Here are some of my thoughts put along side Staind's So Far Away. :) my thoughts are in bold

This is my life - (Duh)
It's not what it was before - (Really true, things have changed so much)
All these feelings
I've shared - (New feelings every day, every year, met new people...)
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before - (I'm so happy to be living my life right now)
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping - (Don't shake me!)

Chorus
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away - (Good comes to those who wait, I guess)
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today - (Self explanatory)

These are my words
That I've never said before - (I love you Laura)
I think I'm doing okay - (Yup, I'm doing okay despite what I think, it's not all about money)
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before - ( :) )
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping - (No!)

Sorry this post doesn't do justice, but it's a lot better if you read along with the actual song playing in the background.

Ahh!!! This morning I heard my phone ring at around 9:24. I woke up and I was like, who could be calling me? Then I fell back asleep and I woke up around 10:15. Not 5 minutes ago, the phone rang. The funny thing was, I was sitting at my desk and was like, I wonder who called? And then I remembered it was a different ring, so I went to check it out. Seriously, AS I picked up the phone, the phone rang again. It was just weird. The timing was like perfect. It said blocked ID, so I didn't answer. I listened to the other voicemail that was left and it was Laura!!! Dammit, I should have answered the second call. But man, it was strange though. She calls 1000s of miles away and I pick up the phone at the right time at the right place. We're meant to be huh? Anyway, I am hoping she will call again. They're 7 hours ahead I believe, which put them at around 5:30pm. I hope she's doing all right! And yes, I said it already, but I hope she will call again.

Whoa! I think this may be the first time that I used two paragraphs in a blog. I will be studying intensely tomorrow for a test on Monday. That's about it for this weekend. I miss Laura a lot. Kinda boring when she's not here. But then again Ft. Collins is boring. Well I'm going to go now. See ya.

Well, Laura left for Denver this morning. What a sad day. I didn't go to work. I actually did drive out to the office, but then took a U-turn at the parking lot and came home. Dunno why I didn't feel like going. Anyway, started my new Psych class, if I didn't tell you already. It shouldn't be hard at all. It's raining right now, which is quite amazing because it's been pretty much raining since like this morning. Hoping to go camping sometime soon too. My boss told me an interesting place so I want to try it out. Laura will be gone for about 6 weeks, which is damn long. Hopefully the Internet, MSN, and high speed internet will prevail. :) I'm gonna go. Laters.

Ahhhhhh, the first 4 weeks of classes are over and yet another 4 week begins in a couple of days. It really hasn't hit me until now that Laura is going to be leaving for Ireland in a few days. Wednesday morning exactly. That sucks. I'm going to miss her a lot. Really. 6 weeks!!! (I think) We'll manage I suppose. What's new? Nothing. I've been so damn busy and stressed out with school the last few weeks that I've been missing a whole bunch of stuff, mainly hanging out with Laura as much as I can before she leaves. Sucks, sucks, sucks! But, I do hope that it's a really fun time for her though. I am HOPEFULLY going in winter break, we'll see how that goes depending on the amount of money and debt I have laying around. That's the good news. I guess. We went to the zoo today and saw some cool animals. Then ate and came back. Chris is having girl problems but what's new right? A new girl named Allison is his target, but things aren't working for him, but we'll see. I need to slow down man. Life in general. I gotta enjoy what's going on you know? I'm going to the Renaissance Fair tomorrow with Laura and also Lee from work and her husband. It should be a fun time, really. Laura and I will be alone for a change which hasn't happened in a long time and our friends will be in medieval costume. Funny huh? I want to buy a bow and arrow from the fair, but it's $50 and it's expensive. I don't have that kind of cash. I'm really happy though that I did great in my first 2 classes. In addition to getting A's (yeah!) I am now a certified interpretive guide. Cool huh? A great resume booster I think. Also, we bought a new sofa today. Why? I don't know. I guess because it was cheap, pretty good quality, and because Shannon's roommates were the ones selling it. It's in the basement now, but I guess I really didn't need to buy it. Well, it was only $20, so it's not a big wallet cruncher. Anyway, I'm gonna get going. Laura is hanging out with her friends tonight and Chris is out somewhere, I think with Allison but I'm not sure. That's the news for the moment. Laters. Oh and I love you Laura! I'm gonna try and spend the next couple of days filling it with quality time. :)

