Wow...almost 2 months!

Lots to update I guess.

First off, my website, www.csuforums.com has been a real success in my eyes. Yeah, there isn't as many members as the # of students at CSU but hey, it's getting there and it's only been 2 months. Anywho, I've met some awesome people throught these forums and I'm hoping that I can keep the momentum behind it and try to get a lot more people through the months to come.

Second, my car is doing good. Just today actually, I painted my FMIC black, so it looks more "stock" than before. I think I lost a little power, but oh well. No big deal.

Third, and this is probably the biggest news, is that I'm graduating in the spring! Yes you heard right. If I can take all the classes I need without any hitches, all 6 classes and I should be able to because I already checked it online and I can fit all of them in. May is the expected graduation and my Mom and my brother want to come see for some reason. Whatever. I'm stoked. So, come to think of it I'm not graduating all that late. 5 years. I mean, it would have been sooner without the 1 year of dicking around...so 4 years...right on the money. But yeah, I'll be graduating with a Natural Resource Recreation and Tourism major. I want to work outside and hopefully at a resort or something but we'll see. I still need to do an internship next summer or I won't technically get a degree...like, I'll walk at the ceremony I think, but not get my degree until that fall or something.

Fourth, I got a new cell phone! Yeah, I thought I needed a new one about now, so I went ahead and bought it. Actually, my Mom and I are sharing minutes right now. She got a new phone too.

Other than that, that's the news really. Everything's been a-ok. Laura's been working a lot so I don't see her much, but we're doing good. We're coming up on 3 years soon! :) We're going to go to the sushi place we went to on our first date. Should be fun!

But anyway, I thought I'd give a little update on my so called life. Everyone else is doing good. Ashley is good and will be graduating in the spring as well, TJ and Laura will both be done in December and Ben will be done in the spring too. I talked to him a few times over the last couple of weeks. Seems like everyone is just busy, busy, busy.

I think it's Holly's b-day tomorrow and we're going to go each with them or something, but I'm out of the news on this one. I'll know tomorrow I guess.

I'll catch you laters!

Hey well it was ALMOST 2 weeks! Things have been hectic lately. I didn't realize that school was so close. 4 more days! The freshman moved in today. Saturday is me and Laura's weekend out. We're staying at a hotel, watching movies, and eating dinner. Should be really fun! Also, I began a project. A project of big proportions. www.csuforums.com. A message board for CSU students. My goal is to get the entire student body involved...hey, it probably won't happen, but it's a good goal right? Just opened a couple of days ago and it's flourishing. I hope this becomes big and the talk of the campus during the first week in school. Thanks to all that helped me and are helping me out on this project. my main website is going great as well. Anyway, I think I ate too much or something because my stomach is upset, but that's always the case. Chris went to Vegas for pretty much 2 days, since Wednesday. He's getting back tomorrow. That's all the news I have. Laters.

My god...it's almost 5 in the morning on Sunday. I haven't slept up until now. I tried to go to bed at like 11:30 or so, and even layed down in my bed, but I couldn't sleep...so I got on my laptop and voila, it's fricken 5. Unbelievable. I'm going to be tired the rest of the day...

Laura's going to be back in Denver tonight and back home tomorrow!!! Woohoo.

The amount of frustration I have right now toward money and buying things is ridiculous right now...I'll leave it at that. I'm way to pissed.

It's 2 in the damn morning and I'm laying here watching music videos. Evanescance's My Immortal music video is a great video. I watched that over and over. I never get tired of it...the fact that Amy Lee is hot might have something to do with it, lol, but it IS a good song. That's all I wanted to say I guess. Yup, gotta get to sleep. Laters.

I'm listening to "This Kiss" by Faith Hill right now for some reason. I like this song, but still. It's weird. It's raining again. Dammit! I just called my friend in California too. It's his b-day. Why is it that every time I call someone to tell them happy b-day, or even write to them, they say, "Oh!! You remembered?" Every fucking time. It's not that hard to remember one date and on that date say happy b-day...they think it's like a fucking miracle. Once they tell me, it's not like I register to my head saying "Oh, they told you their b-day, forget it." I don't know. Whatever. It was good to talk to him though. He's doing good. I asked him about his little brother and he's 18 I guess...damn! I remember when he was like 10 or 11. Time passes so quick.

But yeah, Laura will be back next Monday! That's like 5 days. And it's going to go quick because Thursday/Friday is a cake at work...ahem, if I go that is. I want a project to do but I don't know what. I'll think of a funny thing though. I think tonight I'm just going to listen to music and chill. Might get coffee or something but I need to stop spending money. I need to get my credit card down even more because I found out I have to pay a little more for tuition and the financial aid won't cover all of it...so. And I NEED to think about the Ireland trip. Dammit!!!! I need money fast. I need to think of stuff to do you know? I don't have anything to sell because, well, I sold it already. :

Well gonna go. Laters.

