my death, I'll be going now. I have to get ready ya know?...to do nothing that is. I'll be back soon...er or later.

Well, well...look what we have here. Little ol' me writing again. Seems like from the last time I wrote..well, it's bee 13 days. I just came back from the theater watching The Bourne Identity. It was a good movie. I like Matt Damon...but above all, I've been waiting for tomorrow's premier of Minority Report. Damn, that looks good. I have been working, but pretty much 3/4 days because I have nothing to do, but apparently we are getting another big project here within the next week, so I'm psyched for that. I'm also excited to go up to Estes Park on Saturday with Laura. We're going there because she can get free rooms at a hotel through her work at camp. Nice huh? It's going to be a long day though...about 4-5 hours of driving I'd say. Can't wait to see her though, that's for sure. I can't go a week. But yeah, I have some things to say here, but I can't because it has to be kept confidential, even to my close friends. Sorry to whoever reads this! I don't think many people read this though. But yeah. I have been wanting to get a motorcycle for the longest time and I should be able to pull it off maybe by next Spring. I didn't realize how cheap the insurance is for a bike. It's like $140 a year...damn good if you ask me. Next month my insurance for the car will HOPEFULLY go down lower than fricken $166 a month. That's killin' me. If it would go down to about $105 like it used to be, it would help me out so much. It's been hot here lately. around 96 and shit. I can't do that. It's too hot in my room and I can't cool it down because, well, it's hot outside and we have no A/C. Oh well, it's not so bad. Living here is going good, by the way. The dog's doing great too. He's bored though, I can tell. He stays in the house all day because there's no one home, (me primarily) and I am never in the mood to take him out on a walk. My next project, though, like I mentioned would be the bike. I need to take motorcyles classes, as I have no idea how to run one, and that'll make the insurance even cheaper. I'm looking at a mid-class ~600cc bike...pretty much anything for me to start out. I just want to go fast, that's all. 180+ is my goal before I die. It's getting dark outside, which has usually been my que to go to sleep. Yeah, 10:30's my bedtime. I wake up at 6:30. I'm used to it now. I have to take a shower though. It feels so good right before you go to bed. It's the third to best feeling. I'm not disclosing what the top two are. Hehe. It's not what you think. I'm selling a couple more things on eBay...actually it's over now, I'm just waiting for the payments to arrive. The combined total should be around $120...hehe, extra money baby. I also got a fricken credit card again, but this time I've learned my lesson...not to use it when I have no money to pay them back. Seriously, a credit card can be either the best thing in the world when used correctly, or pretty much hell. Never get into debt people...it sucks. Lucky for me, I have fairly good credit, as I haven't ever been late for a payment courtesy of my Mom, which I promise will pay back soon. Maybe even the next pay check depending on how much I have left ya know? Bills suck, vacuums suck, and whores suck. Well, I'll try and not to forget about my blog...because I really did forget up until about 20 minutes ago when I'm like...wait a minute. I have a blog!...and thus I'm here writing again. Among the hundreds (hehe) of hours of surfing I've done in the past couple months, I have seen a slew of new sites that're cool. I'm not going to write them down because it's a pain and I can't really rememember them all, but yeah, just wanted to mention it. The next edition of the blog will be a lengthy, well, kinda, of my opinion on 'geniuses' of our century (past century). We'll see how that goes. Talk to you later and have a good night!