It's blogger time! So this is finally the last week of my first 2 classes of the summer. It went well I suppose. I'm stressing out about this 10-minute speech coming up, but that's because it's for a certification process. I guess I don't really lost anything if I don't make the certification, just that I'm out $75...oh well. I've been listening to the New Age channel on Shoutcast a lot as well. It's cool. It may be cheesy, but it's soothing. I'm pretty much moved into our new house, though, which is good. Laura has a lot to go, but that's another story. And then there's always the money problem haunting me. It's always a damn problem. The problem is this. I spend JUST enough that the expenses outweigh my revenue, which causes debt. I can't pay that shit off! I have too much things to pay for. I need a second job is what I need, at least until I get this shit paid off. Among the other big news is that Ashley and TJ broke up. I guess life must go on huh? I don't know what else to say, but um, yeah, my website is flourishing day by day. I'm lovin' that. Success is always good. Anyway, I'm going to get going and finish up my assignment for tomorrow. Laters.

This is my 230th blog post. I didn't realize that I have written so much. I guess it's not THAT much considering I started nearly 3 years ago. Anywho, I'm all done moving in to the new house. It was probably one of the most, if not the most, annoying and frustrating things that a human being can do. It's by far been the most stressful thing I have done this year. Finals and school doesn't even come close, but when all these things come within a week or two of each other, it's unbelievably deadly. I just now need to find time to relax, concentrate on school since next week is the last week. Damn it goes so fast. Then I have another class right afterwards. Only 1 class, so I should be ok. So basically the entire house is a mess and we need to get working on it slowly and surely. I woke up waaay to early today and I'm tired as hell. I think the typical day should consist of 30 hours instead of 24. Seems much too short. But that's about the new news really. Just chugging along and working and paying the stupid ass bills. I really want to try and head down to the Renaissance Fair again this year, but we'll see what happens. It's either that or the Taste of Fort Collins. I don't know which is better. The latter you have to pay for everything, but the former you can just walk around and check stuff out and I like medieval stuff...hm...I'll post again in a couple of days when I have time. This week and next week is VERY hectic...I guess that means it could be a couple of week until the next post huh? Well, maybe I'll vent after my 10 minute speech next week. :)

Second week of school is coming up. I should really start to work on my speech topic and sorts. I have to give it in a couple of weeks! Anyway, Laura is in Denver for the next day or so. Also it looks like we're finally going to be able to move some time this week. Ain't that great. I have moving. I've moved every year now for, well, 4-5 years, I don't know which. In-fucking-credible. My car install went like crap. I tried to put something new on, and I did, but it didn't work. My car was un-drivable for a day and put everything back on. Total work time of probably damn near 20 hours or so. I hate it. Nothing new really. Been pretty laid back these days, albeit school had been taking a toll once again. I shouldn't have taken 2 classes in 1 4 week semester, but it's worth it I guess in the long run. Next 4 week term is only one class, so it won't be that hard. Thank god. Just listening to some trance right now. About to go get a can of Coke. I better start packing too, but to tell you the truth, I really couldn't find stuff to pack. They're already packed from the last move. Isn't that convenient? Well I'm going to get going. Will be writing again soon.

I'm getting better aren't I? Maybe it's because I have more time or something. Anyway, my class are well underway and I think it's not going to be so bad. We're doing lots of classroom interactive stuff in my interpretive class, like activitise and skits. I'm not that kind of person, but I like it. I'm growing more and more into it. Tonight Laura and friends (sorry, I don't want to name them all) are going to a Jimmy Buffet concert. I don't know what that's all about. What am I going to do? Probably nothing. Getting coffee I think but that's about it. I should get started on my new project for my car. Once and for all I can beat the fuck out of Chris' car after this install, but it's a big one and I DO NOT want to rush this as I can potentially break my car. I'm at work, surprisingly. It's going good as well. Anyway, here's some big news. I will be DEFINITELY going to Ireland this coming winter break. I've been saying this for a while and stuff, but it looks like it's going to happen this time. I'd love to have gone with Laura, but the prices that I was raving about since they were cheap was because it was during the off season, which is winter. Oh well. But I can't wait to get out of this country again. The time I went to Japan with my friend was really fun, you know, to get away from the American culture and all. We'll see how the British are! I still have to narrow down the packages that I'm going to order, but most likely it's going to consist of 7 days of freedom including bed and breakfast stays, some food, and a car rental, which I'm weirded out about. I mean, I know I can drive, but in another country? It's going to be weird. I'm going to go check out the packages and stuff again. See you laters.