I just want to add that it's the little things in life that are the best memories. Yup, that's true. In the end, money, how big a house you have, what car you have, what achievements you've done and stuff like that really don't matter. Really, it's great if you have all that stuff, but what good is it if you die alone? Or die in misery, sadness, etc.? Granted being rich is good, but only on the outside and only up to the point where you pass away and that little, yet significant moment where you look back at your life and think to yourself what was my life about. Was my life meaningful. That sort of questions. These questions aren't answerable until the very end of your life and it's a good bet that you don't want to be in that situation without anything to look back on. So, just remember that little things prevail in the end, not the big things.

Call me old fashioned, but I just got the old school NES with 8 games in the mail today. It rocks. I also have Super Mario 1, 2, and 3 that I bought for Laura. All the games work fine except the first Super Mario. I've cleaned the pins with water, but no go. Later I'll try cleaning it with some cleaning solution. Hopefully that'll patch things up. Excite Bike, I gotta tell ya, is the best damn game ever. :)

*Note to Laura*
Happy early X-mas present Laura. Haha, just kidding. This was a gift to you from me for being a great gf! Hope you have fun with it...when you get back of course.

I'm going to go play a bit more now.

Well before I head to bed and get up tomorrow to go to work, yes I'm going to work, but only for a little bit and to sign my timesheet, :P, I thought I'd mention some memorial stuff. I'm sittin' here looking at my 5th grade yearbook. Holy shit that's a long time ago. 11 years ago, probably around this time, I was doing what I was doing in the yearbook. I can't believe how time flies so fast and stuff. I'm actually really glad that technology like photography captures these moments. I don't think I had a worry in my life back then. Maybe here and there and possibly family stuff, but not too much. I can CLEARLY remember the friends that I hung out with during that year, looking at my class of course. I remember playing kick ball on the fields, running around the play area, having student/teacher conferences and having classroom activities. I really believe that it was a fun time. I kid that my childhood wasn't all that great. From a, say, financial perspective, I really wasn't. But from a social perspective and stuff like that, I think I was. Family wise I wasn't so much either but I spent most of my time at my friend's house and came home, did homework if there was any, played video games with my brother until bed time and head to bed. Simple life huh? And then fast forward 11 years and here I am. Writing to this blog, on my laptop, worrying about school, work, missing someone I love and getting everyday things done. Is this how life is? You have a pretty laid back childhood, go through the "education" stage, then graduate, finding a job, then retiring? I hope every life isn't supposed to be like this. I'd like my life to have some sort of uniqueness, not in the sense that everyone's life is unique because of the different people involved, but the way I LIVE my life. I don't want a normal life. I really don't. You only have one life to live and I don't want to waste it on normality. Oh well, we'll see what happens huh?

It's raining like hell here. It's been like this most all day. I don't like the rain, but it's kind of nice listening to the water hit the ground outside and the roof as you go to sleep. I just noticed that I ONLY use the space bad with my right thumb so there's a big "bald" spot if you will on the right side of my laptop's space bar where it's worn out. I've tried using my left thumb as an alternative, but really my typing speed drastically reduces. It's weird because I really can't type well when I use my let thumb! Har, har.

I'm off to bed. See ya later. Oh yeah, it was Chris' b-day yesterday, but I think I already mentioned that two days ago. I don't remember.

Well, it's about an hour before Chris' b-day tomorrow. 22 is the age. Gettin' old. We ain't doing much though. We were going to go eat tomorrow with Ashley and others, but Chris will be with his parents to dinner, so. I don't know what's going to happen. Things have seemed to settle down in my life. A couple of more weeks to push through before Laura's back. My website's almost fully functional. It's nice to have 4GB of space as opposed to 1GB. Bigger is always better. lol.

Anyway, I was just coming in for a little bit. Heading out now. Laters.

What's up people. First off I'd like to say that I have a new favorite song. Stain'd "How About You". The lyrics are great and the song itself is just cool. Read the lyrics and you'll understand.

Anyway, I'm broke as hell. The last couple of days I just spent like $200 or so dollar, probably more like $300. Bunch of various stuff but yeah. I didn't go to work today either. I don't know what's with me!