Whoa, so, a lot has happened again since the last time I wrote. It's been a while. I have good reasons though. I wrote this blog at home, as a matter of fact, saved it on disk, and took it to work to upload it to my entries. So...right now I have no idea what day was the last time I wrote, so I'm going to update you. Laura and Ashley left for camp on June 2nd...THAT sucked. It was probably the saddest day for a long time for me. Laura and I hung out all night the night before and the morning was even harder. We both cried a lot. I'm embarassed to let that one out. Anyway, we are going to communicate to each through letters since she can't make calls at camp NOR will she have internet access. How else can it blow? I got the new dog, named it Magellan and he's doing quite well in the new home. He's learned to pee outside, not go upstairs, etc. We're doing great. The house is empty though. Not furniture, food, etc. empty...just...I want company. I guess Camp Chief Ouray isn't too far from here, only a couple hours from what Laura told me, so I am happy about that. I am going to go up there every chance I get. I can even go up though for the first time until about 2 1/2 weeks from now since they have training or something and they don't have weekends off the first two weeks. More bad news huh? Tell me about it. I've been trying to keep myself busy since they've left, but it's really not working. I miss Laura so much. I can't stand to be away from her for more than 1 or 2 weeks at a time and now it's the entire Summer?!?! I have been getting lunch with Zach though up here in Fort Collins. The first time we went to Wok and Roll and the second to Schlotzsky's Deli. I'm sure we'll go again sometime this week. The house is still packed with things to get unpacked though. We only managed to move Laura's lower half of the desk before they left and nothing big of Ashley's. Kinda sucks. I'm going to try and convince Rod to help me move the rest of the shit. What else...work is going good. Busy lately, which is a first and it's stuff that takes quite a while. I need to keep myself entertained at work somehow. Also, the site that Jesse and I were working on is finally up and running. EliteStudia.com is the URL and please visit! We're hoping to make some money on this deal. Apart from copying a few hundred dollars worth of software at work, namely Macromedia stuff, that's about the bulk of the news and sadness. I'm going to Rod's work here in about 20 minutes. I took Magellan to the vet today and fuck it was a lot. $80 or so with an exam and all the shots. Unbelievable how much they charge. I don't even think I have that much money lying around. I just wrote a check and hoped that it's not going to bounce. That would suck. I should be fine though. I can emphasize enough how much I'm missing Laura. I've written 3 letters and it's been 2 week days. I'm going nuts. I have been watching so much Food TV that I'm going insane. That's a good thing though, because although we cancelled the cable 4 days ago, it's still there. We're hoping that it'll stay like that for a long time. Also, Friday is a glorious day because I'm getting cable internet installed in the house! I can't go for more than a week without the internet. That's almost as bad as missing Laura. It actually would be if I cried over not having the internet. I cried a little today though thinking about Laura. I hope she's having a blast at camp though, as much as I hate camp. But yeah, the blog will become regular again after Thursday and I'll BET you that I'll write every night bitching about me missing Laura. Oh well...I can't wait to see her. I saw a documentary on the Goo Goo Dolls and I learned a lot about the hardships they went through. I haven't gotten a haircut and I desperately need to. Maybe tomorrow? Nah, I have no money for that kind of luxury. Well, I think I'm going to say goodbye for now with a tribute to Bob Marley (I'm listening to him right now). So, stay healthy...I know I wont'!