Wow, this new blogger interface changed since the last time I posted. I didn't catch a glimpse of when my last post was but it was some time ago. Well the spring semester is over. Granted that the final couple weeks took a toll on me and my grades, I think I got out unscathed on this one. First of all, my most hated class gave me more problems than I wanted. Our group turned in this major presentation thing and we had to do it over because of "certain" reasons. I'm sure you can guess. Actually, I would say we were lucky to be able to re-do it and still in school at that. :) Other than that and the fact that I didn't do well at all on all but 1 final, I'd say it ended in a bad way. However, I'm FINALLY off probation in this damn university. I'm glad about that. Summer school starts in a couple of days. I'm in the school mode if you know what I mean. Work is good. I'm still with Laura, which is about the only thing good that's happening in my life right now. My car is running fine as well and am getting ready to do another big modification to my car here soon. Probably within the next week or so. As I was driving back today, I was thinking to myself that my life, although hectic and such, isn't bad at all...compared to the lives of others, that is. I'm sure there are people out there that are working 10 times as hard as me, having 10 times less fun as me, and having 10 times more money trouble than I am having. I should stop taking my life for granted. Oh well. I'm trying. What's the next big news that's coming up soon...birthdays. Arg, I hate birthdays. I even hate my birthday. Memorial day which traditionally marks the "beginning of summer" is around the corner as well. Laura and I went and saw Troy today. I liked it. One of the previews was that of Ocean's Twelve, the sequel. That looks promising even though I didn't see any visual aspects of the movie. But that's way the fuck in the end of the year. So, what else. I am confident that I'm going to try and take a one week trip to Ireland this coming winter break. It's too bad that I can't make it this summer, when Laura will be going. She'll be leaving in a month for a month. I'm going to miss her. Can't talk to her all the time on the phone, you know, because of price issues, but hopefully she'll have some sort of internet connection there. I might try and get that unused laptop from my brother-in-law, but we'll see. She should just take Chris', but she's afraid she might break or lose it. That's another thing. Our moving issue. We have no idea what is going on with our living situation for next month. Ben hasn't said much to Chris and we don't know what's going on and we HAVE to move out by the end of the month. How much does that suck? Time is winding down. Anyway, I'm going to head to bed. It's 2am. It's late. I'm damn tired. See ya until next time, which I predict will be sometime in the middle of the summer.

So I got my laptop and it's working great so far. I love the new technology these days. Weekend was good. We grilling with a few friends at a local park. Played some frisbee, roller skated around, etc. Then got some ice cream and went home. Looks like this week is going to be a laid back week. Got one paper to do, which shouldn't be that hard and a little research thing that shouldn't take a long time. I need to e-mail or mail something to my friend in California. I said I would like a month ago and I haven't. I feel kinda bad. He's a good friend. I'll try and get something out his way soon. I'm listening to some old, old Japanese music right now as I write in here. Brings back a lot of memories, let me tell ya. That's all I have to report now. It's getting close to the point where we will be moving back into Chris' old house. Hopefully. Anyway, see ya.

I think this is the second blog entry that I've ever done from work. That's right. Well, since last week I've taken a few tests, and the big news for this blog is that I sold my old laptop to my Mom and I just got a new one that is supposed to be delivered to my house this morning. It's a Compaq refurb of a model that I wanted and it was $250 cheaper as well as it had more RAM. I just hope that the "refurb" part doesn't make the unit less efficient. Other than that, I do have another test today and a take home test due on Friday which I'll probably start tomorrow or so. I work better under pressure. Things have been VERY hectic lately though. I don' t know why. Seems like it's that time of year or month or whatever where the stars line up or something and virtually every important event in your life at the time happens simultaneously. I've seen Dawn of the Dead (I think I wrote that in my last blog) and a couple of days ago I saw Jersey Girl, which I really liked. I always like those father/mother - daughter kind of movies. I also finally changed my major on Thursday to NR Recreation and Tourism and was, for the first time, able to get into all the classes that I wanted in. 18 credits at the moment. I may drop one class, making it 15, but we'll see. I may be able to handle it considering one of the class is a 101 class, so it should be THAT hard. But then again, way back in the day, this Physics class, I think it was a 141 class, was the hardest class on this Earth. I am also going to see if my Mom's old laptop can find its way to Laura since she needs it for studying abroad and stuff. I'm sure it's not a problem, but that laptop is damn near 7-8 years old, making it an ancestor in technological terms. But, it IS still a laptop which can be used, so. Shannon is out for the next week for a wedding or something. Seems like this time of year, everyone's getting married. A friend of mine is also going to two other weddings in May I think. Why doesn't anything get married in the Winter? It's not like it's that bad. Casey is going to be studying in Alaska for next semester. That would be cool. Chris has been buying some new stuff for his car too. Having troubles, but we're still about the same in terms of speed. Ha, go Honda power I say. The next movie that I'm probably going to see in the theater is probably Troy, but anything can happen. My website is also doing good. Thousands of visitors a month is good for me. All and all, things are hectic, but fine in my life. I'm gonna jet. Laters.