I watched bits and pieces of Good Will Hunting. It's a great movie. This is a pretty quick blog. I'm actually going to head to bed. I need to get up for a long day tomorrow. 1 1/2 weeks until Laura gets home! :)

Hello! It's almost 1am and I'm starting this blog. I hope everyone's been great. Laura's almost home!! About 2 more weeks is all. Her parents left today for England.
 
I'll just into the mist with this blog. I was rummaging through my old memorabilia, if you wanna call it that, from like my childhood days, roughly from elementary school to 8th grade and I began to think...when were the best days of my life? As I was reading all this old stuff, I was thinking to myself that those days were for the most part pretty fun and happy. I mean, I'm sure it was the same for many of you, but you know, the wasn't a worry back then. The only thing I really had to worry about was homework and that wasn't even a challenge for me back then. I was reading all these things I was doing for all my classes and some of those things I even forgot that I did them! Like, for example, I was part of a service learning group of like 10 kids where we did cool stuff for the community to make it better and stuff like that. One of the more fun ones was when a group of us would go to a nearby elementary school and after school, we should walk these kids home, direct traffic and stuff like that. Another time we would try and start food drives for the Thanksgiving and Christmas seasons. And another big one was our graffit clean up program. We would get donations from around the community and buy paint and clean up all the graffiti that was around the town. I think all and all it was a great experience don't you think?
 
And now here I am, wanting to become more involved with helping the community and stuff. Public relations sort of stuff. Maybe I was made to be one? :)

I also found a old project that I did for school and it involved me getting grass from my backyard and putting it on paper...I just realized that those blades of grass were from my old house in California...damn near 10 years old! Still intact, not molding or anything. lol.
 
Sometimes I wish I can like, create a home movie with video clips from my childhood days. Perhaps in the future when we have time machines and stuff, we can go back, and secretly tape ourselves when we were small and come home and edit it into a home movie. That would be cool.
 
I haven't hung out much with Ashley, TJ, or anyone else. I haven't really seen Chris either since he works until later on the in the night and I'm using going to sleep early. Hopefully when everyone's back and the summer is coming to and end, we can all go out and have some fun.
 
My car has been giving me a shitload of problems too, albeit they're problems I'm causing. A couple of nights ago I decided to do a certain project again and it didn't go so well. I was like, all right and my night went on. It was a bad night!!!! As I was getting in my car from the grocery store, the button on my shorts broke...wtf?!?? And then on the way home, one of my fuel lines apparently came loose and squirted gas everywhere for the last couple of hundred feet before the house...so there was a trail of gas. And then I opened the hood and there it was, the hose just squirting gas everywhere. I fixed that and that was I think the end of the bad night. I was glad that it was over. I'm going to take it easy now for the next few weeks. I don't want any big troubles. Just going to work and try to pay off my credit card.
 
Anyway, that's it from the home front. Still trying to work out the details on the Ireland trip. I'll keep you guys posted.
 
Laters.

I thought I'd put up a post since it's been a couple of weeks or so. I'm doin' all right. Nothing new. Did I write that I dropped my class this semester? I don't think so. But yeah, I did. I didn't feel like taking that class at all. The bad news is that I HOPE I'm not behind because of that little dropping. We'll see. The Ireland thing is getting closer and closer you know that? I'll know by August's end if I'm going in November or not. Hell yeah! I'm psyched if I can go. Another thing, I've been downloading loads of new songs. Lots of cool ones. I found a cool internet radio place where it places awesome songs and I can fortunately rip from it. I don't know what I'm going to do tonight. Probably nothng like usual. It looks like it's going to rain. I miss Laura a lot!!! It's almost time that she's going to be back. A couple of more weeks. I can't believe 4 weeks has passed already. It really only seems like it's been a couple of weeks since she left. I just got a sudden urge to search for airline tickets online, so I'll be back I'm sure. Oh and I got A's in all my classes this summer! Woot!

4th of July really sucks. Really not my thing, but the good thing is that school is always out and that I get paid since it's a federal holiday. Anywho, doing nothing much once again. I thought Laura was going to call, but didn't. I feel asleep mysteriously around 6:00pm or so on my room couch staring at the sky and woke up around 9. Damn! A few more days of class left. Woohoo. There is absolutely not one good movie out. What is up with that? the closest one that is coming out that I know I will watch is most likely Anchorman...but that's already out, so...um, yeah, I guess it would be the Bourne Supremacy. Chris' b-day is coming up soon. I don't think I have anything to get because I'm a little tight on cash but we'll see. I say that a lot. About a month left before Laura gets home! Yay. I can't wait. I'm probably going to research what we can do on the weekends. Probably Melting Pot/movie/hotel. Shouldn't be too much that we'd have to pay out of our pockets since we already have $120 from other stuff. :D Anyway, I'm gonna go. This is fun. Laters.