New blog coming very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't sleep. I need to, but I can't...it's the worst feeling in the world. I am going to fall asleep knowing that when I wake up a few hours from now, I won't be refreshed and subsequently will be tired the entire day. That's what most of my weekdays are consisted of. Maybe things will change. Fat chance...there are two kinds of people in this world. The liars and the non-liars. Whichever becomes your friend is your choice. Some people like liars, like to lie and some people are truthful and trustworthy. The only answer to find out the truth is life. You have to live it and you'll find out sooner or later. I just hate the ones who tell you one thing and you KNOW that they're lying and is feeding you bullshit. What do they get? Amusement apparently. People just joke things off. I fucking hate that. What do I get? The worse feeling inside you. The bad feeling when you know you can't trust people...it sucks. There are a few people in my life or was in my life that I could really trust. Really trust. Not the usual meet me for lunch at 12 or could you send these letters out kind of trust. I mean trust like would you stick up for me in situations, even though you know I'm wrong. Would you do so and so for me and not tell anyone...as telling anyone would result in disastrous consequences. Of those few people, I'm hesitant and sad to say that there are just a couple in my life now. I'm not saying who. You know who you guys are and I know who they are. That's all that anyone needs to know. The world needs more people like these people. It's just...sad. You spend your entire life with the people you choose and sometimes that turns out to be a blessing. Sometimes not so great. But you need them. You need both kinds of people to live, which is strange. You should just be able to live by yourself if you could, but you can't. You can't just live with the liars, because then you wouldn't even know the truth. Living with just the honest ones is just, well, boring. A careful blend of each will yield the best results. Do you have the right blend? I am going to start an internet site offering services for money with my friend that I've ignored for the most part after H.S. It turns out that sometimes the ones you hated are the ones that really care. Strange how that works. I know who my friends are and of those friend, a few of them I've got to know them well enough that I know when they're sincere. It's just a matter of whether or not I should do anything about it. I am going to get shit for teaming up with my old friend to do this site, but he's the only one who was willing to put forth the effort to start something like this with me. Some just said yes and never took action with me. I can't deal with that. So continuing on my life at age 20, I guess I'm still searching for great friends. Great friends that I thought I had up to now aren't really that great anymore. Sad to say. People replace people, friendships are replaced by other friendships...but memories stay. I will still have the memories of when my friends WERE actually friends. I don't know if they had a plan or what. What is the meaning of my life? Is it to just satisfy the fucking life of another friend by giving up some happiness of mine? Is it to be existing so I can hear the bullshit of this world and not be given enough power to do anything about it? Is it to go out of my fucking way to make another person's life easier? Shit, I'm tired of this. In a little more than a day, I will be moving out of this house and moving into a new house, with different people. I think it's a good decision on my part. I will be able to get away from a lot of my troubles and worries. What am I sacrificing for that? I don't know. I'll know in the future when I look back at my entire life and see what I've accomplished. I need to start putting my priorities in order. It's the people who do that correctly who become successful. But what is success? It is characterized by your status in society? I don't think so. I'll bet that even a homeless person out on the streets is a better person than most living in this world. Wanna argue that with me? I don't want to. You go try living out in the streets and giving up everything you have to survive. I'm sure most will give up and go back to one of their "friends" for help. Well what about the people who don't have friends? Friends are taken for granted. I hate it when I'M taken for granted...again sad to say that I am sometimes. I notice it yes, do I say anything? No. Why you ask? Because it's not worth the effort. Some people just don't fucking care if you are there or not. You're just there to use. When I become 21. I'm willing to bet that friends that I haven't talked to in days, months, or even years might come to me asking to buy alcohol. And you know what? I will for the most part. Why you ask again? Because I just hate to see people getting let down. But sometimes you just have to let them down to make them realize the importance of a friend. If they still don't get it. I have no solution for that. Go fucking find other friend's who'll be your bitch. "Good things come to those who wait"...is it true? Maybe. I have been waiting quite sometime for something good to happen to me and frankly I think I've gotten it. In the big view of things, that phrase doesn't apply to things like, winning a trophy or getting an A or shit like that. It's the more valuable things in life. Your true love, accomplishing what you've wanted to do since you can remember, making someone happier than they've ever been before. That's the things. What's the good that's happened to me? Well I'm sure someone can figure that out. College is one of the best times in your life. If someone tries to tell you it's the best time of your life, who's to say that? What if your childhood was the best time of your life? Other people don't know your life. Frankly I don't think college is THE best time of my life, but it sure it a good time. New people, new experiences, and new ideas sprout. Yet...I'm still waiting for the good things to come my way. Working, paying bills, schooling, and shit like that will hopefully pay off for me in the future. When someone tries to out do you in something they have no idea about...that just pisses me off. To this day, only a few people know the shit I've gone through and had to deal with in my life. If you're not one of them, please, don't fucking try and impress me with your bullshit. I don't CARE if you're smarter than me. I don't CARE if you have more money than me. I don't CARE if you think you are a better person than me. Everyone is individually perfect. Hell, most animals are smarter than most fucking humans. Go out there try to survive for even a month. I'll guarantee you'll get eaten by the bacteria in the end. Why do you frown upon Hitler? Bin Laden? Why do you praise soldiers who KILL the enemies? Who's a better person? Each are fighting for what they believe in. So who's right? Obviously the bad guys are wrong...since they're...well, bad guys. A lot of people disagree on my liking of Hitler, Stalin, Genghis Kahn. Yeah they tried to take over the world. Yeah they killed millions of people. What's the furthest you've gone to obtain what you want? I bet it's not THAT far. I'm nearing the end of my thoughts and I do have to get going to bed. I feel a little better now that this is over. I hope people begin to realize that life ain't a game. It's war.............