April 5th already. Not much again has changed. The last few days I wrote out a mass e-mail, each one different of course, to all my friends in my address book. About half of them wrote back (the real friends, as they say) and they're doing good. It seems like everyone is due to graduate this year sometime. A few are going to graduate school, and a few don't know what they'll be doing. Around this time, I think a lot of people go through this phase of "what should I do now"? I mean, yeah, school has been really fun (college). I met lots of new people, made lots of new and good friends, and heck I've even learned a thing or two. Do I really want to finish up college? I don't know. A part of me says yeah, a part of me says keep going to school. Maybe because I want to avoid what's really out there. Who knows. I still have a good year or so left, so I'm not in a hurry, but I should start thinking about the future. Hell, I'm already 22! Laura is going to graduate school, dunno where yet though. Chris told Ben that he should find a new place for next year and that has been a big ordeal too. The newest thing recently for me that I increased my boost for my turbo to 7psi. :) If you know what that means. Other than that, I haven't been working too much, since my school schedule is fucked up, but that's cool. I have 2 months left in this apartment and then it's probably back to Chris' house. Times are changing quick! My website has also been doing great. More and more visitors each month. But yeah, overall, things have been damn hectic for me the last couple of weeks. And this stupid ass cold is lingering a bit and allergies are kicking my ass. In 6 hours I'll be leaving for Longmont for an ortho appointment. Another one of those 2-hour total drive time for 10 minutes at the office. Waste of time and money if you ask me. So, what's been on my mind lately? Not a whole lot, really. Too many things going on to think at all. The Daylight Saving Time is also weird and hard to get adjusted to for some reason this year. I apparently slept from around 12pm last night to 5pm or 6pm. I totally thought I slept to only like 11am, but I guess not. Damn, I've never slept that much either. I think my body just caved and had to catch back up with me you know? Again this week is sort of hectic too. 3 tests I believe, with my first being today. A group meeting too so I have to finish my part before Wednesday. Damn, I hate it when it gets all busy. Anyway, I better head out. It's going to be a loooong day today. Laura's sister and bf are coming up to see the campus as well. I'll be accompanying dinner only, though. Well, I'll write again when I get the chance.

Woohoo! Almost 2 months without an entry. I can't believe this thing is still here. Amazing. So, what's been new since, damn, before my b-day! Well, I'm 22 now as you can imagine. School's been better than ever, compared to the other semesters that is. I've installed an intercooler on my car since the last blog too. Cool huh? My website has been booming as of late too. Still, the only thing that hasn't changed is the fact that I'm broke with a big debt in the credit card. Oh well. Anyway, the biggest news that's recent is that I'm going to Vegas in a couple of days with Laura, Chris and Ashley. TJ is staying in town because of a few friends that are coming to town and he's broke or something. Hm...what else...nothing new really. Friend situation has changed, but not much. Haven't hung out with or seen Holly or Susan lately. They're doing their own thing. I've been becoming better friends with Casey though since I've had a lot of classes with her and with Shannon too. Moved downstairs at work too. Nicer place. I'll hopefully be moving (again) to CHris' house, but we'll see about that. That'll be in May. I fricken hate moving. Such a pain in the ass. Really that's about all. I really should keep a better record of blogs but I just seem to forget it. Maybe I'll add it to my favorites? I will do that right now. Ok, done. I've been playing a lot of Gamecube too. I'm not sure if I wrote that in here, but yeah, playing Mario Kart: Double Dash!! and got a disc containing the old, old, very old NES Zelda series. Old school! It's fun though. Well, I think I'll be going now. I promise to myself (I know, again) that I'll start writing in here more often. See ya next time.