Saturday night, not doing much. Actually today I did something rather cool. I made a little video for Laura since I missed her and she's gone for another month and all. She can't see it until she gets back, but I think I personally did a good job on it and I actually sort of had fun doing it! Nah, I did have fun doing it. I'd like to make another another time, but we'll see. I hope you like it Laura! I'll show it to you when we do our little weekend alone or something. I've watched it a few times already and I don't tire of it. :) Which is a good thing.

It looks like it's going to rain here. It's currently 8:33pm and counting. I might make some coffee. I should go running or something. I'm pretty unproductive if you ask me. Amy and her Mom came into town and I ate dinner with them last night. It was pretty fun. Actually it was a bigger than normal group, because we also had TJ and his friend Lindsey..er, Lindsay, I don't know which way. Amy will be going to the Art Institute in Denver, so she'll be here for a month I think first and stuff.

Everytime I write in here I always think this Blog stuff is just weird. Who am I talkin' to anyway? Beats me. As I look down on my keyboard at this very moment, the right side of my spacebar is worn out from the thousands of times I push it with my right thumb. Really interesting actually...kinda bothering me since I can't get rid of it.

Well, that's all for the Saturday Night Live...

Actually, it looks like it's going to be a "Neverending Story" type of storm outside...

Another edition, late on a Thursday night. So I'm most likely going to head to Ireland in November IF I can get at least $1000 paid on my credit card...now, this isn't no easy task. If anything, I'll head to Ireland maybe in January if I have time, but right now it looks grim either way. Arg. That's really all I wanted to say. Bandimere got rained out, so I'm going next Wednesday to do my racing. Stopped by Laura's parents' house and talked to them a bit before I went and met up with Zach. It's been so long since I saw him, but he hasn't changed much, granted he lost a little weight and hasn't cut his hair in his normal fashion. Anyway, I'm gonna go. See ya.

Well, this must be the quickest 'next blog' since a while huh? Anyway, it's damn near 1am right now, but since I had my old computer in front of me and I couldn't sleep yet, I decided to peruse through my old ass e-mails that I had saved...dating back to the stone ages. Well, the oldest one was November of '00. That's pretty old if you ask me. Well I was reading through much of the e-mails and man, can I see a change in me and my lifestyle. I really can. Like, I literally saw my life changing, whether it be events or friends. In the pile of e-mails I had ones where Ben e-mailed me while I was in Cali, during breaks and what not. There are just too many things to mention, but I just can't believe how different my life really is when you compare it to the past. Right now I wouldn't have said anything has changed, but boy, has it ever. I'd wish I'd kept all my e-mails since like '98 or something when I first got my account, but '00 is pretty damn close anyway, so. I'm happy. I think it's a good idea to keep all your old e-mails. Makes for a great laugh sometimes. I have some e-mails from my friends that I would have never thought they'd write. Haha. It's just funny thinking about it. Well that's all I wanted to write just now. Just had the urge to write it, you know, before I lost the thought. I'll have to share some of these e-mails with my friends and see what they think of it. Anyway, I miss you Laura! I can't wait until you get back. We'll have to plan some alone time...especially since you left that $60. :) We can use it for us or something. Well, I better get to sleep, so I can get up in time to get to class. Laters.

It seems like I have so much time to waste over the weekend now. What did I do this weekend? Absolutely nothing. I vowed to read for my Psychology class, but that didn't happen. I need another job or another hobby or something. It's getting pathetically boring. Anyway, my Ireland trip MAY be moved forward to November because it's a lot cheaper that way, but we'll see. I e-mailed away for information to about 4-5 places, so hopefully I can get that information back soon and I'll start picking the best ones. It should cost in total about $1000 for air, land, and spending money. Not too bad. I'm ready to get out of this boring little place we call the United States, though. Woo hoo. I'm going now. Tonight was a short session. Laters.

Here are some of my thoughts put along side Staind's So Far Away. :) my thoughts are in bold

This is my life - (Duh)
It's not what it was before - (Really true, things have changed so much)
All these feelings
I've shared - (New feelings every day, every year, met new people...)
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before - (I'm so happy to be living my life right now)
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping - (Don't shake me!)

Chorus
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away - (Good comes to those who wait, I guess)
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today - (Self explanatory)

These are my words
That I've never said before - (I love you Laura)
I think I'm doing okay - (Yup, I'm doing okay despite what I think, it's not all about money)
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before - ( :) )
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping - (No!)

Sorry this post doesn't do justice, but it's a lot better if you read along with the actual song playing in the background.