Hey...so yeah. Let's see, where to begin. When Shane was here last night we talked a lot about school and I got to thinking about it. There are people out there, like Shane and another friend of ours, Jeff, who study their ass off in school to do good. I guess I'm not that kind of person, but I want to be. I guess Jeff had 20 credits and he pulled a 4.0, which is pretty amazin in itself plus the fact that he's in a hard school. I guess he didn't have time at all to have fun, or if he did, it was a meager amount of time. I can't get motivated to do that. Shane said that the last couple weeks he said he'd study for about 8 hours on the weekends just to be ready. I CAN'T do that. I know that sometimes studying can be actually fun. I've had that experience before. It's when the studying is boring and goes over my head when I starts to lose concentration and listen to music or surf or whatever there is to do to get away from the studying. I hopefully can change next semester. I decided to up my credits from 9 to 15, though 4/5 classes are online. It's a start for me right? I guess we just have to get through these times. Once we get through this, it should be a pretty nice life after the education that you get from college. I guess that hasn't hit me yet, since I believe that a degree isn't everything, but everything in the real business world thinks that a person with a degree is always better than one without. With that out of my head, I'm raising my glass to a better next semester. Most likely next Friday or Saturday will be the day that I get a new dog. Hopefully there'll be and I'll be able to get it. I'm looking for a cattle dog, like the dog that Laura has. I like those kinds of dogs. Sucks that huskies and dogs like that are out of the question. I may go to Elitch's on Sunday, but probably not if I get a dog, since that's over $200 down the tubes right there just with the adoption of the dog and the pet deposit. Plus I have to buy food and accesories. Then I have to RUN with the dog most every morning. All plans put aside, I probably won't be able to do that, because it means me getting up around 6, running for maybe what, 30 minutes or so???...taking a shower, and then eating and going to work by 7:30...I will either love it or hate it. I do need to get in shape, so that may be what I'll do. No one will be here this summer with the exception of Chris and Rod. Rod with be working right when I get off work and he gets off at 10:30, so I'll most likely not see him unless it's the weekend or something. Even then I want to drive up to Winter Park to see Laura a few times this summer and the rest of the time I'll want to sleep or something. It's gonna be a weird summer. If I don't get a grant or something for my tuition, that means I'll have to pay that too, which will suck and probably half my money made this summer will be gone. and with bills, rent, and insurance...oh yeah, and phone, it's gonna be a tight summer budget wise. At least I'm getting to know the real world huh? Chris is doing who knows what. I will probably see him maybe a couple times this year. I will also be working on making the garage area look nice before the girls come back for the summer. Man, I thought summer was the time you have fun?? I guess some people have fun, some don't. Nothing else has happened lately. Been working, wasting time, watching the food network and sleeping for the most part. I have nothing to do at work (yes, still). I am trying, but my both actually comes back next Tuesday, so, I'm SURE she'll have something for me to do. I listened to a few hundred songs (trance) the last couple of nights and compiled a CD of the songs that I liked...of those few hundred, I managed to pick out a scant 15. I guess I have picky taste for trance. I only like one or two "kinds" of them...high, high, HIGH treble! Then I listened to them in my car and found out most of the tracks have huge amounts of bass...damn. But yeah, I think I may talk to Laura now...so I'll be heading off. G'night.

I will write a pretty long blog later on...I don't know what time, but I just want to write down some things that have been in my head from last night. It's not a big deal or anything, just thoughts. Yup, um, see ya later.

A very good friend of me and Chris came up today. I haven't seen Shane since, oh, probably sometime after graduation. Man. It was good to see him though. Work was boring. Laura stayed the night and I ended up going to work at like, 10. Oops. So Saturday, Laura and I are going to go to dinner with my family. She's really nervous about that. I keep telling her that there's nothing to worry. I am contemplating to see if I can go to Elitch's on Sunday. Maybe, maybe not. We'll have to see. We are finally moving in next Wednesday! I can't wait. I got the job of decorating the garage. Yes, the garage, we're using it as a "room", so to speak. The party room really. We'll have 3 couches and a chair in their, so. It should be the coziest of all the rooms. I am beginning to wonder if the general public is reading my blogs. I think they aren't, but yeah. Doesn't really matter. Tomorrow is just another day at work. Actually I have an orthodontist's appointment at 8 in the morning. God damn. I have to wake up in just over 6 hours. *sigh* I need these braces off soon. Well, with that said, I'm going to get going and get a good night's rest. Bye.