Hello everyone. The new year is underway by a big margin. School has started and I am finding it harder and harder to find time to fit in work. Who would have thought huh? Anyway, my classes will be ok. Nothing new really. Books to buy and you know the drill, each semester. Booked our hotels for Las Vegas for our spring break. Now we just have to wait. 2 more months. Laura's b-day is coming up too, as well as Valentine's. Oh yeah, I guess I should mention my b-day coming up too huh? In 8 days I guess. 22. Damn, that's old. I should be graduated and shit now. As I think about it, it was all good screwing around and stuff, since I was still 21 and under and stuff, but once 22 hits, you're like, wow, I should be starting my career now, or something like that. I'll be graduating damn near 23, maybe even 24. That's late. Oh well. I should get going. I don't have anything to do, but yeah, I'll be going.

Yo ho ho, I hope everyone had a merry Christmas. I don't even believe in Christ. ??? Anyway, 2 hours and 47 minutes until 2004. Live long and prosper.

Well, since the car turbo install, it's been just over a month. Well, okay, more than a month. Almost two. What this blog, which may very well be my last for this year, will cover is all the important stuff that happened this year. There's a lot. So I might take a while writing it. I just hope I finished within an hour so I can watch Good Eats. Anyway, let's head off. I can't believe 2003 is over already. When I started the year, I was still going to FRCC, trying to get back on track school wise. I bought Laura some jewelry for Valentine's, still lived at the old Sumac house and even friends with friends that we aren't friends with anymore. Of course, with change, comes some sort of constancy. I'm still with Laura, of course. Ashley is still with TJ. Chris is, well, you know the drill. Ben is still with Remi. And that's about all I have to mention in that area. Man, I can't even really remember that far back. Until about the start of Summer, I still had the astronomy class with Rod. Around that time, when school was about to end, things started going sour for reasons I don't know and thus starts the summer school session. I talked to Rod maybe once since then. I took speech class and found out I really liked that class. Maybe that class made me more social in a way outside of home. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows. But I did like that class a lot like I said. The start of the summer really changed me for my motivation for school. My route also changed for a degree. I looked to Rec and Tourism because, well, at the time because it was the easiest degree to get. Now I'm beginning to think that I might actually like it. During the summer, Ashley, TJ, Susan (more on her later), and other camp folk left for camp. Laura stayed, probably because for me. I'm such a whiner. We grew closer I thought living over the summer alone and then we moved into the same apartment for this semester. Ashley also moved to her own place not too far from here. I deem the split up, as do most others probably, a good thing. You know. By then, we've been good friends wise. Chris started to get into the picture more, as did TJ. Friends started to split even further. Ben hung out with JT and Ben, who lives in their own place near old town. Remi may be the cause of that, but who knows. Susan also lives at home for this semester, and she leaves for Greeley next semester. She started hanging out with Casey and Val and other friends. So there went that group of friends. I had a class with Casey and I really don't think she's that bad of a friend, but others may think otherwise. I met some new friends through school and work and I think all and all, this year was positive. The friends that we associate with got a little closer in a way which is a good thing. Through hard times and fun times, things like that happen. Now that I sit here and write about the stuff that's happened this year, it's all for the good. Things are supposed to happen how they happen. If I were to name all my problems right now at this very moment, I would have but one. That I am broke. But money is not always the case everytime. My car runs fine still with the turbo now broken in. Job's well. Friends are good. And for the first time I think I really did well in school. Laura got a job earlier in the semester which takes her time on Fridays and Saturdays, but I guess that's fine. Things are how they are, right? The holiday season always brings a warmth of fresh air and atmosphere to life. I'm not a big fan of it, but I do get some fun out of buying stuff for others and watching them receive it, whether it is faked or not. :) Again, this reminds us that it's the little things in life that are important. My website has been doing fairly well I think since it started in June and got up to speed throughout this semeser. I am going to strive to get more viewers next semester. Our movie collection has grown to about 75 now, which is nice, but not near what I want, which is potentially in the thousands. Hehe. Saw some great movies too this year. Pirates of the Caribbean, The Matrix, The Last Samurai, X-Men 2, and not to forget the Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. Music wise, well, not much in that department. I haven't listened to music as intently as I did a year or two back, mostly probably because of the file trading shit going on. What else went on this year? Well, gas prices, oil issues, war, Saddam, Bush, and Michael Jackson. That pretty much sums up the year. However, the important thing that I care about now are primarily my friends. Earlier today I e-mailed a slew of people who I thought were close friends of mine wishing them good holidays and we'll see how many I receive back. Some friends have gone, but they've been replaced by other potentially great friends. Only time will tell. Looking forward to the exciting things that might or might not happen next year...a spring break trip to Las Vegas, an internship for me or a trip to Ireland, grades, friends, job, and just having fun. I think earlier in the year I didn't have as much fun as I did in, probably the last few months. My Mom quit the market job and now works at the gas station next door. I don't know, sometimes I wish I can win the lottery and let her retire or something. This year I've been good about being independent. I've borrowed next to nothing from my Mom, besides the money she gives for my b-day or Christmas or something. I try my best to not burden her. She doesn't need that. I, as usual, haven't heard from my brother Yoshi. I don't even think he's alive to be honest. lol. Just kidding of course. I'm sure he's doing something, somewhere. Before I sleep tonight, I'm going to try and just think. Think hard about what my life is full of and what I should be really happy about. I guess all this holiday stuff makes you think that. I even donated all my Magic: The Gathering cards to some kid who wanted it and yeah, I've been collecting for years and years...and yeah, I kept most of my good cards, but hey, it's something right? I mean, it was probably hundreds and hundreds of cards. Giving things away don't seem all that bad anymore. As you age, I think you become that way. You in a way "pass on" a part of you to someone who'll actually use it. I don't know. I'm just babbling. I've been writing for about 30 minutes now and I think I'm done. So, since I most likely won't write in here again until next year, I'd like to say it's been a great year, as always, and I am really thankful for all the friends and events that have kept me going and I am in debt, especially to Laura for keeping up with me and my antics. I love you so much! I'll find ways to pay you all back in the future. Here's to a great year passed, and to another great year up ahead. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all.