Another color change...and another blog. So as this end of my living at this house nears the end of its existence, I am starting to think about the fun times I've had here near the beginning of the year, all the way through when the troubles began...around November. I remember the first party, the second party, having Ashley and Laura over all the time, and that's about it. Those were the most fun times for me. Then the big shit hit the fan when Ashley and Derek hated each other, Derek and Mat moved out, and I didn't hang out with Derek nor Rod much for about two months...which brought another group of friends over that I didn't like much. All in all, I think I learned a lot of lessons this year. I'm not going to list them here because they're my lessons and mine only, :), but maybe someday. Going to Denver last night was fun. We went to the mall, which wasn't fun for me, and ate at the Hard Rock Cafe. I can't believe it's only like 2 weeks until everyone goes to camp...I'm gonna miss Laura quite a lot. But yeah...I don't know. Seems like I have been writing in here a lot! I was reading the earlier blogs a couple days ago and brought back some fun memories. I stopped reading around February, though. I got tired of reading it. Today is another plan-less day. Ashley is going to Boulder and then coming back. I am going to eat some 7-layer bean dip when she gets back. Rod is working. Laura is shopping for wedding stuff with her family. Chris is working, I think. So yeah, a little R&R time for me watching the food network. Good eats is on today! I am going to watch that this time...laters.

I'm really sorry for those who were wondeirng where all my earlier blogs went. I know only a couple people check this blog (you know who you are), but I didn't even notice that the earliest blog I had was from April. I took the liberty of republishing all my blogs...I may even read those right now...I had no idea that I started this blog thing way the hell back in November...my how time flies...

As the Summer gets off to a rocky start, I'm starting to think what everyone is thinking. Everyone's just been, weird, to say the least. Ash seems to like Chris and vice versa though they tell me no. (bull, I think) Rod is liking everyone all of a sudden (again) except Ashley. I guess Mat isn't being talked to by Grant and Derek...I could go on and on, actually, not really, that's about it, but anyway, that's not the point. Work was quite boring today, though I came back with some goodies courtesy of Uncle Sam. I am finalizing my tax shit and hopefully I'll get some help. Tomorrow Rod and I are going to Denver to visit Laura and going to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. I haven't seen her in a week, so it will be a GREAT thing to see her. I don't know...I haven't been doing much else. I never like the whole idea of Summer. It's like a void of nothing, for most people that is. Don't get me wrong, a select few percentage of people actually have fun...yes, those spoiled fucks who don't work and have their mommy and daddy give them money to lay back on the beach in the bahamas...WHILE, the other thousands of teenagers out there are working their asses off for things like NEXT year's tuition...aren't we supposed to be able to forget about school during the summer? Apparently not. We pay insurance, bills, and other expenses. Damn the spoiled rats. But, I just hope that something good will come out of what I'm doing later on in life. I calculated the next 30 days' worth of expenses and my income from my job is around 90% gone, which leaves me with enough money to eat a couple times a day and fill up my car a couple times. I've been perusing the web during work the last 4 days since I have jack shit to do, but I have found an interesting place. If it's not wrong, the address is web.archive.org and on the front page there's a thing called "The Wayback Machine". This little program will find pretty much any website that has been up since 1996. I myself have checked my own site and I found a really old page of mine. Brought back memories of last summer, actually. Anyway, check that out and check out how the web has changed over the last decade. 2 more weeks plus a day until the day we move in to our new house. I can't wait. I guess the only people living at this house is going to be Chris and Ben. Lucky them. I will be living at the new place all by myself this summer, which is a well deserved break for me, apart from not being able to see Laura. I am planning on going up a couple times a month hopefully, but the 6-hour round trip is a killer. But yeah, it's for good reason. I can't stand to be away from her more than a week or a couple weeks if I'm lucky. Yeah, sad? No. Good? Yes. You figure it out. I have been sleeping great lately though. I think I've finally gotten in to the routine of waking up at 6:30, leaving for work around 7:15, getting off at around 3 (though it should really be 3:30), and coming home and pretty much doing nothing until the cycle is started over again around the early time of 10:30 pm or so. I'm listening to Greenday right now. Contemplating whether or not I should go to sleep. I hope tomorrow is a good day. I mean, I know it will be, but I just hope nothing pisses me off. It always does for a couple hours and goes away. This is no relevant news, but I got enough stamps to go get a free grinder at Mancino's thanks to the help of Susan. She has given me a total of 12 punches on my card for the 3 grinders that I have actually paid for. Friends in good places is definitely a good thing. Soon though, everyone will be gone for camp. The only people left from our group will be me, Rod, and Chris...about it. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Probably what I'm doing here, but oh well. This has probably been one of my longer of my blogs. I just felt like writing today. I feel better now. I saw Ashley's Mom and her sister today. They are pretty funny. Okay, so I've gone through like 5-6 songs while writing this blog, which means I've spent plenty of time now...probably more than a few day's worth of blogs so don't be surprised if I don't write again until next week or something. Hope you have yourself a quiet, relaxing evening like I will...adios.

Well, I brushed my teeth for the night. Ashley is upstairs right now...and I'm beginning to think they both like each other despite what anyone says. :) It's my opinion. This is will get interesting further I'm sure. Laura is coming home tomorrow. I'm working in the morning. That's about it from Colorado. G'night."

"I can see clearly now the rain is gone..." I am in a rather good mood right now...oops, nevermind.

Man am I tired. I have to get to sleep as I have to wake up quite early tomorrow...as a matter of fact, this is going to have to become my routine...up at 6:30, sleep at 11...up at 6:30...sleep at 11...and you get the picture. I'm gonna lay low for the next few days. Maybe I'm all in a pissy mood because I haven't seen Laura in a long time. It's been only like 4 days or something, but yeah, I don't know what the deal is. Maybe it's just the people here. Heck if I know. I have been having fun with Ashley though the last couple days...making necklaces, going to eat, and shit like that. I think things are going to be just fine next year with the three of us. I just hope that Front Range goes well...I can't believe I'm going there...*shakes head* G'night.

I was reading up on some oooooooooold shit earlier today. My old, old site from when I did it in the dorms. That's about a year from now. I was reading some of my own journals and stuff that I did back then. It brought some good memories. I may even decide to like, put it all back online again. Who knows. I also found templates of a site that Chris and I were going to start...wallpaper site. But yeah, I just thought that that would be interesting information. Primarily for me that is. I had a good time last night actually. Ben is officially back home in Longmont for the Summer. I'm sure he'll come up and stuff periodically to hang out and party. I will definitely have to go down there and play some golf with him or something. Chris is at work now. I think Ashley and I are going to go check out Rod at work...sorry, let me rephrase that... GO SEE Rod at work because he wanted us to. Then tomorrow and on will be full-time for me and make some money. I can't wait to move into the new place. I guess I'm supposed to decorate the kitchen area and the girls are going to decorate pretty much everything else. What else...oh yeah, I'm going to buy a DC/AC power inverter for my car...an easier way to understand that is I'm going to get a cigarette lighter that turns into a coupld electrical outlets for appliances. Then I'm going to put in my DVD player and I'm going to buy a small 7" TV or something and I'll be able to watch DVDs on long trips. :) Hell yeah. The adapter is going to be around $50 and that's all I need. I'm sure I can find a small TV somewhere. Anyway, I'll write later.

Hey guys. Finals and school is finally over. Thank god. Starting work full-time next Monday. I have been figuring out how much I have and shit in terms of money and it looks grim. The next month, I might have enough money to buy a lunch at McDonald's or something...yes, even with working. Rent is coming up and utilities from my old house and...yeah, it makes me depressed just thinking about it. Hopefully my insurance will lower after my 6-months is up. Anywhoo. I miss Laura. She's been gone for like, a couple days now, but anyway. My room's a mess. I haven't hung out with anyone, though the reason is because I've been tired as shit, for a couple days now. Chris and Rod and Ashley seem to be best friends the last few days. Man...I think I think too much about what's gonna happen. I tell people not to worry about the future and I worry myself. I should take my own advice more. Turns out that my family in Niwot want to have dinner with me and Laura...so I told them probably next Saturday. Hopefully Laura will want to too. I can't get a husky, like I always wanted at the new apartment...but I can still get a smaller dog, like a miniature snouzer...(dunno if I spelled that right)...or a jack russel terrier...or maybe even something a little bigger. Going to the Denver Dumb Friends League is the next course of action, however. I have to fill out the big ass property damage sheet for everyone for the new place when we move in. They better thank me for that. It's like 50 pages.I'm drinking a can of Sprite right now...it's 4:15 or something. What am I doing up? I fell asleep around 10:30 and woke up about 30 minutes ago. I took a bath. My eyes itch like a mother fucker. It seemed like it almost healed like a week ago, but it's back. God dammit. I think I'm gonna go surf for a little bit now and then pass out again probably around 7 o' clock. I'll wake up again around evening and I don't know. I feel as though I don't want to do anything anymore...