And so, my quest to clear myself out of debt begins...:)

Well, well, finally, after all this waiting, I'll be getting my car tonight...but not without a price. About $700, but I guess that is reasonable...somewhat. Right now, I'm just glad everything's done and installed. The sheer amount I've spent for this turbo kit will probably hit reality in about a couple of days. I am flat broke now. I hope to god that my car doesn't break down and I'm gonna have to make the gas last since I probably won't have enough money to pay for gas! Crikey. Anyway, back to my studying. I'm at the library right now.

Happy Halloween. I just wanted to say that just in case my blog session goes past midnight and it's not anymore. Just to let you know, it's 11:37 right now. Anyway, tonight is a night full of memory. I was messing around with a new site that lets you see satellite pictures of pretty much anywhere in the U.S., minus the mountaneous areas and I was looking at my old house in Fontana, CA, Laura's old houses, and Chris' old house. Then, I was like, why not, I should check out my old japanese school center. That was the place I went to every Saturday at 9 to learn japanese...yeah, a joke, but it was fun. I did that for a few years before I moved to CO. Anyway, that brought back so much memories that I thought I'd write it in here before I forget. I'm currently staring at it right now. Man. it was nearly 8-9 years ago, but man, I still remember it so vividly. I had a great group of friends there too. I'm not going to write everything I remember, because that would just overwhelm me typing it, but I really want to get back in touch with them, if they even remember me still. I wrote the person in charge of the facility right now and asked if there was a list of people's names/addresses that I can contact. Anyway, yeah, we would have annual festivals and athletic tournaments each year that we hosted and it was fun as hell. It was cool mostly due to the fact that it was a "japanese" atmosphese. That's kinda weird to say, but I mean, I watched japanese shows and such and it was just like on TV and the movies. I'd always love the festivals more than the athletic events. We as students would have to help out and set up the booths, take charge of the booths and games and take it down. It was fun! I can't stress that enough. I mean, yeah...well, I really can't write out what I'm thinking. It's too hard. At 9 we'd start school, have recess or break at like, um, 10:30 or so and then we were out by 12:30 I think. Short time, but it was, at the time, probably the best 3 hours of each week that I could have asked for. Well, that may be a bit of an exaggeration, but not really. It's up there. I still have all my awards and such from the school. I take it out once in a while to look at it. I remember when I left, I had to write a speech because I was the graduating person that was going away to CO or something and I had gotten awards a lot, so they thought it would be best for me to do a speech to the entire school about "school" and staying in school. Haha. Funny huh? We even used to go up to the, gasp, forbidden gym area and hang out in there. Haha, how middle school is that???? Then another japanese friend of mine started going there for a couple of years and we had fun too playing basketball during break. I had a crush on this girl during all the years too. lol. Man, do I sound childish. It was cool because a certain group of us would always have the same classes each year because we would just go through the years (equivalent to those in japan) one by one. I ended up graduating "junior high" level in terms of japanese schooling. I remember on the last day before I left, the two girls that I hung out with a lot through the 4 years or so asked me to take a picture with them before I went. I was like sure, and I still to this day remember that picture in my head. Now...do I think that picture still exists somewhere? Maybe, maybe not. It'd be great if it was. Sometimes it's great to just think back and let your mind do all the imagining. Sort of like reliving your entire life again through all the memories that you've accumulated over the years. I do that all the time and it just makes me want to be back then more and more. One of my biggest