I swear...I'm not going to disclose what I'm talking about, but something needs to get straightened out...Maybe I'll discuss it in further detail later, but I am not in the mood to do this shit, so I thought I might write this down for my own personal reasons. I'm going to play ping pong now. Go have a night.

Okay...so maybe this world isn't fucked up...but it sure is weird. Things are never a constant that's for sure. Things have been hectic lately. We finally secured a townhome about 1 minute from where I live here now. It's a nice place. I can finally get a dog! I am looking around and I found an awesome at the local humane society. A siberian husky, but I doubt it'll still be there around June 1st...so. I'm just going to starting looking for one around that time. Among other news...seems like everyone here in this little city is back to being friends again. We went to Cold Stone ice cream last night and there was a long ass line. It's not really worth it in my opionion to wait almost 20 minutes to an hour for some ice cream, but apparently hundreds of people a week think otherwise. I watched a little Food TV today in a long time. Great channel. I will start working full-time next week...which means lots of money coming in!...and most likely going out. I will have to save up though. So that's fine. Finals is this week, but I'm not too concerned about that. I applied to Front Range Community College last week and I register this coming Wednesday. I'll take some regular classes and hopefully I'll really, really try this semester. I have to or I'm gonna start paying the price soon. I am not able to go to California this Summer, but maybe I might be able to squeeze in some time for a little vacation somewhere. Just listening to music now, but I'm gonna go eat soon. If you have time, take a gander at Ray of Light. He updated his site just yesterday and I must say it's pretty nice. I like his experimental site also, which you can find on his main site. He's really talented. I have been yearning to make a new site for myself in the last couple months, and I may finally start on it. I just need an idea. I didn't have Photoshop just until a couple days ago thanks to the great services of Grokster :). Work is going great and well, there's nothing bad going on right now. I have to do an oil change soon or my Mom is going to start geting mad. I fricken got two photo radar tickets in the last month. Sucked. $80 down the drain at $40 a piece. I'm sure them fuckers will use that money for donuts for the next couple weeks for the station...*shakes head*. See ya later.

THIS WORLD IS FUCKED UP

Well, nice to see that I'm writing in here again. Been working and not much schooling. It's okay though. There's only 2 weeks + finals week left. I'm psyched to work full-time this Summer. Hopefully I'll be able to do some cool projects. Lately I've been printing out hundreds of pages of manual shit. Boring I tell you. Anyway, here's a link to my autobiography that I completed this weekend. I'll add more stuff as I find things that I've missed and what not. Maybe I'll update it every month...yeah right. It was long to type it out as it is. Anywho, here it is: BAM!. Among other news...I bought some neon lights for my car today. I want to try them out at night...it's 5:30...and there's like 2-3 more hours of light...damn..the time is going by slow. I bought some stickers to put on my car also. We went shopping with Rod's sister last night. Well, I just walked around with Rod and his sister split up with us. But yeah...nothing new to report. The antenna for my phone that I ordered a while back was supposed to come yesterday, but haven't seen a sight of it yet. Strange...but it did say 5-7 days...which means tomorrow will be the 7th day...and that's the time when I start to get angry. I also cleaned my car, which made me feel better and took out unnecessary shit. I have no ideas for this weekend. It's an open weekend I guess. I should start studying for finals, considering I haven't gone to class in such a long time and I really don't know what's going on. My laundry is still on the floor since yesterday. I really do not want to put it away. I finally got my new registration stickers for my car so I don't have to worry about getting pulled over. Today was actually a busy day. Tomorrow is golf day! Man, Chris and I are on a team playing best ball against Ben Bath and our Ben. I don't know how it's gonna turn out. We have a good chance though, so. I'll write about it tomorrow. Time to wrap it up. Go have a night.