hopes is that someday we can build a time machine to go back to the past...if it's still preserved somewhere in our vast universe and dimension. I hope it is. If not, I'd want to do it again for sure. No doubt about it. I'd do it in an instant. I then begin to wonder if my friends back then do the same, or even remember me still. I doubt they do, but hey, who knows. People do remember people. A while back I was at Classmates.com and I e-mailed a few people back at my old middle school and one actually wrote back! I was surprised to say the least and I got caught up on the details as much as I could. I don't e-mail her quite a much anymore, actually like once a year now, if that, but it was just cool to relive our middle school history with another person. It lets me know that people do remember the good times and they're not forgotten. I would really hate to have amnesia when I get older. I would never want to forget these memories. I mean, it's what makes up me! If I didn't have any memory, well hey, I wouldn't really care about my life. I'm probably going to go to sleep thinking about this now. I always sleep pretty quickly when I get to bed thinking about this. It's weird. Now, I'm not saying high school memories and college memories are worse than these, but until these memories get put away for a little bit and get "matured" so to speak, you know, actually have them become "memories", I won't think about them. In like 5 or 10 years when the same proportional amount of time has passed, I'll definitely be back here again (if blogger exists!) reminiscing about my current time. Life is just a cycle of experiencing and remembering. Well I think that's it for my midnight flashback about my past. Man, it feels better now to let it out once in a while. I was in a bad mood all week about my car not being done, and to let you know I still don't have it. Tomorrow they're supposed to call me and it's pretty much the last couple of days they have before they have to leave town. I hope to GOD that they really get it to me tomorrow. I'm actually begging now to have my car back. I don't want to have to burden anymore of my friends in giving me rides and such to everywhere I go. This even ties into some of the important things in life. Friends are important. In my case now, without them, I wouldn't have been able to go to school, work, etc. I owe them big time and I sometimes feel sorry that I can't give back to them. But karma, as they say, goes around. Hopefully I'll be able to repay them in the coming future. And then there's Laura. :) She's always there to help me out when I'm in a bad mood. I've been in the worst mood this week and I exactly haven't been nice to her and I'm sorry about that! I'll repay this soon. Well, it's 12:01am right now and that means it's November 1st. Happy 23 months Laura. Almost two years. Gosh that's a long time. I can hardly remember what was going on 2 years ago. What did you say? Yes, I can look back at my blogs, lol. I should do that sometime. Technology is great isn't it? Anyway, I'm tired now and I'm gonna head to bed. Please, please, please, PLEASE GOD have my car done today. I'll do anything. And I love you Laura! See ya laters and that wraps up this super long blog. :)

Wow, back in a day. That was quick of me eh? Anyway, more pissed than before. Car won't be ready until Saturday. Big woohoo on that one. It's at the point where I don't know whether I should be happy it's getting done, or mad that it's getting done so late. You be the judge on that one. Might go to a few parties tomorrow, dunno yet. Um, yeah, I really don't have much to say right now. It's fricken cold. Yesterday it was near 80 and today's like 30. This morning I was really wanting to move back to California...mmmm...sunshine, rain every now and then, but then again the cons are that they're in a pretty heavy drought, really expensive stuff, and earthquakes. Sometimes they scared me man. One of those "ground cracking, falling into the hole and getting shut in" sort of feeling. I've had my share of earthquakes, so I'm good. It's cool, though, in a way, that mother nature can wreck havoc on the planet. And then we turn around and blame her for messing up our world...oxymorons we are, we humans. Anyway, I'm going. Bye bye.